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haiz........ d0n even hab e m00d t0 bl0g le.... haiz... sob sob.. this aftern00n when slping er jie came again.. den went out t0 tok tok.. she told mi tat k0r came back last week den alm0st kana caught.. haiz.. =[ since u g0 le den g0 wat! wat f0r c0me back!!!! s0b.. wat happened if u realli gt caught? i d0n wann g0 t0 see u in jail k0rz... i realli d0n wanna.. i rather i cant see u f0reva haiz.. life is always full 0f up n d0wn.. but why mine is always full f0r d0wns de~ why? why why? life is s0 unfair.. i totally shut myself d0wn jz nw...... i drank till i cant drink anym0re but i still n0t drunk... er jie asked mi wat happened... i didn dare t0 say at all haiz... juz h0pe er jie hab a happy marriage is m0re than enuff le.. i hate mua ife manz! sux t0 the c0re... haiz... kai si like tt shar0n als0 ly als0 k0ven als0 li0nel als0... every0ne is d0ing e same nw manz!!! this yr really sux.. i d0n hab e m00d t0 celerate mua bday le sob... haiz..... maybe tat day i g0 mia is the best? haiz.. den ppl around mi wun be sad with mi.. they will jz hate and scold mi.. haiz... maybe like this is better ba.. =[
i'm n0t as str0ng as u pplz see me n0w... n0 n0.. never.. maybe i was jz putting up a mask ba... s0 that ppl wun worry f0r me.. but haiz.... suan le suan le.. maybe it is fate ba.. but i'm onli 15+ 15!!! haiz....
aH^gAl waNna t0 be l0st in her w0rld 0f sadness f0reva n be al0ne.. dragging n0 0ne d0wn with her...
meiping || 12:00 AM