backed home. smelly like those stinko boi now. lols.
anyway, woke up ard 2. prep-ed and head over to bishan interchange mac to slack.
waited for laopo, yl and stella to come.
half way thru, stella and yl went arcade.
den when anto came, laopo went home and another gal tgt with stella came.
just slack there till nite time.
went over to coffee shop to hab dinner.
yl and gang went mos party.
while i went anto hus. mygod. so paiseh can.
saw his parent.
than went home ard 1030.
tts my day.................
meiping || 11:45 PM

sigh.
i dono wats happening to me man.
damn.
feeling damn lousy right nw..
for no reason.
i just dono man!
leave me alone..
meiping || 12:52 AM

back home. wasn in a mood to blog yst.
me, myself don even remember what really happened.
just blog whatever shit that i remember ba.

27o5o6
woke up ard 9 plus. prep-ed and went amk to meet stella.
worked from 1130 to 330.
bt knocked off early, coz i was just taking over yl shift for a couple of hours.
went over to laopo hus and wait for her to change.
than took bus over to far east and met up with anto.
walked all the way to coffeclub and slack. yl, stella and joan joined us ard 9.
they went off 1st.
than i accompanied anto to hab dinner.
took cabby hm while anto went to find his frens.
quarreled with my mom. arghs! its like daily stuffs la.
well, she doesnt even care abt me man!
as i slit open my wirst, i feel the blood flow..
it eased my pain within me..
i colored my bedsheet with red.
i love the color and smell of blood.

as for today which is 28o5o6.
didn slp much. woke up, msged anto and yl.
morning time went to look for ada mei.
banaged my wound and went home.
prep-ed and went out to meet yl.
head over to bugis. joan joined us.
den took cabby down to bishan again.
than james, tim and alvin joined us.
left around 10. james sent me home.
fark man!
my foster parent really doesn care man! arghs!
must i really end up in hosp then they will care!
nvm! there will nt be another time for it.

will leaving aust be a better choice?
to start everything anew? sigh.
i really cant make up my mind.
there is ppl wanting to go oversea to study.
while i had the chance to go, i feel so weird.
why must they hab such high expectation on me?
hw old am i only?! damn it.
let me go.
let me hab freedom.
let me hab back the trust.
let me be free please...
meiping || 10:58 PM

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meiping || 12:24 AM

damn shag! but i am not sleepy~
had a wonderful day. =]
its like FINALLY can!
i met my ONS! whahas. =x
i was late today, so sorry gals to make ya wait for me wors.
took a bus down to far east. and its so yucks to see something early in the afternoon can!
was waiting for bus at e interchange, and i saw a uncle trying to take a snap shot of some CHIJ gals nors. arghs. and the shot is like upskirt one can! =x
guess wat i did! =x
i went to knock the uncle when he was abt to take e pic. whahas. =x
i am good k! hahas
so girls beta behave when u are wearing skirt k! and especially SHORT skirt.
and if u see weird uncle taking cam phone take pic, give him a slap! TIGHT slap alright. =x
okays. enough of the rubbish.
went to hab HANs for lunch. walked all the way to PS. slacked.
and we was late la. my poor dear was angry with us!
so sorrie my dear~~ =s
anyway, sloved it and we went for the movie 'over the hedge'
nice show k! 4 stars~ go catch it soon ppl.
after e show went to meet antino.md.
went coffee shop, he had dinner. and yl and joan came down to find me.
working tml~ boring~~

want thanks laopo and mani for coming into my life.
thanks for everything. =]
thanks to someone whom entered my life to bring me happiness and joy. =]
meiping || 11:52 PM

boo! backed home.
alright. was a gd gal. didn go out today la. i mean during the afternoon.
well, woke up, slack infront of the tvbee. than kept my puzzle which i didn have e mood to complete.
guess, complete next time round ba. there is always time. =]
met up with james for dinner. than went off to meet antonio.
my hand hurts sia~ =[
nvm.
went hm ard 12.
bathed and i am here to blog.
short right this entry!
who ask me didn go out these few days. =x

meeting my ONS tml! its like finally man!
haha. FEL!!!!! here i come! beware. whahas. =x
meiping || 12:58 AM

what a boring day. life seems so meaningless and aimless suddenly.
anyway, was stilb having fever. so stayed at home.
i am good aint i?
anyway, woke up by lance's cor la.
asking me to go maple. wth.
so i took my time and online. download e patch.
den went offline for awhile to slp.
woke up had dinner and a couple of fag.
thats my day la. boring right!
arghs. =x

something i wonder and ponder.
have i really grow up?
or am i still stuck at the same space..
will i ever find that special person to fill up the gap beside me?
will i ever find another guy which will love me more than i love him?
will i? hahas. wishful thinking hur.. =D
meiping || 11:03 PM

jus came home. arghs.
had this tootpid feeling as if my probation haven ended.
just that the curfew extended to 12. wth right.
damn. was home for the whole day la.
due to my fever. was running a high fever. 41.2D.
almost die la! so was on the bed most of the time.
slp and slp and slp like a pig. =x
realli bore till bth man.
and was having a damn big quarrel with my foster parent can!


arghs. why cant they give me some peace?
just a little will do. it is not like i sick than i don wan to see a doc.
they must know tt they already stop giving me pocket money since donkeys yrs.
and i have already stop working. beside that, i still have to give money every month to my bro.
come on man! they think i print money or what?!
arghs. damnit. =x
and they just kept saying about the stuipd past of mine can.
its not like i want my past to be that bad? who want their past to be like tt?
a rotten apple man! fark it! its not like my PO haven talk to u guys b4 man!
i did changed! even my PO said so. they never believe what i said or even my PO.
cant they have a abit of trust in me? i am no longer that dumb gal who used to hang out with those ppl.
and they should be thankful already tt i nv start the stuipd thing of running away from hm.
they shouldnt take thing for granted man! wat am i to them man. a dog?! cb!
i am 18 already lo. please la. its nt like i will be like last time wun be home for days!
its not like i will ton every single weekend. like last time. and whats wrong with staying out late?
when i am not hanging around with those ppl already.
and that i had already stop extending.
ask urself man! this yr, hw mani time has i not been home? how mani time i ton?
hw mani time i didn go home.
it just so usless to do all the shit for them when they don even give a damn abt it.
i tried so hard to be their good gal. but it seems usless. it seems that they think it i SHOULD do it! SHOULD K!
and whats wrong with me gg back malaysia? whats the big deal abt it?
i don see a big deal abt it. since my family is there..
why cant i go back every month or as and when i want?
who are they? they are my foster parent onli. i know they were the one whom bring me up.
i should be thankful to am. indeed i am! i respect them. its not like i don respect them.
but can they for ONCE! just ONCE put themself in my shoe and think?
spare a tot for me? just that once i will be happy already!
arghs! don regret if one day u cor and i never answer. and don say that i didn sit down and talk with u all. its like i done so mani talking with u guys already.. but u all just don seems to take in what i says. just don wan to understand me. i did gave u guys a chance to listen to whats in my heart. but u guys just think that i am uttering rubbish!
for once i was close to death. u guy don care. why not make history repeat itself man. HA!

- as slashed myself to death -
meiping || 10:03 PM

Omg.
still having headache man.
anyway, tot of studying. but pris didn reply me, than laopo was also sick.
so cancel it.
called yl out to slack. suppose to meet at 3. but the sleeping pill dose was too heavy.
so i fell aslp. and mit her at 4 30 instead.
head over to long john to munch.
than wait for her friend joan to come.
tgt went off to funland. boring can. =x
as usual, played the same game la.
james came too.
was feeling kind of bored, so went mac to slack.
slack all the way to 10 plus la.
gosh. i hate it when i am having headache!
it last for days can! not a couple of hours or min..
arghs! i am falling sick man!
sigh.
i miss my family.
i yearn to go back malaysia asap.
meiping || 12:17 AM

arghs.
headache!
nvm abt it. blog 1st.
woke up ard 12, than change of plan for the day.
cos was suppose to meet pris 2 at bishan mac to study.
but last min she went to ecp. so i took my own sweet time to eat, bath.
than i packed my stuff and set off the j8.
found a spot at coffeebean and started to study alone.
bt before studying xf came over to chat for awhile. than she heads off for work.
ard 4, pris came. chatted lots.
due to pris feeling unwell, and leaving early, back to alone again.
all the way till ard 8 when james came over to find me.
ard 9 went to eat some snack for a munch. than took bus home le.
arghs. having headache. damn pain can!
as if my head gonna explode anytime.
meiping || 10:52 PM

yawns. shag man.
anyway, yst went to meet lionel.
den met pris, sharon, hanwei, ahfu and james at k-pool.
head for dinner at s-11 around 10 with pris , ahfu and james.
went home ard 11. tts all.
omg! i feel so bad sia. sigh.
sorry james! so sorry! =[

anyway, was suppose to go MI with pris.
bt something happened. and i couldn wake up in time.
hence went bishan mac to meet pris and study.
jocelyn came ard 4 plus. pris had her tuition.
while i jus study myself.
yl came for awhile than off she goes.
went for a walk at j8. than head over to the s-11 to eat.
went home ard 10.
well, tts all.. gotta rush!
hence resulting in the short post. =x
meiping || 12:42 AM

what a day.
woke up noon time. did some cleaning up of my room.
slacked, blah blah blah la.
went to meet james for lunch.
went hm ard 6.
went out ard 7 to meet kor for awhile.
wat a day! arghs!
tingy tingy wrote me a letter. =[
so did weilun..
i feel so bad for not replying to their letters.
sigh.. i just dono wat to pen it down when i see the letter.
i always wish i knew what to write in the letter.
but whenever i sat down, hold the pen, my mind goes blank.
i reali dono hw to reply their letter.. sigh..
recieved a cor from lionel. pull my mood even more down.
reali man. wat a day.
and like wat junsian says. 'what are friends for'

goddamnit.

i miss malaysia badly..
i miss my baobei...
i miss my sister and brother..
i miss granny..
i miss ah xiong..
i miss the food..
over all i just MISS them!
meiping || 11:07 PM

ARGHS~~~~~~~~
i miss my LONG hair can!!!!!!!
miss it like hell lo!
i cant get use to it at all man!
damn!!! arrghssss.. enough of complain. complain again lata. cont with my blog 1st.
went to meet laopo at amk 3 today.
had lunch than accompany her to have her hair cut.
after tt took mrt down to ps.
went to the arcade for a couple of game. than went off to look for the haw par building.
in the end didn turn up for the interview.
went back to ps's starbuck to slack.
zai came over to find laopo. than they head off to jurong.
waited for james to come. followed by junsian.
tok awhile, walked to parklane..
sit for awhile than went home le..
okay. damn, i am so careless can.
my slipper break la! arghs. =x
so went home to change my slipper went down again to hab my dinner + supper with james.
reach home ard 12.

arghs!!!! i jus found out tt ard 15cm of my hair was snapped off can!
daMN! such a short hair i hab now..
sigh. cant get use to having such a length man.. =s
pray tt tml once i wake up my hair is the same long lenght..
but i noe it wun come true la! ARGHS!!!!!!! =x
meiping || 12:11 AM

wat a day man. anyway, woke up by yl's cor.
she told me there is a interview.
so drag my feet off my bed.
prep-ed and off to meet laopo at j8.
took mrt down ps to wait for yl and stella.
than took cabby down to shaw hus.
interviewed.. tml still need go down for another interview with the bank.
working hr is 12 to 6. every sat and sun.
after the interview, went down to chinatown to hab my hair cut.
OMG! my hair is damn short la! arghs~!
coz i cut away most of my damaged hair la. damn!
i cant get use to it la~ i miss my hair~ hope it grow back fast k!
pray for me ppls~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, my hair is like shoulder lenght onli le man.. sob~
anyway, after i had my hair cut at where my cousin is working took 54 home.
wat a day! phew~
meiping || 10:59 PM

almost forgot to blog. =x
was too into maple js now. so blog bef0re gg to slp.
anyway, didn intend to go out today. was kind of down. =[
junsian asked me out, so did my cousin.
bt feeling tt cousin was beta. hence took cabby down to bugis.
met up with my cousin and her two other friend.
went temple to pray. than head back to bugis.
went over ti ritz apple to grab a bite.
than went over to meet junsian at starbuck la.
damn. no comments man. =x
oh well, than hit over to scott ard 9 to find pris, ah fu and james.
went amk to munch.
than took cabby home.
omg! my leg hurts can! arghs~~~~~~~~~
super duper pain la. damn!!!
ARGHS!!!!! IT HURTS! even now!
meiping || 12:57 AM

i am home~ =D
oh well, supposed to meet lionel this morning to accompany him to bugis to get his stuff.
bt was cancel. =x
so went to meet james. sorrie ar. let ya wait for sooo long at j8.
took mrt down ps. met up with sharon and hanwei.
went to eat. than went off for movie. voice.
er.. nt realli very nice la. =s
after e show walked all e way to far east. took 54 home.
den sent james off to his busstop.
went off to get my dinner. damn la. tootpid auntie. stare at me for nth lo! wth!
idiot~ =x
reach hm ard 1130. the moment i step in, lionel called me la. =x so zun.
haha. bore.......
meiping || 11:52 PM

okays. i am back home already.
woke up ard 10. prep-ed and ah xiong came over sg to fetch me.
went malaysia. JAM-ed la.
reached sg straight away went to meet some ppl.
talked, blah blah blah la. for at least 3 hours man!
okay la. the talked ending with a smile. at least a smile la hor.
beta than nth.
after the talked, it was still early. hence went window shopping with ah xiong.
he bought me stuffs. =D
yea. like it. hahas. always so good to me man!
ahxiong~ wo ai si ni le la. haha.
know me so well, treat me so gd too.

the ring he got for me..

he got me this too. =D

anyway, had dinner at 'on the rock stonegrill cafe'
nice! recommanded okays! BY ME! damn. if any guys out there have a chance drop by plaza pelangi at jb. its nice alright~
waited for a couple of friends. catch up awhile and off i head off to sg.
reach hm ard 11. tts early right?
meiping || 11:08 PM

didn intend to go out at all today de.
but was really feeling kind of bore.
so went out with my fren.
meet her at far east. shopped.
bought a ear-ing.
went back j8. bought a heel from c&k.
after tt went to yl's hus to pei her.
went hm ard 1030.
intending to head down to mos with a couple of dude.
was couldn't due to my foster mum.
fark la. everyday also wan quarrel with me for nothing man.
even the smallest things. damn la.
and daddy was pissed off by our quarrling.
hence he say i am not allow to go out tonight.
damn it. guess my foster mum will be over the moon or star la.
cb!
gg malaysia tml in the morning.
coming back in the night.

whatever it is man. like wat i used to put on my nick.
whats come around goes around.
you day will come soon. i shall see about it.
bitch!
meiping || 11:50 PM

okays. sorrie bloggie for nt feeding ya these few days. =x
blogging kinda of slipped off my mind these few days. hahas.
anyway, nth much happened for e past few days.
and i don reali rem it la. =x
anway, woke up kind of early today la. compared to other days.
prep-ed and went off to amk to meet yl and stella.
talked awhile, den i went off to meet lionel at bugis. while yl and stella head over to tpy for k-ing.
james and ah fu came too. than went off to catch MI3 with james.
the show was good! bt i guess was kind of tired la. kinda of slp =x
hahas.
after e show went to find lionel and ah fu.
bought yl's present too.
than went back j8. met up sharon and hanwei.
head over to sakae. went off ard 9 reaching 10.
after sakae, went k-pool with james , ah fu and yl.
pris and hanwei joined us.
11 plus went off with yl. took cabby home.
and my ear is hurting man! gt a new ear hole for my right ear.
laopo went for cruise trip. sadded. will be lonely for a couple of days.
sad ar~ who wan pei be? be my part time stand in? lols. jkjk~
meiping || 11:53 PM

okay, i am damn bored la.
slept till 2 plus. woke up had my lunch.
slacked in front of my tbvee..
bore, suppose to meet ada and zai.
but last min cancel, coz ada cant make it.
and i don wan to go out alone with tt idiotic god bro of mine.
so boo! stucked at home.
and i tot i might be meeting laopo too.
bt in the end nv also. boring man!
and i don wan to watch movie with alex. no thanks man.
life is boring.
and ppl ard me is asking to get my butt down to study.
time is running out. BOO!
yawns, i guess gonna take a nap again ba. =s
misses ppls.
meiping || 5:35 PM

smile please!

huiting, a gal and huixian

my unless biggest bro. real bro k!



smoking is gd!

ehh ehh? looking where baobei?

my precious ah ma and baobei. =D

HEE!

brothers!


please mind wher u r looking at k!

my cousin ah an.

big smiles! =D

yandao bo?!

peace~ ^^//

laugh all e more u wan! its me~

working friend. bird and cherry.

working friend liting.
thats all for today. =D
meiping || 1:26 AM

okay. backed home already.
hmm. wat a nice weather day. slept till 2.
woke up + prep-ed and off i went to amk to meet laopo.
suppose to hab our hair cut la.
but suddenly no urge and i cant bear with my hair. =x
hence, we hit over to the big s-11 to hab my breakfast+lunch.
after tt went to arcade. ken came to find us.
slacked, than ken went off with his gf.
while laopo and me went s-11 to slack meantime wait for james.
and tt lionel la. damn. =x okays, ah fu came too.
hit to k-pool. yl came. and i was tortured by her can!
she used my hus keys to slash me man.
pain lo! aiyo. okay la.
went home ard 10. took cabby home.
bore man. i think i will upload lots of pic since i hab nth to do nw.
=D
meiping || 12:59 AM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

BOO! backed home.
hmm, still kind of early right.
wat a day man!
oh well, this morning prep-ed and hit off to amk to meet james than followed by laopo.
took 133 to bugis. damn it. it hurts my butt. =x
walked ard, and off we went to watch 'the wild'
nice show, plus funny.
after the show, sharon, yl, lionel, and ahfu came nors.
than walked off to suntec.
head over to the arcade. sad ar.. didn manage to catch any toys.
nvm, try harder next time round.
okay la, my mood sort of had a 360D change k.
for no reason, there was this sudden stress crashing upon me. =s
and i broke down la. =S
disappointed in myself for spoiling the day. sorrie guys.
lucky manage to pick up myself up soon.
took cabby over to j8. bt sent laopo hm 1st.
had dinner. than james sent me home.
thanks for sending me home james. =D

its like wat the hell with me nowadays man!
sigh. i don understand myself too.
sorrie to bring upon yl and laopo too.
making them sad with me.
was glad tt they was with me.
sigh. tml will be staying over at laopo hus.
i tried to kill the pain. but it only brings more.
hais.
meiping || 11:09 PM

okay! i am realli totally FREAKED OUT at this very moment!
this asshole 'jinli' ( i hab no idea who he is la)
for the pass few months he has been flooding my cell with miss call k!
arghs. its so wth man! damnit.
i guess i need to change my hp no. soon.
and the worst thing was tt he was threating me man! fark la.
should i go to the police? lols. like making a fuss over a small thing hur. =s
see abt it la. arghs! damnit~!
meiping || 9:57 PM

boo! shouldn come home tt early today man.
oh well, slp real 'early' this morning la.
woke up by a no. of calls and msges.
bathed + prep-ed and went off to meet laopo at my hus void deck.
had lunch, slacked awhile.
and she head over to her boi's hus.
while i head home. big BOOS!
my aunties came wth la. making such a din over at my hus.
noisy la.
oh well, i should be home this early, coz its labour day.
and daddy is not working.
and when daddy is not working!
he starts to tok to me abt the trip to aust on july!
yucks! i don wan to go man! pray tt he cant get leave tt month.
i noe wat he is up to la. i just don wan to go aust!
even tot i realli miss perth la. damn.
but this time round is no holiday! he arranged a collage for me to enroll in for a couple of weeks.
asking me to try out the life over there! yucks! i hate it.
and i noe its impossible for me to communicate with the ppl there with the lvl of my eng blah blah blah!
arghs. save me la! some one! please lehs!~
and if realli got to go it will be 1 whole bloody mth can! fark la! arghs~! =x
sad man! sigh. boring day.
but nice weather to slp.
but after wat daddy said, it totally spoilt my day man.
okay! i seriously need a new wallet la.
my whole bag is in a big mess without my wallet. damn!
gottan spend money and time to look for one tt i realli like.
this is soooo bore.
anyway, gotta to thanks james for smsing with me all these time. =D
jie wei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want the baby minni asap k~ lols.
meiping || 5:52 PM

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