♥Nothing Will Be The Same Again...♥

Date : Wednesday, August 30, 2006

SHAG*
Been feeling kinda of shag out these few days.
Even tot i have the full 8 hours of sleeping time. arghs!
Everytime go out slack or study with my shagness very irrating man.
Beside tt, i guess my stomach is having a flu. haha. =x
Been running to the toliet quite often. hahas.
But lucky it always happen when i am home =x
Anyway, went woodland today with laopo. got my hp sofeware updated.
waited for bloody whole four hours for it.
such a waste of my time and laopo's.
bought a handband and comb, the old one guess i threw it some where in my hus, but i have no idea where i threw it. =x
after collection of our hp, took mrt back to bishan.
reached home ard 9. early hur.

anto is back from sailing tonight i guess. =D
*cheers*

Hey, wonder if ever there some people reading my blog.
But nevermind la.
i got a song here. nice song, to recommend to u guys.
if u all want, find me in msn. i will send to u. =D

BY : No Secrets TITLE : I'll Remember You
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we
cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you

meiping || 10:21 PM

Date : Tuesday, August 29, 2006

well. its 4am in the morning. and i guess most of u are snoring like a piggy.
yet i cant sleep at all! =[
bad habit hur. sighs. trying so hard to change already.
still fail. wth!
oh well, nvm.
yst met laopo at j8.
accompany her to buy her stuffs.
than head off for dinner.
after tt went back j8 to buy food for zai.
waited for 88. head over to tpy lor 8.
slacked. waited for anto to come.
had dinner. cabbed back to bishan.
anto cut his hair, went over to his hus.
10 plus cabbed home.

oh well. wad can i say.
treat me good. love me deep.
be faithful. be truthful.
trust me, understand me.
dote me, pamper me.
give me care, give me concern.
accept my flaws, like the way u love my goods.
hold on to me. coz if u let me go, i will never turn back.....

meiping || 4:10 AM

Date : Saturday, August 26, 2006

back to update my blog once again.
haven been feeding my blog with my boring life..
well, currently at anto's hus.
just woke up not long. yawns.
well, yst woke up prep-ed and off to meet anto at ksl.
supposed to meet yl. but she need to rush off for her work.
so didn. my poor gal. do cheer up ya. =D everything will be fine de.
so nua at anto's hus. than night time went out to meet alfie w his gf.
cabbed over to prata's hus. than cabbed back to bishan again.
went back to anto's hus. slp! couldnt really slp due to his snores! ~!#$%^&*()_+
woke up ard 5 plus. got his stuffs for him.
coz he need to return to camp for duty.
than i fell back to slp alone. woke up by his msg. than nua till nw.
later meeting laopo for lunch i guess.
she at zai's hus nw.

happy 3rd month ann darling. =D
another ann which is left uncelebrated.
we missed the 1st month. than we missed the second month. so as usual, we missed the 3rd month ann celebration. hahas. nice right. =x
first time sia. hmmm. wadever it is. =X

sometime i wonder and ponder.
i let my mind wander around thinking of other stuffs.
and well, sometime some stuff should just be kept in the heart.
like the old memories of happiness with other guys.
like the stuff the other gave.
well, i did. i kept all the stuffs in a box, taped it and threw inside my storeroom.
hoping tt i won't have to take it out again.
but maybe 10 or 20 yrs down the road i might take out and let the old memories flash thru.
sound kinda of sweet hur. hahas.
forgetthing is hard, letting go is easy.
the prettiest memories are kept well, at a small cornder of my heart.
and it will always have a place there..
they belong there. for now till forever......

the last time for me to blog about him out here i guess. after this, no more of him is to be said or asked.
after playing 4 long yrs of fate, i resign to it.
i once believe that we can change the fate of our own life. but after trying out for 4 yrs. maybe human aint tt strong yet? hmmm, or maybe I am not tt strong yet. hahas.
i am weak ya. i always is weak. hmm, in the 1st place did i say i am strong? hahas.
no idea. cant rem too. boo!
but the 4 yrs has been a great one. all the bitterness sweetness and sourness.
its something i can never really go thru in life if i haven meet till him.
i really thanks him for letting me grow up. let me know wad true frens is.
and tt, love never fade. if love can fade, its not love than.
tts the feeling tt fade. if u have feeling for tt guy, it doesn mean tt u truly love him.
u are just having a crush on him for tt short period of time. but if u truly love him,
no matter how long it is. the love will always be there. it cant be faded away just like tt.
for u will never be replace. someone whom was once so imt to me. someone whom i once willing to die for.
but everything isn't the same now. =D

for once i was close to death, it is enough.
don't get mistaken. i didn't do it for him.
ppl whom are close to me will know the real reason. i don care wad other ppl think.
they might think i cut myself for love. NO. love aint worth my blood.
but, i am glad at least, i now know who are the ones whom are really my true fren.
whom are the who will be willing to stay by me till the end of time.
and i know whom are the ones i can really rely on and count on. =]
u know who u r. =] love u guys. stay by me alright. i always need a shoulder to lend on.
and no worries i willl stay by u guys too. =D

well, i shall not say much already. cause i will never know wad will happen 10 yrs down the road.
so be it. at least i am still happy with my life now.
simple and normal. sweet and happy. =D

time can heal everything, but time can also deepen everything.

guys always forget but never forgive.
girls always forgive but never forget.

anyway, life has been the same for the. the same ppl, the some routie.
nothing special... boring life of mine.
*hungry* dear ate all the snacks yst already. nth left for me to munch on!
arghs. fat pig he is!

meiping || 12:55 PM

Date : Wednesday, August 23, 2006

BOO!
i am STILL sick. arghs!
still having cough and flu. damn.
seems tt quite a no. of ppl around me is sick too hur.
hmmm.. get well soon everyone. =D
supposed to go woodland today to service my phone de.
but laopo say too tired so go other day!
~!#$%`-=/.,[]\';^&*()_+
end up went out to slack.
went j8 walked.
than makan.
than found one void deck and sat down.
cam whored again. =x
hmmm. sudden decision, went off to tpy.
got some photo washed.
bought a belt at 5 bucks. than home sweet home. =D

anto sailing off tml le. =S
miss him*

meiping || 12:01 AM

Date : Monday, August 21, 2006

what a night i had man. =s
well, he had mood swing. which mean i am the one whom will kana it. =s
and i did. sighs.
after all that i had done, he is stil doubting me?
it is so saddening and disappointing man..............................
why else can i really do to let him trust me totally?
i realli have no idea le... damnit. =.[
as the tear began to flow, how i wish my blood could flow with it tgt as it..........
torn like the start, broken still in the end.

shag*

meiping || 12:14 PM

Date : Sunday, August 20, 2006

early post hur...
i am so damn bored now. =S
anto has got duty today. so he is back on ship.
and i am still sick. so didn go out. stayed at home the whole day.
worst thing was that, my tbvee spoilt. totally bore man. arghs.
tot of gg ikea. but, wash tt tot off. wanted to get a small table and some stuffs.
arghs. guess next time ba. bored la.

sighs.. sixth sense sucks.
well, antonio lim tengyao.
u better be faithful to me. don't do wrong thing behind my back.
cause if u ever do it, i will know when time comes.
be faithful or i will skin u alive.
sighs..

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up

*pms*

meiping || 4:13 PM

Date :

weets.. just change my blogskin.
its ugly. but bear with it ppl.
there will be newer and better skins. sorry.
in rush. so just put up with this skins 1st. and i just cant get the size right la.
fed-up with it. whatever it is. its late. so do it again next time.
COMMENTS PLEASE!

well, i am back from malaysia once again.
and my oral is coming near too.
less than a week. omg! and i am seriously sick.
down with coguh, sora throat and flu. fcuk!
why at this time, how am i gonna go for my oral man.
idiotic! =x
anyway, went over to stay at anto's hus.
thanks for taking care of me. =D muacks.
slack at anto's hus.
than evening time went out for dinner and he sent me home.
reached home bathed, took my medic.
msn for awhile. than ard 10, went out to look for dear again.
went home ard 1130.
anto tml got duty. so sad. =s
but nvm, take this day rest and pack my room than.

boring day....

meiping || 2:39 AM

Date : Friday, August 11, 2006

alright i am back home.
woke up early just for him today. ard 9 going 10.
got prepared by 1215, and waited for almost an hours going 2 man. =S
nevermind about it.
met him at ksl and had my lunch.
than head over to his house and nua. ard 6 went out for dinner at 120.
headed back to his house. nua again.
till ard 9.
and this is where my anger was really tested man.
arghs! hate it hate it hate it la!
told him at 9 30 tt i need to leave already.
but he told me to stay longer to wait for alfie.
thus, i stayed, but! he fell alseep la.
and when i try to wake him up it took damn 20 god minutes to do so lo.
and i cabbed home. met up with kor for awhile.
poured my complains and stuffs to him, off i headed for home.

arghs! if u jolly well know u will fall asleep next time, just let me go home.
i don't like the feeling of keeping to need to ask u wake up to open the door for me.
and i don't like the feeling of leaving ur keys behind the door.
i don't like the feeling of waiting for cab ALONE!
i also don't like the feeling i am feeling now.

maybe i am just not a good girlfriend i guess.
maybe i am just not understanding towards ur tiredness ba.
maybe i am just unreasonable.
maybe i am just to wildful.
maybe i am just not good enough to be ur girlfriend.
maybe i am just the worst girlfriend u ever had.
maybe i am just lousy.
maybe i am just to pampered by my other boys tt i don't get used to how u treat me.
maybe i am just asking too much.

sighs.... but aftermaths, i am not saying tt u are not good.
not a good boyfriend or wad. i do love u, yes i do.
sighs.... for all the maybe just take it as rubbish.
but its okays, cause u never bother to read my blog anyway.

hey guys, will be gg back malaysia tml for a week. misses!

meiping || 11:53 PM

Date :

woke up around 2, and slacked infront of the comp till, my stomach start to goans.
went downstairs hunt for food, wash my stuffs.
than prep and off to bishan, j8.
went arcade to find anto, lance and alfie.
and just nua there till almost 8.
than off to partyworld.
due to my daddy, i went off 1st. at ard 10pm.
cabbed home. sians.

i have no ideas wad is running thru my mind nw.
can someone just hammer me so i can go blank?

meiping || 1:07 AM

Date : Monday, August 07, 2006

weets. i am back in singapore already. since last friday afternoon.
took train back myself, anto and alfie came to fetch me. =D thanks dear.
nth much la.
boring life, O level is drawing near.
having my english oral on the 24th of aug. OMG!
anyway, guess, a couple of days ago, i slept over at anto's hus.
so managed to meet jeffrey and also ason.
ason...... someone whom i used to love so much. someone whom was so close to me before. but suddenly, he seems so distance from me.......
totally speechless.......
i don deny tt after seeing him, i started to let my tots run wild.
but so wad? its just a far and unreachable and untrue tot.
while, i know being with anto, will be something real and true.
i do love anto for who he is. and i don't wish to be turning rounds and rounds again. =D
antonio lim! i love u! trust me alright.

well, as for today, woke up real late alright. ard 3pm.
than went down to search for foods.
but there was nth! arghs. so end up with maggi mee.
aftermath, ard 5, fell asleep again. PIG! whahas.
supposed to meet ling for dinner de, bt her bf driving her to work, so cancel the meeting.
woke up ard 7, bath + prep and went out to meet laopo.
waited for the bloody 88 for abt 20 min, i almost tt 88 was out of service. =X
met laopo at the interchange, walk ard tpy.
than went back to bishan j8's seiyu.
bought our *stuffs* hahas. inside stuffs.
suddenly had the craving for baked chesse dumpling.
but by the time we went there, the shop is close already!
so went ksl. had satay. and alifie came.
cab home with laopo at 11.

i miss him. so sad, he wasn't able to book out today~
nvm, still gt tml.

meiping || 11:23 PM

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