I actually have a lot of stuffs to write down..
A lot of feelings, thinking and thoughts.
But when i really open up this page, and begin typing i'm lost for words.
Weird huh? Haha..
Anyway, school has already started for me..
Trying my best to mix around with my classmates.
Hope thing goes well.. =)
I really don't know what's in the relationship that im looking for.
i mean, maybe im lost? Haha..
There are other guys whom are so much better.
I know, and seen. Maybe more, ever since i started to stick to my feeling.
Not being controlled anymore by Anto.
I manage to know more friends, met more people.
But, im still not ready for a new relationship.
I don't mean, break with Anto and straight away start a new relationship.
What i mean is, after Anto, i doubt i will get into relationship.
I don't want another guy to mess up my life anymore.
I want to be in control, i believe in future, i will be stronger.
Time allows ones to grows and mature.
Time allows ones to see through the surface of everything..
Time allows ME to learn the lesson.
Have a break, have a kit-kat! Enjoying my freedom now. =)
Mixed feeling is making thing worst, why do i feel more and more fan gan by her.
Everything she does just makes me feel so, even if it for my own good, or like what other says, she just care.
But i just dislike it.
I'm biase. Freaking, fucking biase, i dont deny that, and i won't..
Haha..
Im evil, im the devil.. =)
Crazy as it might sound, i miss u..
Am i going through the stage of puppy love? HAHA!
What a nice thinking, puppy love? HA..HA..HA..
The biggest joke is, i haven even met u in real before..
This is so fucking crazy..
Argh, forget this.. -.-
Im going crazy.. =p
meiping || 1:43 AM
Date : Sunday, August 16, 2009
Super Dupar long entry! Just words and words as usual =)
BOO! 2 weeks of holiday just ended like that!
Haha.. I doubt i made good use of the 2 weeks holiday.. =(
Been staying home for most of the time!
BORING! 快闷死了!
Well, don't have the usual drinking and mahjong-ing session too!
Okay, maybe just one drinking and mahjong session.. =p
Let me recall some of the events..
I remembered going to Neverland with anto..
I will always remember it! AARON!
Met up with Lance and co.
Slack there till almost 2am.
Have to leave earlier due to some stuff.. Dont worry, not those kind of lians and bengs too..
AND! Aaron puked! Puking is alright, but it kena me! =((
Lucky i was wearing dress instead of jeans that day.. =.=!
Must be wondering why there is anto's name again right?
We are back together, but, oh well, thing is different now..
I don't know how to pin it down, but it is different already..
Not that i dont love him, or he dont love me..
It is just different..
I still love this quote ' Nothing will be the same again! '
HAHA! Sound very 熟 hor! =p
But nevertheless, im happy? i guess im..
Not due to the patch..
Next thing is mahjong session yesterday at yl's house..
Woots! Super hard-core..
hahas.. Everyone is feeling kinda of 困!
But we still 挨 untill morning!
Oh ya! I took my oath/vow whatever u call it.. =)
Waiting for my passport now!
I wanna eat Kenny Roger at City Square~ ANYONE WANT? LOL
Craving for seafood too! Stingrays, Kang Kong, Sotong, Prawns, CHILLI CRAB at the back alley too! =p
Been going down to Liang Court almost every day..
I swear im getting sick of bus 54 and Jap food soon!
YES! Very soon! >.
Did i mention holiday is ending? =(
Tml will be the 1st day of school, am so discourage by the timing of the lesson..
Argh! Worst time-table ever!!!! =((
Just hope it will be a better term..
要加油了! ＾．＾
meiping || 2:20 PM