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Myriad of untold truth.
Date : Wednesday, April 29, 2009
speechless...
wordless...
am having so much thoughts in my mind..
like fast forward films..
everything shifting and changing..
hahas..
im lost...

meiping || 9:19 PM

Date : Monday, April 27, 2009
lets have a short update before i head off for my bed.. =)
hmm last wed i stayed over at baby's house..
he is a idiot.. made me wait for close to 5hr..
=.=! he is lucky his hus have SCV, if nt im sure to make a mountain out of a mole!
anyway, thurs afternoon, went sakae sushi at j8..
xf and hua joined us..
after dinner caught 'after 17'..
after the movie baby went out to meet his fren at city hall..
xf and hua went home..
head home, changed and went out to meet boy and co.
i got totally wasted that night.. hahas.. but i somehow wanted too.. =p
met 2 really cute candy eyes there..
haha! the two angmong is dam hot.. =P im serious man.. haha..
the kind of blue eyes, brown hair, hot body...
the way of a gentleman... awww....
they treat us two 2 waterfall..
before the waterfall, we actually already finish 1 and a half bottle..
str after the 2 cup of waterfall, i str KO!
>.<
nv been good at holding on..
woke up at BB's house by baby's call..
quarrelled =.=! lame stuffs...
took a nap!
friday night met baby and hua for dinner at my house area...
hmmm...

sat... let see...
met hua at j8..
had dinner, aftermaths went to hunt for present..
bought a zippo for jeffrey's 21th bday..
shared with ling..
cab down to the chalet..
hahas.. nice nice..
sharon bday chalet was right opps of jeffrey.. =.=!
speechless...
well, some issue rose at jeff chalet..
couldnt help much.. =(
left around 1030..
took a cab to woodland..
had MJ at laoeh's house.. =0
haha.. won abit >.<
but i didn manage to get the winning.. sad sad sad..
total SHIT! =p
cab back to baby's house in the morning...
this entry is getting more n more boring as i rant on.. -.-!
supposed to meet boy and co.
but i overslept.. and was kinda of lazy.. =p
sorry guys..
went home around 4pm..
slack around, did my stuffs..
met up with baby again ard 8pm..
bought food over to baby's house..
he is making dinner for me! keke!
not as tasty as the past, but still, at least i didnt stave to death la..
baby sent me home ard 1130pm...
thats all for the past few day i guess?

faster 1st of may!
i want go shopping!
at least a new bag, and a new pair of shoes ba!
>.<
the least least least is a bag! LOL
for school use.. current bag cant even fix in a A4 paper..
and i have yet to get hold of my time-table.. this sucks!
slow slow slow la..

alright, rant more on the next post..
off for a short nap..
gotta wake up at 9am!
its already 5am nw..
4hrs left...

meiping || 4:43 AM

Date : Thursday, April 23, 2009
cant woman and man strike a balance?
there so much unfairness between this both gender..
the kind of treatments, comments and the way they behave..
will the day comes one day when both parties treatment will be fair?
i doubt so... this issues has been going on for quite long..
but never able to strike a balance... haha..
just very random thinking that pass through my mind..
nothing much in fact.. hahas..

will be heading out to drink soon i guess. waiting for some hiao guys to get prepare..
style hair, choose clothes, shoes... blah blah blah.. -.-!
one word - SLOW!
hahas..

suddenly another issue raised in my head..
money issue... so sick of it already la...
i not the breadwinner of the family yet, yet! i have to give money... =.=
sian... so fking sick of it.. =.=
spare out of this shit pls...

right person, wrong moment...
right moment, wrong person...
hahas..
what a nice joke hur...

meiping || 10:29 PM

Date : Wednesday, April 22, 2009
im home from baby's hus..
didnt meet hua nor milo...
suppose to head for ben n jerry today..
jiejie came to sg today.. but i was too tired out...
didnt meet her..
><
the plan was to meet her tml..
see abt it ba...
there is always last min changes with her.. lolx..
unexpected stuffs happening..
i have grown used to it already..

was chatting on msn with meimei and she send me jolin's new song..
nt bad..
你总爱编织谎言我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太野
你划定楚河汉界我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累
爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写

haha...
我最笨..

meiping || 1:40 AM

Date : Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.

Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky.

Have you ever been hurt and the place tries to heal a bit, and you just pull the scar off of it over and over again.


All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.

this 2 is the best
=))

Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away.

Walking, working, barely breathing
My thoughts, far away
Heart aching, mind racing
Sleep does not come easily, nor last long....

meiping || 7:44 PM

Date :
Lets make it my 655th post!
=)
nicer no. compare to 654 post.. keke..
this blog been with me for so many yrs already..
tot i nv blog every single shit..
but still, part of my growing.. hahas..
decide to rant abt this..
include in my 'growing chart'
11th of may im starting my 1st lesson for my degree.. =)
wish me the best of lucks ppl..
one more step closer to my target...
keke.. slowly step by step...
as long as im moving, i will reach my goal one day..
no matter how long it gonna take..

life been good i guess..
ups and downs..
pros and cons..
heartbreak and heart-warmed..
happiness and despair..
haha alot alot more i guess..
i pray for a better May.. =)
hopes everything in school goes well..
hopes everyone in the pink of health..
hopes that everyone is happyy...
and i do do do miss some good old friends...
=))
gathering pls? lol..

alright... mark an end to this post...
gonna cont with my 'leave'

with loves...

meiping || 7:22 PM

Date :
weather haven been very good recently..
have to bathe at least 3-4 time a day. =.=!
dont even need to on the heater!
cold water in this kind of weather is shiok can!
dam fking shiok! hahas~
weather been freaking hot, everyone do rem to drink plenty of water!
=)
beware of heat stoke too!
life been good i guess..
not including the short of cash la.. beside that everything been good..

friends around me been good too.. =))
supportive, understanding, loving, caring and not forgetting pain in the ass!
hahas!
but no matter what i still love them as much, or even more..

thanks for standing by ur words... =)
even after those harsh words u still stand by me all these while..
and u even kept ur words..
big thanks n big hugs! keke

meiping || 3:53 AM

Date :
曾经我将无助的爱情
静静枕在你的臂弯里
以为它将为我阻挡风雨
共我面对寂寞的潮汐
可是在你宽阔温暖的胸怀里
总是听到冷冷的叹息
你那不屑说谎的眼睛
始终教我自己回避
"也许已经不是爱 只是一种坚持的情怀
也许依然还有爱 也许是慢慢生长的悲哀"
最後还是一步一步慢慢向後退
不想你的拥抱都像在赎罪
哦不想你说爱我都在惭愧.

一条漫长路经已走到这里
走下去我就不再是我自己
然而望着你的背影
究竟我有勇气几许
回头去走那无尽无止的记忆
然而分离是否就拥有我自己
因为思念不是当年没有一丝牵挂的你
寂寞也不是最初的我自己

the top 2 is from hua..
the rest is wad i found in my doc..
been quite sometime since i rants abt quote.. =)
here's some.. enjoy..

他要走了 始终是要走了
于是 我告诉自己 要狠心点
不要理他 不要回他信息 不要接他的电话
但到最后 还是很不下心来 为什么??
明知道 最终受伤的会是自己 偏偏还要裁进去
我已经失去了理智 就只是小小的理智 也没了。。。

我们总让在乎我们的人为自己哭泣;并总为那些永远不会我们的人哭泣
旦我们在意那些永远不会为我们哭泣的人
这是在於生命中的事实;奇怪但却真实
一旦你了解,改变永远不会太迟

学会承受
有些事情需要无声无息地忘记,经过一次,就长一次智慧;有些苦痛和烦恼得要默默地承受;历链一次;就丰富一次。这个年龄不该再像小时候那样大喊大叫, 痛哭流涕。

笑容不代表真的开心
流泪不代表真的伤心

或许你我可以以表情来隐藏自己真正的感受
或许你我可以以表情来表达自己真正的感受

或许你我可以毫不在乎的忘记那真正的感受
或许你我可以毫不掩饰的表达那真正的感受

不管要选择前者还是后者
那只不过是一个人生的小过程
只要懂得选择适当的发泄通道
才会让你我有勇气的走下去

meiping || 12:24 AM

Date : Sunday, April 19, 2009
MORNING!
am wide awake since 5am..
hmmm the last time i saw before i off my lights and comp is 11.40pm!
i slept dam early.. hahas..
but i woke up at 5am.. -.-!
no disturbance.. i just suddenly woke up, with my eyes wide open..
cool hur.. lolx..
anyway, had mj session on friday night.
this time round with baby, yl and hua..
at baby's house.. had 2 round..
lost $3.40.. =((
but its alot better compared to last mth i guess..
luck is slowly coming back to my side.. keke..
after mj ended ard 5am..
slept around 630am...
woke up ard 2pm by baby...
cabbed home... and nua....
met milo and hua at my house void deck...
thankful to them for always making such an effort..
really speechless for their effort.. <3
copied my sms... head for dinner ard 9pm..
and i cancel out on the drinking session again..
im so so so sorry guys..
im really that sleepy till i didnt hear my cell ring.. =p
in short piggy? lolx
the moment i bathe and dried my hair i fell aslp!
its was so fast.. hahas..

wasnt able to web-cam with sissy..
feel kinda of unease.. >.<
maybe its has grown on me.. become part of my daily stuff?
*big hugs to sissy*

am supposed to be heading down to jurong ltr on..
but guess not going already.. >.<
womens, the ever changing is unstoppable... lolx..

guys are never serious when they say they love u, nor miss u..
only one special one special guy...
he made me feel that he's words are the truth.. nothing hidden..
the kinda of security i get when he is around...
felt so well protected...
suddenly it sound like a father kind of role. hahas..
=p
thanks for all ur times.. hahas...

alright gonna try to get back to slp..
its only 7am.. =.=!

meiping || 6:41 AM

Date : Thursday, April 16, 2009
in a flash of light...
our relationship will be walking towards the 3rd year already...
everything seems to happen only yesterday..
went through so much happiness, sorrows and despair.
and like every other couple, we quarrel and patch up..
we do shit stuff and etc...
we cried.. so so so much stuffs...
i might not remember every single stuffs that we did...
but i do remember every effort u put in...
giving in to me, hoaxing me, loving me, caring me...
scolding me... all these...
its just so hard to believe...
3 yrs......
worth?
no idea...

recently mood have been quite moderate i guess..
just a couple of hrs of mood swings, due to PMS i guess.
other than that is =) de..
am learning to take thing lighter..
not letting some idiots destroy my day!

i just found out, i need to get a need webcam!
my old one lasted me for like 4yrs? and it finally broke down..
=(
another amount to be fork out...
mean time cant webcam with sissy already.. awww!
nevermind, i will try get one asap sissy!

auntie~ i need to do some shopping!
u see this? SHOPPING! LOL~

and thanks boyboy for driving me around sg to daze.. =x
thanks to huahua for the company <3~
thanks sissy jw for making an effort to wakes up early just to play camcam with me.. =))
thanks milo for the company too!
thanks auntie for the endless nags!
lolx~

another stuff...
i really ought to learn how to say "NO"
>.<
its killing me already....
sucking my well dry..
well, everyone have to account for their own action..
and i'm paying it.. -.-!
lend er jie $$ again... -.-!!
endless well....
i gonna have a drought soon i guess..
hahas..
and thats means home 24/7!
i better stock up my maggie mee, eggs, meatballs, chocolates and drinks when i still have abit of money!
if not i gonna stave to death during the morning and afternoon when im home alone... >.<

meiping || 2:20 AM

Date : Wednesday, April 15, 2009
sian 1/2!!
really turn off...
im supposed to be quite loaded this month..
nt really that loaded, i mean, should have abit of extra money to do some personal shopping!
even thought i bought baby the NDS..
coz baby, returning me the chalet money ($250), and an extra $100 coz during the chalet he spent all his cash, heng used mine..
so $350 and another maybe $100 from someone..
was thinking WA! this month maybe can do some shopping, buy shoes, bag all these..
cause school is starting, need get a bigger bag, need a new pair of slipper or shoe too..
and my jean gt a hole! need get a couple pair of jeans too..
now.... KNS! im broke..
lend er jie $200.. -.-
this sucks... dam fking sucks..
and so many people birthday are coming... =((
when i can top up my personal stuffs..
sucks!
pui!

meiping || 12:42 AM

Date : Thursday, April 09, 2009
ding ding dong ding ding dong~
everything up and down... up and down...
back and fro , back and fro..
fucking sick of it..
arghs..
nonono! cannot be like tt!
must move forward!! go go go~ must keep on going on..

hais.. i don't know already...
don't want to know so much too...
what will be will be, what will not be, will never be...
i really felt like breakdown now...
cry like there is no tml...
unfairness...
i wish this kind of mood swing can pass by soon..
moody period... =.=
but im not having my PMS why am i having such mood swing?
rain rain go away~
never come again!!
sunshine come again!!

i shall be staying home the next few day ba..
budget budget budget...
this month spent 290buck on baby's NDS and 250buck on the chalet..
not alone this two but... this two is enough to burn a dam big whole..
=((

meiping || 9:29 PM

Date :
钟晓玉 回到原点


卸妆 by 钟晓玉


歌手:罗豪 曲名:终于了解


sometime i really don't know what i want..
hahas..
its like im playing a joke on myself..
im a clown myself...
stupid clown...
=))

meiping || 4:49 PM

Date : Tuesday, April 07, 2009
there are so many time in life that hw i wish i was a boy!
no restriction from parents..
dont need be home by this time, can stay out without reason..
all these kinda of shit.. =(
sometime i envy those girls whom parents allow them to go chiong, go pub, stay out late, dont go home all these..
end of the day i always have to trouble my friends to come down my area to find me..
they might nt say, but i knw its tiring.. >.<
and i feel bad too, always make them do the traveling..
when can i really get my unlimited freedom!
i turning 21 already...
this is getting bored...

*bang* *dead*

meiping || 8:48 PM

Date :
rant rant rant!



lets start with 2nd of april!

=)

1st day of chalet!

suppose to wake up at 830 and meet baby at 930 at amk hub..

but both of us overslept!

woke up at 10!!

faster prepared everything.. lucky i pack my bag the night before..

baby came over to fetch me in cab, went amk hub..

walked around looking for stuff to get for the chalet..

he bought a set of MJ tiles from the shop.. 50 buck =.=!

anyway waited for hua to come..

then met baby's fren.. he drove us down to the chalet..

fetched daddy coz the chalet is under his name..

collected the keys, put the stuff in the chalet, then we took baby's fren cab out..

went for lunch... then went tampines to fetch laoeh..

went to sheng song..

shopping for the bbq! spent around 250 bucks.

went back to the chalet.. had a short rest.. there we go!

MJ starts! >.<

kept playing and playing, milo and fish came half way, then xiaoling and tiantian came too, cont with the MJ!

we just kept playing MJ non-stop!

finally my sai sai xf came too!

hahas, which means MJ again!! zzzz

nv seems to be able to leave the mj table..

had so many round of mj till i lost count of the winning and lost.. lolx..

didnt slp at all.. mj till the sun rise~

count MJ when laoeh wakes up.. =.=! see its all about mj and mj and mj!

oh they had a mini bbq on the 1st night.. =))

3rd april!

baby's bday!! =))

keke!

this the 2nd yr tt im celebrating baby's bday with him! <3~

lucky everything went well, didnt really flare up.. managed to keep my cool...

phew~

tiantian received news tt her fren was in hosp, hence she and xiaoling went off 1st..

around late afetrnoon managed to nap a few hrs, and im up and preparing the bbq stuff.. >.
milo and fish went off 1st coz milo had some family prob..

agnes came.. follow by alfie and co..

one by one slowly all baby's fren came..

more n more ppl.. >.< not all tt im close with.. hahas.

so we start MJ again with my co. of frens.

ling and bf came too.. keke!

mj time~~

baby was busy hosting his guest, and im busy too!

busy playing mj with my frends. lolx.

baby and co. did the bbq~ didn really eat much.. but still nt bad.. =))

before the clock strike 12, they sang bday song and baby cut the cake..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTONIO BABY! =))

bought a white NDS for baby.. lucky he likes it...

it would be bday present + 3rd ann present * if we ever makes it thru the 3rd ann* =p

after the bbq, we had MJ again.. =.=!

by the time baby's fren has all left for home..

we took turn to play MJ coz too many ka!

so i went around and pack the room..

like a maid =.=!

i seriously felt like a maid.. =.=!!!

nvm... everyone happy , most imt is baby happy can already! =)

play MJ till the morning.. xf and hua went for a short nap before checking out..

baby, laoeh and me cont.. we played daidee, loser drink coke..

omg i guess i drank a whole bottle of coke down!! >.<

WHITE FLAG nor!!

laoeh went for a nap after the daidee..

pack up the place.. threw the rubbish out..

finally its done, and there end our 3d2n chalet..

check out and took a cab back to baby's home..

str KO!

till around 7pm++

baby order pizzahut...

aftermaths was SCV all the way..

3am plus went home to bath, change and put my bag..

went down to BQ..

met up with my usual co.

drink drank sleep this time.. lolx..

too tired, fell aslp.. =p

woke up and boy send me back to baby's house..



thats all that i remember.. =)

hope i didnt let lose any stuffs..



=)



thanks for the company... =))


meiping || 6:36 PM

Date : Wednesday, April 01, 2009
changing changing...
its changing...
can u feel it?
i felt it coming.....
one fine day , kaboom... everything gonna explode....
hahahaha...
one fine day.....

dusk has fallen..
one day i will fall too..
and i will be like the sunrise..
be strong again and stand up on my own feet..

meiping || 1:17 AM

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