zhen de mah?
some time i wonder, forever is when.. what is forever...
some time i just wonder..
dreamning and wondering..
i am just so silly...
feeling are all so mixed up..
i guess, i am having mood swings now...
i used to believe so much in friends...
past year, betrayed and changed my views..
but now, i met new friend.. i decided to change my thinking..
i began to trust them completely..
i just want thing to be perfect for me.. even when nth is pefect..
i used to rebel so much with my fosther parents..
why? coz i yearn for a complete family..
a perfect family, a simple wish since young..
see my friends around me having such a happy family, sometime deep inside my heart, it aches..
but i understand, i truly understand...
why i am in a such a state.. its not tt i am not good enough for my real parents..
its just that they want me to live a better life.. i know..
but, whats the use of eating good and living good when i find life meaningless..
whats the use man..
hais... how i wish time could turn back, and that they never give birth to me..
i yearn to be with them so much.. i want to call them daddy, mummy..
but when will that day ever come? when?
who can tell mie..
maybe i am just too silly to keep on thinking about all these stuffs..
maybe i should learn to be contented i guess..
hais.. i dono...
clear my mind.. clear my thoughts.. clear my thinking...
just clean mi up outside inside out..
wish`ing wish`ing wish`ing
pray`ing pray`ing pray`ing
hope`ing hope`ing hope`ing