had this tootpid feeling as if my probation haven ended.
just that the curfew extended to 12. wth right.
damn. was home for the whole day la.
due to my fever. was running a high fever. 41.2D.
almost die la! so was on the bed most of the time.
slp and slp and slp like a pig. =x
realli bore till bth man.
and was having a damn big quarrel with my foster parent can!
arghs. why cant they give me some peace?
just a little will do. it is not like i sick than i don wan to see a doc.
they must know tt they already stop giving me pocket money since donkeys yrs.
and i have already stop working. beside that, i still have to give money every month to my bro.
come on man! they think i print money or what?!
arghs. damnit. =x
and they just kept saying about the stuipd past of mine can.
its not like i want my past to be that bad? who want their past to be like tt?
a rotten apple man! fark it! its not like my PO haven talk to u guys b4 man!
i did changed! even my PO said so. they never believe what i said or even my PO.
cant they have a abit of trust in me? i am no longer that dumb gal who used to hang out with those ppl.
and they should be thankful already tt i nv start the stuipd thing of running away from hm.
they shouldnt take thing for granted man! wat am i to them man. a dog?! cb!
i am 18 already lo. please la. its nt like i will be like last time wun be home for days!
its not like i will ton every single weekend. like last time. and whats wrong with staying out late?
when i am not hanging around with those ppl already.
and that i had already stop extending.
ask urself man! this yr, hw mani time has i not been home? how mani time i ton?
hw mani time i didn go home.
it just so usless to do all the shit for them when they don even give a damn abt it.
i tried so hard to be their good gal. but it seems usless. it seems that they think it i SHOULD do it! SHOULD K!
and whats wrong with me gg back malaysia? whats the big deal abt it?
i don see a big deal abt it. since my family is there..
why cant i go back every month or as and when i want?
who are they? they are my foster parent onli. i know they were the one whom bring me up.
i should be thankful to am. indeed i am! i respect them. its not like i don respect them.
but can they for ONCE! just ONCE put themself in my shoe and think?
spare a tot for me? just that once i will be happy already!
arghs! don regret if one day u cor and i never answer. and don say that i didn sit down and talk with u all. its like i done so mani talking with u guys already.. but u all just don seems to take in what i says. just don wan to understand me. i did gave u guys a chance to listen to whats in my heart. but u guys just think that i am uttering rubbish!
for once i was close to death. u guy don care. why not make history repeat itself man. HA!
- as slashed myself to death -