Lots of free time to let my mind roam about, especially night time, when everyone around me is asleep... 夜深人静时... Suddenly, i realise, this is the kind of peacefulness and happiness i wants and needs.. 简简单单的幸福..
U know, the kind of having ur family squeezing in the same room, on the same bed, it might be uncomfty to sleep. However, i love this feeling! 真的好喜欢~
But in the morning somehow it gets abit pain in the ass! cause the kids will be jumping around the bed, screaming their heads off, throwing stuffs here and there..
This kind of alarm clock is really a kind of love and hate man! =)
I hope in future my own family can be like this.. 吵吵闹闹的! i don't mean those disagreement nosie la.. =p
anyway, i really managed to enjoy and relax myself back in malaysia...
going back really works... =)
i get to sleep real early, like 12am.. that is consider early for me man!
really is the kind of 早睡早起 life style.. i even got chance to have breakfast man! haha..
normally the chances that i can eat breakfast in singapore, is when i ton night dont sleep.. =p
this kind of life style made me gain 2kg! oh my gosh! 2kg nor.. lol..
but i think back in singapore this 2kg will be gone soon..
anyway, when im back in malaysia, all i do is sleep, wake up, take care of kids, gamble, eat , sleep.
totally didnt think of other stuffs.. feels so good, so stress-freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Loveeeeees!!
however, im the only one that seems to enjoy this kind of feeling at home.. =(
papa, mama and korkor been quarreling.. =( over money issue.. sigh.. i wish i can start work soon and help aid in the family living..
is money that important? hais.. maybe i still haven really realise the importance of money ?
cause to them, me changing so much cash back home to spend is stupid.. =(
but somehow i remember when i was young, sis and aunty also spent alot on me..
buy me sweets, toys, clothes, fire crackers and stuffs just to make me smile..
that made me have such a sweet memories... thats why i wish the kids would have the same kind of feeling and memories..
and i just wanna help er jie abit.. lighten her burden abit..
but whenever i do help, i end up getting scolded =( hais..
i seriously dont knw whats the adults are thinking... i just hope they dont make thing so complex..
put things in a simpler way.......
haha..
suddenly i feel that this post is kinda of irony..
whatever it is la.. >
man has been created with no hole in its heart..
but along the way of growing up, the heart been pieced..
how many holes does ur heart have now?
at my age of 22, it seems countless already..
pieced by the hands of family members, friends and lover...
not many people are able to recover from these piecing...
and i guess im in the group that haven been able to recover..
but am still young.. i believe in future, these wounds will heal..
however scars will be unavoidable i guess?
scars acts like a kind of reminder for myself...
just like the scars on my wirst.... a kind of harsh reminder for myself.......
wow, wad a long post! thats all for now..
the rest of the thoughts are forgotten.. keke =x
so i will pin it down ago when i remember it...