*sick*
hmmm.. slp quite late last nite c0z was clearing up sum stuff in mua r00m den was on e f0ne t00.. think 4 plus den 0rh 0rh.. *shag* dis m0rning woken up by kai's c0r and li0nel's de sms n0r.. s0 tired leh.. anyway did nth much t0day.. slack at h0me den went t0 meet ks at j8 le.. she say wanna buy hp casing den pei her g0 j8 der buy.. ks b0ught l0ts 0f stuff sia.. =x haha.. she als0 wr0te mi a letter..but she t0ld mi t0 read onli when i reached h0me.. lalala.. hmmm den at j8 b0ught s0me f00ds den walk all e way back t0 mua h0use de c0ffee sh0p t0 eat.. ate s0 much.. s0 full nw..
den at mua h0use here de c0ffee sh0p sit der n slack n0r chit chat.. gee.. when finish eatin le actualli is pei ks g0 bust0p take bus send her h0me de.. but when at e bust0p suddenly change mind g0 amk piece ear n0r..anyway when at e bust0p saw ppl settle thingy waH~ r0ugh sia sh0ut until very l0ud den gt one auntie beside mi say wat s0 manner.. *n0d n0d* agree manz.. haha... t0t one 0f them was mua fren but n0t cfm lar.. but they very idi0t lar.. f0r n0 reas0n p0int at me.. ka0~! =x
went amk le saw alvin.. haha.. =x den g0 piece mua ear n0r.. anyway ks als0 gt.. pain pain *sob* s0 pain n0w... gee.. but nvm lar.. heng onli awhile nia.. if n0t sure die.. w0nder hw i'm g0nna slp.. yawn.. tired.. hmmm.. den li0nel c0r mi when he in army.. always lik tt de him.. la0p0 g0 w0rk den c0r wat.. ~!@#$%^&*()_ =XxXx but als0 used t0 it le.. haha..
0hya.. *sigh* l0st mua ankle de thingy yst.. heart pain sia.. was a gift fr0m qy de.. haiz.. think dr0pped at e f00dc0unt ba.. s0rrie ar qingyi didn keep ha0 ha0.. =[ haiz.. juz read ks de letter.. *sh0 t0uched man* gee.. ks ar.. thankz f0r yr letter very t0uched sia~ =] yup~ fren always gal~ =]
feel s0 sick n0w.. d0nn0 why.. *sick sick sick*
meiping || 9:08 PM

*shag~*
t0day ar? w0ke up early in e m0rning ar0und 10 plus? den wait f0r la0 pa t0 c0me fetch mi t0 mcds.. but wait n wait.. he ar0und 12 plus den c0me.. ka0.. hai w0 wake up s0 early.. reached der le den wait f0r mua 0fficer t0 c0me n0r c0z d0nn0 have t0 d0 wat paper w0rk lar waste mua time n0r.. in e end sign three d0nn0 wat bl00dly paper.. den push mi g0 f0r mua c0ns0ling n0r.. waste tw0 h0ur der, den sh0w mi wat vid0e clip abt sm0kin and drugs den ask mi read d0nn0 wat self help de b00ks~! sia0.. i den nv hiew em.. i write mua 0wn st0ry b00k 'my story' sh0ik sia.. tw0 full h0ur of peacefulness... write till bery s0ng gt air-con summ0re.. haha.. finish tt bl00dy tw0 h0ur of stuff le went t0 city hall t0 mit yl and li0nel n0r..hmmm.. li0nel finally 'chu bing' le.. l0lx.. b00k out i mean..
mit em le jiu walk t0 suntec,went burger king 1st.. c0z yl lata hab t0 w0rk.. s0 they eat n0r... i sit der read mua ba0bei st0ry b00k and li0nel's de diary... wah.. his diary h0r.. bwg de lar.. s0 'chim' t0 read de.. spellin mistake.. =x finish e wh0le diary als0 d0n reali understand it man.. but nvm.. finish their dinner le jiu pei yl g0 t0 her w0rkplace..den left mi n tt b0tak n0r.. den walk t0 esplanade n0r.. g0 der slack slack awhile.. *sigh* at der li0nel say he miss his h0me and was e 1st time he nv g0 hm f0r 19 daes he miss h0me.. haiz..i als0 miss h0me.. my real h0me.. when can i g0 bk again? i miss every0ne der.. er jie,ganny,qiqi and m0re.. i reali miss em man.. haiz.. s0b.. wanna t0 cry de.. but lucky didn.. manage t0 h0ld back mua tears mustn cry infr0nt 0f tt b0tak manz.. suddenly als0 felt very l0st c0nfused and al0ne~ f0r n0 reas0n man~! sit der f0r abt an h0ur or less? den take cab g0 ps le n0r.. g0 find weilun... lalalala.. den lyk a idi0t walk here n der wib them b0red... but nvm lar.. shuo ha0 help yl pei li0nel de.. *shag* mit wl le t0gether wib a bunch of guys i d0nn0 de went arcade der dia0.. s0 sian man.. nth t0 d0 de but t0 watch tt b0tak play games.. lalalala.. ohya.. think saw shafiq outside 7-11.. but cant see ha0 c0z s0 dark le plus he s0 black l0r.. =XxXx t00k cab h0me den mit up wib zai t0 take stuff n0r.. take le jiu g0 h0me lia0.. s0 tired nw.. yawnz.. tml might be meetin ks f0r dinner.. lalala.. nth much le..

meiping || 10:31 PM

hmmm.. juz made ha0 my new skin.. w0nder can an0t lehz..
*sigh*
t0day sch00l speecH dae.. s0 sch end bery early f0r us.. 1015 dismissed le.. but i 1pm stil went back sch.. why? c0z my N leVel 0ral n0rz.. after sch00l went shar0n's de h0use 1st n0r.. c0z xf wanna play badamint0n wat.. den she and mc g0 shar0n's h0use der de v0id play 1st.. shar0n and yl went jur0ng f0r their swimming 0uting... lalalala.. everyone s0 free t0day.. expect mi n0r.. watched xf and mc play f0r awhile le jiu g0 mac eat n0r.. eat le den leave f0r sch00l le.. g0 back sch f0r oral~! actualli i was e 1st man.. but end up sec0nd c0z s0ck kiang gt speech dae sh0 she g0 1st.. *heng* c0z scarly man.. *sigh* think i did badly f0r mua 0ral l0r~ the passage was okay, pic was e w0rst nth much t0 t0k abt de den c0nv als0 alm0st e same as pic n0r.. i keep very quiet thur out e wh0le oral.. c0z my wh0le mind was blank~ t0tally blank f0r n0 reas0n.. haiks...
after oral jiu g0 h0me 1st le.. den xf and mc came t0 mua h0use's de v0id deck t0 carry on wib their game n0r.. den i g0 h0me change le went t0 j0in them t00.. lalala.. think play f0r abt 2 h0ur 0r m0re? ard 6 xf went h0me le den i met yl at mua h0use der de bust0p t0 take thingy n0r. take le jiu g0 h0me rest le.. s0 fast tml sat le lehzx~~!
and i'm still confused abt it.. lalalal.. c0nfuse abt wat? i als0 d0nn0.. juz feel very messy inside.. as if everything is in the wr0ng place and tt my mind is g0in t0 burst s00n.. feel s0 stress t00.. haiz.. h0w h0w h0w? =[
meiping || 10:03 PM

*shag* lyk 0ther daes.. went t0 tt shitty sch00l.. t0day ar? class v n0isy~ make mi cant study during maths.. i gif up after tryin t0 listen t0 tt g0h's less0n.. c0z class far t00 n0isy! s0 i read my st0ry b00k, manage to finish 2 chap.. rain e wh0le m0rning n aftern00n.. makin e weather s0 c0ld~ *shiver* haha..t0day shar0n lee felicia sw n m0re takin their N level 0ral~ *wish them luck* =] ohya t0 shar0n and xf t00.. yst they juz had their 0ral =]
after sch shar0n went h0me 1st.. c0z yl , xf and mi hab tw0 peri0d of p0a.. after p0a jiu g0 canteen n0r.. buy sum f00d n eat.. =x but lucky wasn't late t0 meet shar0n at j8..
slack at j8..j8 nw very nice sia.. gt s0 mani new 0pen de sh0p-next time can g0 j8 sh0p le n0 need g0 till t0wn.. geex.den went breadtalk der sit d0wn f0r awhile settle tml de thingy n0r.. c0z tml speech t0day den sch end at 1015.. shar0n they all can g0 h0me at tt time.. sh0 g00d~ bt i cant=[ gt N level oral s0 stress~ mua eng s0 farkin lan.. hw t0 pass lyk tt s0 flunk it de..


all or nothing

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realized its over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something, somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone
Who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart
But I don't show it, show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe its right I know it, know it
Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing....

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside
For me in your life

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

All........


b0i.. u left mi here alone wib jz a c0r on 24th 0f march.. it hurt al0t n e w0und is stil here since tt dae.. *sigh* it wil be a w0und tt wil nv be able t0 heal... n0 matter wat... i stil love ya.. =[
l0ve u boi~
meiping || 9:15 PM

t0day 7th 0f jUly le... *sigh* s0 fast g0nna 3 weeks le lehz.. =X miss him sh0 much hmmm cann0t cann0t.. must st0p myself manz... =s
went t0 sch00l as usual n0r m0rning alm0st f0rg0t t0 get 0ff e bus sia.. c0z was readin stuff... =x
hmmm.. went sch00l le den g0 find kun yu n0r.. tt qingyi's de br0.. say wat yst cant find mi in sch00l wth, yst after sch00l waited f0r him in e canteen n0r... den m0rning reached sch00l le g0 find him pass him qingyi's de letter n0rz.. den i ask wh0 is qingyi's br0 he act blur.. s0 wat de him~!!! haha.. but nbm lar.. hmmm tt small lil b0y changed al0t le sia.. bec0me very tan den als0 l00k m0re yanda0 le.. =x haa.. t0day gt readin peri0d but didn read much c0z yl pull mi g0 t0ilet pei her n0r... den she said she feel very c0ld like sick lik tt de.. als0 asked mi abt sat de thingy.. sianz full.. shar0n g0nna g0 f0r weddin dinner s0 cant g0 out den i ask ks pei w0.. d0nn0 can an0t lar.. anyway sat i als0 must g0 MCDS t0 settle my old case de thingy s0 man fan lehz~ waste my time.. cant u guys juz d0 it urself i g0 der als0 d0 nth de wat.. lalalalala
t0day after sch00l i went h0me wib yl t0 change 1st.. c0z t0t might be g0in ktv with ha0.. but last min cancel le.. ka0~!! hai w0 rush.. haha.. but nvm n0r.. nv g0 ktv le i g0 meet yl and ks.. den pei ks g0 pierce her ear.. hmmm.. after tt walk walk in amk area den leave f0r my h0use le.. went bishan with yl den sat at my h0use de v0id-deck t0k t0k.. t0k al0t sia.. but e t0pic always hab him de.. d0nn0 why.. *sigh* n0 matter h0w i change e t0pic we will always end up t0kin abt him..
hmmmm.. t0k f0r an h0ur 0r s0 le went t0 buy sum f00d and eat eat n0rz.. buy le went back t0 v0id deck and sit den started t0king abt him again.. sigh.. why our t0pic always hab him inside de? h0w can i f0rget him? i d0nn0.. i realli d0nn0 manz.. =\ wh0 can help mi?

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meiping || 8:27 PM

erm... t0day ar? as usual.. g0 t0 sch00l n0r.. s0 b0ring.. t0day have ODT check but i cant find mine.. haha.. t0ld sw bring f0r mi but she tt idi0t f0rg0t t0 bring.. always lik tt de.. aiya suan le used t0 it als0.. hmmm.. t0day ar? gt a new maths teacher n0rz.. guess wat.. he is s0 b0ring n0r~ realli very b0ring man like a woodbl0ck or wat de lar.. s0 sian one his less0n.. then the way he t0k w0rst man.. cant hear clearly de.. haha.. when he start real less0n h0r n0 0ne less0n.. wh0le class 29 ppl 16 of us sleepin le.. tw0 less0n summ0re.. whaha.. =x den i write my letter.. anyway after sch00l went mph n0r.. b0ught e b00ks i saw yst with yl... 'my st0ry' by dave pelzer.. hmmm.. nice b00ks.. if anyone see this bl0g.. g0 try out tt b00k~! it is realli damn farkin nice.. haha.. but ex sia.. c0st mi abt 33 bucks.. *sigh* der g0 e m0ney i w0n fr0m e s0ccer match.. haha.. stil g0t one m0re b00k t0 buy.. als0 by dave pelzer.. als0 ar0und 30 bucks.. g0sh.. der g0 mua m0ney sia.. w0n 100 plus fr0m e s0ccer match.. but n0w buy tw0 b00ks left with 30 bucks nia.. *sigh* aiya. better than nth ba.. sian.. this sat li0nel c0ming out le.. wanna t0 see him de.. but cant.. haiz.. suan le ba.. you ku nan yan.. =[
t0day shar0n seem dulan with us.. s0rrie ar gal.. =[ den she jita0 juz take bus jiu g0 le.. sorrie left ya al0ne summ0re u n0t in g00d m00d.. but at least u didn wear a mask.. *sigh*
sat is c0ming.. wat sh0uld i d0? g0 or d0n g0? =[ *c0nfused*
meiping || 9:11 PM

yea~!! t0day y0uth dae sia.. n0 sch00l man.. haha.. s0 g00d.. t0day slp til 12 plus then w0ke up n0r.. wake up le g0t a sms fr0m yl.. hmmm.. ask mi g0 out eat and walk walk... met her at 4.. then stil early i g0 amk wei qi de h0use n0r.. geex l0ng time nv g0 le than he als0 suddenly c0r mi ask mi g0 pei him coz he in h0use sup.. whaha.. 0bi~ wh0 ask him kana ri0tting case.. =PpPp den i g0 tt time lunch time wat den als0 nv eat c0z juz w0ke up den his m0ther c00k mi lunch and soup~ wah.. bery nice sia e sweet potato s0up.. juz l0ve it manz.. geex.. next time g0 again.. hha.. den leave his h0use ar0und 4 g0 meet yl at j8.. pai seh ar. abit late.. =x d0nn0 why juz see yl nv t0k or wat jiu luff le haha.. weird sia.. =X s0 went j8 walk walk n0r.. than slack slack als0..
walk finish j8 le g0 c0ffee sh0p eat n0r.. den yl de fren came n0r.. tt ape.. =x haha.. shar0n they all all c0r his ape.. n i als0 d0nn0 h0w t0 spell his name lar.. =X den sit at c0ffee sh0p tok tok awhile ape jiu g0 h0me 1st le.. he g0 back change.. den yl and mi went back j8 again.. b0ring~ den ape came back.. haha.. after tt went bishan de s11 eat dinner.. lalalala.. tt ape s0 quiet.. after dinner walked back t0 yl's de h0use de v0id deck den sit der t0k t0k l0r.. after tt ape went h0me le yl and mi went j8 de mph.. spend alm0st an h0ur der.. hmmm.. i saw tw0 b00ks i wanna t0 buy sia.. but b0th b00k plus t0gether c0st mi abt 60 bucks.. s0 ex lehz.. *sigh* must save $$ le.. gee.. cant wait t0 buy b0th b00ks.... nice b00k lai de.. =] den g0 buy f00d f0r m0m jiu g0 h0me le.. on e way h0me saw elvin sia.. haha.. nth much le.. =]
meiping || 9:28 PM

hmmm.. last nite watch vcd til ar0und 3 den slp n0r.. tired manz.. m0rning time when slping g0t a c0r fr0m li0nel sia.. sh0ck~! i jita0 jump up and ans his c0r.. =X waited s0 l0ng le.. =x gee.. but t0k less than 5 mins jiu hang up le n0r.. lalala.. aiya.. nvm la.. better than nv c0r.. go back slp le than gt a c0r fr0m kai and zai.. tired manz stil c0r.. =X zai ask mi g0 eat breakfast.. but lazy lar.. s0 nv g0.. den r0t 0n my bed til ar0und 1 den g0t up.. tml y0uth day... garb they all say wanna g0 k b0x.. think say nia lar.. s0 d0n think will g0 find them ba.. lalala..
woke up le brush up le jiu slack infr0nt 0f my tvbee.. juz n0w went out f0r dinner with gan ma l0r.. she treat mi geex save m0ney t0day.. didn spent any cent.. after dinner jiu g0 h0me le.. den oline f0r awhile kai c0r mi again.. den jiu pei him chat n0r.. lalalala..
after tt c0me online and bl0g le.. sianz.. tml d0nn0 g0 where lehz.. shar0n g0in out with her fren.. den yl als0 b0 sms mi 0r wat... think skack at h0me ba.. sian manz.. b0ring sunday sia.. always e same f0r sunday de.. zzzzzz

boi.. a PaRt oF u wiLL aLwaYz Be w|f Me....so caLL On Me Shld u evA NeEd Me... missing u always..
meiping || 10:23 PM

hmmm.. july le sia.... s0 fast.. N level c0min le.. sigh.. must start t0 study le.. if n0t h0w am i g0nna g0 sec 5? and stay in sg? must w0rk hard le.. =]
t0day ar? w0ke up by shar0nd e sms at ar0und 12 ba? haha.. s0 sleeply summ0re s0 nice t0 slp t0day... yawnz.. tired manz.. =X s0 met shar0n at my h0use der de busstop n0r.. den tak 162 g0 ps.. wah~ very l0ng leh.. like an h0ur or s0.. reached there le jiu g0 l0ng j0hn eat.. den saw sum0ne like ricky lehz~ but he m0re yanda0 then ricky~!! l0lx.. =X anyway wanted t0 watch wildstuck at PS de.. but wh0 n0es when we reached PS the Q was farking l0ng manz... s0 l0ng.. den b0th me and shar0n sian haf le.. s0 nv watch at PS.. t0t of g0in 0thers places or watch other sh0w at 0ther place de.. s0 when 7-11 buy newpaper.. haha.. then when sittin outside 7-11 shar0n saw ivan.. l0lx.. s0 zun.. g0 til ps als0 can see ivan de.. sit der think 0f quite a l0ng time le in the end als0 nv g0 watch.. s0 when in ps and walk walk juz nice ps gt e food fev de thingy.. s0 shar0n g0 buy thingy eat.. b0ught a belt at hereen de 77th street.. c0z mi ar0und 8 buck.. den went creps eat n0r.. spend about 13 bucks n0r.. ex sia.. haha..
after tt take mrt g0 hereen n0r.. g0 hereen walk walk le jiu g0 far east.. haha.. den dia0 at far east f0r awhile n0r.. c0z still early..b0ught a belt at hereen de 77th street.. c0z mi ar0und 8 buck.. den went creps eat n0r.. spend about 13 bucks n0r.. ex sia.. haha.. hmmm.. in the end ended up in j8 again~! zzzzz.. actually went s0 mani place is t0 sh0p f0r cl0ths.. onli shar0n n0t mi.. =X c0z she might be g0ing f0r wedding dinner.. s0 she went t0 buy skirt.. yawnz.. tired man.. pei her choose cloth.. pengz.. like yl le sia.. went j8 de p0a spend ar0und 1 h0ur der juz f0r a skirt.. 0ne h0ur lehz~~~~ s0 tired le n0w.. dying s00n =| in the end shar0n b0ught a grey c0l0ur de skirt den als0 a shirt or watever at ice lem0n tee n0rz..
buy ha0 le i jiu g0 h0me le n0rz.. yawzn... wh0 g0nna win e next match sia? hard t0 bet lehz!! por or gre??? wh0 wh0 wh0? l0lx.. ohya.. saw ah wei at void deck again.. hmmm.. c0me t0 think 0f e past.. l0ng time nv t0k t0 ah wei le.. think at least a yr? think g0t t0 n0e him at chalet le.. den s0 zun stay nice w0.. haha.. ah wei n0w bec0me m0re n m0re shuai le sia.. =D~

I may have cried a million times since the day we've been apart, but what remains in my heart is the happiness you've given me...
meiping || 9:23 PM

*shag*
t0day as usual wat i d0 everyday l0r.. meet xf and shar0n.. but this m0rning was raining cats and d0gs n0r.. actually d0n wanna bring yu san juz walk in e rain de.. but on e way t0 busstop met ah wei.. den he pass mi his yu san.. s0 sweet 0f him.. w0nder wat he was d0in der sh0 early.. anyway reacher amk le wh0 n0es e rain bec0me smaller le.. hai w0 bring e yu san here and there.. than yst g0t CIP de.. but nv g0.. n0t onli mi.. the class one gt 0ne ppl g0.. 0nli sunny s0 guai g0.. =X mDm ye0ng was damn farked up ab0ut it.. =X l0lx..
t0day after sch00l i f0rg0t ab0ut e yu san lehz~! die.. den h0w t0 gif ah wei back tml? =X haha.. juz n0w c0r him say i 0thers days den gif him back he ask why den i say huh.. nth la.. den he say u f0rg0t bring h0me rite.. l0lx.. he s0 clever sia.. =X
after sch00l went cine.. shar0n meetin bs der n0r.. den g0 der walk walk.. *sigh* on e bus t0 der i was thinking s0 much.. but d0nn0 why my mind stil a blank.. haiz.. aiya d0nn0 le lar.. hmmmm.. than bought mua fav c00kies.. yummy yummy.. gee.. but less than haf an h0ur finish le lar.. =[ nvm.. 0ther daes then g0 buy again.. gee.. cant wait t0 eat.. =X after pass e present t0 bs le.. n0 matter wher we g0 like s0 qia0 de.. saw them.. s0 mad.. =X after cine went hereen then fr0m hereen jiu g0 ngee an city n0r.. g0 slack.. yawnz.. walked till my leg pain le lar.. summ0re g0t bring s0 much b00ks h0me n0r.. went h0me quite early t0day n0r.. 4 jiu reached h0me.. w0nder h0ws shar0n n0w.. s0 quite juz n0w... h0pe she is fine manz.. my dear gal..
reached h0me le t00 tired le.. with0ut bathing i went t0 slp le.. =XxXx haha... think slp f0r 2 h0ur lik tt den w0ke up by mua hp de miss c0r.. n0 number de.. sec0nd time le f0r t0day.. w0nder wh0 was it.. everyime c0r als0 wr0ng timing de.. =X haha.. tml ar? d0nn0 wanna g0 wher lehz.. sian..

boi.. i oNli cAn leAvE u al0ne n0w n prEtEnd tAt wE hAf nV mEt..fEll iN l0ve..n pArt..ntH bUt strangers.. *sigh* i miss you l0ts...
meiping || 8:44 PM

erm.. t0day ar? went t0 sch00l n0r.. s0 tired sia.. d0nnn0 why.. juz very tired n0r.. =X den fell aslp in class during hist0ry less0n.. t0day i change place sia... didn sit wib sw and gang.. went t0 sit with mua 'maid' felicia n0r.. =XxXx hmmm.. than play s0 much wib them t0day.. fun sia.. haha.. s0 fun~~ gee.. think tml g0 sit wib them als0.. =X haha.. felicia g0nna g0 mad s00n ba..
sian then t0day yl never c0me sch c0z she sick.. p00r yl.. h0pe she get well s00n n0r.. hmmm.. den after sch xf gt chi 0ral wat.. s0 left mi and shar0n nia.. actualli shar0n wait f0r bs de c0r t0 g0 out de.. but tt bs think c0py hw let teacher catch den must stay back.. haiz.. think shar0n sure very sad de.. then juz wear a mask t0 sh0w tt she is happi n0r.. shar0n ar shar0n.. d0n wear mask le ha0 bu ha0? see u lyk tt i very sad and feel s0 bad.. cant be up t0 any help n0r.. w0 qing ai de shar0n.. cheer up ba.. u always g0t mi.. see n0w even in e same boat wib ya le.. =] s0 d0n feel al0ne k gal? haha..
s0 after sch00l went far east with shar0n.. than e bus uncle of 132 very ka0bei n0r.. say mi.. i say him back ka0bei lar.. ka0.. den i g0 upstair sit le he als0 lan lan.. he think he wh0 ar? my father ar.. *pui* hmmm.. then reach far east went t0 make a ring.. geex.. n0w gt tw0 ring.. s0 i wear e old ring at mua neck.. s0 went t0 b0ught a necklaces.. w0nder xf wen will find out tt i g0t this ring.. =X shar0n als0 g0t a ring f0r herself.. shar0n b0ught al0t of stuff t0day sia.. rich gal.. =X after tt went l0ng j0hn t0 makan.. after tt went bishan de j8..
c0z shar0n wanna buy lipgloss.. *g0sh* our dear gal gal shar0n is gr0wing up le.. n0.. i sh0uld say bec0ming m0re and m0re *gal* le~ hur hur.. think onli shar0n will n0e wat i mean lar h0r.. =X haha.. den at j8 i b0ught hair clips... lalalala.. 5 plus jiu g0 h0me le.. reach h0me ar0und 6 put my bag le jiu g0 meet ken lehz.. haha.. ps junwei.k0r again.. =X he keep ask mi g0 play p00l.. but i als0 d0nn0 h0w t0 play then he like s0 pr0.. i sure l0se de wat.. den nv g0.. think he dulan le.. =X pai seh lar k0r.. next time when i learn le then g0 play wib ya n0r.. l0lx.. =X
juz n0w when bathing tt idi0t xi0ng c0r mua h0use den my dad ans.. hai w0 kana sc0ldin.. ka0~ ~!@#$%^&*()_ creat ma fan f0r mi sia.. ~!@#$%^&*()_
n0thing much le.. lalalalal
*sigh*
yst nite nth t0 d0.. den g0 friendster play.. den g0 search f0r ppl.. saw as0n de new pic sia.. hmmm.. he didn change much fr0m wat i remember.. 0r fr0m wat i think n0r.. haiz.. suddenly i like miss him al0t al0t.. al0t m0re then i miss L.. d0nn0 why... but the feeling is juz there when i saw his pic.. everything came back... the past.. *siGH* i miss ya as0n.. ya n0e? bet u d0n even gif a damn abt mi ba...
meiping || 9:11 PM

wah.. last nite black out sia~ mua whole blk kana sia.. den s0 dark.. kana sh0cked sia.. c0z i using lappy than suddenly all bec0me black black dark dark de.. heng use lappy if n0t all the thingy i typed g0ne le.. gee.. =] then s0 h0t n0r~! but lucky onli blackout f0r ab0ut half an h0ur f0r bishan n0r.. 0ther places als0 kana.. think onli west or east nv kana ba.. n0t sure.. f0rg0t le.. then wanna slp de.. but cant c0z t00 h0t den wait and wait and wait.. yst slp very early.. 10 plus jiu 0rh 0rh le.. 1st time sia..
*sigh*
t0day ar? went t0 school n0r.. den hab t0 spray mua hair black again.. c0z yst didn pass the check.. sianz.. sp0ilt mua hair nia.. think g0nna dye black s00n ba.. keep spray my hair sure sp0ilt de n0r.. waste m0ney and time t00.. lucky t0day pass mua hair check n0r but mrs sng n0e is spray de.. aiya.. hack care her man.. than after tt went back hall see MV ba? n0t sure.. is ab0ut sm0kin de n0r.. than tt idi0t shar0n lee ask mi quit.. haha... aiy0.. quitting le lar.. s0 ex.. wher gt m0ney.. haiz.. anyway is sad and fan than sm0ke de lia0 n0w.. actually wanna wash mua hair during recess time de.. but tt felicia say gt mr J.. then nv wash.. end up after sch than wash then must tahan the spray s0 l0ng.. s0 weird de that feeling.. hmmm.. t0day during chem less0n wr0te a s0ng? n0t reali is i write de lar.. is here c0py abit der c0py abit then here add abit there add abit n0r.. den bec0me mua s0ng f0r him le.. =XxXx actually tt s0ng i wr0te f0r fun nia.. wun gif him de lar.. juz feel t00 sian le n0r.. lalalala..
yl t0ld mi t0day she n0t g0in out with us den i f0rg0t all abt it and made shar0n, xf and mi wait in sch f0r her like a idi0t.. =X paI seh ar.. last min den rem yl say she w0rkin t0day s0 nv pei us.. =X haha.. s0rrie ar.. s0 we went t0 shar0n h0use then g0 her h0use der de c0urt play badmintion.. haha.. then by luck w0n 3 to 4 times.. gee.. w0n xf shar0n and mc.. =X t0day junwei.k0r actually ask mi g0 pei him de.. but i nv.. ps him =X pai seh ar.. wh0 ask u ask mi g0 play p00l.. i als0 d0nn0 h0w t0 play ask mi g0 als0 d0 n0thing de wat.. wait next time when i learned le than g0 play wib ya lar.. =X then juz n0w met zai again.. he pass mi k0ven gif mi de present n0r.. s0 big~! nv 0pen it s0 d0nn0 wat is it.. d0n feel lik 0pening it 0r t0uching it.. s0 juz threw it at a side le..
met him take present le jiu g0 h0me le.. als0 n0 m00d t0k t00 much wib tt zai.. *sigh*
i'm realli n0t as str0ng as wat i seem t0 be mah? wat he said was real mah? haiz.. i miss ya l0ts ya n0e? bet ya d0nn0 de lar.. haiz..

meiping || 8:57 PM

haiks... June c0ming t0 a end le sia.. 29th 0f june le lehz. s0 fast he went in 6 days le.. miss him l0tx.. stil gt 2 m0re weeks t0 g0.. sigh.. s0 l0ng..
anyway t0day as usual met xf and shar0n n0r.. but was abit late.. c0z missed the bus n0r.. than summ0re hab t0 g0 sch early t0day t0 spray mua hair.. c0z 0f yst hair check lar.. than i kana.. damn it n0r.. anyway.. spray le als0 nv pass.. ka0.. then mrs sng say gif us one m0re day n0r.. wth.. waste my time sia..0ne m0re dae als0 n0 use sia.. n0 time t0 dye 0r wat.. think tml spray again n0r.. sianz.. den t0day after school shar0n went h0me than xf g0 meet stead.. den actually mi wanna g0 meet zai ask him pei w0 de.. den yingling say pei w0 awhile n0rz... than i went j8 wib her le.. g0 walk walk than g0 eat als0.. lastly went p0pular buy thingy f0r sch00l use de.. b0ught pens n0teb00k and stuff.. wah.. ex sia.. c0z mi 8 buck..
then pei yl g0 h0me change 1st.. c0z she lata g0ing sell ice cream wib weilun n0r.. then taking same bus ask mi wait f0r her.. hmmm.. after tt pei her wait f0r 88 awhile den i g0 bath and change le jiu g0 zai's h0use r0tx n0r.. den at his h0use very tired fell aslp at his s0fa.. haha.. den his m0m s0 g00d... pillow gif mi hug her mon understand mi t00 well le.. n0 w0nder is my gan ma.. n0e i slp sure wanna hug thingy de... gee.. den wake up and had dinner had zai's house.. den he send w0 h0me n0r. ar0und 8 like tt.. den reached h0me le jiu bath again den c0me bl0g bl0g le.. hmm.. thx shar0n f0r helping mi change mua bl0g de skin.. geez.. thx w0r.. =] muackz~~
meiping || 9:05 PM

weeee. hahas. im here. shar0n is here. ur la0g0ng is here. =X hahas. i change ur back g0und le =] tata.
meiping || 10:58 PM

t0day 28th 0f jUne le.. time realli realli files sia.. haiz.. s0 fast school start le n0r.. sigh.. s0 mani days nv see n0r hear his v0ice le.. miss him l0tz.. =X
t0day as usual met sharon and xf at amk n0r.. than take 166 t0 sch.. stil early s0 i eat breakfast.. after tt like last time.. hear those bl00dy teacher t0k c0ck sing s0ng n0rz.. ka0.. den suddenly gt hair check.. knn.. den i 1st gal in my class t0 kana caught sia.. toopid teacher.. biase sia.. haha.. but nvm.. later i kana send t0 the other side le gt shar0n lee and sharon tan clara diana and m0re pei w0.. whaha.. =x n0t al0ne at least..than g0t sec0nd time de check wat.. t0t will be send home den t0t of having breakfast b4 g0ing h0me de.. but haha.. i nv kana send h0me.. onli given warning n0r.. den by tml hair must be black.. nahz.. u think i care? pui.. e m0st spray gif u see nia.. u think i s0 rich mehz.. l0lx.. den g0 f0r less0n n0r.. s0 sian de..nth t0 d0 de.. ZzZzZz.. t0day gt p0a.. s0 shar0n went h0me 1st..
after p0a went far east.. pei yl g0 make ring actualli i als0 wanna make de.. but xf der den e w0rds i wanna crave cann0t let her n0e.. =x s0 ask shar0n next time than pei w0 g0 make n0r.. den i als0 xchange hp with mua fren.. who tt fren? mi mi~ haha.. he use my ph0ne den i use his n0r.. lalalala.. quite nice t0 use lar.. n0t bad.. very light als0.. =X
after far east jiu g0 h0me le.. reached h0me le jitao fell aslp at mua s0fa.. den woke up at 7 plus jiu g0 bath.. lalala.. than c0me bl0g le.. sianz.. n0w like spy.. must help junwei.k0r and k0k find out ppl de background n stuff.. ka0.. aiya.. nvm lar.. juz help help.. llala.. *g0ne*

sh0uld i let ya g0?? haiz.. i juz cant make up my mind.. when i didn it is always a failure.. f0reva de l0rz.. *sigh* why when c0me t0 bgr i always fail de? why? haiz..
meiping || 8:13 PM

erm.. bl0g about t0day 1st.. today ar.. sunday n0r.. nv g0 out or wat.. juz stay at home n rot.. w0ke up at 12 plus.. den went out meet zai f0r lunch den went h0me rot n0r.. den wake tbvee tbvee tbvee until 8 plus tok on phone with kai awhile then c0me bl0g le.. haiz.. b0ring day.. yawnz.. zzzz

ok.. n0w abt yst de.. yst bl0g ha0 de.. but comp last min hang! arghz.. hate it manz..
here it g0es lar h0r.. yst went t0 sch.. c0z i d0nn0 fnn was cancel.. damn it.. s0 went h0me le.. den change le.. went bishan mrt to meet yl sharon and xf.. den t00k mrt d0wn t0 tamp area find ly n0r.. find tt cbk.. ly's mother damn xia lan sia.. big fuck ar.. lj lar.. ka0.. n0 w0nder have this kind of fucking s0n manz.. say wat yl n0t a gd gal.. say till she like very cheap or wat.. knn.. her 0we nuer als0 l0.. worst than yl l0.. w0nder stil a V 1st an0t.. ccb.. after tt went jurong.. c0z wanna buy bag f0r xf de.. wh0 n0es tt bag sold out le.. den end up buying cloths f0r her.. wah.. ex sia.. went 37D buy n0r.. c0z 20 buck each f0r mi shar0n and yl c0z we share m0ney buy n0r.. after tt yl went h0me 1st.. c0z she have t0 help her m0m c00k dinner or wat lar.. den she als0 meeting weilun later c0z they g0ing t0 sell ice cream.. s0 the rest of us with mingchun went arcade der dia0.. think stay der f0r about an h0ur? after tt xf went h0me 1st.. c0z she bluff her m0n say she g0 sch.. den ming chun send her h0me.. left mi and shar0n at jurong pt r0tx n0r.. b0th 0f us nth t0 d0 wat.. summ0re stil early.. s0 we fr0m jurong tak 157 all e way to tpy.. den actualli wanna from tpy take 88 t0 an0ther end de.. but in the end nv.. coz sharon suddenly feel like going tm.. s0 change plan g0 tm n0r.. g0 tm walk walk le jiu g0 h0me le.. haiz..
then on the bus 157 i think al0t sia.. haiz.. think tt i sh0uld h0ld on or gif? haiz.. sh0uld i juz let ya g0 and juz keep this mimi in mua heart f0reva.. than bless u tw0? haiz.. in end als0 gt n0 answer.. haiz.. den nite time smsed with dave k0r awhile think he fell aslp haf way.. den i als0 g0 slp le.. haiz.. ='[
meiping || 9:02 PM

arghz!!!!!!! g0nna g0 mad s00n le lar.. n0w at zai de h0use than use his comp bl0g lar..
t0day went t0 sch late lar.. than nv g0 f0r p0a.. went f0r fnn c0z cann0t find tt farkin mr ang! after fnn le den went j8. pei shar0n g0 buy her bag.. after tt went d0wn jur0ng.. den shar0n b0ught an0ther skirt n0rz.. 0p de.. after tt dia0 at der f0r while den g0 0ff le.. b0ught a new bag n shirt.. same shirt with shar0n.. after tt went h0me le.. c0z later need g0 f0r my fren de dad songka..
then they n0w say ly bluff us.. ccb.. i toy ar let him play around de.. fark him man.. ccb.. i'l get to e bottem of this man.. knn.. say what cut wirst den say wat g0 thai! knn.. lj lar.. nnb.. bluff mi.. yeo lin ying and yeo zhen jie u two better watch out.. fark! cbk!
met my fren den went t0gether. after tt went h0me around 1015.. c0z late f0r my pr0b time le.. den my parents kpkb.. fuck lar.. ccb.. den quarrel coz of this.. quarrel till very h0t! den i jita0 g0 r00m n cl0se d00r.. den they stil kpkb.. i already very tired 0f this life le lar.. everyday quarrel.. n0t like a h0me at all! wat is this h0me f0r? wat? wh0 can tell mi? i had enuff le l0r.. realli enuff le.. haiz.. i hate it.. i'm like every other childrens l0r.. i wanna t0 have a happi family.. with care warthm and love.. but why i cant get any fr0m it.. haiz.. is this h0me? wh0 can tell mi? it is m0re like a 'zhang chang'! haiz.. i hate this type of life l0r.. realli hate it al0t.. s0b.. why? haiz.. g0d is nv fair t0 mi?! he t00k away s0 such thingy fr0m mi.. n0w he stil d0n let me 0ff.. still wanna let mi suffer.. haiz.. i w0nder i stil can hold on t0 it mah.. haiz.. can i? but if i juz leave like tt.. ppl around mi will hate mi de.. haiz.. sob..
meiping || 11:14 PM

t0day 24th of june lerz.... felicia's bday t0day~~~~ happi bday w0r.. haha.. an0ther june babies.. geex.. may ur wish come true gal.. =] bless ya..
t0day had phy less0n and i think gt test ba.. haha.. den i nv g0.. 0ver slept.. woke up at 9.. den take mua time sl0wly g0 t0 sch.. reach der around 0945? d0n rem le.. after tt wait in canteen for shar0n n xf t0 c0me d0wn.. den mean time jasmine came over t0 tok t0 me.. haha.. thx f0r accompanying f0r tt 10 to 20 mins w0r jie.. geez.. jasmine is mua gan jie.. but h0r.. als0 d0n l00k like de lehz.. hardly t0k de.. =X she als0 xf den jie.. den after tt i als0 nv g0 f0r eng.. went t0wn wib sista.. went heeren.. c0z shar0n wanna buy hair clip n0r.. 0n e way t0 der they keep staring at e r0ad.. n0e why? c0z they l00kin f0r beatle car! s0 tat they can k0k each 0ther head.. sh0 mad de them.. heng i nv kana.. wnet der t00 early le den all e sh0p n0t open de.. sian 1/2 le.. after tt walked to far east n0r.. den buy clip le slack slack around till abt 1230 den g0 le.. went amk.. wanna buy thingy de.. but tt sh0p cl0se.. damn it! after tt take bus back to sch again f0r fnn n0r..
wh0 n0es fnn t0day end s0 early.. den we n0 where t0 g0.. went bishan j8 n0r.. den walk walk eat eat slack slack jiu g0 h0me le.. nth much le.. reached h0me le bath le eat le watch tv le den c0me blog blog.. tml stil gt fnn.. sian lar! stil gt p0a tml.. d0n feel lik seeing tt ang lehz.. make mua m00d w0rst nia.. haiz.. *sigh*

i miss him.. but does he care? will he n0e? 0r sh0uld i say he d0n even need t0 n0e.. haiz.. *sigh* sick and tired..
meiping || 8:53 PM

hmmm.. 23rd of june liao sia.. time flies so fast.. s0 fast already 23rd of june le.. this yr de june holiday so sux~! so fast end de n0rz.. onli gt one week of holidays.. c0z 1st week in malaysia le.. den came back sg onli on e second week.. sianz manz~ arghz..
t0day came t0 bl0g sh0 early c0z in sch de lab.. den scare later at nite rush fnn den d0n hab time t0 bl0g.. anyway last nite say ha0 wanna go parklane with weilun de.. but den suddenly n0 m00d.. than nv g0.. stay at h0me n r0t.. pai seh ar.. den als0 wait f0r c0r n0rz.. haiz.. disapp0intment n0rz.. didn get his c0r.. den wait till 3 plus den slp.. haiz.. gonna miss ya le.. =[ anyway w0ke up le t0day.. havin hist at 8.. but i w0ke up at 8 n0r.. den take my time t0 sch.. reach sch 0840.. ch0y als0 late s0 n0t my fault.. lalalala.. than nv g0 f0r maths went tpy to eat n l00k f0r fnn stuff with shar0n lee felicia and bell.. lalalalala..
after tt went back to sch than g0 f0r fnn le.. al0ne.. xf n sharon went amk de lib n0rz.. den i alone in sch..
fnn is making mi mad sia.. s0 mani t0 d0 de.. arghz..

*regrets* aH^gAL *regrets*
sadness once fill my heart and loneliness once became my company.. haiz.. sobbing in sadness with dry tears.. and heart being stabbing and bleed quietly...
meiping || 2:58 PM

t0day is mua ba0bei xuefen de bday~!! happy 16th bday w0r~!! haha.. may ur wish come true.. geex.. bless u and him w0r.. l0ng l0ng n sweet sweet.. =]
anyway w0ke up very early t0day... t0t i hab less0n at 8.. but actually d0n hab.. onli hab phy which start at 1130.. but b0 bian i als0 went out le than n0e de.. than juz nice gt a miss c0r fr0m li0nel den c0r him back n0r.. den he say c0me d0wn amk find us n0rz.. den met him at amk de bus stop.. waited f0r shar0n n xf f0r such a l0ng time ar! den i c0r shar0n end up she jux w0ke up! *d0tx* than nvm n0r.. li0nel n me t00k bus n went t0 sch de back gate n wait f0r them and yl.. waited f0r abount an h0ur man! than they came le n0rz.. s0 sian.. mean time at e bus stop kana k0k by li0nel n0rz.. c0z 0f the toopid wu gui ce.. sharon w0rst.. she k0k mua head very hard ar! den s0 painful de.. after tt they went to for phy den yl came out.. yl pon everything, but jus go f0r ge0g n0rz.. than shar0n they all went late f0r phy n maths.. s0 we went out t0 eat eat.. went thomas road der eat dian xin.. s0 b0 lia0.. after tt i went back to sch with sharon they all and join their maths less0n, think lionel they all went home ba.. but end up also nv g0 phy.. end up at sharon's de house.. g0 der c00k c00k n0rz.. shar0n made cakes and stuff.. after tt took a cab back to sch f0r fnn.. haiz.. getting real sick soon le.. =[ voice als0 changin lia0.. haha.. think ate t00 much heaty f00d le n0rz..
after fnn jiu g0 h0me le.. than c0me bl0g first.. c0z later might n0t be g0ing 0nline le n0rz.. need t0 rush mua fnn.. *stress*
ohya.. tml li0nel g0ing NS le w0r. going botak s00n.. haha.. g0nna miss him le w0r.. =[ haha.. 3 weeks wun be able t0 see him.. haha.. anyway.. all the best to li0nel n yingling.. =] *best wishes*
meiping || 6:36 PM

last nite didn realli slp.. coz i have nth to do at all.. so typed e story of koven tingy tingy zai and weilun.. geex.. donno wat to do wat.. than type haf way i go orh orh le.. c0z realli t00 tired.. den m0rning w0ke up by my hp de miss c0r.. gt abt 4 to 6 miss c0r n0rz.. morning never g0 f0r ms w0ng de eng.. den phy als0 nv g0.. skip phy.. went j8 t0 watch the best bet with cherly sharon xf yl and li0nel n0rz..
the show was damn b0ring.. or maybe i didn have e m00d t0 watch ba? haiz.. d0nn0 why als0.. c0z 0f sum reas0n n0rz.. c0z 0f *him* he was in my mind every min and every second.. i tried to wash him away from my mind.. but i counldn.. it juz seem tat he was stuck der.. ha.. d0nn0 larz..
after the sh0w went back sch f0r fnn.. fnn ended early t0day.. ended at f0ur, c0z mr 0ng sick and he hab t0 rush t0 see e d0c by 0430.
s0 we left early n0r.. den waited f0r li0nel yl and wei lun outside e sch f0r them t0 c0me.. after they came le slack at e busstop f0r awhile than i went t0 h0me t0 change.. while xf n shar0n went h0me.. f0r li0nel n weilun they went t0 weilun's h0use n0r.. nth much le..
after i change le went d0wn t0 bugis t0 meet li0nel n wei lun.. but they late n0rz.. den after tt juz diao at bugis de arcade n0rz.. supp0se t0 meet chirs de.. c0z he als0 at bugis.. but i last min ps him.. t0day wh0le day als0 nv realli t0k.. didn have the m00d.. haiz.. alalal.. diao at bugis f0r awhile le than went h0me le..
d0n bl0g le.. i g0 write story of koven n gang.. then try t0 post it in mua bl0g.. haha.. s0 mad 0f mi..

aH^gAL
t0 him: think u will never noe my feeling f0r u.. never ba.. haha.. maybe i was juz too silly and too stupid le.. haiz.. *g0ne*
meiping || 9:58 PM

t0day ar.. 20th 0f juNe n0r.. 2 m0re days xf bday le w0r.. geez.. stil d0nn0 wat t0 get f0r her lehz.. headache.. last nite on ph0ne wib l0ts 0f pplz sia.. even c0nf.. this few days li0nel de temper bery h0t sia.. alm0st every nite hear him say th0se bad w0rds.. h0pe he will be happi b4 he g0 in nS n0r.. anyway.. went t0 meet xf at tpy de lib n0r.. t0 d0 mua fnn.. than ly very sia0 t0day.. g0 cut himself! sia0 de lehz him! sia0 kia.. den hai w0 kana sc0ld by tt cb zhenjie.. wh0 he think he is.. big fuck ar! cb.. he als0 n0t mua wh0.. als0 n0t mua fren say w0.. knn.. nnb!
after tt meet li0nel le den shar0n als0 came le.. den slack in e lib f0r sumtime l00king f0r fnn de stuff.. after tt went 0ff le.. think leave der ar0und 3? den went tpy walk walk n0rz.. li0nel n shar0n every0ne als0 wanna g0 jiu shi d0n wanna g0 tpy de ent center.. humpz! nvm n0r.. den end up xf g0 meet her m0m 1st.. den the three 0f us went t0 j8 t0 eat ramen again! omg.. t0day s0 sia0 als0.. haha.. erm.. t0day shar0n nv luff s0 much n0r.. is li0nel wh0 was luffing all the way man.. haha.. t0day li0nel and yl g0ing t0 wei lun de h0use t0n.. haha.. heng i gt pr0b cannot ton wib them.. if n0t i sure kana say by them de.. =]
yst shar0n s0 clever.. guess till wh0 i like sia.. pr0~ n0 w0nder is mua la0g0ng n0rz.. haix.. actualli i als0 d0nn0 i sh0uld wait 0r i sh0uld find an0ther guy again? confused man.. he is sumone i shouldn like.. don say like think als0 cann0t think de.. onli shar0n n tingy tingy jie n0e wh0 i like.. tingy tingy jie say i too silly le.. but am i? i d0nn0.. maybe ba.. haiz..

meiping || 8:41 PM

t0day after fnn went t0 yl's de h0use.. xf went t0 meet ming chun den shar0n g0in out with sy n fren n0rz.. den i al0ne.. s0 i g0 find yl.. lalalala.. yl n li0nel stead le... yawmz.. tired lehz.. den slack at yl de h0use n0r.. watch her play c0mp c0mp.. den g0 j8 walk walk n eat.. 4 went h0me le.. yl g0 meet sw g0 w0rk.. den i g0 h0me slack lia0.. reached h0me bath ha0 le den slp till 7.. n0w feel sh0 much better le n0r.. gastirc pain is aching le lar.. killing me s00n~!! after tt came t0 bl0g bl0g den g0in 0ff s00n le.. maybe meetin zai at 9 at mua h0use de area.. d0nn0 why he l00king f0r mi sia.. up t0 n0 gd de lar.. tt idi0t.. always di sia0 mi de~! parents went sentoas play.. all al0ne at h0me.. can blast s0ng sia.. ahah.. yeah~!
meiping || 8:05 PM

t0day 19th of june le.. n0w in sch having fnn~ s0 b0ring n tired lehz~ yaWnz.. zzzzzzz wanna slp le.. s0 c0me bl0g bl0g kill mua time.. now onli 10 plus leh.. stil gt 3 m0re h0urs t0 g0~ 0mg.. h0w t0 tahan dis 3 h0ur? *pengz* later shar0n g0in out wib sy n fren.. den maybe g0 h0me slp n0r.. this m0rning li0nel c0r me.. den woke mi up.. hai w0 t0ss 0n bed fr0m 2 t0 4 den slp..always lik tt de.. he told mi sumthing but i d0n realli rem lehz.. i blur blur tt time de.. den i saw mua hp gt s0 mani sms he sent de.. i als0 d0n0 wat it means.. *blur plus confuse*
nvm gt time den ask him again.. onli n0e he ji0 yl stead.. den yl als0 say ok ba.. lalalalala..
yst s0 farked up sia.. idi0t k0ven c0r n sc0ld mi.. damn him lar.. d0n think u k0r v big deal h0r! ka0.. ccb.. nnb.. ~!@#$%^&*()_+=-`
meiping || 10:16 AM

haiz~ nth in this w0rld last man.. nth~!!! n i mean it! haiz... 1st was wei ping wei lun k0r, than ah l0ng k0r, foll0w by dave , as0n, jie kai,k0ven k0r, lingy lingy den lastly mua family.. haiz... n0w is tingy tingy jie le.. s0b.. tingy tingy jie, i d0nn0 u will get t0 see this an0t lar.. but juz wanna t0 say sumthing t0 u... n0 matter wat happened i will always wait f0r ya.. even if u r g0in t0 jail.. n0 matter h0w l0ng, i will wait f0r ya de! n i realli pr0mise! i swear jie.. jie.. thank f0r being there when i needed u m0st.. thank f0r lending ur sh0ulder t0 cry 0n when n0 0ne was der f0r me.. thank f0r standing by mie tt time when even k0ven nv sided me.. but tt bitch.. thankz~ thankz f0r everythingy u hab d0ne f0r me.. s0rrie f0r mua ren xin and bu ting hua.. s0rrie f0r making u w0rried angry and cry f0r me.. s0rrie.. but jie, d0n w0rry.. i'll learn t0 gr0w up de, i wun let ya d0wn de~! haiz.. jie~ plz d0n be s0 silly~ plz d0n ever say u wanna die le.. plz d0n ever ask mi t0 take care 0f myself c0z i d0n wanna! i wanna ya t0 take care 0f me! i wanna ya jie.. d0n ever leave mi.. nv~ i hab l0se enuff stuffs le.. onli when i'm wib u i d0n hab t0 wear a toopid mask.. onli u can realli make mi feel tt i'm w0rth living.. jie.. i l0ve u.. ='[
meiping || 10:03 PM

hmmm.. gonna hab a very very very l0ng bl0g n0r.. c0z three day de bl0g all in once.. sure gonna type till peng de n0rz~ here I g0..
16th 0f juNe
t0day is mua bday~ haha.. sweet 16 le~ yeah.. dis m0ring 12 am didix c0r~ I t0t wh0 den he suddenly say happi bday jie den gif mi a kiss 0n e ph0ne~ s0 sweet n cute 0f him~! Den I went t0 slp le.. c0z hab t0 wake up early.. meeting bday b0i li0nel at j8 wib yl and shar0n.. den we went t0 sch t0 fetch xf n0r.. after tt went k-b0x 1st~ haha.. =] had a fun timeman hmmm.. 1st time xf sing s0ngy s0 wat.. haha.. den suddenly t0t 0f sum stuff.. dr0pped mua tears.. c0z 0f the s0ng 'all 0r n0thing' very nice s0ng wib very nice lyrics n0rz.. =X
after k-b0x went tpy de entertainment center n0r.. ka0.. den gt 0ne gal s0 xia lan n0r~! ka0! She help her fren ask yl f0r hp num den yl d0nn0 wanna gif an0t den tt gal s0 xia lan n0r~! den I say 'wo peng you mei you xin qu' den pull yl g0 le.. den tt cb kia s0 xia lan buai gan wan n0r.. say w0.. den e m0ment we went 0f der tt gal run out den shout t0 her jie say wat 'jie gt ppl diao wo.. g0 ti0 g0 ti0' sia0.. b0 lia0.. cb de n0r.. spoilt mua bday~!
Aiya. Nvm lar.. went bugis after it.. li0nel g0 dance para,den dia0 at e arcade der till li0nel de exam time.. after he went 0ff f0r his exam, xf went h0me than e rest 0f us went t0 ms n0r.. ly later came.. cb! Sh0w mi att.. xia lan lar.. dis yr bday s0 wat de s0 mani ppl sh0w mi att.. wth! After tt shar0n went h0me den yl and mi t00k mrt went paris sir park.. went der sit sit see stars den t0k al0tx sia.. l0ng time nv g0 pasir sir park le.. 0ne yr le.. mua mem0ries land~ =[ miss k0ven n tingy tingy jie de voice.. l0ng time nv c them le..
Li0nel like drunk de sia.. he said he drunk al0t.. he asked us t0 take cab d0wn t0 his h0use der find him.. den g0 drink drink le.. went his h0use t0n n0r.. f0ur ppl.. yl,li0nel and li0nel's de c0usin cum mi onli.. hmmm.. at e c0ffee sh0p when drink yl saw al0t 0f 'zhang liang' l0lx.. she scared till death sia.. wahaha.. =x den I jita0 stil di sia0 her.. bluff her gt al0t ar0und her chair de area. Then at li0nel de h0use h0r.. l0t 0f thing t0 write le sia.. pengz li0nel de cousin wei lun ar.. haha.. keep on saying yl haha.. sh00t her till she bwg haha.. heng I learn mua less0n lia0.. I diam diam d0n t0k den wun kana sh00t le n0r.. whaha.. =x den li0nel de hair s0 funni after he bathed c0me out~ l0lx.. like li0n de n0r~ I onli rem tt yl kept sh00t by wei lun till dry sia.. till she bwg ar.. p00r yl kana sh00t till peng~ l0lx.. yl and wei lun s0 'click' haha.. t0k s0 much d0nn0 gt wat thingy s0 mani t0 tok abt.. after tt 7 plus le, all wanna slp le at last man! Wei lun 1st t0 0rh 0rh~ den I als0 wanna slp de but h0r~ I gonna fall aslp tt time li0nel suddenly c0r mi 'ger' den I wake up le.. suddenly all quiet le t0t can slp but tt yl h0r suddenly kick mi 0ff e bed sia.. damn it.. s0 suay n0r.. den I change place als0 kana kick by her sia.. stupid leg 0f yl next time when she slp I g0 tie her leg up le lar.. =x haha.. den w0rst thingy was tt yl leg kick til mua face!! s0 wat~! ~!@;’#$%^&*()_+`’
Nvm nvm de.. wh0 n0es I wanna slp le tt li0nel c0r mi again..'ger' den I wake up again le.. pengz s0 tired leh~ wh0le day nv slp wanna slp als0 cant n0r.. zzzzzzzzz at li0nel's de h0use i luff till pengz ar.. haha.. =]

17th 0f june
In the end als0 nv slp at all, 9 leave his h0use g0 eat makan.. den t00k cab t0 yl's h0use n0r.. den slack at her h0use den slp at her h0use till 4 lik tt den 0530 like tt went 0ff le..knn s0 suay n0r.. den I when I went h0me tt time I saw tingy tingy jie,zai,ada,lun lun,ken,wei ling,amy at mua h0use der.. omg. n0 time t0 run leh.. jita0 kana pull 0ut fr0m e lift den kana whack by them le.. s0 mani ppl whack.. ka0.. I already gastric pain le.. stil cann0t let mi g0.. haiz.. pengz.. haha but nvm lar.. they happi can le and one yr once nia.. haha.. kana whack le den they gif mi gift n0r.. tingy tingy jie gif me al0t 0f wine leh~ s0 g00d 0f her.. love tingy tingy jie s0 much~ 27 b0ttle 0f diff wine n acl.. =D~ tingy tingy jie u all the best man!!!!! I l0ve u all t0 e c0re man~ geez.. =PpP den als0 quite happi g0t a letter fr0m mua l0ng l0st best fren.. she even send mi a gift.. s0 sweet 0f her t00.. this yr de bday very happi fun wild mad and shi0k.. but last yr was e best 0f best.. when der is k0ven k0r~ I’m the best man.. haha.. wanna wat gt wat de.. but this yr d0n hab k0ven k0r wib mi..in ns.. but nvm.. k0ven k0r~ I miss u t00.. I miss every0ne haiz.. suddenly feel s0 sad and sian.. =[ d0nn0 f0r wat.. tml need t0 g0 t0 sch le.. ms lau c0r mi.. ask mi g0 sch.. s0 sian de n0r.. make mi s0 tired n slply like mad sia.. yawn~ than als0 gt a shiok wib mua friendster sia.. suddenly gt s0 mani testi p0p up~ thank f0r th0se ppl wh0 wr0te muua testi.. =] xie le~ s0 sweet 0f u guys t0 help mi write testi.. =D~

18th 0f jUne
t0day went t0 sch n0r~ hab t0 wake up s0 early.. make s0 slply de.. den went t0 sch f0r eng less0n.. haha.. c0mbi less0n s0 is in the ava n0r.. actually tw0 less0n de.. but we t00 'guai' le nv ask qns or make n0isy s0 end up onli 0ne less0n nia.. whaha.. l0lx.. n0 lar.. c0z we t00 tired t0king t0 ppl n slping le s0 very quiet.. =x end at around 0930? den shar0n say g0 tpy de k-b0x.. *pengz* haha.. went der fr0m 11 to 2 n0r den late f0r fnn.. by the time we rush back t0 sch 0245 le.. late by 45 mins.. =x den chi0ng mua fnn c0z i tw0 day nv g0 f0r fnn less0n le.. h0pe by sunday nite can chi0ng finish everything manz~ fnn end at 5 after it went t0 shar0n's h0use t0 l00k f0r b00ks f0r fnn de n0r.. den went h0me at ar0und 0615.. reached h0me 7 c0z went t0 buy blank cd n0r.. lalalala.. wah.. hungry sia~~!! lunch nv eat.. haha.. den i c0me h0me le eat mua dad de chicken rice den he hab nth t0 eat.. =PpPp
den t0k t0k 0n ph0ne den g0 p0m p0m le.. later try t0 finish as much fnn as i can ba.. try try try..... tml still hab t0 g0 back sch f0r fnn leh~ sianz~ 8 to 1.. s0 early de.. sp0ilt mua m00d.. t0day zhenjie de att sux manz.. cb kia.. *pui*
meiping || 6:26 AM

15 0f june le sia.. tml g0nna be mua bday.. actualli als0 jun wei.k0r n li0nel de bday... s0 zun gt tw0 ppl same bday as mi.. s0 happi bday t0 them t00~ may u guys de wishes c0me true s00n~ =]
t0day went t0 sch n0r.. tired lar.. had s0cial studies de w0rksh0p n0r.. fr0m 8 t0 0230~ s0 farkin l0ng.. made mi s0 tired 0ut n0w.. tml d0n think i g0ing sch le n0r.. after ss went yl's h0use.. actualli is t0 get mua bday gift de.. c0z tml wanna g0 0ut d0n wanna bring it with mi e wh0le days.. but wh0 n0es.. they quarrel again~ AGAIN i mean.. haiz.. quarrel f0r th0se small small de stuff aiya.. d0nn0 lar.. t0 me is small maybe t0 them is n0t n0r.. damn it manz.. d0nn0 wat they wanna lar.. den yl dulan or d0nn0 wat lar.. g0 tear their ne0 card up.. sia0 de.. s0rry ar.. ly didn take e pic f0r u back.. pai seh.. haiz..
damn it lar.. d0nn0 le lar.. n0w they like break f0r sure le.. tml de bday d0nn0 wat t0 d0 le lar.. fark! same as last yr.. hand injure.. cb.. arghz.. d0nn0 lar.. fark up man..
juz n0w er jie sms-ed mi.. s0 happi t0 see her sms sia.. she rem mua bday~! s0 happi! er jie thx f0r ur sms~ juz a small sms can make mi s0 happi~ =]

haiz... why d0es thingy turn 0ut tt why lehz? why w0rz.. ='[
meiping || 8:15 PM

t0day 14th 0f june le.. times realli flies man.. s0 fast an0ther yr le.. gr0wing up le... hmmm.. er jie gave birth t0 a b0i.. on 6th 0f june 2004 geex... s0 happi f0r her.. hab such a happi family at the age of 20 le.. s0 sweet geex.. *bless them* =]
t0day hab sch n0r~ s0 sux.. last nite came back fr0m h0sp very tired n slply de s0 slp very early~ 10 on mua ba0bei bed le.. wh0 n0es.. 11 plus li0nel c0r.. den w0ke me up t0k less than haf an h0ur jiu hang up le.. den hai w0 cant slp at all~ c0z wo shi th0se kana wake up le very hard t0 get back t0 slp de ppl.. s0 wat n0r.. den i t0ss on mua bed till 2 den slp.. s0 tired le.. haiz..
m0ring 6 up le.. den met shar0n and xf at amk.. went t0 hab our breakfast, have been a l0ng time since i hab breakfast.. haha.. =x den went t0 sch n0r.. s0 sux t0day gt sch.. den all the timetable is diff de.. must wait f0r shar0n n xf.. t0day they end at 0230.. den i end at 1230 le.. such a big diff.. actualli t0day wanna za0 the maths less0n wib shar0n lee de.. but in the end nv.. went t0 maths less0n and build castle in the air n0r.. s0 b0ring.. even fell aslp man.. hhaa.. den i went yl h0use t0 wait f0r shar0n they all c0z later i al0ne in sch very sian de.. den pei shar0n cr0ss the r0ad wait f0r bus.. shar0n g0in t0 c0mpass p0int t0 meet her b0i b0i s0 takin 163.. wh0 n0es s0 suay l0r~! saw tt farkin bitch ms oh.. she b00k shar0n lee f0r n0t tieing her hair den shar0n hack care her s0 zun her bus c0me den she h0p on without tiein her hair.. haha.. s0 pr0.. den ms 0h t0k t0 me den i act blur listen discman t0 very l0ud den she dulan mi.. she walk t0 me den ask mi take 0ff mua headph0ne.. haha.. den i gif her tt g0ng g0ng face den she ask mi wat name den i say zh0nghua lar.. 4a2 de.. she say wat.. 'wats wr0ng with b0th 0f u?' den i nv hiew her.. she say again.. say wat b00k mi tug-out.. sia0 za0 b0~ juz nice mua bus c0me den i stand up.. when i stand up i jita0 pull 0ut mua wh0le shirt den walk up e bus.. wah~ ms 0h de face jita0 black sia.. s0 s0ng.. haha..
went amk change bus went yl's h0use.. fell aslp at her h0use while waiting f0r shar0n n xf.. den xf s0 noisy sia.. kn0ck e d00r sh0 l0ud n0r.. =x hhaa.. think is last nite de medic den n0t enuff slp.. den i gif shar0n they all a face.. pai seh ar~ d0n mean de sista~ s0rrie~ =]
i tired den went h0me 1st le.. 4 plus jiu g0 le.. den i think i g0 le they think i angry 0r wat c0r li0nel.. shiok sia.. den li0nel c0r mi around 8 ask mi why i s0 angry 0r dulan la.. but in fact dd0n hab lar.. juz tt i'm t00 tired le.. ask mi abt bday de stuff all these den nth le.. tiring day.. shall st0p here.. later stil gt mua diary t0 write.. *pengz*
big big s0rry t0 mua sista f0r sh0wing them face t0day~ s0rriE.. =]
meiping || 9:06 PM

had a tiring and sad day.. slept at 5 am den w0ke up atr 9 le.. den slack slack infr0nt 0f mua tbvee.. den abt 2 mua mum came h0me fr0m 0versea le.. s0 n0isy l0r she.. bring th0se idi0t auntie back als0.. i wanna slp de n0r den cant slp.. watch tvbee als0 wanna fight wib mi.. ka0.. i jita0 dulan i say them back.. i say this is mua h0use n0t ur h0use u wanna watch 0ther chl g0 h0me watch if n0t shut up~! s0 dulan le l0r.. den they diam diam g0 away... ka0..
evening time went h0sp wib g0d-father n0r.. went t0 check up 0n mua 0ld w0und.. c0z friday nite mua w0und t0re but didn bleed.. hmmm.. den tt cb d0c say i very r0ugh anyh0w play ar0und den e w0und tear~! sia0 de l0r.. i als0 nv play at all.. toopid d0c.. den when he resitch mua w0und it was farking pain n0r.. s0 painful tt i alm0st cried 0ut.. but nv lar.. c0z i ren.. after mua lil small small de opt when t0 see tingy tingy jie..
she was warded in h0sp.. think tml she can g0 h0me rest le.. haiz.. tingy tingy jie ar~ why u s0 silly and stuipd! wanna g0 die f0r tt cb ah lun.. he w0rth u d0ing tt meh? n0 l0r.. g0t such a g00d guy k0ven waiting f0r u there u d0n wanna.. 7 yrs le leh~! d0n tell me u nv ever like k0ven k0r b4 n0r.. he s0 g00d and devoted man.. even willing t0 wait f0r u 7 yrs.. g0in 8 yr le lehz.. ur heart realli tt hard meh? haiz.. den reached h0me ar0und 0830..
3 m0re days t0 mua bday le.. d0nn0 is happi 0r sad n0w lehz.. haiz.. nth much t0 bl0g le lar.. haiz.. think g0 rest better.. e w0und is hurting up again.. ='[
meiping || 9:09 PM

mua lil bl0g~ haiz.. hab n0 0ne t0 share mua thingy n0w.. so c0me back t0k t0k t0 ya.. haiz.. bl0g ar bl0g.. h0pe n0 0ne see these lar.. but if nv say i feel m0re t0ng ku n0rz.. haiz.. d0nn0 why suddenly i feel s0 sad n d0wn.. is like at an0ther l0west p0int 0f life n0rz.. haiz.. yst bery happi happi g0 0ut de.. but haiz.. juz a few hr later like m00d swing lik tt t0tally 0ut 0f mua mind.. g0t a c0r fr0m tingy de parents say tt she in h0ps ask mi g0 see her if free n0r.. she is s0 silly n0r d0nn0 wat t0 say abt her le lar.. haiz.. den i t0t 0f ah l0ng k0r k0r.. i miss him s0 much.. reali l0tz l0tx.. but will be n0e? will be back? when? 3 yrs? 5 yr? 10 yrs or even f0reva wun be back? haiz.. wat k0ven k0r said was true.. nth is f0reva.. even 0ne day he als0 hab t0 leave mi.. cant pr0tect me f0reva.. haiz... sad~ s0b s0bx..
s0bbing in sadness~
meiping || 12:57 AM

Take me to your heart

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

(Chorus)
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend

Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
(Chorus)

nice s0ng~ hmmm.. 'Trying to forget but I won't let go' maybe this is wat i'm d0ing n0w? trying t0 f0rget all mua unhappiness.. but i cant let g0 all yet.. realli cant.. hard t0 d0 easy t0 say.. haiz.. maybe like i said t0 ly let time fade e hurt away is true.. haiz.. ='[
sha sha de w0 ba0 zhe yi ge meng xiang.. ming zi bu hui lai lin de.. if der a faster way t0 f0rget unhappiness? can sum0ne teach w0? hhaa..
meiping || 10:36 PM

t00pid c0mp~!! i bl0g ha0 ha0 le den hang lehz! must type everything all 0ver again sia.. sian full le lar~ last nite c0nf till 0130 den hang up le.. but sms wib ly till around 0330 ba.. but mean time was als0 0n ph0ne wib junjie.pac til 4 n0rz.. s0 slply n tired tired.. hhaa.. m0rning drank e vodka.. n0t realli v nice lar.. but nvm lar.. 3 buck plus nia.. if n0t g0 burn the sh0p d0wn.. =X met yl and shar0n at city hall 1130 n0r.. den shar0n b0ught mi mua bday gift.. she gave mi a 37D de tee-shirt n0r.. black c0l0ur de.. thx w0r shar0n~ like it al0t.. haha but chim le.. mua mum sure kp al0t de lar.. say wat black again~!! c0z she hate ppl wear black say wat bad luck~ nah whatever lar.. den t00k mrt d0wn t0 bugis t0 find li0nel n0rz.. erm.. like tt time suddenly p0p 0ut infr0nt 0f him went he dancing para l0lx he kana shock ckp~ diao awhile at bugis der den end up in ps again n0rz.. this m0nth went ps al0t 0f time sia..
went arcade dia0 again~ heng e arcade der n0w d0n hab e 5cent per game de offer le.. if n0t sure play till pengs de lar.. heng heng.. haha.. juz n0w when they playin i walk away actually g0 sm0ke sm0ke =x c0z i als0 nth t0 d0 wat.. after tat went int0 ps der de level 7 de acrade der dia0.. sab0 li0nel =X f0rce him t0 play para think he dance f0r at least 10 to 15 s0ng n0n-st0p? hha.. pai seh lar.. c0z als0 nth better t0 d0 wat.. s0 ask u dance dance.. mean time saw shar0n lee wib her b0i b0i melvin n0r.. wah.. his hair n0t bad sia.. s0 cute haha.. den shar0n lee wear til quite mature n0r but n0t bad lar.. cutie cutie l0lx.. but s0 suay als0.. saw a farking bitch ya qing der.. ka0.. tt time s0 act say wanna slap mi 0r wat de.. n0w see mi za0 s0 fast.. cb.. make mi g0 sian 1/2.. n0w s0 hum see mi jiu za0.. xia lan kia~ knn! aiya d0n t0k abt her lar.. yl went 0ff 1st c0z she w0rking later.. sh0 she went t0 meet ly at city hall 1st ba.. den shar0n de m00d change s0 fast~ suddenly bec0me m00dy m00dy n sian sian de..shar0n li0nel and mi dia0 at ps de outd00r mac der f0r quite l0ng lar.. den they stil play wib water~ s0 suay i kana e water~~ !Q@WE$R%^&*() heng shar0n g0t her m00d back s00n haha.. =]
li0nel like retard n0rz.. s0 bth him sia.. shar0n n him kept luffin n0rz.. make mi luff als0.. den mua w0und s0 pain~ tt time de sitch think tear ba.. tml g0 h0ps check check.. heng nv bleed if n0t sure die de but kinda 0f painful n0r.. but nvm lar stil can tahan e pain n0r.. dia0 at mac le went back t0 j8.. sianz~
went j8 eat ramen.. wah~ very full leh!! haha.. we ate a l0ng time sia.. abt 45 mins ba? c0z keep luffin all e way~ li0nel h0r d0nn0 h0w t0 say him lar.. he eat till hand cramp den m0uth als0.. haha.. t0k t00 much luff t00 much cum eat t00 much le lar.. haha.. s0 pr0 n0r~!!d0nn0 h0w he eat de lar.. =x
anyway wanna thx shar0n li0nel n yl f0r making mua day a mad n wild 0ne.. haha.. erm.. thx t0 shar0n again f0r her bday gift.. like it al0t w0r..xie le~ =D but sian lar.. tml mua m0m c0ming back le~ n0 m0re peace le lar.. haiz.. sian lar.. later need t0 pack mua r00m if n0t tml she c0me back sure kpkb de n0r.. =]

aH^gAL is sh0 happi~ had a fun and mad days~
meiping || 9:33 PM

hmmm.. 11 0f june le sia~!! 5 m0re day t0 mua bday.. geex.. w0nder wher t0 g0 tat day.. lalalala..this m0rning c0nf wib li0nel and shar0n till ar0und 3? haha.. den hang up le jun jie aka pac c0r mi.. ka0.. s0 tired le he than c0r.. haha.. anyway i t0t he f0rg0t me le s0 i deleted his n0. l0ng ag0.. den kana sc0lded.. s0 bad sia him.. anyway d0n realli n0e him n0r.. think he eric de fren lai de lar.. aiya n0t mua pr0b als0..
t0day actually meeting yl 0nli de c0z shar0n say she must g0 h0me early tml s0 she d0n wanna c0me 0ut.. wh0 n0e this m0rning when i hab mua sugar dreamy she smsed mi say she g0in out wib us.. haha.. s0 cute de she.. lalalala
den i met shar0n 1st at the mrt~! omg!!!! the way shar0n dress!~ erm.. d0nn0 h0w t0 say but is s0 special n0r~! when i alighting fr0m e bus h0r n0 need t0 search f0r her de c0z her dressing is s0 0utstanding.. l0lx... den t0gether wib mua la0g0ng shar0n haha went t0 buy f00d yl.. sh0u ha0 is 1230 meet at her h0use de.. end up 0115 den reach.. =x c0z we t00k 0ut time sl0wly buy.. t0day shar0n s0 'high' sia..s0 happi when at yl's house she kept luffing n0n-st0p.. haha.. den i asked her abt the 'c0mfirm an0t' this w0rd when she pick up fr0m us de haha den she luff even m0re.. ckp~!
after it went hereen n0r.. g0t sum thing f0r li0nel's de bday.. l0lx.. h0pe he like it.. but e wat s0 lan leh~ n0t like real de.. ka0.. but nvm lar.. cute can le.. =x cann0t say wat gift out c0z tt li0nel might read.. bleahz~ hmmm.. after gt e gift le went walk walk den three 0f us b0ught earing~ shar0n gt stars again~ omg shar0n is turning int0 a walking star soon~ alm0st every part 0f her gt stars~!! s0 stary l0lx..
den went back j8 again n0r.. c0z shar0n hab t0 g0 h0me early den slack at j8 f0r awhile b0ught sumthing again.. mimi lai de.. hmmm.. s00n shar0n went h0me le.. s0 i went tpy wib yl.. say wanna g0 catch a m0vie de.. but we see e price s0 ex den d0n wanna watch le.. save $$ tml stil g0ing out..
after it walk walk ar0und tpy den g0 back j8 again.. t0day d0nn0 g0 j8 h0w mani times sia.. when pohkim b0ught tw0 vcd, mua fav sh0w.. but onli gt 0ne.. s0 i t00k 0ne nia.. next time must g0 hunt f0r the 0ther sh0w le... d0nn0 why suddenly feel lik watching it again.. lalala.. den went cheers der wanna buy e vokda we saw at mua h0use here de cheers wib yl de... but underage.. t00 bad.. haha.. den when i came h0me i went t0 try mua luck~ tt aunt s0 g0ng n0r.. i haven even pass 16 leh~ she sell mi e vodka~ s0 cute leh e cup~! b0ught e v0dka twistee sh0ts.. l00k s0 cute w0nder h0w it taste like sia.. nvm later i try haha.. gee.. cant wait t0 drink it~ =] ha0 ba.. d0n bl0g s0 much le.. tml g0ing out wib yl shar0n and li0nel.. lalalal
aH^gAL t0day s0 happI~!! c0z shar0n is happi~ haha.. as l0ng as siaoster de ppl n mua fren i happi i'm c0ntend le.. and n0e wat? er jie gif birth t0 a b0i~!! geex.. 0n 6th 0f june.. omg, cant wait t0 see e baby~ geex.. g0nna d0te 0n him le.. =]

meiping || 8:41 PM

lalalala... t0day ar~ last nite conf woth li0nel and yl n0r.. til about 1 le.. den slp le n0r.. nth much.. erm... but kana w0rked by zai de c0r.. him again~!! damn him lar... wastin mua time n m0ney~ =Xx h0pe he nv get this see these lar.. if not sure kana fr0m him le =x
anyway t0day shou ha0 meet yl at 1 de.. but guess wat? i overslept.. gee.. pai seh~ d0n mean t0 de... den fast fast bath n wash up den z00m~!! 0ff i went t0 meet yl.. than heard tt they quarrel again. yl say wat wanna wait f0r ly t0 say break sia.. haiz... d0nn0 wat she thinking.. nvm..
den pei her g0 take m0ney t0 open a new acc.. she put in 100 buck.. wah~ rich sia she.. haha.. den t0day saw ha0 ha0.. he ask mi g0 ktv hmmm d0nn0 can mah leh.. owe him one time le tt time ps him.. nahz nvm.. i try try n0r~
after opening the acc le yl came t0 mua h0use here slack n0rz.. at mua h0use tt time she say wat ask moi help her think of ways.. wat ways? i d0n even n0e.. haha.. than she say if ly cont t0 sms her she going t0 xin ruan le.. lalalala... like tt g00d wat.. hmmm... nth much le n0r.. sian sianz.. hmmm.. gotta t0 burn cd f0r yl and li0nel by 16 june.. haha.. can make it? haha.. think can lar.. stil gt so mani days.. actualli als0 n0t al0t lar.. 6 m0re days nia.. haiz... den mua mum will be back in 3 m0re days.. haiz.. 3 m0re days 0f freed0m nia... sad sad.. but nvm lar.. better than nth..
hmmm.. wonder h0w is er jie le lehz~ sms her hw is e baby le she didn reply lalalala.. hmmm.. think sat g0 back take a l00k at jie ba.. gee.. als0 wanna t0 see the baby~ yeap~~!! haha. shall stop here le~

aH^gAL dE birThdaY c0unt d0wn~!! 6 m0re dayS~!! haha..
meiping || 8:54 PM

y0z mua lil bl0g~ gee.. a big big thankx t0 mua la0g0ng shar0n f0r helping mi change mua lil bl0g de skin~ ai si ni le.. haha.. =] xie xie
t0day ar~ erm... woke up at 1130 den fast fast change n wash up den went t0 meet shar0n at mua h0use der de st0pbus n0r.. after tt went ps.. reach der around 0130.. went t0 watch the day after tml.. hmmm.. tat sh0w bery nice lehz~~~~~~~~~~~ nicey.. gee.. 0ur sh0w start at 0350~ gt abt tw0 h0urs t0 g0 man.. den we dia0 at ps n0r.. walk e whole ps.. haha.. abt 0330 xf n chun chun came t0 find us c0z they als0 at der.. they watched the best bet 0r d0nn0 wat bet la.. haa.. xf say very nice.. but nah.. i d0n realli like.. haha.. shar0n say the sh0w day after tml n0t nice.. but sh0 nice~ d0n mind watching it again n0r.. lalala
after the sh0w i saw sum0ne i chatted wib on net yst nite.. s0 zun.. but he didn see mi.. hha.. t00 bad f0r him.. tml g0 make him.. tt cha0 ah beng de face =x haha.. after ps went great w0rld n0r.. but e shutter bus made us wait very l0ng lar~ actually als0 d0nn0 g0 great w0rld f0r wat la.. juz g0 der walk walk kill time nia.. bought nth much n0r... tml pei yl g0 open a new bank acc~ sian.. everyday g0 out n0wdays sia.. shar0n t0day s0 m00dy de~ haiz.. wasnt able t0 make her smile.. s0rry~ haiz.. pai seh ar... but nvm.. i will try harder next time n0r.. haiz...n0 m00d le lar.. d0n bl0g s0 much le.. haiz

aH^gAL is such a failure man~ wasnt able t0 make shar0n smile.. haiz.... =[
strive harder next time le.. =] *g0ne* miss every0ne~ 7 m0re days t0 mua bday~ yiP~~
meiping || 10:37 PM

h0h0h0. w0 lai le =X just change ur layout. can h0r? =] tc. cya~ *muackss*
meiping || 12:01 AM

t0day 8th 0f jUne le w0r.. hmmm.. this m0rning ar.. n0 peace manz~ t0t will hab a peaceful nite de.. but d0n hab c0z yl went t0 ly h0use t0n than ly gt drunk in the end.. than he said al0t 0f lame stuffs, drunk le wat cann0t blame him de wat.. tt yl stil g0 quarrle with ly ka0 wats 0n her mind? ly s0 gd t0 her le.. yl called mi last nite 3 plus n0r.. make mi s0 tired man.. den early in e m0ring s0 mani ppl sms mi.. s0 fan~ arghz.. haha.. but i slp til around 2 den get up.. =x lai chuan.. hmmm
gt wat le wash up den 0ff i went t0 yl house.. slack at her h0use n0r.. slack til around 8 den i went h0me le.. t0day n0t feelin very well lar.. lucky nv pei shar0n they all t0day they went swimming sia.. haha den shar0n said she gt sunburn sia.. =x haha.. then at yl's de h0use mi like msg gal like tt.. c0z ly called than i ans the call, yl said d0n wanna heard his v0ice than b0 bian.. i tok behalf of yl.. sumtime realli d0nn0 wat is yl thinkin 0f~ ly is such a great n nice guy le.. yet she stil can find so mani fault abt him den used it t0 quarrel.. ka0~ den t0day yl said wat ly n0t w0rth her t0 cherish~ liew.. i heard liao i Ll d0nn0 wat t0 say le lar.. s0 silly 0f her.. later she realli l0se ly le than she n0e le lar.. haiz.. why are human always like tt de? d0nn0 h0w t0 treasure until they realli l0se sum0ne.. than they n0e h0w imt tt pers0n is t0 them manz.. haiz.. s0 toopid 0f yl n0r.. aiya.. d0nn0 her la.. onli n0e this m0rning n0 peace.. last nite actually drank dad de stuff den wanna have a g00d slp de end up n0 peace haha.. but nvm lar~ yl is mua sista.. n i pr0mise b4 tt n0 matter wat i will be there f0r them~ s0 cann0t c0mplain le.. lalala.. haiz.. =[ mua la0g0ng shar0n sad sad de..

aH^gAL sad f0r all mua freN~ shar0n ly and tingy tingy~ haiz.... =[

tml going out with shar0n.. h0pe can see she smile~ and is realli fr0m e b0ttom 0f her heart de.. n0t juz wear a mask and juz luff.. n0n0 i d0n wanna~ i wanna shar0n be happy and cheerful~!! =]~ *praY*
meiping || 10:36 PM

7th 0f jUne le~!! 9 m0re days t0 mua bday... hmmm by tat time well will be sweet 16 le.. =X last nite 0n e ph0ne with li0nel den he sick sia.. hmmmm.. h0pe he get well s00n n0r.. didn t0k l0ng.. after hang up wib li0nel t0k wib shar0n til ar0und 0ne plus than g0 0rh le.. but 0rh haf way kana disturb by tat idi0t zai~!! 2 2 plus c0r me than t0k f0r abt 2 h0urs... yawn.. s0 idi0t de him.. waste mua time n ph0ne bill sia.. lalala..

this m0rning w0ke up at 11.. den 0ff i went t0 bath~ meeting shar0n n yl at bishan mrt station at 12 n0r..didn n0e ly came als0.. haha.. went bugis after it.. watched harry p0tter n0r... hmmm.. abit blur abt e sh0w.. but at least better than yl ba.. catch n0 ball de her.. haha.. =PpPi b0ught a speaker f0r mua player.. pink c0l0ur de.. haha.. s0 gal gal de.. but nvm at h0me use nia.. lalalala.... after the sh0w went t0 far east n0r... yl s0 wat sia.. her sh0e walk haf walk sp0ilt le sia~ lan lar.. =x t0day jacky's bday.. happy bday t0 him.. t0day yl g0 t0n at ly h0use asked mi g0.. but t00 bad stil under prob cann0t t0n.. t00 bad t00 sad... b0ught sum stuff and a cd.. 0cean ou de yang de.. all the s0ng n0t bad n0r..
shar0n t0day s0 tired like tt sia.. 0n e way t0 mua h0use shar0n fell aslp on e bus even standing haha.. pr0 gal~ =XxX h0pe she d0n see this.. haha.. anyway went t0 mua h0use here de c0ffee shop and eat eat... shar0n ate bery lil sia.. tml shar0n they all g0ing gym le.. sian.. d0n feel lik g0ing.. think g0tta r0t at h0me tml.. =] s0 sian n0w... lalalalal.. nth better t0 d0 n0w.. *g0ne*

aH^gAL waiting f0r her happiness t0 c0me... w0ndering wh0 will be tat pers0n.. =]*think think think*
meiping || 11:21 PM

hmmmmmmmmm. t0day is 6th 0f june w0r.. geex.. n0e wat? er jie this m0rning went h0sptial le.. but d0nn0 baby c0me out le mah? hmmmm.. is a gal.. another niece f0r me.. geex.. cant wait t0 see the baby sia.. lalalala.. *pray jie n baby is safe* t0day come back t0 sg le.. wah ka0~ tired leh.. leg pain als0~ the cb malaysia checkpoint police man sia~ ka0.. take their own sweet time t0 ch0p n check e passp0rt.. den gt 0ne unlce stand behind me keep pass mi de.. i bth i shout cb la d0nn0 wat is wait la.. push wat push.. den e unlce face jitao dulan~ 0bi! wh0 ask him keep push mi..
then m0rning set 0ff fr0m ganny's h0use.. but bibi f0und 0ut then she cry haha.. say wanna follow mi g0 sg t00.. s0 silly n sweet 0f her..bibi als0 very greedy sia.,. t00k mua c0mb and jia0 lian sia... haha.. nvm she lik gif her l0.. but she t00k tw0~ arghz... s0 wat.. haha...
reach sg abt 5 den shiyun called mi.. t0k t0k t0k on e cab n0r.. she this mei usless de sia.. d0nn0 h0w t0 say abt her la.. haha.. hmmm.. than i c0r kaisi out t0 pei w0 eat dinner.. but end up at tp der eat prata n0r.. spend 10.9~ s0 ex sia.. haha.. but nvm la.. l0ng time 0nce nia.. summ0re daddy pay n0r.. =] then went playgr0und sit sit.. machim like g0 back childh00d sia.. play see saw all th0se.. den saw l0tx 0f stars startx w0r~ geex.. s0 happy.. these few day saw s0 mani stars~ haa.... hab been a l0ng time since i saw stars~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ wah~ haha.. mad le mad le.. =] shall n0t tok abt sad stuff.. =] cheers~~~ tml g0nna watch m0ive wib shar0n.. =]
meiping || 10:28 PM

hmmmmm..... t0day 5th 0f june le.. this morning 2 plus chatted with k0k k0k on net til around 4 plus than off i went t0 meet mua fren.. went t0 qian yi de h0use watch sunrise n0rz... hmmm.. althought gt al0t of cl0udz covering it but still can see.. not bad n0r.. s0 nice~ but still prefer perth's de sunrise.... =] lalalala... than t0day jie als0 bring f0rward mua bday and cele n0r.. she g0t a 1 kg de fruit cake n0r.. t0t n0t very nice but like it al0t n0rz.... c0z hab been a real l0ng time ever since i last cele mua bday with them... even thought mum nv rush back t0 pei w0 she gave mi 50 bucks... very lil but i stil lik it al0t.. g0nna keep tat n0te ha0 ha0 le =pPpPp n0t g0nna spend it le.. hur hur.. hmmm.. tml goin back sg le..... haiz.... haven g0 back yet g0t prob hab t0 sl0ve le.. tat yl n ly quarrel again manz...... d0nn0 wat the hell they doing larz...... lalalalalala


aH^gAL de m00d: haPpY~!! yIppE~~

aH^gAL liVing iN heR lIl heaVen waitin f0r happIneSs t0 c0me.. =]
meiping || 10:43 PM

-=~*][In A Relationship][*~=-

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meiping || 10:51 PM

eeeee s0 sianz n0w~! arghz.. s0 full sia.. juz bl0g ha0 er jie ask mi g0 eat satay.. wah sure fat f0r sure le but nv la.. already s0 fat le haaa.. sad case f0r er jie the shop not open den end up eating fried noodless at a r0adside store.. n0w nth better t0 d0.. saw sum w0rds.. s0 decided t0 copy paste here~ rite here in mua bl0g.. lalala..

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meiping || 10:38 PM

hmmm.. nth much t0 write t0day.. slack at ganny's h0use f0r e wh0le day n0rz.... haha... then watch west-side story c0z n0 sh0w t0 see.. wah ka0.. one afternoon i chiong finish part 1 n 2 le.. later at nite chiong part 3 n 4... siao le mi... lalalalala.. hmmm.. juz n0w bathed ha0 er jie came.. er jie fu s0 bad sia drive jie here le den d0nn0 g0 where.. haha.. nvm n0t mua pr0b manz.. mua real dad said mum c0r.. she rem mua bday~!! she did! s0 happy manx! =]but she cant c0me back t0 cele wib mi.. c0z er jie say bring f0rwards mua bday.. tml cele... then sun i g0 back sg... haiz... should be happy de~ but d0nn0 why s0 m00dy.. lalalalala.. aiya tml de thingy tml than say... haiz..... sad sad...
pplz always tell mi these.. t0 f0rget sum0ne fall in l0ve with another one.. realli s0 easy meh? wat if i fall in love with sumone i shouldn? than it will be worst man.. haha..

aH^gAL de xiao xiao tian tang.. -deng dai xing fu de lai lin-
meiping || 9:16 PM

this morning use e net till very late theref0re very tired..s0 slp till 2 pm den woke up.. yawnz..... stil very tired.. even aftern00n gt slp.. haiz... t0day very happy de n0r.. i ask god father let mi g0 back on sun he say ok nor.. den i happy happy play with bibi t0day de.. nite time c0me net tell tat idiot lionel tat going back soon le.. sh0 wat de l0 him~ sh0w mi att! i hate ppl t0 show mi att de! hate it hate it hate it! sob.. haiz.. li0nel said he very fan den ok l0 i tried t0 g0 back asap.. but haiz.... onli he fan meh.. i d0n fan meh.. he in sg can call ppl tok all these.. mi leh? mi leh?!! i in malaysia.. who can i tell mua trob t0? n0 0ne manz! i can onli keep it in mua heart and ren.. hold on t0 mua tears.... nth else but t0 ren ren ren.. but haiz... suan le.. t0t t0day will be very happy de.. yet this happened.. damn life.. idiot! sux!!! arghz

meiping || 10:29 PM

jz g0t back t0 ganny h0use's.. t0t t0day wun g0 out at all c0z er jie gt t0 work.. den was rainin cats n dogs.. wh0 n0e.. jz n0w i jz 0n comp er jie pop out den brought mi t0 arcade der n diao.. diao f0r 3 h0urs.. 0mg.. s0 sian n0rz.. stink als0.. haha.. s0 mani ppl smoke der... lalalalaa.... t0day bibi did sumthing very sweet~~~ real sweet.. aftern00n she came den she ran t0wards mi n gif mi a hug cum kiss f0r nth.. hha.. s0 sweet 0f her.. l0ng time bibi nv kiss mi le.. haha.. image a 1 yr plus baby suddenly hug n kiss u f0r nth.. haha.. t0t wat happened... anyway day was e best.............. nth t0 think 0f m00d was damn g00d.... t0day de nite sky very dark but der is n0 stars.. even e m00n is kana blocked by e cl0udz... nvm.. n0 stars den i see cl0udz...... lalalalalalala...

meiping || 10:55 PM

1th 0f june.. last nite drank t00 much.. t0day slp till 2 plus den w0ke up.. haiz.. n0 peace anyway.. 0nce i wake up.. g0d daddy pull mi out shop le.. lalalala.. hmmmmm..... think will daddy s0 much better always make mi luff.. let mi f0rget all mua sad stuff.. if 0nli i hab puzzle with mi n0w.. sumtime ppl ask mi why i always slove puzzle when i sad or d0wn... i als0 d0n really n0e.. maybe because when d0ing puzzle will keep mi busy s0 i wun be able t0 think 0f anything 0ther thingy n0rz.. or maybe it was a habit i had since young, c0z mua 1st puzzle was given t0 me by mua k0r... hmmm.. i n0w den n0e tat last few nite i climb t0 e r00f 0f mua fren h0use t0 drink... onli n0w than i n0e i saw sh000 mani stars... hmmm.. have been a l0ng time i sit d0wn n see the star till i see sunrise manz.. even since last yr de sept ever since i kana tat toopid case den i wasn't all0w t0 g0 out and ton... sux it manz.. haiz.... last few nite e sky is s0 dark n e stars is s0 bright... i share mua loneliness with th0se stars manz.. wat a luck i hab.. s0 lucky 0f mi.. haiz... stars stars stars.. l0ng time i hab seen them... =[
bl0g happy thingy ba.. erm... er jie de baby c0ming int0 this earth s00n le~!!!! d0c said 6th 0f june~! if onli jie can ren 10 m0re days den is 16th 0f june le den same bday as mi wat.. haha.. but nvm lar.. as l0ng as e baby is safe n sound i'm content le.. =] 15 m0re days t0 mua bday which is als0 junwei and li0nel de bday.... hmmmm.. start mua c0untd0wn n0w le... hope tat day will be a happy day manz..
meiping || 11:14 PM

haiz........ d0n even hab e m00d t0 bl0g le.... haiz... sob sob.. this aftern00n when slping er jie came again.. den went out t0 tok tok.. she told mi tat k0r came back last week den alm0st kana caught.. haiz.. =[ since u g0 le den g0 wat! wat f0r c0me back!!!! s0b.. wat happened if u realli gt caught? i d0n wann g0 t0 see u in jail k0rz... i realli d0n wanna.. i rather i cant see u f0reva haiz.. life is always full 0f up n d0wn.. but why mine is always full f0r d0wns de~ why? why why? life is s0 unfair.. i totally shut myself d0wn jz nw...... i drank till i cant drink anym0re but i still n0t drunk... er jie asked mi wat happened... i didn dare t0 say at all haiz... juz h0pe er jie hab a happy marriage is m0re than enuff le.. i hate mua ife manz! sux t0 the c0re... haiz... kai si like tt shar0n als0 ly als0 k0ven als0 li0nel als0... every0ne is d0ing e same nw manz!!! this yr really sux.. i d0n hab e m00d t0 celerate mua bday le sob... haiz..... maybe tat day i g0 mia is the best? haiz.. den ppl around mi wun be sad with mi.. they will jz hate and scold mi.. haiz... maybe like this is better ba.. =[

i'm n0t as str0ng as u pplz see me n0w... n0 n0.. never.. maybe i was jz putting up a mask ba... s0 that ppl wun worry f0r me.. but haiz.... suan le suan le.. maybe it is fate ba.. but i'm onli 15+ 15!!! haiz....

aH^gAl waNna t0 be l0st in her w0rld 0f sadness f0reva n be al0ne.. dragging n0 0ne d0wn with her...
meiping || 12:00 AM