=D
bid my farewell here k!
will be gone for at least a week ba, longest is a month ba.
will be missing everyone badly.

anyway went to nafa with laopo and her mummy today.
gosh. was laughing lyk hell when we was there.
there was this guy, think he sumting wrong up der~
he was smiling at every single one lo.
and he followed me n laopo to e toilet.
mad man. i dono y la, e moment i see his face i just cant stop laughing even tot kinda of scare. =x
laopo's interview was a fast one man. ard 10 mins or lesS? =x
hope there wil be good nice for her two week lata.
after e interview, parted with laopo's mummy, went bugis jalan jalan.
bought a jean, than went back to j8.
bought sum inside stuffs. =X
then went to meet sharon and gang at foodcourt.
went to catch Big mommas hus 2.
wonder i get e spellin right?
after e show, met up w yl.
slack at coffeebean w her.
10 plus went home le. bored.
haven pack my stuffs for tml. tired~
yawns~ slept at 6 this morning! arghs.
my live is going upside down le la! this is a big NONO!

oh well, stop here. anything imt thing via my cell 91491839 or my malaysia no. 0127942746 kks~
take care peeps.
misses~!!
meiping || 11:27 PM

i am bored at home! damn bored can arghs.
even tot i just went out la.
woke up kind of early today.
went to meet jocelyn at e kpt for lunch.
did sum catching up. den rush to j8 to meet bird.
got my phone back. hmm. nth much already la!
bored to death man~!
friday will be bring aunt back to malaysia. tts all la.
arghs! boring day~~~~~~
>.<
meiping || 4:08 PM

=D
just changed my blog skin.
phew~ didn touch html code for so long.
gt a bit messed up. somemore friendster nw also html code le.
arghs. sucks.
okay, i gg back malaysia this friday for a couple of weeks or maybe jus days la.
i am bored!
and i dono what to blog already.
sians.
i miss everyone badly.
my sharon;s, fel, xf, ada, zai, kovan and mani more!
wonder hows life for them man.
meiping || 10:19 PM

wei wei wei!
i am back to blogging already.
well, sorrie my dearest bloggie for not feeding u for so mani days k.
oh well, nth much la.
just met up with a couple of new frens and old frens.
caught a few movies, spent a few grands.
quitted my job, slacked at lan shop.
so on so on. just lyk wasting my life away?

will try to update other days k.
oh well, got my new desktop already.
so e lappy will all be daddy's already.
but yet to sign up for my boardband yet.
so not up to much use now.

ason, i dono if u will see this la.
but just want to let some stuff out k.
i dono if i had totally gave u up and let what past hid behide my mind..
maybe this is just some feeling of bad and guilt.
to lead me wish tt u can come back to my side once again.
i guess all these messed up feeling is just for the time being.
and that, if u hadn;t force everything, we might still be tgt than.
=D
feel so much beta!

oh ya, thanks xiong xiong for the times~ =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

=]
at amk de raiders now. and yanda is helping me train my maple.
so take a chance to blog. oh well, getting my comp tml.
cheers~
but boo~ haven sign up for my boardband thing yet. so so so.
it doesn makes a diff la.
whatever it is la.
tml gg back to company~
cant wait to see them sia. misses~

was suppose to go ikea de.
bt due to yl and my laziness, we decided to change date.
so here we are at lan shop playing. =x
so bored.,
genting trip is delay.
big bOO~
bt never mind stil got next time de. no worries i am sure!
update lata when i reach home. provided i am free la.
ciaos.
misses ppl.
meiping || 5:54 PM

okay. here to updates k.
well, friday was my last day at motorola.
i cant deny that i miss them hell lots.
sigh.
well, went to k-box after work for my farewell.
cherry, may and bird went w me.
oh well, had a great time der.
missing them already. =S
anyway, after k-box went j8 w bird for a walk.
so on.

than sat, went j8 w daddy in e morning.
den daddy was saying abt gettin e desktop at funan e it mall.
might be cheaper. so let it be.
was thinkin if i should use back singtel boardband or change to starhub.
nvm, tt can wait.
okay. went back hm and slp.
den gave it a miss to meet yl.
went to meet bird ard 4? after i wake up.
went town. shopping~~

hmmm.
spent quite an amount of money this two day.
bought a watch, shirts and necklaces.
broke nw man.
whatever it is la.

anyway, xiong came to find me from jb.
was very kind and sweet of him. =]
thanks xiong~
meiping || 1:36 AM

okay. i am so darn bored at home today.
didn go out. reject some invites out.
was rotting all the way man,
tml will be my last day of work.
than jobless le. gonna look for new job.
might be going genting on the 26th of feb with ks and family i guess.
so, looking forwards to it. and well, there might be a chalet with my working fren on the 22th feb.
wonder, if i should turn up man. just not in the mood for the chalet with them.
not tt i mind, just that, maybe we don't click very very well.
but, see abt it than.

was thinking if i should cont with my piano lesson, and start my guitra lesson.
always wanted to learn, bt didn haven time, bt now i hab time already.
so think gonna save up some cash and use my rainning penny for these?

and i decided to get a desktop not a laptop le.
desktop will save a lots of money, and if i realli nid a laptop i already hab one which i am sharing w my dad.
so no worries i guess.

3words;8letters;1meaning

my main lead;you;yes;you
meiping || 9:49 PM

boo.
once again i am at yl's hus blogging.
oh well, friday will be my last day at motorola.
i am quitting once and for all tt darn job.
its killing me k tt job.
didn turn up for works for days man.
haven been slping well the past few days.
was thinking which road to go.
but now, finally i hab an answer.
i'm retaking my eng, sci and maths.
guess, gonna be another hard yr for me to go thur again.
pray for me k peeps.
and hor! i nid tuition! who can gif me free tuition. =x
haha

well well well, inside story okay.
lots of thing happened.
been slacking ard with my laopo this few days.
and a big thanks and big hug to her for staying by my side.
and thanks for tt MR ***** =x
well tts it man.
meiping || 4:17 PM

REUPDATE
okay. i am feeling much better now.
so gonna blog some short stuff abt today and yst ba.
yst went to meet ks 1st at mac and have lunch.
den took a cab to sch.
hmmm. went straight to the cave room and wait for my result.
idiot sia my dad.
before i get my result he called me and tell me abt my result.
sigh. make my mood bad.
okay. did BADLY for my O.
well, gt 8 for eng, 6 for math and hum. than 3 for fnn and chi. 7 for sci i guess.
sad ar.
lobang xf's cab back hm. than slack.
don intend to go out de. no mood.
den jack came down to find me.
when to catch a movie, so on so on.
den went to slack so on. went hm ard 1130 i guess?
anyway, thanks for the day jack.

for today, went out with my laopo.
went bishan mac slack, den saw our pri sch fren.
hmmm. e world is so small, all our fren are interelated.
anyway, went east coast for a couple of hr.
hmmm, the waves and breeze did a magic.
i felt so much beta already.
well, took a cab to bishan and slack. den went home le.
was at hm for an hr or so, than went out again.
met up with yl and her fren.
slack slack den went home le.
notsure if i should go out with alice leh.
wondering and pondering.
guess gg out with yl and ks tml.
meiping || 11:33 PM

hmm. nw already 2 plus le.
so blog abt yst.
hmmm. overslept yst. hence took a cab to work.
no mood to work at all. pms =x
okay. den when smking. cherry was saying don work and all go hm.
i was lyk sure no prb.=x
so went home. took my passport and sneak to malaysia with cherry and another gal. =D
went to cherry's hus.
head down to arcade than to red-box.
ard 1130 rush back to sg. just in time man.
=D
cheers. haha.
okay.
couple of hours more gonna get my result le.
sigh.
how how how?
wish me lucks man.......
meiping || 2:39 AM

so mani thing happen recently for me.
wth man.
it isnt fair to me k!
and this tots came back and it is not helpin me out at all.
i just make me ponder more and more.
i kept asking myself if i still love you.
i wish i had an answer.
but whenever i ask, my mind goes blank.
someone told me to carry on,
to try on, to love more.
tt someone told me it wasnt worth all these thinking at all.
beside all these shit,
another thing that is my mind was result.
sigh. i doubt i can make to man.
doesn havve any confidence at all...

nvm! don fret i will tell myself!
i will be strong. stronger than e wall, softer than the cloud.
hmmm. this yr val time, alone again. arghhs.

be my val time. anyone? haha.
just for tt day maybe?
meiping || 1:37 AM

i farking hate this foster family more and more!
they did it, they said it. its all my fault. they said it!
hate them!
no matter what i do u nv liked it at all.
no matter is right or wrong.
so what for i spend my effort to make thing prefect when u r always breaking things up.
i hate u!
u nv done ur part as a mother. u never!
slap me if u have e gut. i know u wan to slap me yrs old.
u never liked me den what for bring me here!
bring me here to spike u onli mah.
u said u love and dote on me. pui!
since when?????????
i never felt any sense of love and care from u ever since i noe the truth.
last time when i was small, i tot i was notti so u never like me.
den i tried to be good, be thing still the same.
u still dislike me lyk nobody business.
if u jolly well don lyk me den kick me back to malaysia.
since u said i onli noe how to make u angry and spend ur money!
bullshit! i earn my own money ever since 14! e rest of the money i will pay u back! don worry.
damnit! i hate u lyk nobody business!
u are not fit to be a mother at all!
even ur own sister say u nid to change! damnit!
arghs! i wan go back malaysia.
sigh.
i will not cry infront u all anymore.
never! i show u i can live on my own.
i don nid a mother lyk u.
i can jolly hire a maid. and at least a maid is beta than u!
bitch!
meiping || 12:43 AM

now at yl use.
so blog 1st.
so tt nite time can play maple. =D haha
sian. tml nid to work le. sian.
der go my cny.
still nid to work.
wonder when the result will be out.
my dad say next week comfirm will take.
he noe the date le but don wan say.
damnit.
quitting my current job soon.
anyone got job to intro?! nid $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ badly!
arghs..
meiping || 7:40 PM

back in sg nw. =D
and i am starting to miss my family already. sigh. =[

did lots of thing over in malaysia.
tons of laughter man!
okay. took a train back to malaysia on the 25th of jan.
reach there ard 1 am.
er jie came to fetch us.
head home. slept. den did some cleaning for e hus. played with baobei's
and wait for my mummy to come back from JB. =D

oh well. fast forward la.
cny eve did some praying as usual de la.
den made offering, played with firework so on so on.
and i took lots and tons of pic of my baobei's! =D

oh ya, bought my dig cam le. 599!
der goes my money man!

will try to upload the photos soon. =D
misses!~
HAPPYCHINESENEWYEAR DUDES~
meiping || 10:42 PM

OK! somthing SERIOUS!
just asked my dad about when our result well be out.
he said should be around 10th of feb!
my god! so fast man. not well prepare for it yet man.
but, nvm.
okay, going malaysia tml night at 9 by train.
anyone want send me off? jk!
be back latest on the 5th of feb. coz 6th of feb start work le.
misses man!

yst went to work, after work went out with my working budd, huifen bird so on so on.
went queensway shoppin center.
but could find anything tt let me have the urge to buy.
so went down to chinatown to meet up with my pri sch fren~
been yrs since i see them
misses!
everyone changed so much.
time flies.

oh well, today went to work, but took half day leave.
couldnt take the sickness at work.
so xin ku.
took a cab home. had a rest than head to town with erika.
went to hunt for my ny clothes.
bought a top and two 3/4.
enough le ba i guess.
met up with linda b4 gg home.
well. tts is it lor.
meiping || 11:49 PM

boO!
haven recover from my sickness yet.
but hopefully asap k!
i want to enjoy my new yr goodies~
cant wait for that man!
oh well, stayed at home the whole day yst till the nite time.
till, kor came over to find me.
had quite a long tok. misses!
well, due to my medic taking effect, went home ard 1 am.

today went out with erika.
i wanted to get some new yr clothes.
but couldnt find anyone tt suit me.
so i gave up.
bought a nike sling bag which cause ard 70 bucks.
same goes for erika.
she bought one blue and white sling bag. while i bought a sliver and bag v.
gt my pay today.
well, was pondering if i should reali get personal digital cam sia.
should i?!!
i dono man.
it is so tempting norx~~!
=x
meiping || 8:34 PM

SICK.
hate being sick. sigh. who like it anyway.

as i walk through the rain with my tears sheding drop by drop today.
i learnt a painful lesson about love.
i was so childish to believe in waiting.
was too childish to believe that, everything can be worked out no matter what, as long as the heart is there.
but i was truely wrong about it.
i want to thank you for letting me know what love is all about.
thanks for hurting me so deep.
and sorry for hurting u so deep too.
thanks for everything u had done for me ason.
i was realli happy that once in my life u was mine.
and that for once i was ur gal. i am contented with all these.
the memories in my mind will accommpany me through the rest of my life.
and that, u always have a place deep inside my heart no matter what.

to who you know it urself.
thanks for all the time u spent on me.
i know that all you had done was for me.
but i just want to let u know that, thing cant be the same again anymore.
being friends will be much better, for a gal lyk me don have the right to have such a good guy like u.
thanks for being there for me when i nid a shoulder to lean on.
thanks for being the rays of lights when i was at e darkness pt of life.
thanks for believing in all i said.

to wj.
sorry for letting u hab the feeling of being toyed.
but i don mean too.
i was too rush at tt pt of time. i tot i gave everything up already.
i tot i was ready for another relationship.
bt i was wrong. i wasnt ready at all.
sorry. but thanks for all the love and care u showered over me. =D
still friends! best friends!

sigh. there is so such thing in me that i wan to voice out.
but i felt so weak. so alone.
i find tt i cant find anyone true enough to be able to sit down sit by sit with me and listen to all my things.
maybe all the gaps betweens me and my friends, sista and bro had gave me this feeling.
as i burn myself in work. sigh.
meiping || 7:56 PM

here to updates after donkeys yrs.
don blame me. it wasnt my fault. well.
dad is back from england bt the lappy is stil not back yet.
gotta wait a week.
was thinking of getting a desktop or a new lappy.
coz dad paying half for me.
and i might be connecting my cable line back.
hope asap ba.

didn work today.
was sick. so i decided to gif a day off.
went to the doc. 28 gone.

guess was working too long and didn reali take a gd rest ba.
and the result? weaken~! =[
no ot tml for me too. GL don let me work tml.
nvm la. rest at home.
my old injured wirist is actting up again. damnit.
should be more careful tt day.
nvm.

i tot i gave u up totally.
i tot i was stronge enough to move on.
but i was wrong. i tried to carry on but i failed.
i tried gg out w wj, bt in e end stil break.
maybe i still nid time.\
maybe he wasnt the right one for me.
he was good. i was bad.
angle and devil.
but well, tts life. accept it.

i nid a long break.
MIA le.
meiping || 10:41 PM

currently at yl's hus.
wun be able to online for a couple of weeks.
daddy went england with my lappy.
damnit.
but nvm la.
still working at motorola sia.
boring life.
well, just got my hair highlight and had a cut.
well well well, leaving sg on the 25th of jan.
cant wait for that day to come.

anyway, its time to put everything to an end. =D
new start. new life.
cheers~!

mia*
meiping || 9:26 PM

back home. i miss my bloster man. shag.
just came back from the chalet not long ago.
well. the chalet was so~so~ norz.
didn slp a winkz at all man.
damn. so tired man.

try to blog abt the chalet. cant reali rem everything k.

1st day.
meet up with sharon, pris, gh, rh and sh.
had breakfast first, den took a cabby down to e chalet.
daddy was waitin for us der pass us the "key"
bt we can only check in at 0230, so we slacked for a couple of hours.
after we booked in, went white sands to buy the bbq stuffs.
lionel and fel joined us.
we went pool and arcade.
than nite time wl came to join us.
had a small bbq.

2nd day.
none of us had a good slp on e 1st day i guess.
whatever it is la.
second day they went to play pool and arcade.
so i was in e room for hours.
mean time cleaning up the room and settle the bbq food for e nite.
dono la. dl.
second day, sharon lee, fel, diana, yuling and frens joined us.
after bbq sharon they all went to countdown without us never tell us anything or wat lo.
so we jus slack at the chalet. wth right.
nnbbcb sia.

3rd day.
none of us slp. play card thur the nite. gambled.
so on so on.
den 9 plus booked out. went to eat den took cab home.

new year, new start! =D
hope everything will go smooth for me this year no matter what i do!
gt lots of wishes. will blog tml. nid some slp le!
meiping || 4:29 PM

BOO!
okay. lend 1/3 of my pay to cherly.
she is in e mist of getting lots of money for her family.
so i gave up my shopping cash for her. well, hopefully she will be okay. =D
anyway, after working went to meet up with my laopo at her hus area 1st.
then we hit the town. eh. just went fareast onli la.
buy a polo tee.
hmmm. den we went back to j8 and slack. coz i forgot to bring my keys out.
so gotta wait for my dad to go home 1st. =x
anyway, been a long time since i slack.
oh well, chalet is a day away. and i haven get everything pack yet.
friday take a day off. den monday not working, so i suppose i will find ah jin jie.
hair getting hay wired already. front part too long. nid a trim and nid some color. XD

well, shag shag shag.
anyone gt a gd job with a high pay to intro?!
meiping || 10:56 PM

back to bloggie.
hmmm. so tired nowadays sia.
prefer working during the afternoon shift.
morning shift so ma fan nid wake up so ealry de.
den somemore always want slp when working.
sian. after cheryl, the next target of poh lang seems to be me sia.
one moment u can see me here, the next moment i will be at another side.
damnher. =X

okay la. whatever.
i am waiting for my next pay, which is on the 7th of jan 2oo6.
wanna get my own cam asap.
doesnt lyk sharing with my mom, so pain in the neck man.
anyway, just off work. duper hungry now.
but still nid to wait for my dad to come home.
i wan go back MALAYSIA!
i LOVE malaysia. =D

MIA*
meiping || 4:05 PM

k. back again for the second entry of the day.
just rem tt i didn went for a couple of chalet this two month.
missed andy's , xin ling and sharon de chalet.
missed quite a no. of bbq party too.
been getting quite a no. of complains from my friends too for being so busy with the stuipd work.

was on the way home today on the bus, than i started letting my mind go wild.
den i began to miss him again. and still i still miss him.
sigh.
i will put u down. i will. i will.
but the fear is still there. fear tt history will repeat itself once again.
for the fear tt i will take another year, 365 days to really let it fade away totally.
once is enough. wun be able to take it twice and spend yrs waiting for him.
unlocked my heart.

who gonna pick me up this tym round and accompany me on my road of recovery from the hurt and pain.
dry my tears and pain. numb*
toxic

lastly HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARON.
meiping || 11:28 PM

yawns.
shag shag shag.
lonely xmas this yr. haha.
was thinking back of the past, wondering what i was doing on 24th 2oo4.
den so much memories flashed back. well, nth much ba i guess.
anyway, celebrating xmas with my working friends.
celebrating by working together. haha.
well, bought my mp3. its lyk finally man! =D

bored*
meiping || 5:34 PM

okay. this is so sucky okay.
now only left me working at motorola.
yst yl quit, today ks's turn to quit..
wth lo. damnit. all ps me. arghss.
nvm. i guess gonna work till the 15th of jan ba.
for the sake for money.
okay, well, decided to dye my hair at my sis salon.
cheaper price, more choice of color. =D
but cant bear to dye my hair black to other color sia.
o.O'''

anyway, pck gonna fly off today.
hope to see him soon.

cant wait for 15th of jan to come,
when i can finally shout back at tat ah jie!
wth* arghs.
bao lang is so xia lan! =x
meiping || 7:22 PM

okay! i am finally having an day off. phew!
been waiting for this day so long man.
just woke up, finally gt a good long slp.
well, guess will be meeting ahjin jie lata ba.
erika last min gotta work. so nv go out with her le.
there go my shoppin day.
but nvm la.
den i was thinkin if i should dye my hair anot?
scare lata hair damage.
den if dye or highlight?
den what color?
tot of having purple.
but my work place already gt ahlian gt tt color le.
not sure le la. depends le..
was praying tt 22nd come fast and quick!
my pay day~

well. MIA le. =D
meiping || 1:07 PM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a miss.

haven been watching any movie for a long time man.
missed harry potter and zai shou yi ci wo ai ni.
sighs...

wash away my pains and tears..
i just wan to be alone.
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a miss ba.
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but
meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
meiping || 12:51 AM

okay. i am back home from work.
hmmm. yaya. i noe ppl say this job is not worth it.
but its better than other job i am offered.
their OT pay is higher. so i chionging my OT hours nowadays.
not tt i am realli short of cash.
just tt, i nid to save some cash for raining days.

life is so short. my uncle just passed away.
gosh.
its only now, tt i recalled that i didn meet up with him for yrs.
sigh.
when i heard abt his news of cancer of last state, i was shocked.
i told myself i will gif myself an day off to pay him a visit at the hosp.
but just the next day i recieve e news, he passed away.
sigh.
so fast man. =human are so weird, when they lost something than they will only start to regret.

something hab been on my mind. lingering around for days and weeks.
i still miss him so much.
sigh.
who can tell me is there a way to go back to e past?
i think and think.
but i donoe wat to do.
i cant put him down. at least for now.
i realli cant. sigh.
i miss his big tight hug. =the words we said once kept flooding me.
the time we spent still kept coming back.
i yearn for a real heart break. a totally chaos one.
just to let my heart die.
sigh.
meiping || 12:52 AM

SHAG!
damn tired man..
very super duper tired norz. arghss!
hab to stand the whole day when working lor.
wth!
worst thing is OT is 12 hours!
1st time in my life, standing for a solid 12 hours.
hope end of the month the pay will be worth all e standing.

my whole life seems to turn upside down sia. when ppl are slping.
i am awake, preparin for work.
when ppl are eating i am working.
like an owl man. sian. tml will be afternoon shift! damn it.
3pm to 1130pm. wth!

long time nv go shoppin le sia.
wonder if i had enjoyed myself yet.
meiping || 11:28 PM

okay. canceling away my trip to malaysia for the time being man.
tot of going mia for a couple of months and take a rest.
but it was ruin. it ruin my plan for accompanying ganny~ =\
miss ganny lots. wonder hows her health! hope its better and better as time goes by.

well, it was ruin to WORK! arghhs.
tiring and stupid work time! fark man.
went to work today. 1st day at work.
pair with an malaysian aunty. not bad.
not very fierce willing to teach me. DUH~
and e break is only 30 mins!
if work e morning shift and i have to wake up at 4am!
4am k! not 4pm! my god.
and e prob is i always slp at 4am! arghs. save me man! fark it.
pardon me for my words used today.
just cant stand it man.
have to STAND thur out the work time. the feeling is so yucky~~
arghs.
and the worst thing of all! i am working morning shift this week!
630 to 330
okay. i am working at the motorola factory.
yes i noe, it sound so *auntie*.
but tts life. in need of cash? no matter what job it is, it have to be taken!
anyway, basic pay is $930. =S
haven plus OT yet.
hope i can live with this amount of cash man ppl!
pray hard for me!!

feeling was so mixed, so confused.
lord, give me strength to carry on.
after so many thing had happened,
i learn to be strong.
i learn to much thing.
i learn how to be alone.
i learn not to be jealous anymore.
i learn that no one can be by ur side forever.
i learn to cry with the rain so that no one noes i am crying.
i learn to pick myself up alone when no one is there for me.
i learn how to gather my broken pieces of heart under the heavy shower of rains.

anyway i want to get my hair DYED or HIGHLIGHT!
but its kinda of ex man! and chalet also nid lots of cash! argsh.
meiping || 11:06 PM

heres my rants.
lazy to blog this few days. was too bored man.
guess having insomia man. every night toss and turn in my bed for hours till i can finally slp man.
i guess i slp around 4 am everyday man. arghs.
just like an owl. damnit.
job job job!
cash cash cash!

well, went out to slack AGAIN! =x
i noe is again. bt i cant helping staying at home everyday.
i will bored to death man.
not tt no one go out with.
just that, i don like mixing out with those ppl again.
arghsssss. life is boring.
i want to dye my hair. planning to get it done by this week?

i guess, if dec stil cant get a job, i will go back malaysia first ba.
maybe thing will be better than. maybe i wun think so much anymore?
maybe? who noes.
wo xing ku, dang wo ku bu cu lai.
i feel so weird. i dono wats wrong.
i feel like crying, but just no tears. i feel so xin ku.
numb bby it i guess? sigh.

oh ya, remember that, 24 dec have to make a trip to ROM for kang jie's his wife ROM.
=D
congs to them man! weee. =D
meiping || 10:26 PM

BOO! holidays is boring.
damn boring k. arghs.
cant find a job, which mean no income!
was slacking at home the whole day today.
laopo went malaysia le. wish i can go back malaysia too.
bt i scare i go back malaysia le wun come back for months.
den chalet is on e way. dono man~
sigh.

bored! damn bored lor!

holidays sucks. i miss him.
wondering if he misses me the way i miss him. =\~
the words we once said kept coming back.
i hate myself man.

lord, give me the strength to walk out of this.
meiping || 9:21 PM

ARGHS!
nothing has been going right for me THIS MONTH!
just thought of changing blog, bt than everytime i blog it hang!
i tried changing the skin also cant! it just stick with the old skin. arghs
damn it man!
whatever it is le lar.
so i just have to stick with this blog for e time being.

i am just pretending all these while i guess.
pretending its all a dream. and pretend it is not hurting me.
something seems to go wrong inside me. i donoe whats wrong.
i somehow feel that, i am not e gal i used to be.
i feel that, this time round i am hurt till it doesn feel anymore.
i feel so numb now.
its not totally his fault. i just cant stop myself from blaming myself for e failure of this relationship.
wondering if i am not good enough for this love.
something i feel that his love is too heavy for me to carry.
den i start to think that, i am not mature to have e relationship which is so serious with him.
hence i decline the patch.
i am sorry ason for the hurts i caused in your heart. its a deep hurt and cut.

finish O level already! good start.
but yet to find a job man. bad start too.
went to meet up with a couple of friends.
been slacking at bishan this few weeks man.
slacking and chilling period now man.

TODAY...
went to meet ks and went ms de k-box. sing sang sung till 7 plus.
den head back to bishan for dinner.
after tt home sweet home. nothing else i guess.

BOOS!!!!!!
meiping || 11:35 PM

here to blog. changed my blog skin le. hows was it peeps?
well. had quite a time editing it man. but hope its okay la.

didn slp quite well last nite. slp quite late.
den woke up only in e noon man.
had tuition. than went down to eat with pris and erika.
just came home. sms-ing with ason now.
i wonder, i ponder. i am still clueless. =s

maybe i should just smile like nothings wrong,
talk like everythings prefect.
act like its all a dream,
and pretend it's not hurting me?

o level is coming to an end. i cant wait for it to end man.
meiping || 8:56 PM

alas! here to blog after donkeys years.
O level is half way through already. 3 more paper to go. =D
not going for poa paper. and it is decided.

its over. end of my 7 months relationship.
after going in circles for 3 years with him and it is still back to square one.
sigh. should i really resign to fate this time round?
i dono what to say. i'm speechless. lost for words.

well. thats is it. will blog when i hab mood.
meiping || 9:54 PM

boo! lazy blog last few days.
beside that, also kind of moodless. don wish to say it out.
this blog aint tt pvt anymore.
and by saying it out, people will start to tok on my back so on so on.
so don ask me! lucky piggy pei wo.
love piggy!

oh well, boring. went out with fel to study day.
went coffeebean.
i v guai de. so i help mummy buy stuffs.
went home very early today.
o level only left with 270+ hours! taking away slping time i mean!
can u see~!!! 270 hours only! wth!
meiping || 11:17 PM

day off today. didn go school, cant be bothered man.
two lesson only.
oh well, went out to study will bell and erika at amk mac from abt 11 to 4.
den head down to j8 for dinner.
hmm.. going bugis tml with erika!
i want a shopping day! =x
just wanted to get a couple of stuffs, bt not i all i guess..
a couple or one top
playboy necklaces
a slipper maybe
some nice earing.
see tml ba. wee.
=]

i miss piggy! and i also miss my laopo's, darlingss and baobei's. =i miss all those chilling session.

i feel the separation.
i feel the distance, i feel the gap.
do u feel the same as i do?
and in the first place, do u noe who i am refering to?
meiping || 10:02 PM

morning wake up den went to meet sharon, pris and esther for breakfast.
hit to sch, did my practical den went TP with pris.
had after afternoon tea den help mummy buy stuffs.
cancel the tuition, due to the tiredness and the disappointment in the sci pract.
oh well. sigh.

arghs!sucks sucks sucks! science practical sucks to the core!
gonna flunk it man.
i dono what i am doing for my sci chemistry lor.
all i remember was that when i boil the solution, it went POP!
and the chem hit sharon's shirt. =x sorry sharon wor. =x
anyway i think phy is easier norz. wth! damn it!

tml gg out with bell and erika study ba. amk mac 11!

meiping || 10:44 PM

went out study with laopo at bishan mac.
den joined by erika and jasmine , erika's condo fren.
poor laopo lost her fone.. =hope she is not tt sad now.
well, i understand hw she feels man! lost my fone b4.

oh well, after studying went to hunt for a pair of slipper, bt cant find any nice one.
boo!
just found out tt, all my slipper and shoes cant be wear during raining weather.
hope to find one nice one soon man!
pray*
and hor! i wan get a playboy necklaces. haha. =x
thats all.
and lastly MR ANG called my house!
fark him man! complain to my dad i never go for poa.
damn him. lalala. but who cares. arghs.
headache!
meiping || 10:04 PM

i am bored! so decided to post some pictures.
my BEDROOM!


this is before packing and cleaning up

after cleaning! neat right~! i am a good girl. i keep my room in order.

after all the mugging! this is e result =x

but after mugging, i stil make an effort to keep it. =D

oh well. blogging now kinda of early right?
well, its friday! wee. meeting piggy tml le. finally my god.
well, just came back from school, thanks to bell for sending me out of sch. =]
deciding where and wat time to study with sharon now man.
sian!
1 more dae piggy!
meiping || 1:12 PM

shhhhaaaagggg!!!
what a day for me. slept kinda of late last nite.
around 2? wanted to wake up at 4 to study, but couldn't wake up. =x
okay la. went sch, had fnn den poa ( free period for me) den maths.
goodness! all the lesson 2 bloody hour long man.
but managed to live through it today.
wondering about tml if i should go sch.
tml will be having eng and chem i suppose.

oh well, today after school went home straight.
slack infront of e comp for some time den head to my dreamland.
den erika was so on time today man! reached at 5. omg!
had tuition, den went down for dinner with erika and pris.
right home now. =x

oh gosh, yst was clearing my folder, saw zhezhe video!
i miss zhezhe!! arghs! cant wait for O level to finish! =x

27 more days to O level. work hard ppl. last leap le.
This will be our PASSPORT to our carreer!
meiping || 10:59 PM

boo! tiring day man!
end sch early today, coz i nv take MT.
so went j8 with erika to slack, den went back sch again for maths.
oh gosh. was dead tired tt i doubt i learn anything man. =x
bless me lord.
sometime i wonder will i make it thur?
and sometime i wish, time hasn't been so cruel to me.
time flies, so fast, and its already the 5th yr in peirce. my god.
everything just seem so like yesterday.
let me go and take a break.
meiping || 9:41 PM

boo! =]
went to MS yst finally. after so long man.
okay. it was so so norz. saw some friend. didn say hi nor bye la. =x
went there at 6, den left around 8, took a cab to amk central.
head to the arcade and slack.
went home around 9 plus.

than today went to study with erika as usual.
nth much. only thing is that, maths is killing me!
arghz! i still cant slove the maths qns! wth!
arghs. nvm. i will try again ba.

6th mth coming. =D big cheers.
meiping || 9:23 PM

weee. another off day i took for myself today.
just my personal day off. =]

slept this morning at 6 am! den woke up by my girls sms-es and calls.
went back to slp, less than an hour,than kana called down for lunch.
help mummy buy stuffs le, jiu wait for pris and erika to come over for tuition.
had tuition from 4 to 6 plus.
than they slacked at my hus for awhile, den hit the coffee shop for dinner.
chilled slack, than home sweet home.

i am bored. mdm gay called my hus this afternoon to nag abt me not going to sch.
didn noe mummy will help me. she said, she will go school tml den hang the phone.
too bad for gay. whaha. =x
heard that no testi for those who never go. wth man! as if they realli wun give man.

well, tml got PE. so i going. yea! haha.
and whats the time now? i haven bath yet!
oh ya. tml sharon they all gg to chill out at k-box.
think gonna give it a miss. i need to head down to SGH for my report.
but i am so lazy! =x
why cant they just send it to my house. arghs. sucky ars.
but at least piggy say i guai. whaha. =x
meiping || 10:11 PM

i gave myself a couple of off day. =]
really kind of tired after so much thing.
didn go to sch today, wanted to go out study.
but everyone in sch don seems to hab the study mood.
erika, guess fell aslp ba. donoe.
spend my afternoon reading books.
den decided to go for my hopsital appointment.

jon accommpanied me there and waited hours for me.
gosh. thank jon! =]
after e checking, kind of tired me real out.
had a couple of bread, den head home and slp.
report will be out in a couple of day.

bored. guess, i not going school tml too.
no enegry left in my body.
wearying out very soon.
meiping || 7:44 PM

reporting in for my rants.
today in sch had a quarrel with some nothing better to do *TOOT*!
oh gosh. i forgot what to blog man!
currently on the fone with sharon.
talk till i forgot what i wanted to blog. arghs.
=x

nvm la. haha.
blog tml nor.
just think that some people are so childish.
wonder when they will ever grow up.
meiping || 10:30 PM

BOOS!
arghs. wats happening man.
whys thing turning out like that?
sigh. do we hab to go that extend in this friendship? do we have to?
3rd down the road together already. thought we been thur alot enough to understand each other well.
but end up, i just found out that, i didn understand xf that well.
did i did my best as a sista?
sometimes i ponder and wonder. but i cannot seems to get an answer man.
was it my fault that she wan to follow the same way of mi?
i donoe. =\

my girls, first time i hang out with a grp for so long. not one mth, three mth, but 3 yrs man.
its such a pity if the friendship we build up realli goes down the drain.
i wish that day will never come. but day by day, it seems to get futher and futher. out of my reach.
i hate the feeling of beening stuck.

whatever, just hope that her attiude will change.
change her stubborness. even just a little it will help the sitution now norz.
who will able to contorl her? who will she listen to?
lord please tell me.

my blog is turning more into a place for me to nag to. =\
well, whatever.

after sch pei xf wait for jordon from 2 to 4 plus.
den went home, change went to meet jon for awhile.
and my aunt came to pick me up for a little walk and snacks.
i kept having the urge to work. i need a job right after O level man.
eyeing on quite a no. of stuffs already. =x
big spender i am. =p
meiping || 11:00 PM

boo! i decided to hab a password thingy coz my dad found out about blog.
and i didn want him to know wats happening in myself and all those shit.
i don want them to be involve in my life.
so my password is genhojo

finally found a blog skin tt look kind of nice.
due to the nagging of sharonS. =x
well, not bad right?

so many happened, so fast, so unexpected.
well, what a year to have all these happening.
the most important year. wth.
my life is like a rollar coaster ride this few days!
big ups and downs, big turning, sharp turning.
my life is in a mess!

but lucky, there is still my friends and piggy to bring me on.
i love everyone man!
without all of u, i am imcomplete! wats my blog mean is real. =]

and i love my girls to the bacon bits!
meiping || 10:07 PM

wat a week i had.
bad week i suppose? sigh.
had some misunderstanding or what with my groups of girls.
first time, all of us shed tears together.
but hope thing will goes well for us.
third year already. lots of ups and downs.
keep it still contiune to counts on.

oh well, thing hasn't been going so well for mi even personally.
i wonder how i gonna live on in this incomplete family.
cant i have the least respect i should have?
had a bad quarrel with them.
almost had the mind set of hurting myself. bt thing was sorted out.
i cleared my tots. thanks to jon`jon.
just hopes thing goes well for me now on..

just 37 more daes to o level le.
bless me.
meiping || 11:26 PM

BOO!!!
i am real stress out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=x

from a distance, it turns into miles.
and from miles, we are seperated soon i guess.
sometime i wonder, was i e one who forsake the group or was it the group the which forsaked me.
it cant be state whoes fault it was.
i donoe what can be done to bring the bond back. or maybe time is up?
i guess, time really flies and people are changing fast.
at least, when the time come when the group is splilt, i can turn back and smile and say, at least for once in my life, i was part of that group.
guess that all..

i am real stress out*
jonjon, =] thank for being there whenever i needed someone to nag on. to shout out to. =]
you are a real great friend! it have been so long already and u still keep ur promise.
a friend hard to come by.

and sorrie to piggy.
sorrie for the maddness, all the rubbishs and mood swings.
thank for keeping up with me. i love piggy.
meiping || 11:13 PM

result aint that good.
gt 30/50 for social studies.
18/80 for maths paper 1
32/100 for maths paper 2
combine sci gt 47. stil fail.
wth!
i just hate myself man.
wats wrong man.
lcb! =x

hope i finally complete my fnn coursework.
and hope the coursework will get off my neck.
just a pain in e ars!

something is seriously wrong with me.
sigh. and i dono wats wrong.
i feel like shutting down myself from every single person.
feel like not toking.
i feel so weird. and pms is making thing worst.

went back for my monthly checks.
thing is fine, at least wat e doc say.
lucky thing was that, he didn find out that i didn eat the medic.
sick and tired of all these stuffs.
meiping || 10:35 PM

wth! wats the time now and i am still here blogging.
sigh. wondering if i am suffering from depression.
arghs. some one save me.
40 days more and it gonna be O level 1st paper.
and i am still not prepared!
arghs! damnit!
wake up wake up! no more slacking and mood swing.
its not the time for all these rubbish.
ccb! arghs.
meiping || 1:26 AM

yawn. dead tired.
just bathed.
what a day man.
had phy paper, gosh like helll!
after tt had 2 whole solid hour of fnn.
didn study, so u know, slept thur it just like poa.
wake me up someone. cut me out from this holiday mood. o level is coming!

after the paper when home and change.
head to amk k-box and slack with sharon and fel.
what a joke there. laught like crazy, sang like nobody business.
went j8 after tt to do some shopping for my mum.

thats all for my day.
tml will be the last prem paper.
gonna read thur lata i guess.
after paper gg piggy's hus tml. =]
meiping || 9:55 PM

yawn. kinda of tired today.
well, woke up ard noon time.
den kailong sick so didn study wib him.
tot of findin piggy, bt he slping.
so went to study with pris and sharon.
slack ard. didn study much. phy is such a pain.
sharon head for to e gym 1st. den me and pris went to print our tuition stuffs.
saw erika.
had dinner at deilfrance. spent 20 bucks? =x
ate fattening food. whaha. nice.

walked ard j8 just now. bougth a new pinky ring, coz i lost the old one.
took some effort to find one tt can suit my finger.
the smallest there was 6, bt my ring size for last finger is ard 5!
arghx. nvm. just stick with 6. spent a bomb. =x

i want go shopping!
had this qns on my mind on and off quite long le.
thinking of perming my hair or reborning it. =or just stick with the old hair i hab?

and i miss zhezhe. =/ my xiao shuai ge.
wonder how zhezhe is doing.
meiping || 11:23 PM

boo! finally here to blog. =]
finish a couple of paper already.
left with combine sci and fnn ba.
poa was a laughing joke today.
knew totally nothing about poa.
so as expected, finish the paper pretty fast, and i mean fast! =x
finish paper one, mcq in 15 mins, paper two in 20 mins.
wee. fast hur.. =D

oh ya, planned to watch heibe with erika, but the movie time was abit hay-wired.
so didn watch as plan. slack at erika's hus, den went home le.
was thinking if i should work now.
so much thing i wan to buy, so in short of cash arghz.
and i don wan to use my saving yet! ~!@#$%^&*()_
whatever.

tml gg study with kailong.
miss piggy lots lots. haven been meeting up with piggy for sometime already.
meiping || 11:25 PM

photos time. =x some are e 5as ppl pic. the rest are my darlin pic. =]
and hor, don scold me if u see ur pic! whaha =x
start off wib e sch ppl 1st.


sharon w her pig face.

big smile =D

jiesi w her gong smile.

jiesi again

my laopo ks on e right w cailing

my shy shy jocelyn

hx, bell and xf during poa lesson.

xf w her big smile! =x

erika, xf and mq, poa lesson.

the two 'famous ah lian' =x

now for my baobeis.

he say: smile like me!

he say: don disturb me! i wan to play w my toys.

see my teeth? nice and white. envy me! come on.

my xiaobaobei henhen, yummy finger. =x

had tuition in e morning today.
after tuition went j8 w erika and pris for lunch.
den head to piggy's hus to slack.
went hm ard 9.
gonna go study tml.
work hard everyone.
meiping || 10:14 PM

back hm already.
morning went to sch, but was late, =x
maths was 8 to 10. but i 950 than reach =x
anyway stayed there awhile, like 30 mins than went to do comp lab and do fnn.
by the time i get everything done and reach hm is like 12 plus already.
got ready change, then went j8 find yl 1st and wait for kl.
didn go piggy's hus. =x but going tml after the tuition. sorrie piggy.
oh well. laopo is kinda of sad. hope she pull herself up asap. =]
oh ya, the longest yard is nice! real nice k! go watch it. =x
kl left j8 ard 7. den i went 77th street and slack and pei yl work nor.
end up as if i work there too. help her serve ppl =x.
free labour for her today man.
went hm 9 plus. suppose to hab supper with kor at ms de.
but decided to gif it a miss. coz tml gt tuition. and kinda of tired.

i hate the mcdc. pain in the neck man.
always bugging ppl for reports reports reports.
i already CLOSE my case! wth man.
lcb! fark them nor. i didn touch those thing! and i never touch it b4 lar!
arghx. pardon me. but goddamnit!

monday is premli and i am stil slacking. argh.
just a small stone trippin me, i miss my whole track man.
gotta pick myself up asap!
meiping || 11:27 PM

i am back in singapore le. =]
well, granny is in stable state now. hope she will get better.
still worried abt her.

anyway gt to see my darling zhezhe and henhen.
aiya. i dono what to blog la.
pardon me guys.
meiping || 8:42 PM

SIGH!
daddy just called me if i want to go back malaysia tonight.
granny is feeling unwell. =\
real shock to hear the news.
i am going back no matter what it takes
i am just going back malaysia.
tell me, tell me that everythings gonna be fine.
please tell me that. ='[
i cant stomach the news at all.
it seems to be a dream for me.
dry my tears, clear my thoughts.. i just want to be alone.
lord, please bless her. i need her by my side.

tuition is cancel, gonna miss remedial.
sigh.. why this have to happen this time. right at this moment.
ah ma, please get well soon. i will be lost for words.
i don think i can say that face to face to you.
i am just so useless, gutless.
sigh.
meiping || 2:16 PM

yawn..
nice weather this few days.. good for slping! =x
watch san ge hao ren yst with ks and sw.
nice show! funni? touching?
anyway, piggy sent mi hm after e show. thx piggy.

well, todae went out to study with erika.
as usual went yoshi.
however, very noisy today. ars man. banch of monkeys and birds. yucks!
anyway finish my tuition hmwk le, went to walk ard j8.
den head to amk's arcade, slack there, den hm sweet hm.

anyway saw kor kor. botak! whaha. so cute seein zaizai botak! lols.
yst he v good. =] haha. thank kor.

no trips back to malaysia this holidays.
i miss them, the whole lot back in malaysia.
i miss my granny.. my beloved zhezhe, my dear sister, my cutest daddy.
i just miss them... =\
meiping || 10:51 PM

didn go sch today. =cant be bothered. anyway suppose to have tuition at 10, so wake up early in the morning.
who noes, it was postpone to 12.
erika and pris came to my hus ard 11.
had tuition till 2..
they had lunch at my hus, den pris went off,
erika slacked at my hus till 5..
tts all for today i guess?
i am bored. and s.s paper is coming. i haven started on it yet.
bless me god man. =x
tml going study with erika.
meiping || 9:08 PM

fattening~
haha. today had my sci practical..
gosh. it is like shit!
ARGHS. sucks!
whatever la.
after the paper, guess where i went? i went out with jocelyn and shuhui.
suprise? haha. went tp de pizzahut to eat, blur shuhui order the wrong pizza. but nvm.
after tt walked ard tp, reached hm ard 5..
sms-ed my laopo ks, went to eat wib her, than head for j8 to look for yl.
passed her, her birthday gift, went ntuc help mummy buy stuff for tml lunch..
den head for hm.
stress*
meiping || 10:00 PM

PREMIL is coming!
which means, less time to blog, less time to play, less time to shop.
and only MORE for study!!!
mug mug mug! i need to mug!

i need to work hard!

don blame me if i don blog. whees........
off i go....
meiping || 10:47 PM

i hate mense cramps! arghs.
i just pull my whole mood down. right down to the earth.
cramps cramps cramps.
the feeling is just so sucky. sigh.
it makes my whole mood so bad, when i am already in such a mess already.
just wish everything end asap man.

school is just shit for mi. i got 60 for english CA, poa also 60.
maths was hell. 29 onli. kill me man.

i guess, i have to learn to pick myself up from all the mess.
stand by me if u are truly my friends.
i don need faker here.
meiping || 9:03 PM

oral today... guess i didn do very well.. =/
i dono even noe what i was saying.. the picture was like shit!
nth to say.. omg.. hope i didn screw it up that badly. =

didn slp well for the past few days.. went school with puffy eyes.
whats wrong with me.. thing is going hay-wired..
way way out of the correct path..
oh helll... arghs! sigh..
='[ fark myself man! damn my foolish thinking. my foolish feeling..
damn it man.
sigh. sometime i see the future ahead for us is like so narrow.. so unreachable.
i just lost myself, lost my confident totally. where i can ever find back tt courage, that strength once again. another year? or three years? all i needed was time.
i yearn for the everlasting, the forever, even tot i know clearly there is no forever.
fullstop till my fairtale. the best i ever had. will i ever regret my choice? my decision? will i? someone tell mi.

life is never gonna be the same for mi again.
life with out u. life without ur love. life all alone once again.
just like last time, history repeat itself again.
stranger hurts my heart.
there i stand picking up the pieces alone once again.
let me awake from this nightmare soon.
i need to pick myself up before anything get disrupted.

i miss my family.. i want to make a trip home.
i yearn for granny's warm hug, the hug that will make mi feel that, no matter how worst the thing goes, there is still her there to support mi. sometime i ponder, if ever one day 10 years down the road, granny is not there with me, what will happen? where else can i find someone to tok to. let me myself out, open out myself and show the real mi. sigh..
meiping || 10:17 PM

behind my smiles are everything that you'll never understand.
yi zhen zhen de ji mo yong shang le wo.
disappointment afloat my soul, bring back to hell. lonely.
if only tingy jie still here. koven and zai not here, i understand, koven busy with his U stuff.
zai is with ns. i don blame them. but how about those whom told mi that they will be with mi no matter wat. none of them seem to care abt my present at all.
now i know who are truly my friends who are not.

lord tell mi i will be able to live thur this.
tell me u will will give me the strength to carry on. i am such a let down. so weak.so useless.
lord, don let mi sink futher and futher into this endless hole of darkness.
oh god. i dono wat i am say. i dono wats on my mind.
meiping || 10:21 PM

lord tell mi i will be fine..
tell mi everything will be over soon..
for i dono what i am doing.. what i am thinking..
i feel so lost when he not beside mi..
however the decision is made..
for i know he hates me to the core...
weaker and weaker i grow...

ke neng wo tai tian zhen le..
shi jie shang zhen de mei you tian chang di jiu..
zou reng hao mao dun..
dang ta bu zai wo sheng bian shi, wo jiu hao xiang ta, ke shi, dang ta zai wo sheng bian shi, wo yi dian duo dong de zhen xi da..
meiping || 5:50 PM

It is OVER.. everything is over..
from stranger to friend.. than from friend promoted to lover and from lover back to square one.. STRANGER..
i cried a thousand river, a thousand mile.
its a long story, and a long way both he and me came by..
everything just happened like a dream.. one moment he was stil part of my last and the next moment we were like stranger.
for i never wanted thing to ended this way.. never ever..
trust mi ason if u ever read this..
i love you, yes i do.. for i never cheated you...
as i told u before we patch tt time, thing will not be the same again..
but u don see to believe me.. i just donoe..
ever since that break up, the feeling just seems to fade away day by day..
the love is not strong anymore..
oh lord, tell mi thing will be fine...
sigh... all i can do now is to wish him the best of lucks and hope he wil find a better girl than me.
for i am not a good stead.. i know i am not..

you hao duo hao duo de shi de jing zai bu yan zong..
i just dono how to put all my feeling into words..
it beyond words can descibe..
i just seems to go hay-wired...

i feel so all alone...
alone picking up my broken heart, den mending it myself and letting it break again..
i guess i need time to let everything sink into the bottom of my heart, let it registed inside my mind..
telling them it is not just a dream..
meiping || 9:30 PM

omg! know what? my SCHOOL is just like a ZOO! ZOO u know? full of ANIMALS walking around with no sense of manners at all..
there is so mani animals man, let name some..
hmm.. DOG! PIGS! MONKEYS! APES! SUKL AND KIND KONG!
oh well.. bitchy slut that we got in peirce sia..
those no manner ppl, ( guess no parent teach them any manners lolx) goes ard the sch commenting or should i say BARKING abt other ppl..
when they didn even noe they are the real ANIMALS man!
well, that can be understand, why? because ANIAMLS have LOW IQ and EQ!
so cant blame them man!
oh well.. these KPO and NO MANNER ppls shall not affect me..
small kids after i guess.. NOT MATURED YET.. DUH~
yucks man.. animals STINKS! agree?!

oh well.. today sch was long and boring..
like never ending.. first happy birthday to WEILONG..
two period of fnn and a period of chi is like free period to mi.. =x
recess time celebrated weilong birthday with the 5as..
after tt was maths den assb..
didn go home straight.. went to hab lab pract.
after the chem lab pract, went to roti hus and eat..
reached home ard 6.. was so tired man! slept from 7 to 10 man!

thats all i guess...
meiping || 11:24 PM

okay.. it have been decided!
i am NOT RETAKING CHI!
mdm chang told me not to retake and waste time.. cos i am just at a2 and b3..
it is kind of hard for mi to get a1..
so i decided she was right.. and so nv retake..
i hope i will not REGRET.
oh well, all the best for those who will be retaking..
work hard..

i got a new skin.. and i know it its like AGAIN..
but sharon was complaining man.. saying my skin was boring..

sch was so so, maths was boring...
s.s was worst.. sbq! didn do well, fell aslp half way when doing..
english was getting more and more bored! cmi was lame!
went home right after school.
and being a good girl, i help mummy to buy stuffs. =D
had tuition..

sometime i find out that parents are such a pain in the neck...
when u don need them, they are always der and bitting u hard..
but when u reali need them and want their advise, they tend to walk away leaving u with big ????. fark them man! parents are parents!
or maybe i can say that, i am not grown up enough to make my own decision.
yea... i guess so... inmature thinking i have man.. =x
meiping || 10:09 PM

ARGH!!!!!!! should i retake another!!!!!!!!!!!!
kill mi! i am dead confused man!!!!!!!
arghs!

fcuk man! i am dead confused if i should retake my chi anot man~!
save mi! someone save mi!

i just donno man!

anyway HAPPY 4th MONTH ANN dear!!!!!! =D
love ya!

sat gonna study with kailong i guess.. time is running short!
meiping || 10:13 PM

因为陌生，所以勇敢，因为距离，所以美丽

it is in chi font wonder if u all can see...
but nvm la.. =]
today went to study with erika.. but didn reali study..
still gt tons of homework left undone! lord save mi man..
=x
5 plus left yoshi and walked ard j8..
spotted a nice belt!
went home ard 6..
tired.. dead tired..
oral will be on 24 of aug..
bless mi lucks k..

after much thinking, i still dono if i should retake my chi..
confused! daddy say take lor take lor..
my friends say don take don take..
should i? shouldnt i?
arghs! and tml i have to give an answer..
wat i fear most was tt after retaking still b3..
den wth is the use of retaking man! fcuk! =x
whatever la!

what comes around goes around
meiping || 10:56 PM

=D oh well.. last nite read the 5th book of potter and manage to finish by 4 am~
was too tired so kind of over slept and didn meet sharon n gang in the morning..
slept till about 10 and woke up finally..
washed up and took a cab to school.. today school is having carnival..
so had to go as i said, i gave my words to mdm foong..
oh gosh.. it was boring! reali boring man! doesnt seem be a carnival to mi at all..
instead it look more like cca day man!
played the dunk game, but missed all 3.. poor shooter and aimmer i am~! wasted 8 bucks..
slacked in school till about noon time i guess, and head off to town..
took 167 to herren first with sharon, pris and fel.. shop around..
bought a green leather wirst band..
than hit for for lucky plaza and bought a shirt at gio.. erika and mq joined us there..
than all 6 of us bought the micky shirt.. =]
went far east to hab lunch, den walked around.. around 4 plus head off to bugis w pris, fel and mq..
bought a skirt from micky shop.. gosh.. i guess i hab been influ into liking micky more and more..
well.. bought some food and than home sweet home.. =D
reached hm about 9.. dead tired! guess tml going studying..
gt tons of maths homework, chem and s.s to study and do..
dear~ count down two more days.. =D
meiping || 10:37 PM

blog blog blog.. if not naggy sharon will be naggin at mi again..
oh well.. friday.. always look forward to friday without fail..
seems to be enjoy pe lesson more n more..
tot the games are all abit rough and with the boy playin it is worst..
but nvm... it is fun.. =D
after tt was chi, watch vcd.. nice nice =]
english lesson was hell! boring man.. fell aslp.. =x
den recess.. den went to vivian tan de homeroom..
and wait for mdm chang to come with our o level chi result..
was so scare, worried tt i might not get the result i wanted..
but as expected.. i didn get the grade i wanted..
was aiming for a2.. but i noe i wun get it..
gt b3 and m for oral.. oh well.. at least the nite i spend reading up the comp didn go to drain..
thinking if i should retake anot..
pondering..

tml going sch.. as promised to mdm foong.. =D
meiping || 11:32 PM

okay... gt a new skin with me now.. was so bored yst that i decided to change the skin..
give it a new life, a new look..
comments please.. =D
haven finish editing.. lazy to edit.. =x
and tell mi where i can change and edit for a beta skin k dude..
woke up ard noon today..
den be a good girl and help mummy go ntuc buy foods..
than pris and erika came over to my hus to hab tuition
tuition end 2 hr ago..
and pris and erika just left my hus..
soar throat is killin mie.. i wan to eat spicy food!
oh well.. lord blessed me.. today is beta than yst.. =]
thanks lord.. =D

tml gt sch.. yucks! boring..
missing dear..
meiping || 9:01 PM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

gave a miss to the firework..
didn go.. sick.. wat a month for mi.. just the first week i already gt my old injuries of the wrist back..
den was down with a slight fever and soar throat..
but nvm.. there is always a next year..
haven done mdm ang homework yet.. will be hell time for me i guess..
and fnn need lots of editing here and there and also lot of adding of info and etc man..
lucky tml holidays.. no sch.. but got tuition tml.. bless mi good health lord..

done some cleaning up of my room.. found out tt i needed some shopping..
running of of clothes now... especially the top.. so gotta start saving...
gt lots of thing to get...
hmmm.. gt the news that my cousin from new york is back in sg with his family..
oh well.. wish i will have sometime to meet up with them..
he has gt three great kids! all girls i suppose.. cant wait to see all my niece i haven seen for ages man.. wonder how much they had changed.. lord bless with mi good health and more time man..
oh well.. gonna go soon.. feeling kind of sleepy...
take a step at a time... =]
meiping || 8:46 PM

here to blog after so mani daes..
time seem to be running shorter and shorter for mi everydae..
i onli really wish i have 48 hour a day..
oh well.. was kind of busy almost every now and than nor..
friday stay back in sch till 8 plus.. den sat went dear hus to play maple story..
as for today went out to study social studies with erika, jelly, lou, ngui, shafiq and nick..
study from ard 2 to 5?
hmm as usual, went arcade to play with erik awhile.. slacked ard ps.. 7 plus head back to j8..
bought my dinner and head for home..
well well well.. my old injuries is actting up again..
everytime like tt de.. wirst is having pain now and than..
oh well.. miss mi guys.. and i miss u guys.. =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

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