back home. wasn in a mood to blog yst.
me, myself don even remember what really happened.
just blog whatever shit that i remember ba.

27o5o6
woke up ard 9 plus. prep-ed and went amk to meet stella.
worked from 1130 to 330.
bt knocked off early, coz i was just taking over yl shift for a couple of hours.
went over to laopo hus and wait for her to change.
than took bus over to far east and met up with anto.
walked all the way to coffeclub and slack. yl, stella and joan joined us ard 9.
they went off 1st.
than i accompanied anto to hab dinner.
took cabby hm while anto went to find his frens.
quarreled with my mom. arghs! its like daily stuffs la.
well, she doesnt even care abt me man!
as i slit open my wirst, i feel the blood flow..
it eased my pain within me..
i colored my bedsheet with red.
i love the color and smell of blood.

as for today which is 28o5o6.
didn slp much. woke up, msged anto and yl.
morning time went to look for ada mei.
banaged my wound and went home.
prep-ed and went out to meet yl.
head over to bugis. joan joined us.
den took cabby down to bishan again.
than james, tim and alvin joined us.
left around 10. james sent me home.
fark man!
my foster parent really doesn care man! arghs!
must i really end up in hosp then they will care!
nvm! there will nt be another time for it.

will leaving aust be a better choice?
to start everything anew? sigh.
i really cant make up my mind.
there is ppl wanting to go oversea to study.
while i had the chance to go, i feel so weird.
why must they hab such high expectation on me?
hw old am i only?! damn it.
let me go.
let me hab freedom.
let me hab back the trust.
let me be free please...
meiping || 10:58 PM

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meiping || 12:24 AM

damn shag! but i am not sleepy~
had a wonderful day. =]
its like FINALLY can!
i met my ONS! whahas. =x
i was late today, so sorry gals to make ya wait for me wors.
took a bus down to far east. and its so yucks to see something early in the afternoon can!
was waiting for bus at e interchange, and i saw a uncle trying to take a snap shot of some CHIJ gals nors. arghs. and the shot is like upskirt one can! =x
guess wat i did! =x
i went to knock the uncle when he was abt to take e pic. whahas. =x
i am good k! hahas
so girls beta behave when u are wearing skirt k! and especially SHORT skirt.
and if u see weird uncle taking cam phone take pic, give him a slap! TIGHT slap alright. =x
okays. enough of the rubbish.
went to hab HANs for lunch. walked all the way to PS. slacked.
and we was late la. my poor dear was angry with us!
so sorrie my dear~~ =s
anyway, sloved it and we went for the movie 'over the hedge'
nice show k! 4 stars~ go catch it soon ppl.
after e show went to meet antino.md.
went coffee shop, he had dinner. and yl and joan came down to find me.
working tml~ boring~~

want thanks laopo and mani for coming into my life.
thanks for everything. =]
thanks to someone whom entered my life to bring me happiness and joy. =]
meiping || 11:52 PM

boo! backed home.
alright. was a gd gal. didn go out today la. i mean during the afternoon.
well, woke up, slack infront of the tvbee. than kept my puzzle which i didn have e mood to complete.
guess, complete next time round ba. there is always time. =]
met up with james for dinner. than went off to meet antonio.
my hand hurts sia~ =[
nvm.
went hm ard 12.
bathed and i am here to blog.
short right this entry!
who ask me didn go out these few days. =x

meeting my ONS tml! its like finally man!
haha. FEL!!!!! here i come! beware. whahas. =x
meiping || 12:58 AM

what a boring day. life seems so meaningless and aimless suddenly.
anyway, was stilb having fever. so stayed at home.
i am good aint i?
anyway, woke up by lance's cor la.
asking me to go maple. wth.
so i took my time and online. download e patch.
den went offline for awhile to slp.
woke up had dinner and a couple of fag.
thats my day la. boring right!
arghs. =x

something i wonder and ponder.
have i really grow up?
or am i still stuck at the same space..
will i ever find that special person to fill up the gap beside me?
will i ever find another guy which will love me more than i love him?
will i? hahas. wishful thinking hur.. =D
meiping || 11:03 PM

jus came home. arghs.
had this tootpid feeling as if my probation haven ended.
just that the curfew extended to 12. wth right.
damn. was home for the whole day la.
due to my fever. was running a high fever. 41.2D.
almost die la! so was on the bed most of the time.
slp and slp and slp like a pig. =x
realli bore till bth man.
and was having a damn big quarrel with my foster parent can!


arghs. why cant they give me some peace?
just a little will do. it is not like i sick than i don wan to see a doc.
they must know tt they already stop giving me pocket money since donkeys yrs.
and i have already stop working. beside that, i still have to give money every month to my bro.
come on man! they think i print money or what?!
arghs. damnit. =x
and they just kept saying about the stuipd past of mine can.
its not like i want my past to be that bad? who want their past to be like tt?
a rotten apple man! fark it! its not like my PO haven talk to u guys b4 man!
i did changed! even my PO said so. they never believe what i said or even my PO.
cant they have a abit of trust in me? i am no longer that dumb gal who used to hang out with those ppl.
and they should be thankful already tt i nv start the stuipd thing of running away from hm.
they shouldnt take thing for granted man! wat am i to them man. a dog?! cb!
i am 18 already lo. please la. its nt like i will be like last time wun be home for days!
its not like i will ton every single weekend. like last time. and whats wrong with staying out late?
when i am not hanging around with those ppl already.
and that i had already stop extending.
ask urself man! this yr, hw mani time has i not been home? how mani time i ton?
hw mani time i didn go home.
it just so usless to do all the shit for them when they don even give a damn abt it.
i tried so hard to be their good gal. but it seems usless. it seems that they think it i SHOULD do it! SHOULD K!
and whats wrong with me gg back malaysia? whats the big deal abt it?
i don see a big deal abt it. since my family is there..
why cant i go back every month or as and when i want?
who are they? they are my foster parent onli. i know they were the one whom bring me up.
i should be thankful to am. indeed i am! i respect them. its not like i don respect them.
but can they for ONCE! just ONCE put themself in my shoe and think?
spare a tot for me? just that once i will be happy already!
arghs! don regret if one day u cor and i never answer. and don say that i didn sit down and talk with u all. its like i done so mani talking with u guys already.. but u all just don seems to take in what i says. just don wan to understand me. i did gave u guys a chance to listen to whats in my heart. but u guys just think that i am uttering rubbish!
for once i was close to death. u guy don care. why not make history repeat itself man. HA!

- as slashed myself to death -
meiping || 10:03 PM

Omg.
still having headache man.
anyway, tot of studying. but pris didn reply me, than laopo was also sick.
so cancel it.
called yl out to slack. suppose to meet at 3. but the sleeping pill dose was too heavy.
so i fell aslp. and mit her at 4 30 instead.
head over to long john to munch.
than wait for her friend joan to come.
tgt went off to funland. boring can. =x
as usual, played the same game la.
james came too.
was feeling kind of bored, so went mac to slack.
slack all the way to 10 plus la.
gosh. i hate it when i am having headache!
it last for days can! not a couple of hours or min..
arghs! i am falling sick man!
sigh.
i miss my family.
i yearn to go back malaysia asap.
meiping || 12:17 AM

arghs.
headache!
nvm abt it. blog 1st.
woke up ard 12, than change of plan for the day.
cos was suppose to meet pris 2 at bishan mac to study.
but last min she went to ecp. so i took my own sweet time to eat, bath.
than i packed my stuff and set off the j8.
found a spot at coffeebean and started to study alone.
bt before studying xf came over to chat for awhile. than she heads off for work.
ard 4, pris came. chatted lots.
due to pris feeling unwell, and leaving early, back to alone again.
all the way till ard 8 when james came over to find me.
ard 9 went to eat some snack for a munch. than took bus home le.
arghs. having headache. damn pain can!
as if my head gonna explode anytime.
meiping || 10:52 PM

yawns. shag man.
anyway, yst went to meet lionel.
den met pris, sharon, hanwei, ahfu and james at k-pool.
head for dinner at s-11 around 10 with pris , ahfu and james.
went home ard 11. tts all.
omg! i feel so bad sia. sigh.
sorry james! so sorry! =[

anyway, was suppose to go MI with pris.
bt something happened. and i couldn wake up in time.
hence went bishan mac to meet pris and study.
jocelyn came ard 4 plus. pris had her tuition.
while i jus study myself.
yl came for awhile than off she goes.
went for a walk at j8. than head over to the s-11 to eat.
went home ard 10.
well, tts all.. gotta rush!
hence resulting in the short post. =x
meiping || 12:42 AM

what a day.
woke up noon time. did some cleaning up of my room.
slacked, blah blah blah la.
went to meet james for lunch.
went hm ard 6.
went out ard 7 to meet kor for awhile.
wat a day! arghs!
tingy tingy wrote me a letter. =[
so did weilun..
i feel so bad for not replying to their letters.
sigh.. i just dono wat to pen it down when i see the letter.
i always wish i knew what to write in the letter.
but whenever i sat down, hold the pen, my mind goes blank.
i reali dono hw to reply their letter.. sigh..
recieved a cor from lionel. pull my mood even more down.
reali man. wat a day.
and like wat junsian says. 'what are friends for'

goddamnit.

i miss malaysia badly..
i miss my baobei...
i miss my sister and brother..
i miss granny..
i miss ah xiong..
i miss the food..
over all i just MISS them!
meiping || 11:07 PM

ARGHS~~~~~~~~
i miss my LONG hair can!!!!!!!
miss it like hell lo!
i cant get use to it at all man!
damn!!! arrghssss.. enough of complain. complain again lata. cont with my blog 1st.
went to meet laopo at amk 3 today.
had lunch than accompany her to have her hair cut.
after tt took mrt down to ps.
went to the arcade for a couple of game. than went off to look for the haw par building.
in the end didn turn up for the interview.
went back to ps's starbuck to slack.
zai came over to find laopo. than they head off to jurong.
waited for james to come. followed by junsian.
tok awhile, walked to parklane..
sit for awhile than went home le..
okay. damn, i am so careless can.
my slipper break la! arghs. =x
so went home to change my slipper went down again to hab my dinner + supper with james.
reach home ard 12.

arghs!!!! i jus found out tt ard 15cm of my hair was snapped off can!
daMN! such a short hair i hab now..
sigh. cant get use to having such a length man.. =s
pray tt tml once i wake up my hair is the same long lenght..
but i noe it wun come true la! ARGHS!!!!!!! =x
meiping || 12:11 AM

wat a day man. anyway, woke up by yl's cor.
she told me there is a interview.
so drag my feet off my bed.
prep-ed and off to meet laopo at j8.
took mrt down ps to wait for yl and stella.
than took cabby down to shaw hus.
interviewed.. tml still need go down for another interview with the bank.
working hr is 12 to 6. every sat and sun.
after the interview, went down to chinatown to hab my hair cut.
OMG! my hair is damn short la! arghs~!
coz i cut away most of my damaged hair la. damn!
i cant get use to it la~ i miss my hair~ hope it grow back fast k!
pray for me ppls~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, my hair is like shoulder lenght onli le man.. sob~
anyway, after i had my hair cut at where my cousin is working took 54 home.
wat a day! phew~
meiping || 10:59 PM

almost forgot to blog. =x
was too into maple js now. so blog bef0re gg to slp.
anyway, didn intend to go out today. was kind of down. =[
junsian asked me out, so did my cousin.
bt feeling tt cousin was beta. hence took cabby down to bugis.
met up with my cousin and her two other friend.
went temple to pray. than head back to bugis.
went over ti ritz apple to grab a bite.
than went over to meet junsian at starbuck la.
damn. no comments man. =x
oh well, than hit over to scott ard 9 to find pris, ah fu and james.
went amk to munch.
than took cabby home.
omg! my leg hurts can! arghs~~~~~~~~~
super duper pain la. damn!!!
ARGHS!!!!! IT HURTS! even now!
meiping || 12:57 AM

i am home~ =D
oh well, supposed to meet lionel this morning to accompany him to bugis to get his stuff.
bt was cancel. =x
so went to meet james. sorrie ar. let ya wait for sooo long at j8.
took mrt down ps. met up with sharon and hanwei.
went to eat. than went off for movie. voice.
er.. nt realli very nice la. =s
after e show walked all e way to far east. took 54 home.
den sent james off to his busstop.
went off to get my dinner. damn la. tootpid auntie. stare at me for nth lo! wth!
idiot~ =x
reach hm ard 1130. the moment i step in, lionel called me la. =x so zun.
haha. bore.......
meiping || 11:52 PM

okays. i am back home already.
woke up ard 10. prep-ed and ah xiong came over sg to fetch me.
went malaysia. JAM-ed la.
reached sg straight away went to meet some ppl.
talked, blah blah blah la. for at least 3 hours man!
okay la. the talked ending with a smile. at least a smile la hor.
beta than nth.
after the talked, it was still early. hence went window shopping with ah xiong.
he bought me stuffs. =D
yea. like it. hahas. always so good to me man!
ahxiong~ wo ai si ni le la. haha.
know me so well, treat me so gd too.

the ring he got for me..

he got me this too. =D

anyway, had dinner at 'on the rock stonegrill cafe'
nice! recommanded okays! BY ME! damn. if any guys out there have a chance drop by plaza pelangi at jb. its nice alright~
waited for a couple of friends. catch up awhile and off i head off to sg.
reach hm ard 11. tts early right?
meiping || 11:08 PM

didn intend to go out at all today de.
but was really feeling kind of bore.
so went out with my fren.
meet her at far east. shopped.
bought a ear-ing.
went back j8. bought a heel from c&k.
after tt went to yl's hus to pei her.
went hm ard 1030.
intending to head down to mos with a couple of dude.
was couldn't due to my foster mum.
fark la. everyday also wan quarrel with me for nothing man.
even the smallest things. damn la.
and daddy was pissed off by our quarrling.
hence he say i am not allow to go out tonight.
damn it. guess my foster mum will be over the moon or star la.
cb!
gg malaysia tml in the morning.
coming back in the night.

whatever it is man. like wat i used to put on my nick.
whats come around goes around.
you day will come soon. i shall see about it.
bitch!
meiping || 11:50 PM

okays. sorrie bloggie for nt feeding ya these few days. =x
blogging kinda of slipped off my mind these few days. hahas.
anyway, nth much happened for e past few days.
and i don reali rem it la. =x
anway, woke up kind of early today la. compared to other days.
prep-ed and went off to amk to meet yl and stella.
talked awhile, den i went off to meet lionel at bugis. while yl and stella head over to tpy for k-ing.
james and ah fu came too. than went off to catch MI3 with james.
the show was good! bt i guess was kind of tired la. kinda of slp =x
hahas.
after e show went to find lionel and ah fu.
bought yl's present too.
than went back j8. met up sharon and hanwei.
head over to sakae. went off ard 9 reaching 10.
after sakae, went k-pool with james , ah fu and yl.
pris and hanwei joined us.
11 plus went off with yl. took cabby home.
and my ear is hurting man! gt a new ear hole for my right ear.
laopo went for cruise trip. sadded. will be lonely for a couple of days.
sad ar~ who wan pei be? be my part time stand in? lols. jkjk~
meiping || 11:53 PM

okay, i am damn bored la.
slept till 2 plus. woke up had my lunch.
slacked in front of my tbvee..
bore, suppose to meet ada and zai.
but last min cancel, coz ada cant make it.
and i don wan to go out alone with tt idiotic god bro of mine.
so boo! stucked at home.
and i tot i might be meeting laopo too.
bt in the end nv also. boring man!
and i don wan to watch movie with alex. no thanks man.
life is boring.
and ppl ard me is asking to get my butt down to study.
time is running out. BOO!
yawns, i guess gonna take a nap again ba. =s
misses ppls.
meiping || 5:35 PM

smile please!

huiting, a gal and huixian

my unless biggest bro. real bro k!



smoking is gd!

ehh ehh? looking where baobei?

my precious ah ma and baobei. =D

HEE!

brothers!


please mind wher u r looking at k!

my cousin ah an.

big smiles! =D

yandao bo?!

peace~ ^^//

laugh all e more u wan! its me~

working friend. bird and cherry.

working friend liting.
thats all for today. =D
meiping || 1:26 AM

okay. backed home already.
hmm. wat a nice weather day. slept till 2.
woke up + prep-ed and off i went to amk to meet laopo.
suppose to hab our hair cut la.
but suddenly no urge and i cant bear with my hair. =x
hence, we hit over to the big s-11 to hab my breakfast+lunch.
after tt went to arcade. ken came to find us.
slacked, than ken went off with his gf.
while laopo and me went s-11 to slack meantime wait for james.
and tt lionel la. damn. =x okays, ah fu came too.
hit to k-pool. yl came. and i was tortured by her can!
she used my hus keys to slash me man.
pain lo! aiyo. okay la.
went home ard 10. took cabby home.
bore man. i think i will upload lots of pic since i hab nth to do nw.
=D
meiping || 12:59 AM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

BOO! backed home.
hmm, still kind of early right.
wat a day man!
oh well, this morning prep-ed and hit off to amk to meet james than followed by laopo.
took 133 to bugis. damn it. it hurts my butt. =x
walked ard, and off we went to watch 'the wild'
nice show, plus funny.
after the show, sharon, yl, lionel, and ahfu came nors.
than walked off to suntec.
head over to the arcade. sad ar.. didn manage to catch any toys.
nvm, try harder next time round.
okay la, my mood sort of had a 360D change k.
for no reason, there was this sudden stress crashing upon me. =s
and i broke down la. =S
disappointed in myself for spoiling the day. sorrie guys.
lucky manage to pick up myself up soon.
took cabby over to j8. bt sent laopo hm 1st.
had dinner. than james sent me home.
thanks for sending me home james. =D

its like wat the hell with me nowadays man!
sigh. i don understand myself too.
sorrie to bring upon yl and laopo too.
making them sad with me.
was glad tt they was with me.
sigh. tml will be staying over at laopo hus.
i tried to kill the pain. but it only brings more.
hais.
meiping || 11:09 PM

okay! i am realli totally FREAKED OUT at this very moment!
this asshole 'jinli' ( i hab no idea who he is la)
for the pass few months he has been flooding my cell with miss call k!
arghs. its so wth man! damnit.
i guess i need to change my hp no. soon.
and the worst thing was tt he was threating me man! fark la.
should i go to the police? lols. like making a fuss over a small thing hur. =s
see abt it la. arghs! damnit~!
meiping || 9:57 PM

boo! shouldn come home tt early today man.
oh well, slp real 'early' this morning la.
woke up by a no. of calls and msges.
bathed + prep-ed and went off to meet laopo at my hus void deck.
had lunch, slacked awhile.
and she head over to her boi's hus.
while i head home. big BOOS!
my aunties came wth la. making such a din over at my hus.
noisy la.
oh well, i should be home this early, coz its labour day.
and daddy is not working.
and when daddy is not working!
he starts to tok to me abt the trip to aust on july!
yucks! i don wan to go man! pray tt he cant get leave tt month.
i noe wat he is up to la. i just don wan to go aust!
even tot i realli miss perth la. damn.
but this time round is no holiday! he arranged a collage for me to enroll in for a couple of weeks.
asking me to try out the life over there! yucks! i hate it.
and i noe its impossible for me to communicate with the ppl there with the lvl of my eng blah blah blah!
arghs. save me la! some one! please lehs!~
and if realli got to go it will be 1 whole bloody mth can! fark la! arghs~! =x
sad man! sigh. boring day.
but nice weather to slp.
but after wat daddy said, it totally spoilt my day man.
okay! i seriously need a new wallet la.
my whole bag is in a big mess without my wallet. damn!
gottan spend money and time to look for one tt i realli like.
this is soooo bore.
anyway, gotta to thanks james for smsing with me all these time. =D
jie wei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want the baby minni asap k~ lols.
meiping || 5:52 PM

okays, i am back home already.
early right? well, tts me la. =x
daddy's girl.
well, was woken up by james msg.
so took my own sweet time to prep.
who noe he was already on this way to ps.
so rushed thru and took cabby down to ps.
lionel was there too. went to the arcade.
than head for a movie - when a stranger call.
er~ the movie was like wth la. the worst thing was tt it has a BLACK CAT!
that sucks k! i hate cats. arghs. okays. think didn watch horro movie for too long.
starting to get kind of freak out by it. arghs. stupid! =x
after the movie went back bishan's interchanger mac.
yl and xb came to find us. chatted. blah blah blahs.
8 plus james and lionel went off to amk.
while yl, xb and me went pasa malam to buy some snack.
went home ard 8 plus.
met up with jiewei~ jie wei! u r the best man! loving u always.
lols. don be mistaken. jiewei is my 'sister'
gt a baby micky from him, which he caught it in the arcade!
gosh! like it man. lols.
jiewei! next time i wan a minni~ to complete that micky. =D
so lucky of him, everything i try sure fail de la. damn. =x
daddy mummy nt home yet. peaceful day~
meiping || 9:21 PM

bad day~ sigh.
woke up ard noon, prep-ed and met with laopo.
went amk's k-box. sang till 6 plus.
the mood is bad~ sucks~
met up with sharon and gang.
they went to pool-ed, saw a couple of old sch fren there.
suppose to find laopo, bt couldn catch any cab. arghs.
in the end didn find laopo. instead, roamed ard amk.
just walked and walked. and the next moment i noe, i was at TP le.
than from TP i walked home again la.
well, thats it la.
i don wan to blog further abt it.
sigh.
totally, breaking down.
left me alone.
meiping || 10:29 PM

backed home. oh well, seems tt my down week has sort of affected laopo.
=s
poor thing. sigh. nth seems to go right.
it jus go left. =x
2oo6 just aint my year. lols.
anyway, didn reali slp a wink last nite.
was on the phone. den i fell aslp.
than wake up and was e phone again.
this morning also the same. woke up by a cor.
anyway, went out to meet laopo.
took mrt down to yck to fill in our stuff for work.
er. without any interview or whatever, we r back to motorola again la. lols
pay is kind of okays there ba. 12 hr a day. 70 bucks.
work 2 day rest 3 day. work 3 day rest 2 days hur. =D
nice working days. oh well, starting work next tue.
suppose to start work tml which is fri. declined it.
coz was suppose to go out with pris n frens. but last min nt gg le.
after the 'interview' went back j8. had lunch.
head over to funland. slacked.
than went to coffeebean. er, a lady was singing there la, and the song is like 'wth' =x
so went off to mac. yl and xb came for awhile.
and went home ard 9. early hur.
daddy was shocked to see me home so early la. =X
sians man~
wonder why are there so mani ppl so down recently~
hopes everyone walk out of it soon man~!
blesses*
meiping || 11:12 PM

down i sallow my prides to put up with this family of mine.
i don think i can take all these rubbish any longer.
lord, please give me a road.
i want to start out totally brand new. no more rubbish treatment from them.
i am a human. not their maid or pet.
this aint a hus for staying. i don mind saying that i do treat this house like a hotel.
come home whenever i wan whenever i like.
no point staying at home too. it jus makes matter worst with me staying at home.
being good have no return.
don take me for granted thats all i can say.
hopefully, i can find a excuse to sneak back to malaysia on june.
cant wait to step foot onto malaysia once again.
genting trip will be on the way, follow by thai trip if i am able to make it back on june.
hopefully i can k! prays for me.
i need a break from them, they are pulling the rope around my neck too tight.
take it for once that i never respect myself. for doing all these shit to myself hurs.
no more dopes or whatever rubbish it is man.
if only i can turn back all the time.
i hope i wasn't in this piles of shit. struggling to get out of this shit.
but after all i am all used to it.
i need no pity or compassion from anyone. =D
still standing strong.

u jolly well noe who u r.
u e one stepping on my past happiness to gain ur happiness now.
all the shit that u are having was once mine.
damn u. hate it when u show me e farking cheeky face of urs to me.
showing off how happi u r now. trust me. its fine with me.
i can always gather up my happiness again.
for once, u r my best friends. some one i trusted so.
yet, the same shit still came back to me.
betrayed! damnit. why am i so dumb hur.

*slashed*
meiping || 10:50 AM

boring days. real bore.
anyway, update for today's rant.
went out for a while to meet my kor for tea.
was raining too heavy already so went home kind of early.
and thanks to koven kor for lending me the jacket. =D
always so sweet of you. thanks once again.
suppose to wait for daddy to come home. coz my left wrist la.
as usual is hurting on and off again. daddy came hm late, so didn go for the chi doc.
anyway, i hate e smell! hopes he forget abt it soon and than i will be free~
when my hand is hurting, he always says ; Cannot go out! all these shit de la.
damnit. =x
anyway came hm ard 8. bathed and slacked.
tml gg interview with laopo i guess.
after interview might be heading over to ecp for some chilling with laopo.
tts the plan for tml i guess, at least if it doesnt rain.
hopfully the weather will be good to us. *prays*
was chatting on msn with my dear lyn and as always, those mushy stuff. lols.
cherry is gg back malaysia tml le. misses man~
hope she can find a place in sg soon to stay.
missing my baobei already man!
and sad to say this, my maple pet rabbit has die! =s
wth. lols.
Arghs. life is so boring man!
been living in a jail kind of life man!
save me man someone.

its the past, the past has been hunting me since than.
how am i gonna get ride of it mans.
The heart is forever making the head its fool - its kinda of true somehow.
meiping || 10:22 PM

woke up ard at 8 by a idiot. no idea who was it.
rang my phone lots of time and when i pick up that person kept quiet!
wth! nvm.
went back to slp, than lionel cor me. follow by james's msg.
so, i couldn get back to slp anymore.
what a day.
i am HUNGRY! =[
as usual, mummy didn cook my share. boring day.
nth to do. so came to feed my bloggie some snack. =x
suddenly had an urge to eat : PIZZA BAKE RICE SAKAE
=S
arghs! raining~ nice weather to slp, bt i just couldn slp man.
damn. cant go out too. so sad man.
i am BORED!

Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love
meiping || 4:02 PM

hey! i did blog yst okay~ i really did.
but the entry just went missing for no reason! wth nors!
nvm. suan le. and i wun repost wat i blog yst la.
arghs.
oh well, was suppose to go down to the office for some explaining abt our sudden quit. =x
bt i couldn wake up. was too tired.
laopo overslept too. lols.
anyway, slp till 4? pig right? nvm i understand myself can le.
oh well, suppose to meet cherry this evening. but gave it a missed.
was too tired. so slack till ard 6 infront of my comp.
prep-ed and went off to meet sharon and gang.
so much misses to them man! =D
hoping i can meet up more with my other friends.
really do miss them man! miss my school days too.
oh well, nvm, its okay.
went j8. met up with sharon and her gang.
went to amk for pool.
as usual la. didn play. not gd at it hur. =x
for those who noe me real well will noe why i don play pool la. its okays. =D
went home ard 11? suppose to meet koven.
but was feeling kinda of down. gave it a miss.
oh well, its the past already. =D
tml guess gg down ycc to hab my interview.
gosh! guess i am gg back to motorola le lar! =S
meiping || 11:52 PM

DEAD!
okays, didn blog yst, so shall made it up for it.
yst didn turn up for the meeting. instead went bishan mac to hab breakfast with laopo.
after breakfast there was a sudden urge to go k-box.
so went tpy k-box.
after k-box went tpy lor 2 to find yl and slack.
went off ard 4.
the moment i reach home just when to slp. =x
slp till ard 9. woke up for dinner, than went back to slp ard 3 i guess.

as for today, went to meet laopo at bishan mac.
slacked, blah blah blah.
went funland to play for a couple of game.
than yl and xiaoboi came down to find us.
went coffeebean to tok abt her bbq thing.
saw weilun there too, joined us for a couple of min.
than weilun went off, followed by xiaoboi.
than yl and laopo pei me wait for bird and cherry.
bird came ard 7 plus reaching 8 la.
den yl and laopo went off.
cherry came finally at 830. head off for dinner.
tts all ba. sians man!

feel the pain tt i am gg thur man! for godness sake k!

gosh, i turning into a pig very soon man!
slping just rawks my life. =x
meiping || 10:22 PM

FARK LA! I AM HATING IT!
HATING ALMOST EVERY SINGLE THING LA.
DAMNIT! WHATEVER IT IS LE LAR!
ARGHSS!
I BROKE DOWN.
I TORN DOWN!
GODDAMNIT!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO TEAR U INTO PIECES!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO GIVE U A TIGHT SLAP!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO SLASH U TO DEATH!
FOR ALL THE SHIT U HAD DONE!
THAN ONLY I WILL FEEL BETTER!
DON PROVOKE ME AND I WUN PROVOKE U!
JOLLY WELL FARK OUT OF MY LIFE ASAP!
ARGHS! PEK CEK LA!!!
meiping || 12:56 AM

ARGHS!
farking week for me man!
dislike tpy and sat man~
i LOST my wallet lo.
damnit lo! there goes my ic, atm card, 77th street, k-box, blah blah blah card la.
lucky i didn withdrawal money man.
arghs. damn it la. tok abt it lata.
went out to meet jordan at e busstop 1st.
than went j8 to find sharon.
pass her stuff, get some stuff.
than chatted with xf, my dear lyn and pris was there too.
after, jordan went off 1st. than both sharon and me went out to tok tok.
my dear lyn and pris walked pass us again man!
so coindence. i went off to amk, while sharon went bugis to meet hanwei.
my dear lyn and pris went hm i guess.
saw my pri sch fren, euliang too. had a super duper short chat and i rush off to meet laopo.
went amk's lan shop with laopo, went off ard 6.
suddenly had an urge to eat kfc, went kfc to hab my breakfast+lunch+dinner.
than i went j8 to meet yl, while laopo went tpy to look for her boi.
anyway, shop ard j8 for office wear for yl la. she bought some clothes.
took cabby over to tpy to hunt for more.
then, there is when my wallet went missing!
was wondering if i am careless to drop it or an idiot pickpocket me!
damn! if reali than, hope tt person get it punishment soon man! arghz!
hence when i knew my wallet was missing took mrt down to amk's police station la.
cause i was meeting cherry at amk.
yl went off 1st, lucky she lent me her ez-link card. thanks gal.
cherry went with me, made a report, damn la. stuipd officer go dig my record out.
den blah blah blah all these. please lo! i already ended my prob LONG AGO!
whatever la. he took his own SWEET time to type that report man.
after the report is out, went over to blk 321 to look for cherry's sis hus.
put the stuff down, head over to kpt to lai kopi.
went home ard 11. than daddy was nagging at me since than till now! when i am blogging.
fark him man, i;m already pek cek enough le nors. goddamnit!
whatevr la. hab to get my ic made within 2 weeks and i need to pay a fine of 100 bucks i guess~
=s
there goes my money le la.
ARGHS!
worst come to worst tml still gt meeting!
TML LEH! SUNDAY LEH! stil need to go back for meeting. wth lo.
fark la! burn my week.

sorry for the words used this entry.
couldn control myself. DAMNIT!
meiping || 11:10 PM

ARGHS!
WHATEVER LA!!!!!!!
don bother to gif a damn abt it man. waste my effort talking so much.
today went to meet laopo and yl.
took cab down and met mel.
tgt went for 2nd interview.
okays, five of us went, but stella was the onli one whom couldn get the job.
coz stella stil haven pass her bday. not 17 yet.
so sad. never mind hope she get her k-box job than.
anyway, slacked at the office till 7?
was waiting for mel. than went off for dinner.
took cabby down to find yl. couldn find her la.
damnit! whatever man.
went mac to rest. than head home.
fook it man!

okay, i gt my bb already.
but only can start to use on the 24th, monday.
nvm~ just a few more day. =D
meiping || 10:36 PM

back hm nw and conf-ing with yl, laopo and xiaoboi.
arghs. i gg to explode le nors! damn it man!
didn noe there is such a boi in this world nors.
arghs, god damnit man! fook it nors.
so damn fedup nors! arghs! wish i could slap him hard man!
nvm put it aside. he is not worth my anger!
anyway, woke up ard 12 and went to meet laopo and yl.
had lunch. than stella came too. took cabby down for 2nd interview.
goodness la! nv interview lo, nid drag till tml, coz the big bosses is all out. =s
waste my time and transport fee man.
went off ard 5 plus. took 57 back to j8.
shopped ard and bought a jacket.
went home and changed while yl and laopo wait for me at the void deck.
went of supper. than blah blah blah nors.
than quarrel la! damn it man. hate it nors.
guy whom hit girl! wth right?
hw can man!
meiping || 11:48 PM

shag*
okay, woke up kinda of early today.
met up with laopo and yl.
went down for interview.
so qiao~ saw ming jie there too.
anyway, gg down for training tml at 3.
wth man. nid dress code too. =s
sad ar, don hab such clothes man.
how? don tell me i nid to spend before i earn man. =s
bad bad.
anyway, after interview went down to bugis.
walked ard looking for clothes.
than went back j8 to slack.
lance came too. nt a gentleman man!
lets the girls waits. arghs. =x
gosh, gonna get real sick soon man!
meiping || 10:43 PM

whatever it is man.
life is boring. i over slept today.
sorrie laopo. =s
anyway, tried my very best to slp early already.
but i still failed. was lying on my bed since 1.
yet i still can toss and turn till 5! my god!
cant believe myself mans.
broke down last nite for no reason. werid hur? lols.
anyway, had this fooking weird dream! arghs.
shall not talk abt this.
suppose to meet laopo at 12? as i said earlier, i overslept.
end up meeting her onli at 2. =x
went j8, laopo wants to look for a job.
after roaming ard j8, took the mrt to woodland.
roam ard for less than an hour, took train down to jurong point.
same old stuffs, boring there, so left within an hour again.
took 157 back to typ. than laopo said tt 157 was cursed! mygod. =x
inside thing la. =x
went interchange mac to slack and wait for yl.
slack, talk, blah blah blah. went home ard 10.

yet to come out with a final and firm decision.
damn me. foolish me.
my life is so messy and fook up man! arghs!
may lord bless me.
meiping || 11:27 PM

this yr has been a down down yr. =x
anyway, slacked at home till around 6pm.
intend to go out during the afternoon.
but due to the heavy rain, i stayed at home.
went out around 6 to meet laopo.
yl was coming to join us at first.
but guess she hab some stuffs to settle with xiaoboi.
so didn join us.
slack at my hus area void deck.
and had my lunch + dinner tgt.
bored.
i need a job. =s
penniless already.
thinking of it irks me man.

i will be standing strong still.
no matter what.
its okays with me.
not fated hur. =s
sum ask me if i will wait.
my answer was, just let natural takes it place.
as for my family, its harder than anything other stuffs.
its cant be slove a day or a yr.
its take my whole life to slove it i guess.
i will be happier than i am before.
i will try my best, even it is harder than other things.
meiping || 10:19 PM

Just reached home.
shag*
didn expect that i was gg out today.
but recive a cor from ahjin jie.
she was feeling down. so accompany her nors.
had a heart to heart tok.
=]
loving her always. =] my big sister!
hais. still isnt feeling very well nors.
sigh.
went ps, slack at starbuck.
than walk around. than game at arcade.
saw a couple of old fren. blah blah blah.
had dinner. than went home le.
sigh....
meiping || 10:56 PM

dead tired. yst went to meet laopo and her boi at the void deck.
than slacked ard. was feeling kind of sick, went hm ard 11.
half way thur my slp ard 1, recieve a cor from sum idiot.
went out, i was tricked. arghs.
saying wat whoes bday, den go celebrate.
bullshit man.
dope and drugs. yucks.
guess lata gg out with my cousin.
not in the best mood now. sigh.
but i am still standing strong.
my three 'S'

ada, jiewei, jen jie and jianxiong.
sorrie, cell was off-ed.
but i am fine. no worries.

guess he already gt gf le.
didn bother to reply my sms.
thats it. =D
meiping || 3:37 PM

woken up by laopo's msg.
damn, last nite was weird kept havin an urge to msg ason.
its so weird, but whatever it is la.
fell aslp when i was msg-in with jianxiong la.
its boring sms-ing with him man. =x
*pout*
okays, there is something wrong withmy leg.
its been hurting on and off since thursday.
intend to go a doc this afternoon de.
but who noe it doesn't hurt already. damn.
suppose to meet jiewei at ps.
but i over slept, so intend to gif it a miss.
and i msg-ed ason.
lata might be meeting laopo.
update night ba.
meiping || 2:35 PM

dead tired k.
last nite went out to meet jen jie for sum stuffs and blah blah blahs la.
than tgt we went off to meet
jiewei, ada, zai, qiqi, yingqi, aaron, ah boi, ah wei and jianxiong
at cine's k-box.
okays, there is a couple of duets song la. and so its so werid, i kept been pair up with jianxiong la. arghs. the feeling is so weird. jie wei! read this! stop being a matchmaker k!
arghs.
wasn't feeling real well, so went hm half way, around 4.
than slept till ard 4 than wake up.
nice weather to slp today man. =D
love it when it rains.
intend to slp thur the day and slack at home.
but i still went out.
met up with ah jin jie and ah seh at tpy.
coz she want to borrow my digi cam.
walked ard, actually wanted to go town.
but in the end we still decided to go k-box.
okays. one conclusion k! k-box;s are super duper cold okays!
damn. frezzing cold man.
okays la. went off ard 12.
had supper at my hus kpt.
actually gg down to double O de.
but sick, so didn go with them.
i went home while they head down to double O nors.
and i met up with zai and qian ting for awhile.
than there is this stupid uncle la.
he came over and ask zai to go one side and tok.
noe wat he asked zai?
he was asking zai is if qian ting or me can hab sex with him!
arghs. its so erxin man.
than e next moment i noe was tt zai gave him a punch on his face and he went flat on the ground slping! =x
hopes he is okay, but realli lo, he is asking for a beating.
tml sat, boring day i guess.
meiping || 12:50 AM

met up with jen jie a few days back. misses jie~ always so gd to me.
=D
well, yst went down to helping hand center near heartland mall to look for ahhao.
wonder when weilun kor will go there after coming out from changi prison.
went off around 7. took mrt to ps. long time since i last step onto town area.
bought my puzzle, its like finally la. gt a my membership done too.
went home ard 10 lor.

laopo came over to my hus today.
studied for a couple of hours than head down to help mummy buy stuffs.
took a fag or two. went home.
than laopo went hm ard 6.
and i went to bury myself under the puzzle.
had dinner. went out to meet a couple of dudes.


i need that special someone by myside.
i need him badly.
but i had yet to find him yet.
whos gonna be my special someone. =D

i am a extender. =]
but i am not a chiongster.

anyway, yanqi, who do u think u r?
wats with e big fcuk hur.
so quit saying me behind my back.
tot i wun noe? than u are wrong. every single thing u said abt it.
i knows abt it. don think too high of urself.
childish man.
if u hab the links with ppl than get those stuff urself.
if u cant means u are nt up for it.
and in short quit playing and being a extender.
meiping || 7:59 PM

jus came hm nt long.
pass midnight. some one mention. =x
last few nite was conf-ing with a couple of frens.
back to conf-ing le i guess. =x
anyway, as usual la.
slept very EARLY yst. hahas.
slept ard 5 i guess.
oh well, woke up ard noon time.
prep my stuff and off i go.
met up with laopo at amk. than rock k-box.
amk k-box is frezzing cold k! even when i am wearing my jacket PLUS laopo's jacket.
okays la. went off ard 7 plus. suppose to meet yl.
but too late already.
so went lan-ing with laopo for an hr or so.
met up with laopo's boi at my hus area.
had dinner. than went to e park beside my hus.
slacked. blah blahs.
okay la. half way thur went home and got laopo a cup of vodka.
er.. i guess there will be no time that i will get a another cup of vodka man.
nvm. inside stuffs.
shag!
tml maybe going helping hand there. near there la.
go find ahhao since he is out. =]
happy to hear the news.

drop dead*
meiping || 12:22 AM

heres my rant for today.
over slept today coz was e fone with jeffrey till the morning lights shines.
woke up ard 1. and rush my stuffs thur.
got ready and head off to j8.
who noe laopo late AGAINs. arghs.
i am always e one early and waiting. erks! =x
nvm. den was force into a side by 3 idiot.
asking me to sign up for some shit.
laopo came finally and we head off to bugis.
shop ard, bought a bag and a ankle. =]
saw a sliver adidas jacket! so nice!
guess gonna get it next week!
hope by next week the jacket is still there man! =x
went back to j8 and slack.
ken was with us for a couple of hours.
than he left. slack with laopo till 8 plus and head off.
saw xf and jordan too. both of them working at j8.
wasnt a gd day for me.
felt a sudden stress and heart aches.
worried abt my sis. sigh. nvm.
inside stuff. bro taking money from me. damn.
arghs!

nvm. drink till i drop dead. =D
meiping || 10:54 PM

From some info i noe He is booking in on the 21th of july!
wonder is it true anot?
arghs. whatever it is man.
the world is so small. linked by linked it is still him.
starting to regret abt the break up with him le. =s
i yearn to contact him back, to find back tt feeling.
but don wan hurt him anymore.
anyway, as i said...... its over. =D
meiping || 11:08 PM

=D
loving vodka from the pass till now. =]
oh well, decided to be gd and stay at home today.
arghs. but in the end i still went out. =s
woke up ard 3, than slacked in front of the tvbee till ard 6.
had two side to go, one was to meet laopo at tpy for dinner.
the other was to hit e lan shop with yl.
hmmm. decided nt to spend so much. so ask laopo to come j8 and find yl and me to slack.
er.. but who noes, laopo nid to go home. so shopped ard j8 with yl.
bought sharon's birthday present.
than bought myself a necklace and ankle.
than went 7-11 and bought a bottle of absolut vodka. =D
good hur~! drink till i drop.
this time this whole bottle is mine~ just mine man.

hmmm. as for tml, think meet laopo and study. =]
meiping || 10:06 PM

Boos. Boring sunday man. =s
oh well, went out this morning again.
went cheers and bought some drink. than waited for ken reply.
arghs. damn slow as he reply. so decided to go up to his hus straight away.
left around 7. than slept until around 3 than wake up.
forgot to charge my hp, so didn reply some ppl yst.
sorrie ar jeffrey, jianhui and ada.

oh well. declined laopo's invite to eat.
had some hanged over still.
=s
meiping || 3:55 PM

morning time was feeling kinda of too bored at home.
so went took cab to ecp. found a nice spot and sat down.
than i saw a this stuipd guy crying. so ke lian him, went over and handle him a pack of tissue.
and this is wher e trouble starts man! arghs. nvm inside thing.
nth serious.
went off around 6am.
bathed and slp straight away.
woke up ard 2 by my dad for lunch. ars man.
nvm, skipped lunch and cleaned my room.
threw tons of books and worksheet in those boxes and threw it in the store room.
guess my room now looks neater? at least tt is wat i think la.
coz no more books on top of my table. =D great job done! *pat on my own shoulder* =D
was thinking that i will be good and stay at home for e whole day.
but who noes yl called me out.
ard 8 plus went bishan interchange mac to wait for her.
as usual la, she is late. never once early.
accompany her to wait for her frens.
went off at 10 plus.
head off to meet qiqi at my hus void deck.
pass her sum stuff. chatted. and i sent her off.
dinner sucks man. arghs.
ate plain rice today for the whole day onli! wth!
worst than jail life. damnit!
wish i am back in malaysia man. at least i gt to eat lots of goodies~ =p

oh well. monday tml. nid to get my ars down and study.
but i nid a shopping day and a k-boxing today 1st. =x
i wanna to buy a couple of new bag and top.
and i nid to get a couple of necklaces too.
my necklaces and ankle broke when i was in malaysia! arghs.
heart pain ar. must hunt for another ankle le. =[
anyone hab any idea wher hab nice nice de? bling bling de?
let me noe k!
meiping || 11:44 PM

damn. feeling kind of lost and low somehow.
wondering why. arghs. i wish i knew whats wrong.
whatever it is man.
suddenly don wish to stay at home tml.
not in the mood for any cleaning now. arghs.
just let it be messy for a couple of days.
its okay after all i guess.
i want go k-box too.
anyone want go out slack with me tml?
meiping || 12:39 AM

Arghs. That yanda really spoilt my day man!
wth! cant be bothered le man.
anyway, met up with laopo and yankui today.
went TP's Hans to hab lunch.
than yankui treat both of us to lan for an hour.
went off to post officer coz laopo want to pay for her O level thing.
after that head over to mac to wait for yl and aaron.
waited for an hour or more man. big shot hur.
anyway, went to the lan shop at laopo hus area AGAIN!
played till around 9, than took cabby home.
laopo and yl went tpy. laopo went alvin hus to look for her boi while yl head over to aaron hus to ton.
sians. friday nite hur. what a boring day.

where should i go tml?
hmmm.. maybe stay at home and pack my room.
kind of look like a store room than a girl room after i left for malaysia.
meiping || 11:33 PM

Boo! i am back from malaysia after around 12 days?
wanted to stay till 10th of april de.
coz baobei hen hen's bday! arghs. miss it again le la!
not loving it. but nvm! i wil try to make it back for zhe zhe's bday. =D
oh well, lyk last tym took e 5.15pm train back.
this time round reach sg earlier than planned.
ard 8.30?
went bishan to meet yl and gang.
slack, blah blah blah so on.
went home ard 11 plus. just bathed.
dead tired! bt i cant get to slp man! arghs~
tml will be meeting up with laopo and yl. =D
and i guess i nid a hair cut badly! =x

things has been made clear w my family.
they noe the truth that noe the fact that i was 'given' away.
sigh. when i hear er jie said tt mommy was willing to let me go. i was real glad.
at least i wasnt 'given' away because i was too notti or whatever it is la.
something happened tt made my studying to be put real serious.

misses~
meiping || 12:17 AM

i decided to remove the password thing.
due to the complains from a couple of ppl.
but i will put it back after sometime.
after all its my blog and i hab the right to choose who is allow to read about my rants and my life.
when i put back the password thing it wil be the same password for those who noes my password k.

will be leaving sg in a couple of hours.

oh well, having kind of mood swing.
duh~ i dono why.
sigh, i hate the feeling of this.
okay, i cant say it out. its just suck.
i dono, is this jealousy or what?
i hope i just know.
damnit! arghs!
if wasnt for me, will u be in the place u are right now?
if wasnt for me, will u be having the happiness i should be having?
if wasnt for me! fark u!
i shouldnt put in so much for friend. i shouldnt!
just being taken for granted! damnit.
i just wasnt taken into heart, i am just being used.
after u guys gotten what ya want, i am just nth.
fark it!
no more of all these rubbish.
i believe i can do it my way to get back what should be mine.
if its mine, i will go means ways to get it back.
don blame me for being so heartless, u guys r the one whom created the gal now.
blame it on urself and no one else.

i don nid the love and care.
i don nid the pampers and dotes.
i don nid anything anymore from now on.
i don nid you by myside.
and don take me for granted anymore!

Missing in action.
meiping || 1:41 AM

boo! back home already. early again hur.
i am good! =x
oh well, woke up ard 12? bt was so lazy than i toss on my bed till abt 2? =x
washed up than off to meet laopo, pei her to cpf build for her singpass.
than went off to amk lan, again. =X
er, went off kinda of early today. went s-11 to hab our dinner.
walked ard. than head off to amk mrt to wait for laopo's boy.
than head back to my home. oh well! boring.
saw that idiotic zai and qianting on the way home!
idiot zai! hate him ar. the moment he sees me, nth good come out from his mouth.
damnit, why do i hab such a god bro man! ~!@#^*&^&*()_=-
kao! whatever la! lucky qianting stil on my side. whaha! i still win. =x
oh well, chatted with them awhile, than head home le.
tired. still nid to pack stuff for tml. worst thing of all is that i nid to wake up early in the morning at 5!
godness! think i don even hab time to slp man. arghs!
meiping || 9:28 PM

hihiz~
i am back home. phew. wat a day yst.
as i had blog earlier, i was at laopo's cousin hus.
lets cont from there.
the laptop hanged! half way when i was playing. den i went hur hur. wth. =x
so couldnt play le. waited for laopo to play instead.
went off ard 3. head back to laopo's hus.
whiped sum stuff up and munch all e way.
had beer, hotdog, eggs and ham. yummy yummy.
only tt the ham taste lyk rubber when eaten. =x
okay, slept ard 5 30. woke up ard 12.
washed up, ate sum stuff den went off le.
reached home bathed and head over to my dreamland.
lance once again, woke me up by his sms. ~!#$$%^&*()^&*()_ =x
hope he don see this. haha.
anyway intend to meet up w him for moive bt he last min nid to stay in camp for duty.
well too bad for him. poor thing. =x
whatever la. okay, there is a change in plan.
sat than leave for malaysia instead of friday. hmm. good for me. =]

ZAI! i am silly gal okay!
i am not! quit saying that to me i warn u!
and stop saying abt my teeth okay! wait til i put braces on! fark u! =x
i noe u read my blog! damn u! idiot! =x
but i noe u care la. =p gee
sorrie that i misses the chance to go cycling and fishing with u all.
i do misses those days we hanged out. but everyone life changes.

Don Provoke Me! I KILL!
meiping || 8:40 PM

Boo! guess where i am now?
at laopo's cousin's hus. wondering why hur? nvm read on and u will noe.
woke up by lance msg this morning. !@#$%*()_
its up , slp, up, slp. wth lo. =x
okay la. finally wake up 2?
washed up and went to meet laopo at amk.
head to the lan shop AGAIN! =X
expenses this week is too xiong liao sia.
but nvm, lucky stil gt saving man. oh well, left around 7.
went for dinner at s-11, than slacked at amk void deck.
9 plus, head back to laopo's hus.
chatted with lance on e way and at laopo's hus.
waited for her to bath. than head over to her cousin's hus.
think gonna train my maple as much as i can. coz i cant play maple at hm!
untill i connect my broadband! sucks man my dad.
keep dragging my broadband. but nvm!
coz i bug him to change the plan and also to wireless.
not gg home today.
miss my bed and my babies! u noe wat hur hur..
my softtoy i mean la. haha.

MIA taking place.
meiping || 12:36 AM

backed home now. kind of shag i suppose.
didn intend to go out today. was thinking to nua at hm the whole day.
but recieve a msg from laopo.
so went lan shop, coz she is so into maple.
it wasnt my fault tt she is soooo into maple. =x
lance was there too, bt didn spot him, he spot me instead.
didn reali noe it was him la.. so sorry man.
anyway, went off around 8, saw weikiat and daz at mos.
went off to sumo-hus for dinner.
than head to s-11 to slack.
tts all, reached home around 10 i guess?

yst nite sucks la. quarrel with my mum!
AGAIN! i noe. but just cant help it. damnit.

and tt the lift bell has been ringing for hours, wonder is someone really stuck inside man. =x
why seems that the whole blk cant be bothered abt it at all man.
what is someone is reali stuck there? mygod.
i hope if i stucks in e lift, someone will come and save me at the 1st min man! =x
pray tt no one is stuck in there la, but hw can it be when no one is in the lift and the bell is ringing?
weird hur?
meiping || 10:19 PM

boring day for me..
woke up ard 11, bath and changed.
off i went out to meet laopo.
before meeting laopo, wen to interchange mac to pass the shop aunt jeffrey's stuff.
okay, well i did saw jeffrey la. hide and seek meh. =x
anyway, thanks for jeffrey gift.
whatever la. went off to find laopo, bought some drinks.
went to the cpf building than went back to mac to slack.
took my stuff from the shop aunt.
waited for yl to changed. took a cab to amk.
nua at the lan shop for hrs. =.=!!
there goes my cash.
went off ard 6pm. ate sum snack, went back to j8 for a walk.
yl came over to my hus area for dinner. well, thats it i guess.

wonder did i ate anything wrong stuff, seems tt my skin gonna get rashes soon.
sucks! arghs.
i want to watch date moive! anyone keen~!?
meiping || 9:38 PM

i am not feeling good. realli i am not!
i dono whats wrong with me man.
this is a big nono! not good at all.
it is ruining me big time this time round.
feel so lost suddenly. so empty inside out.
i yearn for that somebody to appear from the mid air and gif me a tight hug.
HA! fat hopes.

oh well, yst went out with laopo.
slacked at j8's coffeebean for a couple of hours.
had my dinner, than 7 plus went home.
early rite. its a mircale i noe. but gotta nth to do. and i am kind of out of mood.
went out later at the nite.
accompany qiqi, took a cab to east coast.
that idiot, trying to slash herself.
gotta no choice. 'fought' w her over e penknife.
end up getting a small tiny cut at my lower lip and a cut on my leg.
no big prob abt e wound. its cleaned.
cooled qiqi down, den sent her home.
took a cab hm myself again.
this driver is weird. kept askin weird qns.
whatever it is la. after e issue of qiqi, it pulled my whole soul even lower.
suddenly, i felt a sudden flow of dilemma.

and jen jie, told me not to fret over all this issue. and that she said, i should try to be stronger.
and i wonder, wasn't i strong enough already? how strong must i grow?
damn it man. i don gets what her words within holds.
jen jie also said, i was always taken for granted.
maybe this is true?

as for today, turn down yong's invite to the ktv.
wasnt realli in the mood. but met up with my working fren, bird for dinner.
sum qns was asked. and i end up kinda of in e daze.
cant find a ans to the qns.
arghs. nvm.
after parting with bird, went to meet jen jie.
she asked a qns which was totally same as what bird asked. arghs. sucks!
i cant give her a answer.
whatever it is la. feeling kind of sick. so went hm early.

zai jue jiang de bei hou shi wo de shang hen.
meiping || 9:34 PM

i back from malaysia after a week.
yawns.
did nth much over there,
just slacked, played, eat and slp over there.
enjoying life hur.
took 6pm train back to sg. reach ard 9.
went home put down my stuff den off to meet laopo for dinner.
arghs. sucks!
the moment i step onto sg land, i feel so low.
and i dono why!
wth! i feel so fan. sucky feeling.
okay, wasnt suppose to be back so fast.
but nid to reg for my O level. so came back.
going back malaysia next friday again.
i feel so much beta back there.
carefree and don feel so stress lo.
meiping || 12:24 AM

=D
bid my farewell here k!
will be gone for at least a week ba, longest is a month ba.
will be missing everyone badly.

anyway went to nafa with laopo and her mummy today.
gosh. was laughing lyk hell when we was there.
there was this guy, think he sumting wrong up der~
he was smiling at every single one lo.
and he followed me n laopo to e toilet.
mad man. i dono y la, e moment i see his face i just cant stop laughing even tot kinda of scare. =x
laopo's interview was a fast one man. ard 10 mins or lesS? =x
hope there wil be good nice for her two week lata.
after e interview, parted with laopo's mummy, went bugis jalan jalan.
bought a jean, than went back to j8.
bought sum inside stuffs. =X
then went to meet sharon and gang at foodcourt.
went to catch Big mommas hus 2.
wonder i get e spellin right?
after e show, met up w yl.
slack at coffeebean w her.
10 plus went home le. bored.
haven pack my stuffs for tml. tired~
yawns~ slept at 6 this morning! arghs.
my live is going upside down le la! this is a big NONO!

oh well, stop here. anything imt thing via my cell 91491839 or my malaysia no. 0127942746 kks~
take care peeps.
misses~!!
meiping || 11:27 PM

i am bored at home! damn bored can arghs.
even tot i just went out la.
woke up kind of early today.
went to meet jocelyn at e kpt for lunch.
did sum catching up. den rush to j8 to meet bird.
got my phone back. hmm. nth much already la!
bored to death man~!
friday will be bring aunt back to malaysia. tts all la.
arghs! boring day~~~~~~
>.<
meiping || 4:08 PM

=D
just changed my blog skin.
phew~ didn touch html code for so long.
gt a bit messed up. somemore friendster nw also html code le.
arghs. sucks.
okay, i gg back malaysia this friday for a couple of weeks or maybe jus days la.
i am bored!
and i dono what to blog already.
sians.
i miss everyone badly.
my sharon;s, fel, xf, ada, zai, kovan and mani more!
wonder hows life for them man.
meiping || 10:19 PM

wei wei wei!
i am back to blogging already.
well, sorrie my dearest bloggie for not feeding u for so mani days k.
oh well, nth much la.
just met up with a couple of new frens and old frens.
caught a few movies, spent a few grands.
quitted my job, slacked at lan shop.
so on so on. just lyk wasting my life away?

will try to update other days k.
oh well, got my new desktop already.
so e lappy will all be daddy's already.
but yet to sign up for my boardband yet.
so not up to much use now.

ason, i dono if u will see this la.
but just want to let some stuff out k.
i dono if i had totally gave u up and let what past hid behide my mind..
maybe this is just some feeling of bad and guilt.
to lead me wish tt u can come back to my side once again.
i guess all these messed up feeling is just for the time being.
and that, if u hadn;t force everything, we might still be tgt than.
=D
feel so much beta!

oh ya, thanks xiong xiong for the times~ =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

=]
at amk de raiders now. and yanda is helping me train my maple.
so take a chance to blog. oh well, getting my comp tml.
cheers~
but boo~ haven sign up for my boardband thing yet. so so so.
it doesn makes a diff la.
whatever it is la.
tml gg back to company~
cant wait to see them sia. misses~

was suppose to go ikea de.
bt due to yl and my laziness, we decided to change date.
so here we are at lan shop playing. =x
so bored.,
genting trip is delay.
big bOO~
bt never mind stil got next time de. no worries i am sure!
update lata when i reach home. provided i am free la.
ciaos.
misses ppl.
meiping || 5:54 PM

okay. here to updates k.
well, friday was my last day at motorola.
i cant deny that i miss them hell lots.
sigh.
well, went to k-box after work for my farewell.
cherry, may and bird went w me.
oh well, had a great time der.
missing them already. =S
anyway, after k-box went j8 w bird for a walk.
so on.

than sat, went j8 w daddy in e morning.
den daddy was saying abt gettin e desktop at funan e it mall.
might be cheaper. so let it be.
was thinkin if i should use back singtel boardband or change to starhub.
nvm, tt can wait.
okay. went back hm and slp.
den gave it a miss to meet yl.
went to meet bird ard 4? after i wake up.
went town. shopping~~

hmmm.
spent quite an amount of money this two day.
bought a watch, shirts and necklaces.
broke nw man.
whatever it is la.

anyway, xiong came to find me from jb.
was very kind and sweet of him. =]
thanks xiong~
meiping || 1:36 AM

okay. i am so darn bored at home today.
didn go out. reject some invites out.
was rotting all the way man,
tml will be my last day of work.
than jobless le. gonna look for new job.
might be going genting on the 26th of feb with ks and family i guess.
so, looking forwards to it. and well, there might be a chalet with my working fren on the 22th feb.
wonder, if i should turn up man. just not in the mood for the chalet with them.
not tt i mind, just that, maybe we don't click very very well.
but, see abt it than.

was thinking if i should cont with my piano lesson, and start my guitra lesson.
always wanted to learn, bt didn haven time, bt now i hab time already.
so think gonna save up some cash and use my rainning penny for these?

and i decided to get a desktop not a laptop le.
desktop will save a lots of money, and if i realli nid a laptop i already hab one which i am sharing w my dad.
so no worries i guess.

3words;8letters;1meaning

my main lead;you;yes;you
meiping || 9:49 PM

boo.
once again i am at yl's hus blogging.
oh well, friday will be my last day at motorola.
i am quitting once and for all tt darn job.
its killing me k tt job.
didn turn up for works for days man.
haven been slping well the past few days.
was thinking which road to go.
but now, finally i hab an answer.
i'm retaking my eng, sci and maths.
guess, gonna be another hard yr for me to go thur again.
pray for me k peeps.
and hor! i nid tuition! who can gif me free tuition. =x
haha

well well well, inside story okay.
lots of thing happened.
been slacking ard with my laopo this few days.
and a big thanks and big hug to her for staying by my side.
and thanks for tt MR ***** =x
well tts it man.
meiping || 4:17 PM

REUPDATE
okay. i am feeling much better now.
so gonna blog some short stuff abt today and yst ba.
yst went to meet ks 1st at mac and have lunch.
den took a cab to sch.
hmmm. went straight to the cave room and wait for my result.
idiot sia my dad.
before i get my result he called me and tell me abt my result.
sigh. make my mood bad.
okay. did BADLY for my O.
well, gt 8 for eng, 6 for math and hum. than 3 for fnn and chi. 7 for sci i guess.
sad ar.
lobang xf's cab back hm. than slack.
don intend to go out de. no mood.
den jack came down to find me.
when to catch a movie, so on so on.
den went to slack so on. went hm ard 1130 i guess?
anyway, thanks for the day jack.

for today, went out with my laopo.
went bishan mac slack, den saw our pri sch fren.
hmmm. e world is so small, all our fren are interelated.
anyway, went east coast for a couple of hr.
hmmm, the waves and breeze did a magic.
i felt so much beta already.
well, took a cab to bishan and slack. den went home le.
was at hm for an hr or so, than went out again.
met up with yl and her fren.
slack slack den went home le.
notsure if i should go out with alice leh.
wondering and pondering.
guess gg out with yl and ks tml.
meiping || 11:33 PM

hmm. nw already 2 plus le.
so blog abt yst.
hmmm. overslept yst. hence took a cab to work.
no mood to work at all. pms =x
okay. den when smking. cherry was saying don work and all go hm.
i was lyk sure no prb.=x
so went home. took my passport and sneak to malaysia with cherry and another gal. =D
went to cherry's hus.
head down to arcade than to red-box.
ard 1130 rush back to sg. just in time man.
=D
cheers. haha.
okay.
couple of hours more gonna get my result le.
sigh.
how how how?
wish me lucks man.......
meiping || 2:39 AM

so mani thing happen recently for me.
wth man.
it isnt fair to me k!
and this tots came back and it is not helpin me out at all.
i just make me ponder more and more.
i kept asking myself if i still love you.
i wish i had an answer.
but whenever i ask, my mind goes blank.
someone told me to carry on,
to try on, to love more.
tt someone told me it wasnt worth all these thinking at all.
beside all these shit,
another thing that is my mind was result.
sigh. i doubt i can make to man.
doesn havve any confidence at all...

nvm! don fret i will tell myself!
i will be strong. stronger than e wall, softer than the cloud.
hmmm. this yr val time, alone again. arghhs.

be my val time. anyone? haha.
just for tt day maybe?
meiping || 1:37 AM

i farking hate this foster family more and more!
they did it, they said it. its all my fault. they said it!
hate them!
no matter what i do u nv liked it at all.
no matter is right or wrong.
so what for i spend my effort to make thing prefect when u r always breaking things up.
i hate u!
u nv done ur part as a mother. u never!
slap me if u have e gut. i know u wan to slap me yrs old.
u never liked me den what for bring me here!
bring me here to spike u onli mah.
u said u love and dote on me. pui!
since when?????????
i never felt any sense of love and care from u ever since i noe the truth.
last time when i was small, i tot i was notti so u never like me.
den i tried to be good, be thing still the same.
u still dislike me lyk nobody business.
if u jolly well don lyk me den kick me back to malaysia.
since u said i onli noe how to make u angry and spend ur money!
bullshit! i earn my own money ever since 14! e rest of the money i will pay u back! don worry.
damnit! i hate u lyk nobody business!
u are not fit to be a mother at all!
even ur own sister say u nid to change! damnit!
arghs! i wan go back malaysia.
sigh.
i will not cry infront u all anymore.
never! i show u i can live on my own.
i don nid a mother lyk u.
i can jolly hire a maid. and at least a maid is beta than u!
bitch!
meiping || 12:43 AM

now at yl use.
so blog 1st.
so tt nite time can play maple. =D haha
sian. tml nid to work le. sian.
der go my cny.
still nid to work.
wonder when the result will be out.
my dad say next week comfirm will take.
he noe the date le but don wan say.
damnit.
quitting my current job soon.
anyone got job to intro?! nid $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ badly!
arghs..
meiping || 7:40 PM

back in sg nw. =D
and i am starting to miss my family already. sigh. =[

did lots of thing over in malaysia.
tons of laughter man!
okay. took a train back to malaysia on the 25th of jan.
reach there ard 1 am.
er jie came to fetch us.
head home. slept. den did some cleaning for e hus. played with baobei's
and wait for my mummy to come back from JB. =D

oh well. fast forward la.
cny eve did some praying as usual de la.
den made offering, played with firework so on so on.
and i took lots and tons of pic of my baobei's! =D

oh ya, bought my dig cam le. 599!
der goes my money man!

will try to upload the photos soon. =D
misses!~
HAPPYCHINESENEWYEAR DUDES~
meiping || 10:42 PM

OK! somthing SERIOUS!
just asked my dad about when our result well be out.
he said should be around 10th of feb!
my god! so fast man. not well prepare for it yet man.
but, nvm.
okay, going malaysia tml night at 9 by train.
anyone want send me off? jk!
be back latest on the 5th of feb. coz 6th of feb start work le.
misses man!

yst went to work, after work went out with my working budd, huifen bird so on so on.
went queensway shoppin center.
but could find anything tt let me have the urge to buy.
so went down to chinatown to meet up with my pri sch fren~
been yrs since i see them
misses!
everyone changed so much.
time flies.

oh well, today went to work, but took half day leave.
couldnt take the sickness at work.
so xin ku.
took a cab home. had a rest than head to town with erika.
went to hunt for my ny clothes.
bought a top and two 3/4.
enough le ba i guess.
met up with linda b4 gg home.
well. tts is it lor.
meiping || 11:49 PM

boO!
haven recover from my sickness yet.
but hopefully asap k!
i want to enjoy my new yr goodies~
cant wait for that man!
oh well, stayed at home the whole day yst till the nite time.
till, kor came over to find me.
had quite a long tok. misses!
well, due to my medic taking effect, went home ard 1 am.

today went out with erika.
i wanted to get some new yr clothes.
but couldnt find anyone tt suit me.
so i gave up.
bought a nike sling bag which cause ard 70 bucks.
same goes for erika.
she bought one blue and white sling bag. while i bought a sliver and bag v.
gt my pay today.
well, was pondering if i should reali get personal digital cam sia.
should i?!!
i dono man.
it is so tempting norx~~!
=x
meiping || 8:34 PM

SICK.
hate being sick. sigh. who like it anyway.

as i walk through the rain with my tears sheding drop by drop today.
i learnt a painful lesson about love.
i was so childish to believe in waiting.
was too childish to believe that, everything can be worked out no matter what, as long as the heart is there.
but i was truely wrong about it.
i want to thank you for letting me know what love is all about.
thanks for hurting me so deep.
and sorry for hurting u so deep too.
thanks for everything u had done for me ason.
i was realli happy that once in my life u was mine.
and that for once i was ur gal. i am contented with all these.
the memories in my mind will accommpany me through the rest of my life.
and that, u always have a place deep inside my heart no matter what.

to who you know it urself.
thanks for all the time u spent on me.
i know that all you had done was for me.
but i just want to let u know that, thing cant be the same again anymore.
being friends will be much better, for a gal lyk me don have the right to have such a good guy like u.
thanks for being there for me when i nid a shoulder to lean on.
thanks for being the rays of lights when i was at e darkness pt of life.
thanks for believing in all i said.

to wj.
sorry for letting u hab the feeling of being toyed.
but i don mean too.
i was too rush at tt pt of time. i tot i gave everything up already.
i tot i was ready for another relationship.
bt i was wrong. i wasnt ready at all.
sorry. but thanks for all the love and care u showered over me. =D
still friends! best friends!

sigh. there is so such thing in me that i wan to voice out.
but i felt so weak. so alone.
i find tt i cant find anyone true enough to be able to sit down sit by sit with me and listen to all my things.
maybe all the gaps betweens me and my friends, sista and bro had gave me this feeling.
as i burn myself in work. sigh.
meiping || 7:56 PM

here to updates after donkeys yrs.
don blame me. it wasnt my fault. well.
dad is back from england bt the lappy is stil not back yet.
gotta wait a week.
was thinking of getting a desktop or a new lappy.
coz dad paying half for me.
and i might be connecting my cable line back.
hope asap ba.

didn work today.
was sick. so i decided to gif a day off.
went to the doc. 28 gone.

guess was working too long and didn reali take a gd rest ba.
and the result? weaken~! =[
no ot tml for me too. GL don let me work tml.
nvm la. rest at home.
my old injured wirist is actting up again. damnit.
should be more careful tt day.
nvm.

i tot i gave u up totally.
i tot i was stronge enough to move on.
but i was wrong. i tried to carry on but i failed.
i tried gg out w wj, bt in e end stil break.
maybe i still nid time.\
maybe he wasnt the right one for me.
he was good. i was bad.
angle and devil.
but well, tts life. accept it.

i nid a long break.
MIA le.
meiping || 10:41 PM

currently at yl's hus.
wun be able to online for a couple of weeks.
daddy went england with my lappy.
damnit.
but nvm la.
still working at motorola sia.
boring life.
well, just got my hair highlight and had a cut.
well well well, leaving sg on the 25th of jan.
cant wait for that day to come.

anyway, its time to put everything to an end. =D
new start. new life.
cheers~!

mia*
meiping || 9:26 PM

back home. i miss my bloster man. shag.
just came back from the chalet not long ago.
well. the chalet was so~so~ norz.
didn slp a winkz at all man.
damn. so tired man.

try to blog abt the chalet. cant reali rem everything k.

1st day.
meet up with sharon, pris, gh, rh and sh.
had breakfast first, den took a cabby down to e chalet.
daddy was waitin for us der pass us the "key"
bt we can only check in at 0230, so we slacked for a couple of hours.
after we booked in, went white sands to buy the bbq stuffs.
lionel and fel joined us.
we went pool and arcade.
than nite time wl came to join us.
had a small bbq.

2nd day.
none of us had a good slp on e 1st day i guess.
whatever it is la.
second day they went to play pool and arcade.
so i was in e room for hours.
mean time cleaning up the room and settle the bbq food for e nite.
dono la. dl.
second day, sharon lee, fel, diana, yuling and frens joined us.
after bbq sharon they all went to countdown without us never tell us anything or wat lo.
so we jus slack at the chalet. wth right.
nnbbcb sia.

3rd day.
none of us slp. play card thur the nite. gambled.
so on so on.
den 9 plus booked out. went to eat den took cab home.

new year, new start! =D
hope everything will go smooth for me this year no matter what i do!
gt lots of wishes. will blog tml. nid some slp le!
meiping || 4:29 PM

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