missed blogging yst.
all thanks to my mum.. -.-!!
woke up suddenly in the middle of the night, like 3am?
all just to see wad i was doing man.
so she nagged me all the way till i finally off my comp and head for bed.
long winded man! good lungs she have i guess.. lols.
but couldn't really sleep. so toss and turn till 4 plus.
and i finally slept.

woke up ard 12 today. slack infront of my comppy for awhile.
chatted with laopo on msn. and she was feeling damn lousy.
so i changed, packed my lunch and took a cabby over to her house.
kept her company till about 7. left her house and went over to old bishan to find dear.
i drop at the wrong stop. but i tot i was right man! arghs.
and due to this dear kept calling me 'toot'! damne it!
whatever it is la.
as usual nors. nua at dear's hus till 930.
headed for hm, went prime market before heading home.
saw shuhui(lee). what a coincidence. hahas.

my future is at sake.
i gotta buck up and study. been 'fooling' around with GCE 'O' level since last yr.
really want shake it off man!

i know all my doing had hurt daddy.
i am sorry.
but please understand wad i am gg thru before u blow ur head off before me.
its unfair to me alright.

written in our hearts, sealed with our kiss.
- the vows -
meiping || 12:38 AM

shag~
and my butt hurts~ arghs. blog abt it lata.
friday.
met up with laopo, supposed to go for interview at woodland de. but i guess both of us of kinda of late.
hence just had lunched at the big s-11.
went popular coz laopo wanted to get her stuff.
than my turn to get my stuffs.
after tt went back bishan to slack.
managed to rush finish the bottle of stars for dear. =D
laopo jiayou k! i'm sure u can do it too. lols.
dear came ard 7. than laopo went off.
had dinner, than went over to dear's hus.
nua and slp.

saturday.
woke up ard 9 and nua till 10.
took cabby home. took a nap at home and went over to dear's hus at 4 again.
went over with his family for dinner. than headed back home.
ard midnight went over to meet dear's god bro and god sis.
aftermath went back to dear's hus again.
watched tvbee and slp again.....

sunday.
supposed to woke up at 9 to go home de.
but overslept, due to the weather. its raining~
so nice to sleep. hahas.
slept till almost 12. went home bathed and changed.
than waited for dear to come over to my hus area.
took my bicycle to old bishan to repair. thanks dear for coming all the way to push my bike there. =D
aftermath went back to dear's hus.
than cycle out to pay his bill and hab my breakfast and lunch.
cycle back to dear's hus. nua at his hus again.
than pei dear repair his bicycle too.
evening time cycle out to help dear's mum to buy stuff for dinner.
had dinner at dear's hus. 8 plus leave for home.
cycle all the way back from his hus alone....
shag! my butt hurts alot due to cycling and dear la! arghs~!
got blueblacks on my arms too. damn! its so ugly can!

well, time really pass sooo fast..
so fast its already sunday.
parted with dear......
hope everything goes smooth for his selection~!
meeting yl tml.

*shag*
meiping || 11:34 PM

back home once again.
oh well, supposed to meet laopo today.
but we didn set a time. so i didn noe wat time to wake up.
sleep all the way thru 3.
woke up and stone infront of my comp till 430.
went to prep-ed. took bus down to ksl to meet yl and co.
7 plus ks and yanfen left, leaving me and yl.
chatted with the uncle for awhile den dear came.
dear booked out today. tot he wun be booking out de.
idiotic him~ waste money. =X
should give me the money for cab mahs~ book out for 1 hr also song. =x
lols.
anyway, dear came over ksl to find us.
had a bite and accompany dear back home to change and bath.
den took cabby home. wanted to meet jo, but some prob. so didn.
the moment i reach home my foster parents was quarreling.
hence went out for some fresh air.
met zai for coffee~
came home ard 11 plus. and help dear train his maple for awhile.
hopefully dear is able to book out tml man! miss u dear~
meiping || 12:22 AM

home early today. =D
woke up early today. ard 11.
prep-ed and went amk to meet laopo. had lunch den walked to amk mrt station.
filled in some forms and off we back to my hus area.
coz i need to get some stuffs.
bought the stuff and we hunt almost the new bishan for a void deck to sit la.
took us more than 20 mins to reali find a place to settle down.
in between i went home to take some stuffs.
hmmm. slack at e void deck and do our stuffs till ard 6 when dear msg me.
so send laopo off, went home put down my stuff and took bus over to bishan interchange.
waited for dear. walked to his hus.
accompany him for awhile and as usual ard 945 prep and leave for him.
today his dad drove me home again. thanks! =D
bought my dinner and head home. damn.
this yr's june and july dont seems to be a good period for our grp.
kept falling sick for no reason man.
and i hab this stuipd feeling that a fever is coming again..
is AGAIN can~ arghs.
whatever it is.

tml will be a tough day for dear during this sign on.
sigh. hope things goes well for him.
and dear wun be booking out tml i guess.
well, free day~~ got my stuff to rush now.
update tml. misses.
meiping || 11:03 PM

as for today...
woke up ard 1. and slacked infront of my comp for hours due to the prob my hp is giving me. idiot man! arghs.
supposed to mit laopo at 2 de, but in the drag till 3.
mit at amk, had lunch. den bought some stuff and went over to bishan to find yl.
toked.
lance came over for awhile, den yl went hm.
while i head to j8 with laopo as she wan get some stuff.
mit up with dear.
laopo went home. than head over to funland to look for lance.
went coffee shop and sit for awhile. after tt went back to dear's hus.
accompanied him for awhile, ard 945, his dad drove me to ksl to mit yl.
talked for awhile and home sweet home.
but on e way saw lance again, hence he accompanied me to wait for bus.
went home, cooked my dinner.

was so heart pain to see dear so shag... =s

*bless*
meiping || 11:52 PM

Monday~ Monday blues.............
supposed to meet yl and co at bishan mrt at 1130.
but was too shag, so i gave a miss to the interview.
sorry dude.
i slept till 2, and rot on my bed till 4.
was lazy to go town with bird too. so just rot my afternoon away.
tot that i will not be going out today and just stay at hm and be a good gal.
but who knows tt dear is able to book out. =D
so hurry and prep-ed. bought bubble teas and took cabby over to his hus.
accompanied him for a short nap.
ard 10, woke dear up, prep-ed coz he hab to report back camp at 2300 hour.
so on the way his dad drove me home 1st. *thanks*
damn idiot with the car plate no. 1701!
its zebra crossing cant u see~!? u this blind man!
he almost ran into me can! and i was like wth. he stil can smile at me and drive off.
damn him nors! arghs. didn manage to rem the whole no. plate if not i gonna report u to the police! =x
don let me catch u doing this again! idiotic guy. yucks. =x
anyway, went prime market and bought some stuff, went home and cooked my dinner.

seeing him so shag, really pains my heart..
i wonder and i ponder...
which road am i taking this time round.....
well, let natural takes it course. at least i am happy now with him by my side.....
meiping || 11:41 PM

back home finally.
as usual toning night now and than.
yst mit dear 1 plus, its like i been home for less than 5 hours and i am out already.
haha.
had lunch at ksl with anto. than head over to yl's hus.
ah toot's fren drove us to blk 140++
slacked awhile, yl came also. eh. late afternoon like tt, yl rush to malaysia to pei stella.
so i went back anto's hus. than evening time went tan tock seng hosp with anto's family to visit his granny.
after tt went for dinner. head back anto's hus. prep-ed and went down cuppage to meet lance.
the guys dota for almost 2 hr can. and i just sat there like a wooden block~ arghs. hahas.
nvm. forget it. than last min decision, went down to MU.
left 3 plus. england and braz lost man! wth!!! WC is so shitty this yr can.
whatever it is.
went back anto's hus again. slept.
11 plus went sakae with his family. than anto went hunting for his sport shoe.
after tt, his dad drove us to beach road, army market there.
dear did his shopping there for his sign on stuff. than went back to his hus once again.
dear packed his stuff for tml sign on. had a bite at his hus too. his mum did the cooking.
after tt his dad drove us back to beach road once again to collect his No. 4. coz he sent it for sewing.
went back bishan, dear went for a hair cut and took photo for his sign on.
8 plus reaching 9, went home alone. didn want to trouble dear too much also. rather let him rest more. =D

dear gg for his sign on tml already. its not cfm if he is able to book out anot.
if he is unable to book out, it means tt i wun be meeting him for like 3 whole weeks? hahas.
no idea yet. and after his sign on, if he manage to pass, he wil be out on 21th of july.
but bad nice is tt 24th of july he is gonna go for a 7 day sailling? omg!
sigh. real worried for dear. really hope he can stay in focus thru out the selection, be it physcially or mentally. wasnt tt worried in the 1st place. but after chatting with his old officer, i was real worried.... hope everything go smoothing for dear.
dear! if manage to sign on we go celebrate k! hee.. hopefully la k.
meiping || 10:09 PM

i'm back from malaysia.
short week for me right. tot of staying for 3 to 4 weeks.
but made the trip short and came back sg to accompany anto; coz he is gg for selection on the 3rd of july. i am good. whahas. =x
okay la. came back on wed. anto came to fetch me.
head over to his hus. than out to mit yl again.
slack at bishan mac. den night time some stuff happened la.
well, whatever it is la.
than went over to anto's hus. den went out again to meet anto's fren.
slacked, than yl joined us. 6 plus in e morning yl went home.
and we head back to anto's hus. slp......
and i cant reali rem wat happened for the pass few days la.
i guess is just ton and ton and ton? if not is just slack and slack and slack.
coz anto took leave, so accompanied him these few days.

well, just came home from anto's hus.
as usual, ton last night.
yawns... gonna rest for awhile before meeting anto and yl lata le. =D
misses ppl~~~
meiping || 11:29 AM

yea. back home real early today. =D
i am good right. i am a good gal.
whahas.
anyway, woke up ard 3.
prep-ed and off i went to chinatown alone. =]
pass my dig cam to my cousin, than took mrt all e way back to bishan.
went j8 and bought some sweets for my baobei. =D
going back malaysia tml already. yea!
whahas. hmm. was planning a suprise for anto. =x
gee..
let see how things goes la. hahas.
hope my plan can be carried out smoothly.
well, miss u ppl.
=D
gonna miss everyone!
especially my laopo, baobei and kors!
not forgetting my darling anto. =D
anyway, ppl! if u hab any imt stuff cor me on my hi card no.
gt roamming for tt no. , but! don cor for fun k! =D
meiping || 9:43 PM

=]
nice weather man.
it rain-ed for almost the whole afternoon making it so comfty to slp.
woke up ard 11. but slack in my bed till 4. =x
hahas.
was sms-ing and phon-ing with anto.
than prep-ed and off i went to meet anto for dinner.
he came over to my hus area for dinner.
than took cabby over to his hus.
slacked. took bus home ard 1030.
anto got duty tml~ =/
and i leaving on thur for malaysia. =s
so which onli can mit him onli when i am back from malaysia.
well well well, this is it la.
whatever it is. i am bored now. hahas.
meiping || 12:01 AM

8backed home. =D
well, woke up damn early today, like 8.30 by anto's cor.
so drag myself out bed, prep-ed and off i went.
mit anto at kimsanleng.
had breakfast, than arcade than off to anto's hus.
hmm. what a day lo! i dono whats wrong alrigh!
something special today la. hahas.
but its top mimi lai de. whahas. =x
am i dreaming? wat i'm doing man. lols.
anyway, slack at anto's hus till 8. went out for a walk and he sent me home.
big boo! unable to mit laopo this few days.
gt so much to share with her. hahas.
somemore i gonna be leaving sg for a couple of weeks.
and she is tied down by her work. hence, the time clashes!
nvm!
meiping || 12:55 AM

8backed home. =D
well, woke up damn early today, like 8.30 by anto's cor.
so drag myself out bed, prep-ed and off i went.
mit anto at kimsanleng.
had breakfast, than arcade than off to anto's hus.
hmm. what a day lo! i dono whats wrong alrigh!
something special today la. hahas.
but its top mimi lai de. whahas. =x
am i dreaming? wat i'm doing man. lols.
anyway, slack at anto's hus till 8. went out for a walk and he sent me home.
big boo! unable to mit laopo this few days.
gt so much to share with her. hahas.
somemore i gonna be leaving sg for a couple of weeks.
and she is tied down by her work. hence, the time clashes!
nvm!
meiping || 12:55 AM

yawns. 1stly happy bday to myself, lionel, junwei and joseph! =D
anyway, yst woke up ard 3. went online. slacked.
than prep-ed and went to mit yl, joan and leo.
went j8. bought the presents for lionel and junwei.
bought something for joan and ling too.
than took cabby down to dte for lionel's chalet.
just sat there and craps ard.
thanks for the present ppls! =D
love it alot. +D
anyway, anto came ard 10. than sat there till 1.
took cabby back to bishan mac and pei ling wait for kelvin to knock off.
ard 3 ling went rounding with kelvin while i head over to anto's hus.
slp.....
than went home ard noon time today.
back home now.. trying to settle my phone now!
arghs. driving me mad man!
damn it! okays.
i'm late. suppose to meet anto now de.
but i'm still home blogging and settling my phone.
sorrie dear~ =x
meiping || 6:22 PM

back to feed my blog.
its craving for post. whaha. =x i noe i am mad la.
weet u weets~!
an hour more to my 18th bday! arghs. so fast so old already. wth!
nvm abt it.
oh well, supposed to meet laopo, but due to her sickness cancel e date with her.
than supposed to meet james for movie, but due to my menses cramps, i gave it a miss.
well sorrie. the cramp is like hell for me can! arghs~!
anyway, sms-ed ling. told her to meet at 3. but she felt aslp la. idiot. =x
so, intend to stay at home and wait for zai to wake up. but who noe he is stil slping.
arghs! bad day. =x
anyway, in the end still meet up with ling.
went j8. bought my phone. nokia 3250. =D
happy happy~~ lols. *claps*
than went 77th street and bought my playboy necklaces.
head over to arcade for a couple of games.
ling went home and i went to buy my slipper alone. =s
went home and changed. went to meet ada, zai, kovan, alan and jiewei.
celebrated my bday with them today.
everything was on kor's bill. =x
had dinner. crapped ard.
recieve 500bucks from zai from scoccer bet. =x and it was spent already.
on the phone la.
than, kovan got me 2 set of 1ooo piece puzzle with fame.
ada got me chip and dale soft toy.
alan gt me 3 pair of stuipd looking ear-ing. =x bt nvm. guys are guys.
jiewei gt me a zippo. best buddie man. =D
thanks for all the present dudes.. =D
meiping || 10:37 PM

back home. sorrie for e late update. was hook onto maple.
lols. did something bad la. =x bt nvm i love it. whahas!
oh well, missed my appointment at sgh today.
over slept. =x well. changed e appointment to july. =s
wth.
nvm. slacked infront of the tvbee till 5. than comp till 7.
prep-ed and head over to chinatown to look for sis.
waited for her to knock off.
gt a free trim and alsy layered my hair. feel so much beta with layered hair.
lols.
went off to eat kolo mee. damn ex man. 20 over bucks.
lucky sis treat me. hahas.
anyway, chit chatted with her. i love her man! MUACKS!
always so understanding. no age gap. =D
reached hm ard 11 reaching 12.
got my dig cam backed too! yeah~~ its like finally man.
2 more days man~! miss anto.......
meiping || 1:06 AM

backed home now.
i was gd! didn go out yst for the whole day k. i am good right.
whahas.
anyway, during dawn time went out to meet zai.
poor kor. feeling down~ well, don be too bother by those stuff bro! rem world cup is here!
win more money k~!!!
anyway, came hm ard 4 am and phoned with anto till 6.
off i head to dreamland after that. anto is sailing already.. misses~!!! =S
well, woke up due to my hungry-ness! woke up ard 4.
tot of staying at home for the day again de.
but in the end stil went out. mit up with james and ah fu at interchange mac.
took cabby down. head over to kim san leng for lunch cum dinner.
than went back to interchange mac to wait for yl.
slack till ard 10. went home........ bored man~!
anyway, was so blured tt i drop at e wrong stop la.
coz i was suppose to drop off at e prime der to buy some stuffs.
but i forgot abt it! arghs. so had to walk all the way from my hus back to prime there.
bought my stuff and off i head for home.
3 more days to my bday~! and i am finally 18! whahas.

missing dear lots lots.
meiping || 11:50 PM

here to blog tgt with my new blogskin.
so how is it? arghs. the html codes is driving me nuts can.
i tried and tried and tried for like tons of time? and i finally get this.
big bOO! well. forget abt it.
just stick with this blogskin for the time being.
at least i did everything myself can! =D
boring day. stay stucked at home the whole day.
anyway, was kind of sleepy too. was on phone with anto till e morning light shines.
anto is having duty today and 13th of june he is gg sailing already~
he is coming back onli on 16th of june. nice date hur!
just nice to celebrate my bday.
anyway, was wondering how laopo is now man. =s

let me set aside the memorises i once had with u....
let the new set of memorises fill me up....
ason will be the past. just the past..............................
26o5o6
meiping || 10:12 PM

back to blog.
well, ppl was complaining that i haven been blogging for like weeks?
well. having STM. so pardon me.
anyway, i cant rem wat i did the past few days la.
so that is it la.
at anto's hus now. so take this chance to blog.
i am bore!
he has been playing maple for like HOURS?
gosh!
anyway, woke up very early today.
met up with laopo and anto at interchange mac.
had breakfast. its like finally man!
than head over to the arcade.
went off ard 12.
and ever since than slacking at anto hus nor~ =S
meiping || 6:53 PM

was having stm this few days.
kept forgotting to blog. =x
arghs! nvm.
i cant reali rem what i did for the past few days.
anyway, i was good.
didn go out today!
no la. actually suppose to meet bird for a shopping spread.
but she had something on. so had to cancel it. =s
and i rotted at home the whole day can!
was wondering how i manage to pass my day man. lols.
oh well. got to wake up early tml. =D
meeting my laopo and dear tml.

*26o5o6*
meiping || 12:11 AM

haven been updating for days right?
oh well, due to my sickness la.
was having high fever for the past few days man!
down with soar throat too. =[
sad man. its like omg nor!
cant smoke, eat OR drink can!
wat a luck. *may lord bless me to get well soon* =D
lazy to update abt last few days la.
anyway, today went out to meet pris, jocelyn and mq at bishan interchange mac.
than went off to tpy. wth! wanted to reg for tuition!
but the tuition center was close. BOO!
suppose to meet lance. bt arghs! dulan la. he was slping.
so well! don meet beta la! damn.
went tpy interchange to meet laopo.
than pei her go tpy 6oo.
watched her friend pooled.
went off ard 6 to bishan. slack at coffeebean.
waited for anto and yl to come.
followed by joan. went off to 120 there to makan.
went arcade for awhile, than pei anto back to back his stuff.
went bishan park for awhile. coz i need to go home early.
so james sent me home instead. well, thanks james.

i dono if u will be able to read this la james.
but i want to thanks you for everything u had done for me.
=]
thanks for all ur care and concern! i hope u will be able to find a beta gal than me.
and well, to anto my dear.
thanks for everything u had done. =]
being with u is happy. hope u wun misuse the trust u had from me. =]
misses~!
meiping || 11:48 PM

backed home. smelly like those stinko boi now. lols.
anyway, woke up ard 2. prep-ed and head over to bishan interchange mac to slack.
waited for laopo, yl and stella to come.
half way thru, stella and yl went arcade.
den when anto came, laopo went home and another gal tgt with stella came.
just slack there till nite time.
went over to coffee shop to hab dinner.
yl and gang went mos party.
while i went anto hus. mygod. so paiseh can.
saw his parent.
than went home ard 1030.
tts my day.................
meiping || 11:45 PM

sigh.
i dono wats happening to me man.
damn.
feeling damn lousy right nw..
for no reason.
i just dono man!
leave me alone..
meiping || 12:52 AM

back home. wasn in a mood to blog yst.
me, myself don even remember what really happened.
just blog whatever shit that i remember ba.

27o5o6
woke up ard 9 plus. prep-ed and went amk to meet stella.
worked from 1130 to 330.
bt knocked off early, coz i was just taking over yl shift for a couple of hours.
went over to laopo hus and wait for her to change.
than took bus over to far east and met up with anto.
walked all the way to coffeclub and slack. yl, stella and joan joined us ard 9.
they went off 1st.
than i accompanied anto to hab dinner.
took cabby hm while anto went to find his frens.
quarreled with my mom. arghs! its like daily stuffs la.
well, she doesnt even care abt me man!
as i slit open my wirst, i feel the blood flow..
it eased my pain within me..
i colored my bedsheet with red.
i love the color and smell of blood.

as for today which is 28o5o6.
didn slp much. woke up, msged anto and yl.
morning time went to look for ada mei.
banaged my wound and went home.
prep-ed and went out to meet yl.
head over to bugis. joan joined us.
den took cabby down to bishan again.
than james, tim and alvin joined us.
left around 10. james sent me home.
fark man!
my foster parent really doesn care man! arghs!
must i really end up in hosp then they will care!
nvm! there will nt be another time for it.

will leaving aust be a better choice?
to start everything anew? sigh.
i really cant make up my mind.
there is ppl wanting to go oversea to study.
while i had the chance to go, i feel so weird.
why must they hab such high expectation on me?
hw old am i only?! damn it.
let me go.
let me hab freedom.
let me hab back the trust.
let me be free please...
meiping || 10:58 PM

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meiping || 12:24 AM

damn shag! but i am not sleepy~
had a wonderful day. =]
its like FINALLY can!
i met my ONS! whahas. =x
i was late today, so sorry gals to make ya wait for me wors.
took a bus down to far east. and its so yucks to see something early in the afternoon can!
was waiting for bus at e interchange, and i saw a uncle trying to take a snap shot of some CHIJ gals nors. arghs. and the shot is like upskirt one can! =x
guess wat i did! =x
i went to knock the uncle when he was abt to take e pic. whahas. =x
i am good k! hahas
so girls beta behave when u are wearing skirt k! and especially SHORT skirt.
and if u see weird uncle taking cam phone take pic, give him a slap! TIGHT slap alright. =x
okays. enough of the rubbish.
went to hab HANs for lunch. walked all the way to PS. slacked.
and we was late la. my poor dear was angry with us!
so sorrie my dear~~ =s
anyway, sloved it and we went for the movie 'over the hedge'
nice show k! 4 stars~ go catch it soon ppl.
after e show went to meet antino.md.
went coffee shop, he had dinner. and yl and joan came down to find me.
working tml~ boring~~

want thanks laopo and mani for coming into my life.
thanks for everything. =]
thanks to someone whom entered my life to bring me happiness and joy. =]
meiping || 11:52 PM

boo! backed home.
alright. was a gd gal. didn go out today la. i mean during the afternoon.
well, woke up, slack infront of the tvbee. than kept my puzzle which i didn have e mood to complete.
guess, complete next time round ba. there is always time. =]
met up with james for dinner. than went off to meet antonio.
my hand hurts sia~ =[
nvm.
went hm ard 12.
bathed and i am here to blog.
short right this entry!
who ask me didn go out these few days. =x

meeting my ONS tml! its like finally man!
haha. FEL!!!!! here i come! beware. whahas. =x
meiping || 12:58 AM

what a boring day. life seems so meaningless and aimless suddenly.
anyway, was stilb having fever. so stayed at home.
i am good aint i?
anyway, woke up by lance's cor la.
asking me to go maple. wth.
so i took my time and online. download e patch.
den went offline for awhile to slp.
woke up had dinner and a couple of fag.
thats my day la. boring right!
arghs. =x

something i wonder and ponder.
have i really grow up?
or am i still stuck at the same space..
will i ever find that special person to fill up the gap beside me?
will i ever find another guy which will love me more than i love him?
will i? hahas. wishful thinking hur.. =D
meiping || 11:03 PM

jus came home. arghs.
had this tootpid feeling as if my probation haven ended.
just that the curfew extended to 12. wth right.
damn. was home for the whole day la.
due to my fever. was running a high fever. 41.2D.
almost die la! so was on the bed most of the time.
slp and slp and slp like a pig. =x
realli bore till bth man.
and was having a damn big quarrel with my foster parent can!


arghs. why cant they give me some peace?
just a little will do. it is not like i sick than i don wan to see a doc.
they must know tt they already stop giving me pocket money since donkeys yrs.
and i have already stop working. beside that, i still have to give money every month to my bro.
come on man! they think i print money or what?!
arghs. damnit. =x
and they just kept saying about the stuipd past of mine can.
its not like i want my past to be that bad? who want their past to be like tt?
a rotten apple man! fark it! its not like my PO haven talk to u guys b4 man!
i did changed! even my PO said so. they never believe what i said or even my PO.
cant they have a abit of trust in me? i am no longer that dumb gal who used to hang out with those ppl.
and they should be thankful already tt i nv start the stuipd thing of running away from hm.
they shouldnt take thing for granted man! wat am i to them man. a dog?! cb!
i am 18 already lo. please la. its nt like i will be like last time wun be home for days!
its not like i will ton every single weekend. like last time. and whats wrong with staying out late?
when i am not hanging around with those ppl already.
and that i had already stop extending.
ask urself man! this yr, hw mani time has i not been home? how mani time i ton?
hw mani time i didn go home.
it just so usless to do all the shit for them when they don even give a damn abt it.
i tried so hard to be their good gal. but it seems usless. it seems that they think it i SHOULD do it! SHOULD K!
and whats wrong with me gg back malaysia? whats the big deal abt it?
i don see a big deal abt it. since my family is there..
why cant i go back every month or as and when i want?
who are they? they are my foster parent onli. i know they were the one whom bring me up.
i should be thankful to am. indeed i am! i respect them. its not like i don respect them.
but can they for ONCE! just ONCE put themself in my shoe and think?
spare a tot for me? just that once i will be happy already!
arghs! don regret if one day u cor and i never answer. and don say that i didn sit down and talk with u all. its like i done so mani talking with u guys already.. but u all just don seems to take in what i says. just don wan to understand me. i did gave u guys a chance to listen to whats in my heart. but u guys just think that i am uttering rubbish!
for once i was close to death. u guy don care. why not make history repeat itself man. HA!

- as slashed myself to death -
meiping || 10:03 PM

Omg.
still having headache man.
anyway, tot of studying. but pris didn reply me, than laopo was also sick.
so cancel it.
called yl out to slack. suppose to meet at 3. but the sleeping pill dose was too heavy.
so i fell aslp. and mit her at 4 30 instead.
head over to long john to munch.
than wait for her friend joan to come.
tgt went off to funland. boring can. =x
as usual, played the same game la.
james came too.
was feeling kind of bored, so went mac to slack.
slack all the way to 10 plus la.
gosh. i hate it when i am having headache!
it last for days can! not a couple of hours or min..
arghs! i am falling sick man!
sigh.
i miss my family.
i yearn to go back malaysia asap.
meiping || 12:17 AM

arghs.
headache!
nvm abt it. blog 1st.
woke up ard 12, than change of plan for the day.
cos was suppose to meet pris 2 at bishan mac to study.
but last min she went to ecp. so i took my own sweet time to eat, bath.
than i packed my stuff and set off the j8.
found a spot at coffeebean and started to study alone.
bt before studying xf came over to chat for awhile. than she heads off for work.
ard 4, pris came. chatted lots.
due to pris feeling unwell, and leaving early, back to alone again.
all the way till ard 8 when james came over to find me.
ard 9 went to eat some snack for a munch. than took bus home le.
arghs. having headache. damn pain can!
as if my head gonna explode anytime.
meiping || 10:52 PM

yawns. shag man.
anyway, yst went to meet lionel.
den met pris, sharon, hanwei, ahfu and james at k-pool.
head for dinner at s-11 around 10 with pris , ahfu and james.
went home ard 11. tts all.
omg! i feel so bad sia. sigh.
sorry james! so sorry! =[

anyway, was suppose to go MI with pris.
bt something happened. and i couldn wake up in time.
hence went bishan mac to meet pris and study.
jocelyn came ard 4 plus. pris had her tuition.
while i jus study myself.
yl came for awhile than off she goes.
went for a walk at j8. than head over to the s-11 to eat.
went home ard 10.
well, tts all.. gotta rush!
hence resulting in the short post. =x
meiping || 12:42 AM

what a day.
woke up noon time. did some cleaning up of my room.
slacked, blah blah blah la.
went to meet james for lunch.
went hm ard 6.
went out ard 7 to meet kor for awhile.
wat a day! arghs!
tingy tingy wrote me a letter. =[
so did weilun..
i feel so bad for not replying to their letters.
sigh.. i just dono wat to pen it down when i see the letter.
i always wish i knew what to write in the letter.
but whenever i sat down, hold the pen, my mind goes blank.
i reali dono hw to reply their letter.. sigh..
recieved a cor from lionel. pull my mood even more down.
reali man. wat a day.
and like wat junsian says. 'what are friends for'

goddamnit.

i miss malaysia badly..
i miss my baobei...
i miss my sister and brother..
i miss granny..
i miss ah xiong..
i miss the food..
over all i just MISS them!
meiping || 11:07 PM

ARGHS~~~~~~~~
i miss my LONG hair can!!!!!!!
miss it like hell lo!
i cant get use to it at all man!
damn!!! arrghssss.. enough of complain. complain again lata. cont with my blog 1st.
went to meet laopo at amk 3 today.
had lunch than accompany her to have her hair cut.
after tt took mrt down to ps.
went to the arcade for a couple of game. than went off to look for the haw par building.
in the end didn turn up for the interview.
went back to ps's starbuck to slack.
zai came over to find laopo. than they head off to jurong.
waited for james to come. followed by junsian.
tok awhile, walked to parklane..
sit for awhile than went home le..
okay. damn, i am so careless can.
my slipper break la! arghs. =x
so went home to change my slipper went down again to hab my dinner + supper with james.
reach home ard 12.

arghs!!!! i jus found out tt ard 15cm of my hair was snapped off can!
daMN! such a short hair i hab now..
sigh. cant get use to having such a length man.. =s
pray tt tml once i wake up my hair is the same long lenght..
but i noe it wun come true la! ARGHS!!!!!!! =x
meiping || 12:11 AM

wat a day man. anyway, woke up by yl's cor.
she told me there is a interview.
so drag my feet off my bed.
prep-ed and off to meet laopo at j8.
took mrt down ps to wait for yl and stella.
than took cabby down to shaw hus.
interviewed.. tml still need go down for another interview with the bank.
working hr is 12 to 6. every sat and sun.
after the interview, went down to chinatown to hab my hair cut.
OMG! my hair is damn short la! arghs~!
coz i cut away most of my damaged hair la. damn!
i cant get use to it la~ i miss my hair~ hope it grow back fast k!
pray for me ppls~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, my hair is like shoulder lenght onli le man.. sob~
anyway, after i had my hair cut at where my cousin is working took 54 home.
wat a day! phew~
meiping || 10:59 PM

almost forgot to blog. =x
was too into maple js now. so blog bef0re gg to slp.
anyway, didn intend to go out today. was kind of down. =[
junsian asked me out, so did my cousin.
bt feeling tt cousin was beta. hence took cabby down to bugis.
met up with my cousin and her two other friend.
went temple to pray. than head back to bugis.
went over ti ritz apple to grab a bite.
than went over to meet junsian at starbuck la.
damn. no comments man. =x
oh well, than hit over to scott ard 9 to find pris, ah fu and james.
went amk to munch.
than took cabby home.
omg! my leg hurts can! arghs~~~~~~~~~
super duper pain la. damn!!!
ARGHS!!!!! IT HURTS! even now!
meiping || 12:57 AM

i am home~ =D
oh well, supposed to meet lionel this morning to accompany him to bugis to get his stuff.
bt was cancel. =x
so went to meet james. sorrie ar. let ya wait for sooo long at j8.
took mrt down ps. met up with sharon and hanwei.
went to eat. than went off for movie. voice.
er.. nt realli very nice la. =s
after e show walked all e way to far east. took 54 home.
den sent james off to his busstop.
went off to get my dinner. damn la. tootpid auntie. stare at me for nth lo! wth!
idiot~ =x
reach hm ard 1130. the moment i step in, lionel called me la. =x so zun.
haha. bore.......
meiping || 11:52 PM

okays. i am back home already.
woke up ard 10. prep-ed and ah xiong came over sg to fetch me.
went malaysia. JAM-ed la.
reached sg straight away went to meet some ppl.
talked, blah blah blah la. for at least 3 hours man!
okay la. the talked ending with a smile. at least a smile la hor.
beta than nth.
after the talked, it was still early. hence went window shopping with ah xiong.
he bought me stuffs. =D
yea. like it. hahas. always so good to me man!
ahxiong~ wo ai si ni le la. haha.
know me so well, treat me so gd too.

the ring he got for me..

he got me this too. =D

anyway, had dinner at 'on the rock stonegrill cafe'
nice! recommanded okays! BY ME! damn. if any guys out there have a chance drop by plaza pelangi at jb. its nice alright~
waited for a couple of friends. catch up awhile and off i head off to sg.
reach hm ard 11. tts early right?
meiping || 11:08 PM

didn intend to go out at all today de.
but was really feeling kind of bore.
so went out with my fren.
meet her at far east. shopped.
bought a ear-ing.
went back j8. bought a heel from c&k.
after tt went to yl's hus to pei her.
went hm ard 1030.
intending to head down to mos with a couple of dude.
was couldn't due to my foster mum.
fark la. everyday also wan quarrel with me for nothing man.
even the smallest things. damn la.
and daddy was pissed off by our quarrling.
hence he say i am not allow to go out tonight.
damn it. guess my foster mum will be over the moon or star la.
cb!
gg malaysia tml in the morning.
coming back in the night.

whatever it is man. like wat i used to put on my nick.
whats come around goes around.
you day will come soon. i shall see about it.
bitch!
meiping || 11:50 PM

okays. sorrie bloggie for nt feeding ya these few days. =x
blogging kinda of slipped off my mind these few days. hahas.
anyway, nth much happened for e past few days.
and i don reali rem it la. =x
anway, woke up kind of early today la. compared to other days.
prep-ed and went off to amk to meet yl and stella.
talked awhile, den i went off to meet lionel at bugis. while yl and stella head over to tpy for k-ing.
james and ah fu came too. than went off to catch MI3 with james.
the show was good! bt i guess was kind of tired la. kinda of slp =x
hahas.
after e show went to find lionel and ah fu.
bought yl's present too.
than went back j8. met up sharon and hanwei.
head over to sakae. went off ard 9 reaching 10.
after sakae, went k-pool with james , ah fu and yl.
pris and hanwei joined us.
11 plus went off with yl. took cabby home.
and my ear is hurting man! gt a new ear hole for my right ear.
laopo went for cruise trip. sadded. will be lonely for a couple of days.
sad ar~ who wan pei be? be my part time stand in? lols. jkjk~
meiping || 11:53 PM

okay, i am damn bored la.
slept till 2 plus. woke up had my lunch.
slacked in front of my tbvee..
bore, suppose to meet ada and zai.
but last min cancel, coz ada cant make it.
and i don wan to go out alone with tt idiotic god bro of mine.
so boo! stucked at home.
and i tot i might be meeting laopo too.
bt in the end nv also. boring man!
and i don wan to watch movie with alex. no thanks man.
life is boring.
and ppl ard me is asking to get my butt down to study.
time is running out. BOO!
yawns, i guess gonna take a nap again ba. =s
misses ppls.
meiping || 5:35 PM

smile please!

huiting, a gal and huixian

my unless biggest bro. real bro k!



smoking is gd!

ehh ehh? looking where baobei?

my precious ah ma and baobei. =D

HEE!

brothers!


please mind wher u r looking at k!

my cousin ah an.

big smiles! =D

yandao bo?!

peace~ ^^//

laugh all e more u wan! its me~

working friend. bird and cherry.

working friend liting.
thats all for today. =D
meiping || 1:26 AM

okay. backed home already.
hmm. wat a nice weather day. slept till 2.
woke up + prep-ed and off i went to amk to meet laopo.
suppose to hab our hair cut la.
but suddenly no urge and i cant bear with my hair. =x
hence, we hit over to the big s-11 to hab my breakfast+lunch.
after tt went to arcade. ken came to find us.
slacked, than ken went off with his gf.
while laopo and me went s-11 to slack meantime wait for james.
and tt lionel la. damn. =x okays, ah fu came too.
hit to k-pool. yl came. and i was tortured by her can!
she used my hus keys to slash me man.
pain lo! aiyo. okay la.
went home ard 10. took cabby home.
bore man. i think i will upload lots of pic since i hab nth to do nw.
=D
meiping || 12:59 AM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

just woke up about an hour ago i guess.
*yawns*
blog abt yst 1st.
met up with laopo at Tp, coz i had an urge for HANs.
after tt went amk to hab my atm card done.
took me hrs to q man, lots of ppl there.
after that went over to the CIA building to hab my ic done.
there goes my 100bucks man. =[
i am BROKE! OFFICALLY bankcupt nw. sad ar.
i need a sugar daddy. lols! jk k~
anyway, gottan to wait a mth b4 i get my new ic. thats long man!
after i got my ic down, went back to j8.
had dinner at mac. than went over to laopo hus.
waited for yl to come.
head down to rush. than prata hus for supper.
than went back to laopo hus to hab a nap.
went home ard 8. yawns~!

i am hungry now man! no one is at home.
no food! i am HUNGRY! nvm i called the mac del.
and they say will need me to wait for ard 45 min!
arghs~ so long man. FOOD~ =x
lols
meiping || 6:28 PM

BOO! backed home.
hmm, still kind of early right.
wat a day man!
oh well, this morning prep-ed and hit off to amk to meet james than followed by laopo.
took 133 to bugis. damn it. it hurts my butt. =x
walked ard, and off we went to watch 'the wild'
nice show, plus funny.
after the show, sharon, yl, lionel, and ahfu came nors.
than walked off to suntec.
head over to the arcade. sad ar.. didn manage to catch any toys.
nvm, try harder next time round.
okay la, my mood sort of had a 360D change k.
for no reason, there was this sudden stress crashing upon me. =s
and i broke down la. =S
disappointed in myself for spoiling the day. sorrie guys.
lucky manage to pick up myself up soon.
took cabby over to j8. bt sent laopo hm 1st.
had dinner. than james sent me home.
thanks for sending me home james. =D

its like wat the hell with me nowadays man!
sigh. i don understand myself too.
sorrie to bring upon yl and laopo too.
making them sad with me.
was glad tt they was with me.
sigh. tml will be staying over at laopo hus.
i tried to kill the pain. but it only brings more.
hais.
meiping || 11:09 PM

okay! i am realli totally FREAKED OUT at this very moment!
this asshole 'jinli' ( i hab no idea who he is la)
for the pass few months he has been flooding my cell with miss call k!
arghs. its so wth man! damnit.
i guess i need to change my hp no. soon.
and the worst thing was tt he was threating me man! fark la.
should i go to the police? lols. like making a fuss over a small thing hur. =s
see abt it la. arghs! damnit~!
meiping || 9:57 PM

boo! shouldn come home tt early today man.
oh well, slp real 'early' this morning la.
woke up by a no. of calls and msges.
bathed + prep-ed and went off to meet laopo at my hus void deck.
had lunch, slacked awhile.
and she head over to her boi's hus.
while i head home. big BOOS!
my aunties came wth la. making such a din over at my hus.
noisy la.
oh well, i should be home this early, coz its labour day.
and daddy is not working.
and when daddy is not working!
he starts to tok to me abt the trip to aust on july!
yucks! i don wan to go man! pray tt he cant get leave tt month.
i noe wat he is up to la. i just don wan to go aust!
even tot i realli miss perth la. damn.
but this time round is no holiday! he arranged a collage for me to enroll in for a couple of weeks.
asking me to try out the life over there! yucks! i hate it.
and i noe its impossible for me to communicate with the ppl there with the lvl of my eng blah blah blah!
arghs. save me la! some one! please lehs!~
and if realli got to go it will be 1 whole bloody mth can! fark la! arghs~! =x
sad man! sigh. boring day.
but nice weather to slp.
but after wat daddy said, it totally spoilt my day man.
okay! i seriously need a new wallet la.
my whole bag is in a big mess without my wallet. damn!
gottan spend money and time to look for one tt i realli like.
this is soooo bore.
anyway, gotta to thanks james for smsing with me all these time. =D
jie wei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want the baby minni asap k~ lols.
meiping || 5:52 PM

okays, i am back home already.
early right? well, tts me la. =x
daddy's girl.
well, was woken up by james msg.
so took my own sweet time to prep.
who noe he was already on this way to ps.
so rushed thru and took cabby down to ps.
lionel was there too. went to the arcade.
than head for a movie - when a stranger call.
er~ the movie was like wth la. the worst thing was tt it has a BLACK CAT!
that sucks k! i hate cats. arghs. okays. think didn watch horro movie for too long.
starting to get kind of freak out by it. arghs. stupid! =x
after the movie went back bishan's interchanger mac.
yl and xb came to find us. chatted. blah blah blahs.
8 plus james and lionel went off to amk.
while yl, xb and me went pasa malam to buy some snack.
went home ard 8 plus.
met up with jiewei~ jie wei! u r the best man! loving u always.
lols. don be mistaken. jiewei is my 'sister'
gt a baby micky from him, which he caught it in the arcade!
gosh! like it man. lols.
jiewei! next time i wan a minni~ to complete that micky. =D
so lucky of him, everything i try sure fail de la. damn. =x
daddy mummy nt home yet. peaceful day~
meiping || 9:21 PM

bad day~ sigh.
woke up ard noon, prep-ed and met with laopo.
went amk's k-box. sang till 6 plus.
the mood is bad~ sucks~
met up with sharon and gang.
they went to pool-ed, saw a couple of old sch fren there.
suppose to find laopo, bt couldn catch any cab. arghs.
in the end didn find laopo. instead, roamed ard amk.
just walked and walked. and the next moment i noe, i was at TP le.
than from TP i walked home again la.
well, thats it la.
i don wan to blog further abt it.
sigh.
totally, breaking down.
left me alone.
meiping || 10:29 PM

backed home. oh well, seems tt my down week has sort of affected laopo.
=s
poor thing. sigh. nth seems to go right.
it jus go left. =x
2oo6 just aint my year. lols.
anyway, didn reali slp a wink last nite.
was on the phone. den i fell aslp.
than wake up and was e phone again.
this morning also the same. woke up by a cor.
anyway, went out to meet laopo.
took mrt down to yck to fill in our stuff for work.
er. without any interview or whatever, we r back to motorola again la. lols
pay is kind of okays there ba. 12 hr a day. 70 bucks.
work 2 day rest 3 day. work 3 day rest 2 days hur. =D
nice working days. oh well, starting work next tue.
suppose to start work tml which is fri. declined it.
coz was suppose to go out with pris n frens. but last min nt gg le.
after the 'interview' went back j8. had lunch.
head over to funland. slacked.
than went to coffeebean. er, a lady was singing there la, and the song is like 'wth' =x
so went off to mac. yl and xb came for awhile.
and went home ard 9. early hur.
daddy was shocked to see me home so early la. =X
sians man~
wonder why are there so mani ppl so down recently~
hopes everyone walk out of it soon man~!
blesses*
meiping || 11:12 PM

down i sallow my prides to put up with this family of mine.
i don think i can take all these rubbish any longer.
lord, please give me a road.
i want to start out totally brand new. no more rubbish treatment from them.
i am a human. not their maid or pet.
this aint a hus for staying. i don mind saying that i do treat this house like a hotel.
come home whenever i wan whenever i like.
no point staying at home too. it jus makes matter worst with me staying at home.
being good have no return.
don take me for granted thats all i can say.
hopefully, i can find a excuse to sneak back to malaysia on june.
cant wait to step foot onto malaysia once again.
genting trip will be on the way, follow by thai trip if i am able to make it back on june.
hopefully i can k! prays for me.
i need a break from them, they are pulling the rope around my neck too tight.
take it for once that i never respect myself. for doing all these shit to myself hurs.
no more dopes or whatever rubbish it is man.
if only i can turn back all the time.
i hope i wasn't in this piles of shit. struggling to get out of this shit.
but after all i am all used to it.
i need no pity or compassion from anyone. =D
still standing strong.

u jolly well noe who u r.
u e one stepping on my past happiness to gain ur happiness now.
all the shit that u are having was once mine.
damn u. hate it when u show me e farking cheeky face of urs to me.
showing off how happi u r now. trust me. its fine with me.
i can always gather up my happiness again.
for once, u r my best friends. some one i trusted so.
yet, the same shit still came back to me.
betrayed! damnit. why am i so dumb hur.

*slashed*
meiping || 10:50 AM

boring days. real bore.
anyway, update for today's rant.
went out for a while to meet my kor for tea.
was raining too heavy already so went home kind of early.
and thanks to koven kor for lending me the jacket. =D
always so sweet of you. thanks once again.
suppose to wait for daddy to come home. coz my left wrist la.
as usual is hurting on and off again. daddy came hm late, so didn go for the chi doc.
anyway, i hate e smell! hopes he forget abt it soon and than i will be free~
when my hand is hurting, he always says ; Cannot go out! all these shit de la.
damnit. =x
anyway came hm ard 8. bathed and slacked.
tml gg interview with laopo i guess.
after interview might be heading over to ecp for some chilling with laopo.
tts the plan for tml i guess, at least if it doesnt rain.
hopfully the weather will be good to us. *prays*
was chatting on msn with my dear lyn and as always, those mushy stuff. lols.
cherry is gg back malaysia tml le. misses man~
hope she can find a place in sg soon to stay.
missing my baobei already man!
and sad to say this, my maple pet rabbit has die! =s
wth. lols.
Arghs. life is so boring man!
been living in a jail kind of life man!
save me man someone.

its the past, the past has been hunting me since than.
how am i gonna get ride of it mans.
The heart is forever making the head its fool - its kinda of true somehow.
meiping || 10:22 PM

woke up ard at 8 by a idiot. no idea who was it.
rang my phone lots of time and when i pick up that person kept quiet!
wth! nvm.
went back to slp, than lionel cor me. follow by james's msg.
so, i couldn get back to slp anymore.
what a day.
i am HUNGRY! =[
as usual, mummy didn cook my share. boring day.
nth to do. so came to feed my bloggie some snack. =x
suddenly had an urge to eat : PIZZA BAKE RICE SAKAE
=S
arghs! raining~ nice weather to slp, bt i just couldn slp man.
damn. cant go out too. so sad man.
i am BORED!

Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love
meiping || 4:02 PM

hey! i did blog yst okay~ i really did.
but the entry just went missing for no reason! wth nors!
nvm. suan le. and i wun repost wat i blog yst la.
arghs.
oh well, was suppose to go down to the office for some explaining abt our sudden quit. =x
bt i couldn wake up. was too tired.
laopo overslept too. lols.
anyway, slp till 4? pig right? nvm i understand myself can le.
oh well, suppose to meet cherry this evening. but gave it a missed.
was too tired. so slack till ard 6 infront of my comp.
prep-ed and went off to meet sharon and gang.
so much misses to them man! =D
hoping i can meet up more with my other friends.
really do miss them man! miss my school days too.
oh well, nvm, its okay.
went j8. met up with sharon and her gang.
went to amk for pool.
as usual la. didn play. not gd at it hur. =x
for those who noe me real well will noe why i don play pool la. its okays. =D
went home ard 11? suppose to meet koven.
but was feeling kinda of down. gave it a miss.
oh well, its the past already. =D
tml guess gg down ycc to hab my interview.
gosh! guess i am gg back to motorola le lar! =S
meiping || 11:52 PM

DEAD!
okays, didn blog yst, so shall made it up for it.
yst didn turn up for the meeting. instead went bishan mac to hab breakfast with laopo.
after breakfast there was a sudden urge to go k-box.
so went tpy k-box.
after k-box went tpy lor 2 to find yl and slack.
went off ard 4.
the moment i reach home just when to slp. =x
slp till ard 9. woke up for dinner, than went back to slp ard 3 i guess.

as for today, went to meet laopo at bishan mac.
slacked, blah blah blah.
went funland to play for a couple of game.
than yl and xiaoboi came down to find us.
went coffeebean to tok abt her bbq thing.
saw weilun there too, joined us for a couple of min.
than weilun went off, followed by xiaoboi.
than yl and laopo pei me wait for bird and cherry.
bird came ard 7 plus reaching 8 la.
den yl and laopo went off.
cherry came finally at 830. head off for dinner.
tts all ba. sians man!

feel the pain tt i am gg thur man! for godness sake k!

gosh, i turning into a pig very soon man!
slping just rawks my life. =x
meiping || 10:22 PM

FARK LA! I AM HATING IT!
HATING ALMOST EVERY SINGLE THING LA.
DAMNIT! WHATEVER IT IS LE LAR!
ARGHSS!
I BROKE DOWN.
I TORN DOWN!
GODDAMNIT!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO TEAR U INTO PIECES!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO GIVE U A TIGHT SLAP!
IF I AM ONLY ABLE TO SLASH U TO DEATH!
FOR ALL THE SHIT U HAD DONE!
THAN ONLY I WILL FEEL BETTER!
DON PROVOKE ME AND I WUN PROVOKE U!
JOLLY WELL FARK OUT OF MY LIFE ASAP!
ARGHS! PEK CEK LA!!!
meiping || 12:56 AM

ARGHS!
farking week for me man!
dislike tpy and sat man~
i LOST my wallet lo.
damnit lo! there goes my ic, atm card, 77th street, k-box, blah blah blah card la.
lucky i didn withdrawal money man.
arghs. damn it la. tok abt it lata.
went out to meet jordan at e busstop 1st.
than went j8 to find sharon.
pass her stuff, get some stuff.
than chatted with xf, my dear lyn and pris was there too.
after, jordan went off 1st. than both sharon and me went out to tok tok.
my dear lyn and pris walked pass us again man!
so coindence. i went off to amk, while sharon went bugis to meet hanwei.
my dear lyn and pris went hm i guess.
saw my pri sch fren, euliang too. had a super duper short chat and i rush off to meet laopo.
went amk's lan shop with laopo, went off ard 6.
suddenly had an urge to eat kfc, went kfc to hab my breakfast+lunch+dinner.
than i went j8 to meet yl, while laopo went tpy to look for her boi.
anyway, shop ard j8 for office wear for yl la. she bought some clothes.
took cabby over to tpy to hunt for more.
then, there is when my wallet went missing!
was wondering if i am careless to drop it or an idiot pickpocket me!
damn! if reali than, hope tt person get it punishment soon man! arghz!
hence when i knew my wallet was missing took mrt down to amk's police station la.
cause i was meeting cherry at amk.
yl went off 1st, lucky she lent me her ez-link card. thanks gal.
cherry went with me, made a report, damn la. stuipd officer go dig my record out.
den blah blah blah all these. please lo! i already ended my prob LONG AGO!
whatever la. he took his own SWEET time to type that report man.
after the report is out, went over to blk 321 to look for cherry's sis hus.
put the stuff down, head over to kpt to lai kopi.
went home ard 11. than daddy was nagging at me since than till now! when i am blogging.
fark him man, i;m already pek cek enough le nors. goddamnit!
whatevr la. hab to get my ic made within 2 weeks and i need to pay a fine of 100 bucks i guess~
=s
there goes my money le la.
ARGHS!
worst come to worst tml still gt meeting!
TML LEH! SUNDAY LEH! stil need to go back for meeting. wth lo.
fark la! burn my week.

sorry for the words used this entry.
couldn control myself. DAMNIT!
meiping || 11:10 PM

ARGHS!
WHATEVER LA!!!!!!!
don bother to gif a damn abt it man. waste my effort talking so much.
today went to meet laopo and yl.
took cab down and met mel.
tgt went for 2nd interview.
okays, five of us went, but stella was the onli one whom couldn get the job.
coz stella stil haven pass her bday. not 17 yet.
so sad. never mind hope she get her k-box job than.
anyway, slacked at the office till 7?
was waiting for mel. than went off for dinner.
took cabby down to find yl. couldn find her la.
damnit! whatever man.
went mac to rest. than head home.
fook it man!

okay, i gt my bb already.
but only can start to use on the 24th, monday.
nvm~ just a few more day. =D
meiping || 10:36 PM

back hm nw and conf-ing with yl, laopo and xiaoboi.
arghs. i gg to explode le nors! damn it man!
didn noe there is such a boi in this world nors.
arghs, god damnit man! fook it nors.
so damn fedup nors! arghs! wish i could slap him hard man!
nvm put it aside. he is not worth my anger!
anyway, woke up ard 12 and went to meet laopo and yl.
had lunch. than stella came too. took cabby down for 2nd interview.
goodness la! nv interview lo, nid drag till tml, coz the big bosses is all out. =s
waste my time and transport fee man.
went off ard 5 plus. took 57 back to j8.
shopped ard and bought a jacket.
went home and changed while yl and laopo wait for me at the void deck.
went of supper. than blah blah blah nors.
than quarrel la! damn it man. hate it nors.
guy whom hit girl! wth right?
hw can man!
meiping || 11:48 PM

shag*
okay, woke up kinda of early today.
met up with laopo and yl.
went down for interview.
so qiao~ saw ming jie there too.
anyway, gg down for training tml at 3.
wth man. nid dress code too. =s
sad ar, don hab such clothes man.
how? don tell me i nid to spend before i earn man. =s
bad bad.
anyway, after interview went down to bugis.
walked ard looking for clothes.
than went back j8 to slack.
lance came too. nt a gentleman man!
lets the girls waits. arghs. =x
gosh, gonna get real sick soon man!
meiping || 10:43 PM

whatever it is man.
life is boring. i over slept today.
sorrie laopo. =s
anyway, tried my very best to slp early already.
but i still failed. was lying on my bed since 1.
yet i still can toss and turn till 5! my god!
cant believe myself mans.
broke down last nite for no reason. werid hur? lols.
anyway, had this fooking weird dream! arghs.
shall not talk abt this.
suppose to meet laopo at 12? as i said earlier, i overslept.
end up meeting her onli at 2. =x
went j8, laopo wants to look for a job.
after roaming ard j8, took the mrt to woodland.
roam ard for less than an hour, took train down to jurong point.
same old stuffs, boring there, so left within an hour again.
took 157 back to typ. than laopo said tt 157 was cursed! mygod. =x
inside thing la. =x
went interchange mac to slack and wait for yl.
slack, talk, blah blah blah. went home ard 10.

yet to come out with a final and firm decision.
damn me. foolish me.
my life is so messy and fook up man! arghs!
may lord bless me.
meiping || 11:27 PM

this yr has been a down down yr. =x
anyway, slacked at home till around 6pm.
intend to go out during the afternoon.
but due to the heavy rain, i stayed at home.
went out around 6 to meet laopo.
yl was coming to join us at first.
but guess she hab some stuffs to settle with xiaoboi.
so didn join us.
slack at my hus area void deck.
and had my lunch + dinner tgt.
bored.
i need a job. =s
penniless already.
thinking of it irks me man.

i will be standing strong still.
no matter what.
its okays with me.
not fated hur. =s
sum ask me if i will wait.
my answer was, just let natural takes it place.
as for my family, its harder than anything other stuffs.
its cant be slove a day or a yr.
its take my whole life to slove it i guess.
i will be happier than i am before.
i will try my best, even it is harder than other things.
meiping || 10:19 PM

Just reached home.
shag*
didn expect that i was gg out today.
but recive a cor from ahjin jie.
she was feeling down. so accompany her nors.
had a heart to heart tok.
=]
loving her always. =] my big sister!
hais. still isnt feeling very well nors.
sigh.
went ps, slack at starbuck.
than walk around. than game at arcade.
saw a couple of old fren. blah blah blah.
had dinner. than went home le.
sigh....
meiping || 10:56 PM

dead tired. yst went to meet laopo and her boi at the void deck.
than slacked ard. was feeling kind of sick, went hm ard 11.
half way thur my slp ard 1, recieve a cor from sum idiot.
went out, i was tricked. arghs.
saying wat whoes bday, den go celebrate.
bullshit man.
dope and drugs. yucks.
guess lata gg out with my cousin.
not in the best mood now. sigh.
but i am still standing strong.
my three 'S'

ada, jiewei, jen jie and jianxiong.
sorrie, cell was off-ed.
but i am fine. no worries.

guess he already gt gf le.
didn bother to reply my sms.
thats it. =D
meiping || 3:37 PM

woken up by laopo's msg.
damn, last nite was weird kept havin an urge to msg ason.
its so weird, but whatever it is la.
fell aslp when i was msg-in with jianxiong la.
its boring sms-ing with him man. =x
*pout*
okays, there is something wrong withmy leg.
its been hurting on and off since thursday.
intend to go a doc this afternoon de.
but who noe it doesn't hurt already. damn.
suppose to meet jiewei at ps.
but i over slept, so intend to gif it a miss.
and i msg-ed ason.
lata might be meeting laopo.
update night ba.
meiping || 2:35 PM

dead tired k.
last nite went out to meet jen jie for sum stuffs and blah blah blahs la.
than tgt we went off to meet
jiewei, ada, zai, qiqi, yingqi, aaron, ah boi, ah wei and jianxiong
at cine's k-box.
okays, there is a couple of duets song la. and so its so werid, i kept been pair up with jianxiong la. arghs. the feeling is so weird. jie wei! read this! stop being a matchmaker k!
arghs.
wasn't feeling real well, so went hm half way, around 4.
than slept till ard 4 than wake up.
nice weather to slp today man. =D
love it when it rains.
intend to slp thur the day and slack at home.
but i still went out.
met up with ah jin jie and ah seh at tpy.
coz she want to borrow my digi cam.
walked ard, actually wanted to go town.
but in the end we still decided to go k-box.
okays. one conclusion k! k-box;s are super duper cold okays!
damn. frezzing cold man.
okays la. went off ard 12.
had supper at my hus kpt.
actually gg down to double O de.
but sick, so didn go with them.
i went home while they head down to double O nors.
and i met up with zai and qian ting for awhile.
than there is this stupid uncle la.
he came over and ask zai to go one side and tok.
noe wat he asked zai?
he was asking zai is if qian ting or me can hab sex with him!
arghs. its so erxin man.
than e next moment i noe was tt zai gave him a punch on his face and he went flat on the ground slping! =x
hopes he is okay, but realli lo, he is asking for a beating.
tml sat, boring day i guess.
meiping || 12:50 AM

met up with jen jie a few days back. misses jie~ always so gd to me.
=D
well, yst went down to helping hand center near heartland mall to look for ahhao.
wonder when weilun kor will go there after coming out from changi prison.
went off around 7. took mrt to ps. long time since i last step onto town area.
bought my puzzle, its like finally la. gt a my membership done too.
went home ard 10 lor.

laopo came over to my hus today.
studied for a couple of hours than head down to help mummy buy stuffs.
took a fag or two. went home.
than laopo went hm ard 6.
and i went to bury myself under the puzzle.
had dinner. went out to meet a couple of dudes.


i need that special someone by myside.
i need him badly.
but i had yet to find him yet.
whos gonna be my special someone. =D

i am a extender. =]
but i am not a chiongster.

anyway, yanqi, who do u think u r?
wats with e big fcuk hur.
so quit saying me behind my back.
tot i wun noe? than u are wrong. every single thing u said abt it.
i knows abt it. don think too high of urself.
childish man.
if u hab the links with ppl than get those stuff urself.
if u cant means u are nt up for it.
and in short quit playing and being a extender.
meiping || 7:59 PM

jus came hm nt long.
pass midnight. some one mention. =x
last few nite was conf-ing with a couple of frens.
back to conf-ing le i guess. =x
anyway, as usual la.
slept very EARLY yst. hahas.
slept ard 5 i guess.
oh well, woke up ard noon time.
prep my stuff and off i go.
met up with laopo at amk. than rock k-box.
amk k-box is frezzing cold k! even when i am wearing my jacket PLUS laopo's jacket.
okays la. went off ard 7 plus. suppose to meet yl.
but too late already.
so went lan-ing with laopo for an hr or so.
met up with laopo's boi at my hus area.
had dinner. than went to e park beside my hus.
slacked. blah blahs.
okay la. half way thur went home and got laopo a cup of vodka.
er.. i guess there will be no time that i will get a another cup of vodka man.
nvm. inside stuffs.
shag!
tml maybe going helping hand there. near there la.
go find ahhao since he is out. =]
happy to hear the news.

drop dead*
meiping || 12:22 AM

heres my rant for today.
over slept today coz was e fone with jeffrey till the morning lights shines.
woke up ard 1. and rush my stuffs thur.
got ready and head off to j8.
who noe laopo late AGAINs. arghs.
i am always e one early and waiting. erks! =x
nvm. den was force into a side by 3 idiot.
asking me to sign up for some shit.
laopo came finally and we head off to bugis.
shop ard, bought a bag and a ankle. =]
saw a sliver adidas jacket! so nice!
guess gonna get it next week!
hope by next week the jacket is still there man! =x
went back to j8 and slack.
ken was with us for a couple of hours.
than he left. slack with laopo till 8 plus and head off.
saw xf and jordan too. both of them working at j8.
wasnt a gd day for me.
felt a sudden stress and heart aches.
worried abt my sis. sigh. nvm.
inside stuff. bro taking money from me. damn.
arghs!

nvm. drink till i drop dead. =D
meiping || 10:54 PM

From some info i noe He is booking in on the 21th of july!
wonder is it true anot?
arghs. whatever it is man.
the world is so small. linked by linked it is still him.
starting to regret abt the break up with him le. =s
i yearn to contact him back, to find back tt feeling.
but don wan hurt him anymore.
anyway, as i said...... its over. =D
meiping || 11:08 PM

=D
loving vodka from the pass till now. =]
oh well, decided to be gd and stay at home today.
arghs. but in the end i still went out. =s
woke up ard 3, than slacked in front of the tvbee till ard 6.
had two side to go, one was to meet laopo at tpy for dinner.
the other was to hit e lan shop with yl.
hmmm. decided nt to spend so much. so ask laopo to come j8 and find yl and me to slack.
er.. but who noes, laopo nid to go home. so shopped ard j8 with yl.
bought sharon's birthday present.
than bought myself a necklace and ankle.
than went 7-11 and bought a bottle of absolut vodka. =D
good hur~! drink till i drop.
this time this whole bottle is mine~ just mine man.

hmmm. as for tml, think meet laopo and study. =]
meiping || 10:06 PM

Boos. Boring sunday man. =s
oh well, went out this morning again.
went cheers and bought some drink. than waited for ken reply.
arghs. damn slow as he reply. so decided to go up to his hus straight away.
left around 7. than slept until around 3 than wake up.
forgot to charge my hp, so didn reply some ppl yst.
sorrie ar jeffrey, jianhui and ada.

oh well. declined laopo's invite to eat.
had some hanged over still.
=s
meiping || 3:55 PM

morning time was feeling kinda of too bored at home.
so went took cab to ecp. found a nice spot and sat down.
than i saw a this stuipd guy crying. so ke lian him, went over and handle him a pack of tissue.
and this is wher e trouble starts man! arghs. nvm inside thing.
nth serious.
went off around 6am.
bathed and slp straight away.
woke up ard 2 by my dad for lunch. ars man.
nvm, skipped lunch and cleaned my room.
threw tons of books and worksheet in those boxes and threw it in the store room.
guess my room now looks neater? at least tt is wat i think la.
coz no more books on top of my table. =D great job done! *pat on my own shoulder* =D
was thinking that i will be good and stay at home for e whole day.
but who noes yl called me out.
ard 8 plus went bishan interchange mac to wait for her.
as usual la, she is late. never once early.
accompany her to wait for her frens.
went off at 10 plus.
head off to meet qiqi at my hus void deck.
pass her sum stuff. chatted. and i sent her off.
dinner sucks man. arghs.
ate plain rice today for the whole day onli! wth!
worst than jail life. damnit!
wish i am back in malaysia man. at least i gt to eat lots of goodies~ =p

oh well. monday tml. nid to get my ars down and study.
but i nid a shopping day and a k-boxing today 1st. =x
i wanna to buy a couple of new bag and top.
and i nid to get a couple of necklaces too.
my necklaces and ankle broke when i was in malaysia! arghs.
heart pain ar. must hunt for another ankle le. =[
anyone hab any idea wher hab nice nice de? bling bling de?
let me noe k!
meiping || 11:44 PM

damn. feeling kind of lost and low somehow.
wondering why. arghs. i wish i knew whats wrong.
whatever it is man.
suddenly don wish to stay at home tml.
not in the mood for any cleaning now. arghs.
just let it be messy for a couple of days.
its okay after all i guess.
i want go k-box too.
anyone want go out slack with me tml?
meiping || 12:39 AM

Arghs. That yanda really spoilt my day man!
wth! cant be bothered le man.
anyway, met up with laopo and yankui today.
went TP's Hans to hab lunch.
than yankui treat both of us to lan for an hour.
went off to post officer coz laopo want to pay for her O level thing.
after that head over to mac to wait for yl and aaron.
waited for an hour or more man. big shot hur.
anyway, went to the lan shop at laopo hus area AGAIN!
played till around 9, than took cabby home.
laopo and yl went tpy. laopo went alvin hus to look for her boi while yl head over to aaron hus to ton.
sians. friday nite hur. what a boring day.

where should i go tml?
hmmm.. maybe stay at home and pack my room.
kind of look like a store room than a girl room after i left for malaysia.
meiping || 11:33 PM

Boo! i am back from malaysia after around 12 days?
wanted to stay till 10th of april de.
coz baobei hen hen's bday! arghs. miss it again le la!
not loving it. but nvm! i wil try to make it back for zhe zhe's bday. =D
oh well, lyk last tym took e 5.15pm train back.
this time round reach sg earlier than planned.
ard 8.30?
went bishan to meet yl and gang.
slack, blah blah blah so on.
went home ard 11 plus. just bathed.
dead tired! bt i cant get to slp man! arghs~
tml will be meeting up with laopo and yl. =D
and i guess i nid a hair cut badly! =x

things has been made clear w my family.
they noe the truth that noe the fact that i was 'given' away.
sigh. when i hear er jie said tt mommy was willing to let me go. i was real glad.
at least i wasnt 'given' away because i was too notti or whatever it is la.
something happened tt made my studying to be put real serious.

misses~
meiping || 12:17 AM

i decided to remove the password thing.
due to the complains from a couple of ppl.
but i will put it back after sometime.
after all its my blog and i hab the right to choose who is allow to read about my rants and my life.
when i put back the password thing it wil be the same password for those who noes my password k.

will be leaving sg in a couple of hours.

oh well, having kind of mood swing.
duh~ i dono why.
sigh, i hate the feeling of this.
okay, i cant say it out. its just suck.
i dono, is this jealousy or what?
i hope i just know.
damnit! arghs!
if wasnt for me, will u be in the place u are right now?
if wasnt for me, will u be having the happiness i should be having?
if wasnt for me! fark u!
i shouldnt put in so much for friend. i shouldnt!
just being taken for granted! damnit.
i just wasnt taken into heart, i am just being used.
after u guys gotten what ya want, i am just nth.
fark it!
no more of all these rubbish.
i believe i can do it my way to get back what should be mine.
if its mine, i will go means ways to get it back.
don blame me for being so heartless, u guys r the one whom created the gal now.
blame it on urself and no one else.

i don nid the love and care.
i don nid the pampers and dotes.
i don nid anything anymore from now on.
i don nid you by myside.
and don take me for granted anymore!

Missing in action.
meiping || 1:41 AM

boo! back home already. early again hur.
i am good! =x
oh well, woke up ard 12? bt was so lazy than i toss on my bed till abt 2? =x
washed up than off to meet laopo, pei her to cpf build for her singpass.
than went off to amk lan, again. =X
er, went off kinda of early today. went s-11 to hab our dinner.
walked ard. than head off to amk mrt to wait for laopo's boy.
than head back to my home. oh well! boring.
saw that idiotic zai and qianting on the way home!
idiot zai! hate him ar. the moment he sees me, nth good come out from his mouth.
damnit, why do i hab such a god bro man! ~!@#^*&^&*()_=-
kao! whatever la! lucky qianting stil on my side. whaha! i still win. =x
oh well, chatted with them awhile, than head home le.
tired. still nid to pack stuff for tml. worst thing of all is that i nid to wake up early in the morning at 5!
godness! think i don even hab time to slp man. arghs!
meiping || 9:28 PM

hihiz~
i am back home. phew. wat a day yst.
as i had blog earlier, i was at laopo's cousin hus.
lets cont from there.
the laptop hanged! half way when i was playing. den i went hur hur. wth. =x
so couldnt play le. waited for laopo to play instead.
went off ard 3. head back to laopo's hus.
whiped sum stuff up and munch all e way.
had beer, hotdog, eggs and ham. yummy yummy.
only tt the ham taste lyk rubber when eaten. =x
okay, slept ard 5 30. woke up ard 12.
washed up, ate sum stuff den went off le.
reached home bathed and head over to my dreamland.
lance once again, woke me up by his sms. ~!#$$%^&*()^&*()_ =x
hope he don see this. haha.
anyway intend to meet up w him for moive bt he last min nid to stay in camp for duty.
well too bad for him. poor thing. =x
whatever la. okay, there is a change in plan.
sat than leave for malaysia instead of friday. hmm. good for me. =]

ZAI! i am silly gal okay!
i am not! quit saying that to me i warn u!
and stop saying abt my teeth okay! wait til i put braces on! fark u! =x
i noe u read my blog! damn u! idiot! =x
but i noe u care la. =p gee
sorrie that i misses the chance to go cycling and fishing with u all.
i do misses those days we hanged out. but everyone life changes.

Don Provoke Me! I KILL!
meiping || 8:40 PM

Boo! guess where i am now?
at laopo's cousin's hus. wondering why hur? nvm read on and u will noe.
woke up by lance msg this morning. !@#$%*()_
its up , slp, up, slp. wth lo. =x
okay la. finally wake up 2?
washed up and went to meet laopo at amk.
head to the lan shop AGAIN! =X
expenses this week is too xiong liao sia.
but nvm, lucky stil gt saving man. oh well, left around 7.
went for dinner at s-11, than slacked at amk void deck.
9 plus, head back to laopo's hus.
chatted with lance on e way and at laopo's hus.
waited for her to bath. than head over to her cousin's hus.
think gonna train my maple as much as i can. coz i cant play maple at hm!
untill i connect my broadband! sucks man my dad.
keep dragging my broadband. but nvm!
coz i bug him to change the plan and also to wireless.
not gg home today.
miss my bed and my babies! u noe wat hur hur..
my softtoy i mean la. haha.

MIA taking place.
meiping || 12:36 AM

backed home now. kind of shag i suppose.
didn intend to go out today. was thinking to nua at hm the whole day.
but recieve a msg from laopo.
so went lan shop, coz she is so into maple.
it wasnt my fault tt she is soooo into maple. =x
lance was there too, bt didn spot him, he spot me instead.
didn reali noe it was him la.. so sorry man.
anyway, went off around 8, saw weikiat and daz at mos.
went off to sumo-hus for dinner.
than head to s-11 to slack.
tts all, reached home around 10 i guess?

yst nite sucks la. quarrel with my mum!
AGAIN! i noe. but just cant help it. damnit.

and tt the lift bell has been ringing for hours, wonder is someone really stuck inside man. =x
why seems that the whole blk cant be bothered abt it at all man.
what is someone is reali stuck there? mygod.
i hope if i stucks in e lift, someone will come and save me at the 1st min man! =x
pray tt no one is stuck in there la, but hw can it be when no one is in the lift and the bell is ringing?
weird hur?
meiping || 10:19 PM

boring day for me..
woke up ard 11, bath and changed.
off i went out to meet laopo.
before meeting laopo, wen to interchange mac to pass the shop aunt jeffrey's stuff.
okay, well i did saw jeffrey la. hide and seek meh. =x
anyway, thanks for jeffrey gift.
whatever la. went off to find laopo, bought some drinks.
went to the cpf building than went back to mac to slack.
took my stuff from the shop aunt.
waited for yl to changed. took a cab to amk.
nua at the lan shop for hrs. =.=!!
there goes my cash.
went off ard 6pm. ate sum snack, went back to j8 for a walk.
yl came over to my hus area for dinner. well, thats it i guess.

wonder did i ate anything wrong stuff, seems tt my skin gonna get rashes soon.
sucks! arghs.
i want to watch date moive! anyone keen~!?
meiping || 9:38 PM

i am not feeling good. realli i am not!
i dono whats wrong with me man.
this is a big nono! not good at all.
it is ruining me big time this time round.
feel so lost suddenly. so empty inside out.
i yearn for that somebody to appear from the mid air and gif me a tight hug.
HA! fat hopes.

oh well, yst went out with laopo.
slacked at j8's coffeebean for a couple of hours.
had my dinner, than 7 plus went home.
early rite. its a mircale i noe. but gotta nth to do. and i am kind of out of mood.
went out later at the nite.
accompany qiqi, took a cab to east coast.
that idiot, trying to slash herself.
gotta no choice. 'fought' w her over e penknife.
end up getting a small tiny cut at my lower lip and a cut on my leg.
no big prob abt e wound. its cleaned.
cooled qiqi down, den sent her home.
took a cab hm myself again.
this driver is weird. kept askin weird qns.
whatever it is la. after e issue of qiqi, it pulled my whole soul even lower.
suddenly, i felt a sudden flow of dilemma.

and jen jie, told me not to fret over all this issue. and that she said, i should try to be stronger.
and i wonder, wasn't i strong enough already? how strong must i grow?
damn it man. i don gets what her words within holds.
jen jie also said, i was always taken for granted.
maybe this is true?

as for today, turn down yong's invite to the ktv.
wasnt realli in the mood. but met up with my working fren, bird for dinner.
sum qns was asked. and i end up kinda of in e daze.
cant find a ans to the qns.
arghs. nvm.
after parting with bird, went to meet jen jie.
she asked a qns which was totally same as what bird asked. arghs. sucks!
i cant give her a answer.
whatever it is la. feeling kind of sick. so went hm early.

zai jue jiang de bei hou shi wo de shang hen.
meiping || 9:34 PM

i back from malaysia after a week.
yawns.
did nth much over there,
just slacked, played, eat and slp over there.
enjoying life hur.
took 6pm train back to sg. reach ard 9.
went home put down my stuff den off to meet laopo for dinner.
arghs. sucks!
the moment i step onto sg land, i feel so low.
and i dono why!
wth! i feel so fan. sucky feeling.
okay, wasnt suppose to be back so fast.
but nid to reg for my O level. so came back.
going back malaysia next friday again.
i feel so much beta back there.
carefree and don feel so stress lo.
meiping || 12:24 AM

=D
bid my farewell here k!
will be gone for at least a week ba, longest is a month ba.
will be missing everyone badly.

anyway went to nafa with laopo and her mummy today.
gosh. was laughing lyk hell when we was there.
there was this guy, think he sumting wrong up der~
he was smiling at every single one lo.
and he followed me n laopo to e toilet.
mad man. i dono y la, e moment i see his face i just cant stop laughing even tot kinda of scare. =x
laopo's interview was a fast one man. ard 10 mins or lesS? =x
hope there wil be good nice for her two week lata.
after e interview, parted with laopo's mummy, went bugis jalan jalan.
bought a jean, than went back to j8.
bought sum inside stuffs. =X
then went to meet sharon and gang at foodcourt.
went to catch Big mommas hus 2.
wonder i get e spellin right?
after e show, met up w yl.
slack at coffeebean w her.
10 plus went home le. bored.
haven pack my stuffs for tml. tired~
yawns~ slept at 6 this morning! arghs.
my live is going upside down le la! this is a big NONO!

oh well, stop here. anything imt thing via my cell 91491839 or my malaysia no. 0127942746 kks~
take care peeps.
misses~!!
meiping || 11:27 PM

i am bored at home! damn bored can arghs.
even tot i just went out la.
woke up kind of early today.
went to meet jocelyn at e kpt for lunch.
did sum catching up. den rush to j8 to meet bird.
got my phone back. hmm. nth much already la!
bored to death man~!
friday will be bring aunt back to malaysia. tts all la.
arghs! boring day~~~~~~
>.<
meiping || 4:08 PM

=D
just changed my blog skin.
phew~ didn touch html code for so long.
gt a bit messed up. somemore friendster nw also html code le.
arghs. sucks.
okay, i gg back malaysia this friday for a couple of weeks or maybe jus days la.
i am bored!
and i dono what to blog already.
sians.
i miss everyone badly.
my sharon;s, fel, xf, ada, zai, kovan and mani more!
wonder hows life for them man.
meiping || 10:19 PM

wei wei wei!
i am back to blogging already.
well, sorrie my dearest bloggie for not feeding u for so mani days k.
oh well, nth much la.
just met up with a couple of new frens and old frens.
caught a few movies, spent a few grands.
quitted my job, slacked at lan shop.
so on so on. just lyk wasting my life away?

will try to update other days k.
oh well, got my new desktop already.
so e lappy will all be daddy's already.
but yet to sign up for my boardband yet.
so not up to much use now.

ason, i dono if u will see this la.
but just want to let some stuff out k.
i dono if i had totally gave u up and let what past hid behide my mind..
maybe this is just some feeling of bad and guilt.
to lead me wish tt u can come back to my side once again.
i guess all these messed up feeling is just for the time being.
and that, if u hadn;t force everything, we might still be tgt than.
=D
feel so much beta!

oh ya, thanks xiong xiong for the times~ =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

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