didn go sch today. =cant be bothered. anyway suppose to have tuition at 10, so wake up early in the morning.
who noes, it was postpone to 12.
erika and pris came to my hus ard 11.
had tuition till 2..
they had lunch at my hus, den pris went off,
erika slacked at my hus till 5..
tts all for today i guess?
i am bored. and s.s paper is coming. i haven started on it yet.
bless me god man. =x
tml going study with erika.
meiping || 9:08 PM

fattening~
haha. today had my sci practical..
gosh. it is like shit!
ARGHS. sucks!
whatever la.
after the paper, guess where i went? i went out with jocelyn and shuhui.
suprise? haha. went tp de pizzahut to eat, blur shuhui order the wrong pizza. but nvm.
after tt walked ard tp, reached hm ard 5..
sms-ed my laopo ks, went to eat wib her, than head for j8 to look for yl.
passed her, her birthday gift, went ntuc help mummy buy stuff for tml lunch..
den head for hm.
stress*
meiping || 10:00 PM

PREMIL is coming!
which means, less time to blog, less time to play, less time to shop.
and only MORE for study!!!
mug mug mug! i need to mug!

i need to work hard!

don blame me if i don blog. whees........
off i go....
meiping || 10:47 PM

i hate mense cramps! arghs.
i just pull my whole mood down. right down to the earth.
cramps cramps cramps.
the feeling is just so sucky. sigh.
it makes my whole mood so bad, when i am already in such a mess already.
just wish everything end asap man.

school is just shit for mi. i got 60 for english CA, poa also 60.
maths was hell. 29 onli. kill me man.

i guess, i have to learn to pick myself up from all the mess.
stand by me if u are truly my friends.
i don need faker here.
meiping || 9:03 PM

oral today... guess i didn do very well.. =/
i dono even noe what i was saying.. the picture was like shit!
nth to say.. omg.. hope i didn screw it up that badly. =

didn slp well for the past few days.. went school with puffy eyes.
whats wrong with me.. thing is going hay-wired..
way way out of the correct path..
oh helll... arghs! sigh..
='[ fark myself man! damn my foolish thinking. my foolish feeling..
damn it man.
sigh. sometime i see the future ahead for us is like so narrow.. so unreachable.
i just lost myself, lost my confident totally. where i can ever find back tt courage, that strength once again. another year? or three years? all i needed was time.
i yearn for the everlasting, the forever, even tot i know clearly there is no forever.
fullstop till my fairtale. the best i ever had. will i ever regret my choice? my decision? will i? someone tell mi.

life is never gonna be the same for mi again.
life with out u. life without ur love. life all alone once again.
just like last time, history repeat itself again.
stranger hurts my heart.
there i stand picking up the pieces alone once again.
let me awake from this nightmare soon.
i need to pick myself up before anything get disrupted.

i miss my family.. i want to make a trip home.
i yearn for granny's warm hug, the hug that will make mi feel that, no matter how worst the thing goes, there is still her there to support mi. sometime i ponder, if ever one day 10 years down the road, granny is not there with me, what will happen? where else can i find someone to tok to. let me myself out, open out myself and show the real mi. sigh..
meiping || 10:17 PM

behind my smiles are everything that you'll never understand.
yi zhen zhen de ji mo yong shang le wo.
disappointment afloat my soul, bring back to hell. lonely.
if only tingy jie still here. koven and zai not here, i understand, koven busy with his U stuff.
zai is with ns. i don blame them. but how about those whom told mi that they will be with mi no matter wat. none of them seem to care abt my present at all.
now i know who are truly my friends who are not.

lord tell mi i will be able to live thur this.
tell me u will will give me the strength to carry on. i am such a let down. so weak.so useless.
lord, don let mi sink futher and futher into this endless hole of darkness.
oh god. i dono wat i am say. i dono wats on my mind.
meiping || 10:21 PM

lord tell mi i will be fine..
tell mi everything will be over soon..
for i dono what i am doing.. what i am thinking..
i feel so lost when he not beside mi..
however the decision is made..
for i know he hates me to the core...
weaker and weaker i grow...

ke neng wo tai tian zhen le..
shi jie shang zhen de mei you tian chang di jiu..
zou reng hao mao dun..
dang ta bu zai wo sheng bian shi, wo jiu hao xiang ta, ke shi, dang ta zai wo sheng bian shi, wo yi dian duo dong de zhen xi da..
meiping || 5:50 PM

It is OVER.. everything is over..
from stranger to friend.. than from friend promoted to lover and from lover back to square one.. STRANGER..
i cried a thousand river, a thousand mile.
its a long story, and a long way both he and me came by..
everything just happened like a dream.. one moment he was stil part of my last and the next moment we were like stranger.
for i never wanted thing to ended this way.. never ever..
trust mi ason if u ever read this..
i love you, yes i do.. for i never cheated you...
as i told u before we patch tt time, thing will not be the same again..
but u don see to believe me.. i just donoe..
ever since that break up, the feeling just seems to fade away day by day..
the love is not strong anymore..
oh lord, tell mi thing will be fine...
sigh... all i can do now is to wish him the best of lucks and hope he wil find a better girl than me.
for i am not a good stead.. i know i am not..

you hao duo hao duo de shi de jing zai bu yan zong..
i just dono how to put all my feeling into words..
it beyond words can descibe..
i just seems to go hay-wired...

i feel so all alone...
alone picking up my broken heart, den mending it myself and letting it break again..
i guess i need time to let everything sink into the bottom of my heart, let it registed inside my mind..
telling them it is not just a dream..
meiping || 9:30 PM

omg! know what? my SCHOOL is just like a ZOO! ZOO u know? full of ANIMALS walking around with no sense of manners at all..
there is so mani animals man, let name some..
hmm.. DOG! PIGS! MONKEYS! APES! SUKL AND KIND KONG!
oh well.. bitchy slut that we got in peirce sia..
those no manner ppl, ( guess no parent teach them any manners lolx) goes ard the sch commenting or should i say BARKING abt other ppl..
when they didn even noe they are the real ANIMALS man!
well, that can be understand, why? because ANIAMLS have LOW IQ and EQ!
so cant blame them man!
oh well.. these KPO and NO MANNER ppls shall not affect me..
small kids after i guess.. NOT MATURED YET.. DUH~
yucks man.. animals STINKS! agree?!

oh well.. today sch was long and boring..
like never ending.. first happy birthday to WEILONG..
two period of fnn and a period of chi is like free period to mi.. =x
recess time celebrated weilong birthday with the 5as..
after tt was maths den assb..
didn go home straight.. went to hab lab pract.
after the chem lab pract, went to roti hus and eat..
reached home ard 6.. was so tired man! slept from 7 to 10 man!

thats all i guess...
meiping || 11:24 PM

okay.. it have been decided!
i am NOT RETAKING CHI!
mdm chang told me not to retake and waste time.. cos i am just at a2 and b3..
it is kind of hard for mi to get a1..
so i decided she was right.. and so nv retake..
i hope i will not REGRET.
oh well, all the best for those who will be retaking..
work hard..

i got a new skin.. and i know it its like AGAIN..
but sharon was complaining man.. saying my skin was boring..

sch was so so, maths was boring...
s.s was worst.. sbq! didn do well, fell aslp half way when doing..
english was getting more and more bored! cmi was lame!
went home right after school.
and being a good girl, i help mummy to buy stuffs. =D
had tuition..

sometime i find out that parents are such a pain in the neck...
when u don need them, they are always der and bitting u hard..
but when u reali need them and want their advise, they tend to walk away leaving u with big ????. fark them man! parents are parents!
or maybe i can say that, i am not grown up enough to make my own decision.
yea... i guess so... inmature thinking i have man.. =x
meiping || 10:09 PM

ARGH!!!!!!! should i retake another!!!!!!!!!!!!
kill mi! i am dead confused man!!!!!!!
arghs!

fcuk man! i am dead confused if i should retake my chi anot man~!
save mi! someone save mi!

i just donno man!

anyway HAPPY 4th MONTH ANN dear!!!!!! =D
love ya!

sat gonna study with kailong i guess.. time is running short!
meiping || 10:13 PM

因为陌生，所以勇敢，因为距离，所以美丽

it is in chi font wonder if u all can see...
but nvm la.. =]
today went to study with erika.. but didn reali study..
still gt tons of homework left undone! lord save mi man..
=x
5 plus left yoshi and walked ard j8..
spotted a nice belt!
went home ard 6..
tired.. dead tired..
oral will be on 24 of aug..
bless mi lucks k..

after much thinking, i still dono if i should retake my chi..
confused! daddy say take lor take lor..
my friends say don take don take..
should i? shouldnt i?
arghs! and tml i have to give an answer..
wat i fear most was tt after retaking still b3..
den wth is the use of retaking man! fcuk! =x
whatever la!

what comes around goes around
meiping || 10:56 PM

=D oh well.. last nite read the 5th book of potter and manage to finish by 4 am~
was too tired so kind of over slept and didn meet sharon n gang in the morning..
slept till about 10 and woke up finally..
washed up and took a cab to school.. today school is having carnival..
so had to go as i said, i gave my words to mdm foong..
oh gosh.. it was boring! reali boring man! doesnt seem be a carnival to mi at all..
instead it look more like cca day man!
played the dunk game, but missed all 3.. poor shooter and aimmer i am~! wasted 8 bucks..
slacked in school till about noon time i guess, and head off to town..
took 167 to herren first with sharon, pris and fel.. shop around..
bought a green leather wirst band..
than hit for for lucky plaza and bought a shirt at gio.. erika and mq joined us there..
than all 6 of us bought the micky shirt.. =]
went far east to hab lunch, den walked around.. around 4 plus head off to bugis w pris, fel and mq..
bought a skirt from micky shop.. gosh.. i guess i hab been influ into liking micky more and more..
well.. bought some food and than home sweet home.. =D
reached hm about 9.. dead tired! guess tml going studying..
gt tons of maths homework, chem and s.s to study and do..
dear~ count down two more days.. =D
meiping || 10:37 PM

blog blog blog.. if not naggy sharon will be naggin at mi again..
oh well.. friday.. always look forward to friday without fail..
seems to be enjoy pe lesson more n more..
tot the games are all abit rough and with the boy playin it is worst..
but nvm... it is fun.. =D
after tt was chi, watch vcd.. nice nice =]
english lesson was hell! boring man.. fell aslp.. =x
den recess.. den went to vivian tan de homeroom..
and wait for mdm chang to come with our o level chi result..
was so scare, worried tt i might not get the result i wanted..
but as expected.. i didn get the grade i wanted..
was aiming for a2.. but i noe i wun get it..
gt b3 and m for oral.. oh well.. at least the nite i spend reading up the comp didn go to drain..
thinking if i should retake anot..
pondering..

tml going sch.. as promised to mdm foong.. =D
meiping || 11:32 PM

okay... gt a new skin with me now.. was so bored yst that i decided to change the skin..
give it a new life, a new look..
comments please.. =D
haven finish editing.. lazy to edit.. =x
and tell mi where i can change and edit for a beta skin k dude..
woke up ard noon today..
den be a good girl and help mummy go ntuc buy foods..
than pris and erika came over to my hus to hab tuition
tuition end 2 hr ago..
and pris and erika just left my hus..
soar throat is killin mie.. i wan to eat spicy food!
oh well.. lord blessed me.. today is beta than yst.. =]
thanks lord.. =D

tml gt sch.. yucks! boring..
missing dear..
meiping || 9:01 PM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

gave a miss to the firework..
didn go.. sick.. wat a month for mi.. just the first week i already gt my old injuries of the wrist back..
den was down with a slight fever and soar throat..
but nvm.. there is always a next year..
haven done mdm ang homework yet.. will be hell time for me i guess..
and fnn need lots of editing here and there and also lot of adding of info and etc man..
lucky tml holidays.. no sch.. but got tuition tml.. bless mi good health lord..

done some cleaning up of my room.. found out tt i needed some shopping..
running of of clothes now... especially the top.. so gotta start saving...
gt lots of thing to get...
hmmm.. gt the news that my cousin from new york is back in sg with his family..
oh well.. wish i will have sometime to meet up with them..
he has gt three great kids! all girls i suppose.. cant wait to see all my niece i haven seen for ages man.. wonder how much they had changed.. lord bless with mi good health and more time man..
oh well.. gonna go soon.. feeling kind of sleepy...
take a step at a time... =]
meiping || 8:46 PM

here to blog after so mani daes..
time seem to be running shorter and shorter for mi everydae..
i onli really wish i have 48 hour a day..
oh well.. was kind of busy almost every now and than nor..
friday stay back in sch till 8 plus.. den sat went dear hus to play maple story..
as for today went out to study social studies with erika, jelly, lou, ngui, shafiq and nick..
study from ard 2 to 5?
hmm as usual, went arcade to play with erik awhile.. slacked ard ps.. 7 plus head back to j8..
bought my dinner and head for home..
well well well.. my old injuries is actting up again..
everytime like tt de.. wirst is having pain now and than..
oh well.. miss mi guys.. and i miss u guys.. =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

here to blog.. sharon 'mummy' is nagging mi to blog at right at the back of my neck~!
oh well.. sch was hell? not reali hell but fine lar..
i pass my lab exam! i PASSED can u image mi passing sci?
whaha..
okay.. sch toilet sucks.. something is wrong with the toilet.. hope i just see the wrong thing okay..
*cross my finger*
after sch went amk to meet dear...
went dear's hus and slack norz.. play comp game blah blah blah..
went home at 6.. reach hm at 7 like tt norz..
dead tired man~!
oh well.. tml gt sch.. but so tired.. so don think i will be going ba..
see i can wake up anot 1st.. oh well..
gt lots of thing to rush.. fnn chem hmw so on so on..
24hr a day is not enuff man!
meiping || 11:08 PM

oh well.. neopets was fun.. haha
sounding so childish.. but i don care la.. =x
this is mi! whaha..
okay.. sch is boring.. reali boring.. save mi someone..
fnn is killing mi.. oh well.. kill mi now.. haha..
i am totally into harry potter and lord of the ring..
and i am aiming for 'hong lou meng' after i finish harry potter and lord of the rings books..
but tt will be real hard.. mdm chang said the book was hard to read diffcult to understand...
but i will try hard.. well.. man of honour was a great show.. thank ms wong for showing us.. =D
meiping || 10:06 PM

i am seeing red...
bleeding now.. godness.. so painful.. having cramps..
worst thing was today! monday! and i had my menses..
and had to stay back after sch till 5 plus.. and the hell was tt i was cramps thur out the days..
whatever it is la.. had mock exam for sci.. big BOO.. gonna flang it i guess..
god bless me..
after sch went tp with erika... but couldn get wat i want..
so went home.. tuition tml~! save mi! haven finish my hw!
*stress*
gone* mugging mugging mugging into the deep mug.. haha..
=D
meiping || 9:58 PM

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