♥Nothing Will Be The Same Again...♥

OK! somthing SERIOUS!
just asked my dad about when our result well be out.
he said should be around 10th of feb!
my god! so fast man. not well prepare for it yet man.
but, nvm.
okay, going malaysia tml night at 9 by train.
anyone want send me off? jk!
be back latest on the 5th of feb. coz 6th of feb start work le.
misses man!

yst went to work, after work went out with my working budd, huifen bird so on so on.
went queensway shoppin center.
but could find anything tt let me have the urge to buy.
so went down to chinatown to meet up with my pri sch fren~
been yrs since i see them
misses!
everyone changed so much.
time flies.

oh well, today went to work, but took half day leave.
couldnt take the sickness at work.
so xin ku.
took a cab home. had a rest than head to town with erika.
went to hunt for my ny clothes.
bought a top and two 3/4.
enough le ba i guess.
met up with linda b4 gg home.
well. tts is it lor.

meiping || 11:49 PM

boO!
haven recover from my sickness yet.
but hopefully asap k!
i want to enjoy my new yr goodies~
cant wait for that man!
oh well, stayed at home the whole day yst till the nite time.
till, kor came over to find me.
had quite a long tok. misses!
well, due to my medic taking effect, went home ard 1 am.

today went out with erika.
i wanted to get some new yr clothes.
but couldnt find anyone tt suit me.
so i gave up.
bought a nike sling bag which cause ard 70 bucks.
same goes for erika.
she bought one blue and white sling bag. while i bought a sliver and bag v.
gt my pay today.
well, was pondering if i should reali get personal digital cam sia.
should i?!!
i dono man.
it is so tempting norx~~!
=x

meiping || 8:34 PM

SICK.
hate being sick. sigh. who like it anyway.

as i walk through the rain with my tears sheding drop by drop today.
i learnt a painful lesson about love.
i was so childish to believe in waiting.
was too childish to believe that, everything can be worked out no matter what, as long as the heart is there.
but i was truely wrong about it.
i want to thank you for letting me know what love is all about.
thanks for hurting me so deep.
and sorry for hurting u so deep too.
thanks for everything u had done for me ason.
i was realli happy that once in my life u was mine.
and that for once i was ur gal. i am contented with all these.
the memories in my mind will accommpany me through the rest of my life.
and that, u always have a place deep inside my heart no matter what.

to who you know it urself.
thanks for all the time u spent on me.
i know that all you had done was for me.
but i just want to let u know that, thing cant be the same again anymore.
being friends will be much better, for a gal lyk me don have the right to have such a good guy like u.
thanks for being there for me when i nid a shoulder to lean on.
thanks for being the rays of lights when i was at e darkness pt of life.
thanks for believing in all i said.

to wj.
sorry for letting u hab the feeling of being toyed.
but i don mean too.
i was too rush at tt pt of time. i tot i gave everything up already.
i tot i was ready for another relationship.
bt i was wrong. i wasnt ready at all.
sorry. but thanks for all the love and care u showered over me. =D
still friends! best friends!

sigh. there is so such thing in me that i wan to voice out.
but i felt so weak. so alone.
i find tt i cant find anyone true enough to be able to sit down sit by sit with me and listen to all my things.
maybe all the gaps betweens me and my friends, sista and bro had gave me this feeling.
as i burn myself in work. sigh.

meiping || 7:56 PM

here to updates after donkeys yrs.
don blame me. it wasnt my fault. well.
dad is back from england bt the lappy is stil not back yet.
gotta wait a week.
was thinking of getting a desktop or a new lappy.
coz dad paying half for me.
and i might be connecting my cable line back.
hope asap ba.

didn work today.
was sick. so i decided to gif a day off.
went to the doc. 28 gone.

guess was working too long and didn reali take a gd rest ba.
and the result? weaken~! =[
no ot tml for me too. GL don let me work tml.
nvm la. rest at home.
my old injured wirist is actting up again. damnit.
should be more careful tt day.
nvm.

i tot i gave u up totally.
i tot i was stronge enough to move on.
but i was wrong. i tried to carry on but i failed.
i tried gg out w wj, bt in e end stil break.
maybe i still nid time.\
maybe he wasnt the right one for me.
he was good. i was bad.
angle and devil.
but well, tts life. accept it.

i nid a long break.
MIA le.

meiping || 10:41 PM

currently at yl's hus.
wun be able to online for a couple of weeks.
daddy went england with my lappy.
damnit.
but nvm la.
still working at motorola sia.
boring life.
well, just got my hair highlight and had a cut.
well well well, leaving sg on the 25th of jan.
cant wait for that day to come.

anyway, its time to put everything to an end. =D
new start. new life.
cheers~!

mia*

meiping || 9:26 PM

back home. i miss my bloster man. shag.
just came back from the chalet not long ago.
well. the chalet was so~so~ norz.
didn slp a winkz at all man.
damn. so tired man.

try to blog abt the chalet. cant reali rem everything k.

1st day.
meet up with sharon, pris, gh, rh and sh.
had breakfast first, den took a cabby down to e chalet.
daddy was waitin for us der pass us the "key"
bt we can only check in at 0230, so we slacked for a couple of hours.
after we booked in, went white sands to buy the bbq stuffs.
lionel and fel joined us.
we went pool and arcade.
than nite time wl came to join us.
had a small bbq.

2nd day.
none of us had a good slp on e 1st day i guess.
whatever it is la.
second day they went to play pool and arcade.
so i was in e room for hours.
mean time cleaning up the room and settle the bbq food for e nite.
dono la. dl.
second day, sharon lee, fel, diana, yuling and frens joined us.
after bbq sharon they all went to countdown without us never tell us anything or wat lo.
so we jus slack at the chalet. wth right.
nnbbcb sia.

3rd day.
none of us slp. play card thur the nite. gambled.
so on so on.
den 9 plus booked out. went to eat den took cab home.

new year, new start! =D
hope everything will go smooth for me this year no matter what i do!
gt lots of wishes. will blog tml. nid some slp le!

meiping || 4:29 PM

BOO!
okay. lend 1/3 of my pay to cherly.
she is in e mist of getting lots of money for her family.
so i gave up my shopping cash for her. well, hopefully she will be okay. =D
anyway, after working went to meet up with my laopo at her hus area 1st.
then we hit the town. eh. just went fareast onli la.
buy a polo tee.
hmmm. den we went back to j8 and slack. coz i forgot to bring my keys out.
so gotta wait for my dad to go home 1st. =x
anyway, been a long time since i slack.
oh well, chalet is a day away. and i haven get everything pack yet.
friday take a day off. den monday not working, so i suppose i will find ah jin jie.
hair getting hay wired already. front part too long. nid a trim and nid some color. XD

well, shag shag shag.
anyone gt a gd job with a high pay to intro?!

meiping || 10:56 PM

back to bloggie.
hmmm. so tired nowadays sia.
prefer working during the afternoon shift.
morning shift so ma fan nid wake up so ealry de.
den somemore always want slp when working.
sian. after cheryl, the next target of poh lang seems to be me sia.
one moment u can see me here, the next moment i will be at another side.
damnher. =X

okay la. whatever.
i am waiting for my next pay, which is on the 7th of jan 2oo6.
wanna get my own cam asap.
doesnt lyk sharing with my mom, so pain in the neck man.
anyway, just off work. duper hungry now.
but still nid to wait for my dad to come home.
i wan go back MALAYSIA!
i LOVE malaysia. =D

MIA*

meiping || 4:05 PM

k. back again for the second entry of the day.
just rem tt i didn went for a couple of chalet this two month.
missed andy's , xin ling and sharon de chalet.
missed quite a no. of bbq party too.
been getting quite a no. of complains from my friends too for being so busy with the stuipd work.

was on the way home today on the bus, than i started letting my mind go wild.
den i began to miss him again. and still i still miss him.
sigh.
i will put u down. i will. i will.
but the fear is still there. fear tt history will repeat itself once again.
for the fear tt i will take another year, 365 days to really let it fade away totally.
once is enough. wun be able to take it twice and spend yrs waiting for him.
unlocked my heart.

who gonna pick me up this tym round and accompany me on my road of recovery from the hurt and pain.
dry my tears and pain. numb*
toxic

lastly HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHARON.

meiping || 11:28 PM

yawns.
shag shag shag.
lonely xmas this yr. haha.
was thinking back of the past, wondering what i was doing on 24th 2oo4.
den so much memories flashed back. well, nth much ba i guess.
anyway, celebrating xmas with my working friends.
celebrating by working together. haha.
well, bought my mp3. its lyk finally man! =D

bored*

meiping || 5:34 PM

okay. this is so sucky okay.
now only left me working at motorola.
yst yl quit, today ks's turn to quit..
wth lo. damnit. all ps me. arghss.
nvm. i guess gonna work till the 15th of jan ba.
for the sake for money.
okay, well, decided to dye my hair at my sis salon.
cheaper price, more choice of color. =D
but cant bear to dye my hair black to other color sia.
o.O'''

anyway, pck gonna fly off today.
hope to see him soon.

cant wait for 15th of jan to come,
when i can finally shout back at tat ah jie!
wth* arghs.
bao lang is so xia lan! =x

meiping || 7:22 PM

okay! i am finally having an day off. phew!
been waiting for this day so long man.
just woke up, finally gt a good long slp.
well, guess will be meeting ahjin jie lata ba.
erika last min gotta work. so nv go out with her le.
there go my shoppin day.
but nvm la.
den i was thinkin if i should dye my hair anot?
scare lata hair damage.
den if dye or highlight?
den what color?
tot of having purple.
but my work place already gt ahlian gt tt color le.
not sure le la. depends le..
was praying tt 22nd come fast and quick!
my pay day~

well. MIA le. =D

meiping || 1:07 PM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a miss.

haven been watching any movie for a long time man.
missed harry potter and zai shou yi ci wo ai ni.
sighs...

wash away my pains and tears..
i just wan to be alone.

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a miss ba.

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif it a

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna gif

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess gonna

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i guess

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but i

meiping || 12:51 AM

shag*
been working for weeks non stop.
guess, my energy will be drain out soon.
cso still not done. =X
po hab been nagging for years. arghssss!
don gif a damn man.

okay. just back home from work and supper. =D
putting on lots of weight. fats~~
anyway, was having supper with linda.
didn noe she was so fun to hang out around with.
brighten up my night man. luffer all around.
big time joker she is.
alright. tts my life for this month i guess.

gt news tt pck is gonna go china for an yr and tml he is having a party.
wondering if i should go.
sians..
crash with my working time man.
but

meiping || 12:51 AM