i decided to remove the password thing.
due to the complains from a couple of ppl.
but i will put it back after sometime.
after all its my blog and i hab the right to choose who is allow to read about my rants and my life.
when i put back the password thing it wil be the same password for those who noes my password k.

will be leaving sg in a couple of hours.

oh well, having kind of mood swing.
duh~ i dono why.
sigh, i hate the feeling of this.
okay, i cant say it out. its just suck.
i dono, is this jealousy or what?
i hope i just know.
damnit! arghs!
if wasnt for me, will u be in the place u are right now?
if wasnt for me, will u be having the happiness i should be having?
if wasnt for me! fark u!
i shouldnt put in so much for friend. i shouldnt!
just being taken for granted! damnit.
i just wasnt taken into heart, i am just being used.
after u guys gotten what ya want, i am just nth.
fark it!
no more of all these rubbish.
i believe i can do it my way to get back what should be mine.
if its mine, i will go means ways to get it back.
don blame me for being so heartless, u guys r the one whom created the gal now.
blame it on urself and no one else.

i don nid the love and care.
i don nid the pampers and dotes.
i don nid anything anymore from now on.
i don nid you by myside.
and don take me for granted anymore!

Missing in action.
meiping || 1:41 AM

boo! back home already. early again hur.
i am good! =x
oh well, woke up ard 12? bt was so lazy than i toss on my bed till abt 2? =x
washed up than off to meet laopo, pei her to cpf build for her singpass.
than went off to amk lan, again. =X
er, went off kinda of early today. went s-11 to hab our dinner.
walked ard. than head off to amk mrt to wait for laopo's boy.
than head back to my home. oh well! boring.
saw that idiotic zai and qianting on the way home!
idiot zai! hate him ar. the moment he sees me, nth good come out from his mouth.
damnit, why do i hab such a god bro man! ~!@#^*&^&*()_=-
kao! whatever la! lucky qianting stil on my side. whaha! i still win. =x
oh well, chatted with them awhile, than head home le.
tired. still nid to pack stuff for tml. worst thing of all is that i nid to wake up early in the morning at 5!
godness! think i don even hab time to slp man. arghs!
meiping || 9:28 PM

hihiz~
i am back home. phew. wat a day yst.
as i had blog earlier, i was at laopo's cousin hus.
lets cont from there.
the laptop hanged! half way when i was playing. den i went hur hur. wth. =x
so couldnt play le. waited for laopo to play instead.
went off ard 3. head back to laopo's hus.
whiped sum stuff up and munch all e way.
had beer, hotdog, eggs and ham. yummy yummy.
only tt the ham taste lyk rubber when eaten. =x
okay, slept ard 5 30. woke up ard 12.
washed up, ate sum stuff den went off le.
reached home bathed and head over to my dreamland.
lance once again, woke me up by his sms. ~!#$$%^&*()^&*()_ =x
hope he don see this. haha.
anyway intend to meet up w him for moive bt he last min nid to stay in camp for duty.
well too bad for him. poor thing. =x
whatever la. okay, there is a change in plan.
sat than leave for malaysia instead of friday. hmm. good for me. =]

ZAI! i am silly gal okay!
i am not! quit saying that to me i warn u!
and stop saying abt my teeth okay! wait til i put braces on! fark u! =x
i noe u read my blog! damn u! idiot! =x
but i noe u care la. =p gee
sorrie that i misses the chance to go cycling and fishing with u all.
i do misses those days we hanged out. but everyone life changes.

Don Provoke Me! I KILL!
meiping || 8:40 PM

Boo! guess where i am now?
at laopo's cousin's hus. wondering why hur? nvm read on and u will noe.
woke up by lance msg this morning. !@#$%*()_
its up , slp, up, slp. wth lo. =x
okay la. finally wake up 2?
washed up and went to meet laopo at amk.
head to the lan shop AGAIN! =X
expenses this week is too xiong liao sia.
but nvm, lucky stil gt saving man. oh well, left around 7.
went for dinner at s-11, than slacked at amk void deck.
9 plus, head back to laopo's hus.
chatted with lance on e way and at laopo's hus.
waited for her to bath. than head over to her cousin's hus.
think gonna train my maple as much as i can. coz i cant play maple at hm!
untill i connect my broadband! sucks man my dad.
keep dragging my broadband. but nvm!
coz i bug him to change the plan and also to wireless.
not gg home today.
miss my bed and my babies! u noe wat hur hur..
my softtoy i mean la. haha.

MIA taking place.
meiping || 12:36 AM

backed home now. kind of shag i suppose.
didn intend to go out today. was thinking to nua at hm the whole day.
but recieve a msg from laopo.
so went lan shop, coz she is so into maple.
it wasnt my fault tt she is soooo into maple. =x
lance was there too, bt didn spot him, he spot me instead.
didn reali noe it was him la.. so sorry man.
anyway, went off around 8, saw weikiat and daz at mos.
went off to sumo-hus for dinner.
than head to s-11 to slack.
tts all, reached home around 10 i guess?

yst nite sucks la. quarrel with my mum!
AGAIN! i noe. but just cant help it. damnit.

and tt the lift bell has been ringing for hours, wonder is someone really stuck inside man. =x
why seems that the whole blk cant be bothered abt it at all man.
what is someone is reali stuck there? mygod.
i hope if i stucks in e lift, someone will come and save me at the 1st min man! =x
pray tt no one is stuck in there la, but hw can it be when no one is in the lift and the bell is ringing?
weird hur?
meiping || 10:19 PM

boring day for me..
woke up ard 11, bath and changed.
off i went out to meet laopo.
before meeting laopo, wen to interchange mac to pass the shop aunt jeffrey's stuff.
okay, well i did saw jeffrey la. hide and seek meh. =x
anyway, thanks for jeffrey gift.
whatever la. went off to find laopo, bought some drinks.
went to the cpf building than went back to mac to slack.
took my stuff from the shop aunt.
waited for yl to changed. took a cab to amk.
nua at the lan shop for hrs. =.=!!
there goes my cash.
went off ard 6pm. ate sum snack, went back to j8 for a walk.
yl came over to my hus area for dinner. well, thats it i guess.

wonder did i ate anything wrong stuff, seems tt my skin gonna get rashes soon.
sucks! arghs.
i want to watch date moive! anyone keen~!?
meiping || 9:38 PM

i am not feeling good. realli i am not!
i dono whats wrong with me man.
this is a big nono! not good at all.
it is ruining me big time this time round.
feel so lost suddenly. so empty inside out.
i yearn for that somebody to appear from the mid air and gif me a tight hug.
HA! fat hopes.

oh well, yst went out with laopo.
slacked at j8's coffeebean for a couple of hours.
had my dinner, than 7 plus went home.
early rite. its a mircale i noe. but gotta nth to do. and i am kind of out of mood.
went out later at the nite.
accompany qiqi, took a cab to east coast.
that idiot, trying to slash herself.
gotta no choice. 'fought' w her over e penknife.
end up getting a small tiny cut at my lower lip and a cut on my leg.
no big prob abt e wound. its cleaned.
cooled qiqi down, den sent her home.
took a cab hm myself again.
this driver is weird. kept askin weird qns.
whatever it is la. after e issue of qiqi, it pulled my whole soul even lower.
suddenly, i felt a sudden flow of dilemma.

and jen jie, told me not to fret over all this issue. and that she said, i should try to be stronger.
and i wonder, wasn't i strong enough already? how strong must i grow?
damn it man. i don gets what her words within holds.
jen jie also said, i was always taken for granted.
maybe this is true?

as for today, turn down yong's invite to the ktv.
wasnt realli in the mood. but met up with my working fren, bird for dinner.
sum qns was asked. and i end up kinda of in e daze.
cant find a ans to the qns.
arghs. nvm.
after parting with bird, went to meet jen jie.
she asked a qns which was totally same as what bird asked. arghs. sucks!
i cant give her a answer.
whatever it is la. feeling kind of sick. so went hm early.

zai jue jiang de bei hou shi wo de shang hen.
meiping || 9:34 PM

i back from malaysia after a week.
yawns.
did nth much over there,
just slacked, played, eat and slp over there.
enjoying life hur.
took 6pm train back to sg. reach ard 9.
went home put down my stuff den off to meet laopo for dinner.
arghs. sucks!
the moment i step onto sg land, i feel so low.
and i dono why!
wth! i feel so fan. sucky feeling.
okay, wasnt suppose to be back so fast.
but nid to reg for my O level. so came back.
going back malaysia next friday again.
i feel so much beta back there.
carefree and don feel so stress lo.
meiping || 12:24 AM

=D
bid my farewell here k!
will be gone for at least a week ba, longest is a month ba.
will be missing everyone badly.

anyway went to nafa with laopo and her mummy today.
gosh. was laughing lyk hell when we was there.
there was this guy, think he sumting wrong up der~
he was smiling at every single one lo.
and he followed me n laopo to e toilet.
mad man. i dono y la, e moment i see his face i just cant stop laughing even tot kinda of scare. =x
laopo's interview was a fast one man. ard 10 mins or lesS? =x
hope there wil be good nice for her two week lata.
after e interview, parted with laopo's mummy, went bugis jalan jalan.
bought a jean, than went back to j8.
bought sum inside stuffs. =X
then went to meet sharon and gang at foodcourt.
went to catch Big mommas hus 2.
wonder i get e spellin right?
after e show, met up w yl.
slack at coffeebean w her.
10 plus went home le. bored.
haven pack my stuffs for tml. tired~
yawns~ slept at 6 this morning! arghs.
my live is going upside down le la! this is a big NONO!

oh well, stop here. anything imt thing via my cell 91491839 or my malaysia no. 0127942746 kks~
take care peeps.
misses~!!
meiping || 11:27 PM

i am bored at home! damn bored can arghs.
even tot i just went out la.
woke up kind of early today.
went to meet jocelyn at e kpt for lunch.
did sum catching up. den rush to j8 to meet bird.
got my phone back. hmm. nth much already la!
bored to death man~!
friday will be bring aunt back to malaysia. tts all la.
arghs! boring day~~~~~~
>.<
meiping || 4:08 PM

=D
just changed my blog skin.
phew~ didn touch html code for so long.
gt a bit messed up. somemore friendster nw also html code le.
arghs. sucks.
okay, i gg back malaysia this friday for a couple of weeks or maybe jus days la.
i am bored!
and i dono what to blog already.
sians.
i miss everyone badly.
my sharon;s, fel, xf, ada, zai, kovan and mani more!
wonder hows life for them man.
meiping || 10:19 PM

wei wei wei!
i am back to blogging already.
well, sorrie my dearest bloggie for not feeding u for so mani days k.
oh well, nth much la.
just met up with a couple of new frens and old frens.
caught a few movies, spent a few grands.
quitted my job, slacked at lan shop.
so on so on. just lyk wasting my life away?

will try to update other days k.
oh well, got my new desktop already.
so e lappy will all be daddy's already.
but yet to sign up for my boardband yet.
so not up to much use now.

ason, i dono if u will see this la.
but just want to let some stuff out k.
i dono if i had totally gave u up and let what past hid behide my mind..
maybe this is just some feeling of bad and guilt.
to lead me wish tt u can come back to my side once again.
i guess all these messed up feeling is just for the time being.
and that, if u hadn;t force everything, we might still be tgt than.
=D
feel so much beta!

oh ya, thanks xiong xiong for the times~ =D
meiping || 9:28 PM

=]
at amk de raiders now. and yanda is helping me train my maple.
so take a chance to blog. oh well, getting my comp tml.
cheers~
but boo~ haven sign up for my boardband thing yet. so so so.
it doesn makes a diff la.
whatever it is la.
tml gg back to company~
cant wait to see them sia. misses~

was suppose to go ikea de.
bt due to yl and my laziness, we decided to change date.
so here we are at lan shop playing. =x
so bored.,
genting trip is delay.
big bOO~
bt never mind stil got next time de. no worries i am sure!
update lata when i reach home. provided i am free la.
ciaos.
misses ppl.
meiping || 5:54 PM

okay. here to updates k.
well, friday was my last day at motorola.
i cant deny that i miss them hell lots.
sigh.
well, went to k-box after work for my farewell.
cherry, may and bird went w me.
oh well, had a great time der.
missing them already. =S
anyway, after k-box went j8 w bird for a walk.
so on.

than sat, went j8 w daddy in e morning.
den daddy was saying abt gettin e desktop at funan e it mall.
might be cheaper. so let it be.
was thinkin if i should use back singtel boardband or change to starhub.
nvm, tt can wait.
okay. went back hm and slp.
den gave it a miss to meet yl.
went to meet bird ard 4? after i wake up.
went town. shopping~~

hmmm.
spent quite an amount of money this two day.
bought a watch, shirts and necklaces.
broke nw man.
whatever it is la.

anyway, xiong came to find me from jb.
was very kind and sweet of him. =]
thanks xiong~
meiping || 1:36 AM

okay. i am so darn bored at home today.
didn go out. reject some invites out.
was rotting all the way man,
tml will be my last day of work.
than jobless le. gonna look for new job.
might be going genting on the 26th of feb with ks and family i guess.
so, looking forwards to it. and well, there might be a chalet with my working fren on the 22th feb.
wonder, if i should turn up man. just not in the mood for the chalet with them.
not tt i mind, just that, maybe we don't click very very well.
but, see abt it than.

was thinking if i should cont with my piano lesson, and start my guitra lesson.
always wanted to learn, bt didn haven time, bt now i hab time already.
so think gonna save up some cash and use my rainning penny for these?

and i decided to get a desktop not a laptop le.
desktop will save a lots of money, and if i realli nid a laptop i already hab one which i am sharing w my dad.
so no worries i guess.

3words;8letters;1meaning

my main lead;you;yes;you
meiping || 9:49 PM

boo.
once again i am at yl's hus blogging.
oh well, friday will be my last day at motorola.
i am quitting once and for all tt darn job.
its killing me k tt job.
didn turn up for works for days man.
haven been slping well the past few days.
was thinking which road to go.
but now, finally i hab an answer.
i'm retaking my eng, sci and maths.
guess, gonna be another hard yr for me to go thur again.
pray for me k peeps.
and hor! i nid tuition! who can gif me free tuition. =x
haha

well well well, inside story okay.
lots of thing happened.
been slacking ard with my laopo this few days.
and a big thanks and big hug to her for staying by my side.
and thanks for tt MR ***** =x
well tts it man.
meiping || 4:17 PM

REUPDATE
okay. i am feeling much better now.
so gonna blog some short stuff abt today and yst ba.
yst went to meet ks 1st at mac and have lunch.
den took a cab to sch.
hmmm. went straight to the cave room and wait for my result.
idiot sia my dad.
before i get my result he called me and tell me abt my result.
sigh. make my mood bad.
okay. did BADLY for my O.
well, gt 8 for eng, 6 for math and hum. than 3 for fnn and chi. 7 for sci i guess.
sad ar.
lobang xf's cab back hm. than slack.
don intend to go out de. no mood.
den jack came down to find me.
when to catch a movie, so on so on.
den went to slack so on. went hm ard 1130 i guess?
anyway, thanks for the day jack.

for today, went out with my laopo.
went bishan mac slack, den saw our pri sch fren.
hmmm. e world is so small, all our fren are interelated.
anyway, went east coast for a couple of hr.
hmmm, the waves and breeze did a magic.
i felt so much beta already.
well, took a cab to bishan and slack. den went home le.
was at hm for an hr or so, than went out again.
met up with yl and her fren.
slack slack den went home le.
notsure if i should go out with alice leh.
wondering and pondering.
guess gg out with yl and ks tml.
meiping || 11:33 PM

hmm. nw already 2 plus le.
so blog abt yst.
hmmm. overslept yst. hence took a cab to work.
no mood to work at all. pms =x
okay. den when smking. cherry was saying don work and all go hm.
i was lyk sure no prb.=x
so went home. took my passport and sneak to malaysia with cherry and another gal. =D
went to cherry's hus.
head down to arcade than to red-box.
ard 1130 rush back to sg. just in time man.
=D
cheers. haha.
okay.
couple of hours more gonna get my result le.
sigh.
how how how?
wish me lucks man.......
meiping || 2:39 AM

so mani thing happen recently for me.
wth man.
it isnt fair to me k!
and this tots came back and it is not helpin me out at all.
i just make me ponder more and more.
i kept asking myself if i still love you.
i wish i had an answer.
but whenever i ask, my mind goes blank.
someone told me to carry on,
to try on, to love more.
tt someone told me it wasnt worth all these thinking at all.
beside all these shit,
another thing that is my mind was result.
sigh. i doubt i can make to man.
doesn havve any confidence at all...

nvm! don fret i will tell myself!
i will be strong. stronger than e wall, softer than the cloud.
hmmm. this yr val time, alone again. arghhs.

be my val time. anyone? haha.
just for tt day maybe?
meiping || 1:37 AM

i farking hate this foster family more and more!
they did it, they said it. its all my fault. they said it!
hate them!
no matter what i do u nv liked it at all.
no matter is right or wrong.
so what for i spend my effort to make thing prefect when u r always breaking things up.
i hate u!
u nv done ur part as a mother. u never!
slap me if u have e gut. i know u wan to slap me yrs old.
u never liked me den what for bring me here!
bring me here to spike u onli mah.
u said u love and dote on me. pui!
since when?????????
i never felt any sense of love and care from u ever since i noe the truth.
last time when i was small, i tot i was notti so u never like me.
den i tried to be good, be thing still the same.
u still dislike me lyk nobody business.
if u jolly well don lyk me den kick me back to malaysia.
since u said i onli noe how to make u angry and spend ur money!
bullshit! i earn my own money ever since 14! e rest of the money i will pay u back! don worry.
damnit! i hate u lyk nobody business!
u are not fit to be a mother at all!
even ur own sister say u nid to change! damnit!
arghs! i wan go back malaysia.
sigh.
i will not cry infront u all anymore.
never! i show u i can live on my own.
i don nid a mother lyk u.
i can jolly hire a maid. and at least a maid is beta than u!
bitch!
meiping || 12:43 AM

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