Okay, firstly a big thanks to laopo's mom to the treat at seoul garden earlier. =]
stayed at home till 5pm.
went out to meet laopo, her mum and zai at j8.
went man studio to change zai's birthday present.
aftermath, took mrt to amk. head over to seoul garden.
dine in. it was on laopo's mum treat. =D
she paid ard 70 bucks. weets~
had a full filling breakfast+lunch+dinner. hahas.
it save me alot, don u think so. lols.
anyway, after dinner, went to walk ard amk,
coz laopo's mum want get some stuffs.
and damn, kept wanting a fag. =x
so hid behind a wall and took a fag. hahas.
ard 8 plus, took bus and here i am home sweet home.
or should i say home bitter home.
he is sailing currently, and i have no idea when he will be back.
this feeling sucks.
well, dear, u might be wondering why this few weeks i am having super mood swing.
and it is so suddenly i mean. PMS? nahs. don think so.
finish my menses already. sighs.
all i know was tt everytime i'm kinda of down or sad, u don't seems to be there.
or even u r by myside, u are in ur own dreamland.
sighs. i don feel ur presence at all. why?
sorry, i have no idea too.
baby, hold on tight to me if u really love me.
don ever let me go, or i will never return....
like a always said, human changes.
and friendship faded....
meiping || 11:53 PM
Date : Sunday, September 24, 2006
weets! this is the
5o5th post of this blog!
yeah! managed to stick to this blog since
2oo4 of June.
hahas. i am
good right. faithful girl hur. lols.
time really flies, still can remember so clearly tt my first blogskin was FF de.
well, guess this blog
understand me the most ba. more than
anyone else. =D
anyway, yst woke up ard 9am and went out to meet
anto.
bought breakfast and went over to his hus.
had my breakfast, slack awhile. than dreamland.
zzZzzZ...while
anto help me train maple. but, haiya.. he train for ard 30 mins only jiu
tired liao.
rubbish man!
so he too went to slp. woke up ard 1pm.
than
sneak out to meet
laopo at the void deck.
head over to blk 12o for lunch cum dinner.
cor
anto down too, in his mist of sleeping. =P
aftermath cabbed down to tpy with
laopo.
coz it was on the way. she gg over to
zai's hus.
while we head over to central.
the disc which
anto want is still not in stock yet.
which mean he gotta wait for
another week. so sad. =s
after window shopping, ard 7 went back to
anto's hus.
than nua all the way. tv-ed.
ard 12,
anto fell into his dreamland. such a
pig!ard mid night like 1 am, started to have
mood swing.
but he was so soundly asleep. didn't bear to wake him up. sighs. =[
morning time he went off 1st. coz he got duty
again.so went home myself ard
11.
slept for a couple of hours, than prep-ed and went out
again.
met up with
laopo, baoyi and
yuyun.
went
ksl to eat. than head over to
amk's k-pool.
after tt went to hab a hair cut.
feel soooo good. XD
after tt
baoyi and
yuyun went off 1st, while
laopo came over my hus void deck to slack.
cam-whored. total of
1oo++ pic in my phone. -.- omg!
went home ard 1030. yawns. wad a day!
tml gg studying. 19th of Oct sci pract le~!
meiping || 11:12 PM
Date : Saturday, September 23, 2006
boos!
woke up damn early yst. around 8am.
but slack on my bed till 830am.
than went to prepare.....
went out ard 915. took bus to j8.
than follow by mrt to woodland.
tts nt the end k. from woodland take bus to woodland checkpoint.
walked to the nearby coffeeshop. met up with my real daddy. XD
ate roti prata. than walked all the way to woodland checkpoint again.
went malaysia. =D
last minute plan la. so we reach malaysia ard 11.
daddy called mummy down for her breakfast.
aftermath we went city square to jalan jalan.
walk the whole building, bt end up empty handed.
well, as long as the time is spent with them, no matter hw tiring it is.
it is all worth it.
after all the walking, walked again to mummy's hostel.
took a short nap. ard 4pm, mummy need to work le.
hence we left again. daddy stay behind.
all the yearning and pinning was all worth it.
the tears i shed. the bloods that i bled was worth it.
hahas. dumbass right.
wad so ever it is la.
slit*
meiping || 2:21 AM
Date : Thursday, September 21, 2006
well, lots of stuffs happened...
no need to go into depth...
wadever it is... guys words can only be taken in the half of wad they say la.
=s
nt tt i aint serious in this relationship..
just tt, untill i see an effort he put in..
than maybe the trust can be gain back.
but well, that's gonna take a long time to do it.
hence i wonder if i have the time to wait..
well, i am back home.
kinda of early right, aint used to this timing too.
anyway, yst went out for movie w anto and his crewsmates for moive.
watched 'the host'. this show totally have no pt to watch la.
such a waste of money i guess.
and for today, met laopo after god knows hw mani days la.
went j8. coz she wants to hunt for zai's birthday present.
in between, we saw alfie, so pei him for his break.
than yl and shawn came.. not long later we went different ways.
alfie went back to work, yl and shawn went tpy.
than baoyi came. accompany baoyi..
mean time shop around j8.
in the end, laopo end up buying a cake from coffeebean only. -.-!
aftermath, home sweet home.
and sucks stuffs! i lost my pinky ring. arghs! damnit.
meiping || 6:13 PM
Date :
well, lots of stuffs happened...
no need to go into depth...
wadever it is... guys words can only be taken in the half of wad they say la.
=s
nt tt i aint serious in this relationship..
just tt, untill i see an effort he put in..
than maybe the trust can be gain back.
but well, that's gonna take a long time to do it.
hence i wonder if i have the time to wait..
well, i am back home.
kinda of early right, aint used to this timing too.
anyway, yst went out for movie w anto and his crewsmates for moive.
watched 'the host'. this show totally have no pt to watch la.
such a waste of money i guess.
and for today, met laopo after god knows hw mani days la.
went j8. coz she wants to hunt for zai's birthday present.
in between, we saw alfie, so pei him for his break.
than yl and shawn came.. not long later we went different ways.
alfie went back to work, yl and shawn went tpy.
than baoyi came. accompany baoyi..
mean time shop around j8.
in the end, laopo end up buying a cake from coffeebean only. -.-!
aftermath, home sweet home.
and sucks stuffs! i lost my pinky ring. arghs! damnit.
meiping || 6:13 PM
Date : Saturday, September 16, 2006
back for updates.
everything happened like a flash only...
lighting and thunder..
sunshine after rain...
rainbow after rain....
love is just a curse.
a curse that has been put on almost every single human in this world.
but only a handful of them manage to break the curse.
and will u be able to do so?
i doubt i can break this curse.......
we are back tgt.
but the trust aint there.....
without trust how long can a relationship last....
but how are u gonna gain back my trust?
it won't be easy.....
everytime i say last time i will blog able tt special someone, i always fail to do so.
just a failure i guess. friday quarreling has brought back memories of us.
the past us. the impossible. i cant help but comparing the both of them.
i'm sorry for doing it. well, kill me k.
i wish i can wish myself away..........
NOTE! Anyone have the song by Jaci Velasquez - Imagine me without u.
Please help me find. it is a song so imt to me... the reformation of comp has caused me to lose it.
just help me find this song ppl~! sighs.
If anyone happens to have please send me thru msn. thanks.
meiping || 9:27 PM
Date : Thursday, September 14, 2006
Trust! u want trust, i gave u.
u wan forgiveness i gave u too. not once not twice.
this is god know how many time u made me feel so disappointed?
have u ever put urself in my shoes?
have u ever feel the way i feel?
have u ever put me in ur heart?
have u ever treated me as ur gf?
have u ever tot of me even u said those to the gals?
have u ever?
i wonder and ponder. have u ever treat me as ur gf?
if u did, why are u always giving me so much disappointment?
why are all the thing u doing aint wad u said?
action speak louder than words. and ur action show it once after once.
or maybe i am just too petty and wildful hur.
but who cares now.
fcuking godamnit.
disappointment once after once.
pain time after pain.
wad the fcuk man. __
anyway, GUYS! don be bothered abt tt passerby in my tag.
don give a damn abt it k. since she like to bark in my tag, so be it.
also not bad mah, gt ppl make noise in my tag. good.
don be like the childish little gal.
=D
meiping || 9:53 PM
Date : Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Pouring of every little small tots to him makes me feel so much better.
same as dar, as the night falls, and the weather become rainy, my mood follow suit.
moody mood... sadness fills me... emptiness is my soul....
anyway, wont't be able to meet him for quite some day this month.
he will be have duty on this wed, fri and sat. free on a sun.
than next week he wil be sailing from monday till sat.. free on a sun too.
than the next next week he will be having quite a no. of duty...
the sames goes for next next next week when he have sailing again.
BIG BOOs!
whatever might happen in time to come, and just in case u do read my blog on and off.
just want tell u i am happy enough tt once in my fucking life u entered and showered me with love, care and concern.
baby, if the day come tt i have to leave u, promise me don't me sad.
don shed any tears. just smile from the bottom of ur heart.. just smile like nothing has happen.
just smile for me.... smile for the happy memorise tt belong to us only......
every sec spent with u is a extra happniess for me... =D
life is boring man! arghs! so fast sept le~!! damn! hate it. =x
hahas.
guys sucks!!!!!!!! =XxXxXx
i know this sound so irony. but it's a fact la. hahas.
they always know wad the girls dislike yet they still do it.
damn! and when we throw temper, they say it's our fault, we are too petty. WTH right!
but damn.. no more comments la. hahas.
meiping || 11:57 PM
Date : Sunday, September 03, 2006
Here once again to update my blog. =D
well, currently at anto's hus. it is 1am already.
anto is playing puzzel bubble with dawson beside him.
so i took this chance to blog. since i have been missing my update. like always ; lazy.
well, morning cabbed home. than rest awhile.
till i fell alseep on my cosy bed. woke up at 3pm.
suddenly remember tt i was supposed to buy lunch for anto.
so rushed thru, prep-ed and went to taobao food for him.
cabbed over to his hus. but who know he had eaten. =x
too hungry i guess, but at least he still finish everything. hahas. good~!
evening time went j8 for a movie "monster house"
don't think a child below the age of 7 is suitable for watching it. hahas.
but overall the show is rated 3 over 5 stars i guess.
after the show, walked around j8. bought a mug. XD
nice nice! like it lots. will leave the mug at anto's hus i guess. whahas.
supposed to get a couple de. but the blue color de only left one and the side is chipped.
so gotta wait till there is stock. well, too bad too sad. hahas.
bought some tibits and went back to anto's hus.
nua-ing time i guess. yawns~ meeting laopo tml morning..
meiping || 1:33 AM
Date : Wednesday, August 30, 2006
SHAG*
Been feeling kinda of shag out these few days.
Even tot i have the full 8 hours of sleeping time. arghs!
Everytime go out slack or study with my shagness very irrating man.
Beside tt, i guess my stomach is having a flu. haha. =x
Been running to the toliet quite often. hahas.
But lucky it always happen when i am home =x
Anyway, went woodland today with laopo. got my hp sofeware updated.
waited for bloody whole four hours for it.
such a waste of my time and laopo's.
bought a handband and comb, the old one guess i threw it some where in my hus, but i have no idea where i threw it. =x
after collection of our hp, took mrt back to bishan.
reached home ard 9. early hur.
anto is back from sailing tonight i guess. =D
*cheers*
Hey, wonder if ever there some people reading my blog.
But nevermind la.
i got a song here. nice song, to recommend to u guys.
if u all want, find me in msn. i will send to u. =D
BY : No Secrets TITLE : I'll Remember YouIt has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we
cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you
meiping || 10:21 PM
Date : Tuesday, August 29, 2006
well. its 4am in the morning. and i guess most of u are snoring like a piggy.
yet i cant sleep at all! =[
bad habit hur. sighs. trying so hard to change already.
still fail. wth!
oh well, nvm.
yst met laopo at j8.
accompany her to buy her stuffs.
than head off for dinner.
after tt went back j8 to buy food for zai.
waited for 88. head over to tpy lor 8.
slacked. waited for anto to come.
had dinner. cabbed back to bishan.
anto cut his hair, went over to his hus.
10 plus cabbed home.
oh well. wad can i say.
treat me good. love me deep.
be faithful. be truthful.
trust me, understand me.
dote me, pamper me.
give me care, give me concern.
accept my flaws, like the way u love my goods.
hold on to me. coz if u let me go, i will never turn back.....
meiping || 4:10 AM
Date : Saturday, August 26, 2006
back to update my blog once again.
haven been feeding my blog with my boring life..
well, currently at
anto's hus.
just woke up not long. yawns.
well, yst woke up prep-ed and off to meet
anto at ksl.
supposed to meet
yl. but she need to rush off for her work.
so didn. my poor gal. do cheer up ya. =D everything will be fine de.
so nua at
anto's hus. than night time went out to meet
alfie w his
gf.cabbed over to prata's hus. than cabbed back to bishan again.
went back to
anto's hus. slp! couldnt really slp due to his
snores! ~!#$%^&*()_+
woke up ard 5 plus. got his stuffs for him.
coz he need to return to camp for duty.
than i fell back to slp alone. woke up by his msg. than
nua till nw.
later meeting
laopo for lunch i guess.
she at
zai's hus nw.
happy 3rd month ann darling. =D
another ann which is left uncelebrated.
we
missed the 1st month. than we
missed the second month. so as usual, we
missed the 3rd month ann celebration. hahas. nice right. =x
first time sia. hmmm. wadever it is. =X
sometime i wonder and ponder.
i let my mind wander around thinking of other stuffs.
and well, sometime some stuff should just be kept in the heart.
like the old memories of happiness with other guys.
like the stuff the other gave.
well, i did. i kept all the stuffs in a box, taped it and threw inside my storeroom.
hoping tt i won't have to take it out again.
but maybe 10 or 20 yrs down the road i might take out and let the old memories flash thru.
sound kinda of sweet hur. hahas.
forgetthing is hard, letting go is easy.
the prettiest memories are kept well, at a small cornder of my heart.
and it will always have a place there..
they belong there. for now till forever......
the last time for me to blog about him out here i guess. after this, no more of him is to be said or asked.
after playing 4 long yrs of fate, i resign to it.
i once believe that we can change the fate of our own life. but after trying out for 4 yrs. maybe human aint tt strong yet? hmmm, or maybe I am not tt strong yet. hahas.
i am weak ya. i always is weak. hmm, in the 1st place did i say i am strong? hahas.no idea. cant rem too. boo!but the 4 yrs has been a great one. all the bitterness sweetness and sourness.
its something i can never really go thru in life if i haven meet till him.
i really thanks him for letting me grow up. let me know wad true frens is.
and tt, love never fade. if love can fade, its not love than.
tts the feeling tt fade. if u have feeling for tt guy, it doesn mean tt u truly love him.
u are just having a crush on him for tt short period of time. but if u truly love him,
no matter how long it is. the love will always be there. it cant be faded away just like tt.
for u will never be replace. someone whom was once so imt to me. someone whom i once willing to die for.
but everything isn't the same now. =D
for once i was close to death, it is enough.
don't get mistaken. i didn't do it for him.
ppl whom are close to me will know the real reason. i don care wad other ppl think.
they might think i cut myself for love. NO. love aint worth my blood.
but, i am glad at least, i now know who are the ones whom are really my true fren.
whom are the who will be willing to stay by me till the end of time.
and i know whom are the ones i can really rely on and count on. =]
u know who u r. =] love u guys. stay by me alright. i always need a shoulder to lend on.
and no worries i willl stay by u guys too. =D
well, i shall not say much already. cause i will never know wad will happen 10 yrs down the road.
so be it. at least i am still happy with my life now.
simple and normal. sweet and happy. =D
time can heal everything, but time can also deepen everything.
guys always forget but never forgive.
girls always forgive but never forget.anyway, life has been the same for the. the same ppl, the some routie.
nothing special... boring life of mine.
*hungry* dear ate all the snacks yst already. nth left for me to munch on!
arghs. fat pig he is!
meiping || 12:55 PM
Date : Wednesday, August 23, 2006
BOO!
i am STILL sick. arghs!
still having cough and flu. damn.
seems tt quite a no. of ppl around me is sick too hur.
hmmm.. get well soon everyone. =D
supposed to go woodland today to service my phone de.
but laopo say too tired so go other day!
~!#$%`-=/.,[]\';^&*()_+
end up went out to slack.
went j8 walked.
than makan.
than found one void deck and sat down.
cam whored again. =x
hmmm. sudden decision, went off to tpy.
got some photo washed.
bought a belt at 5 bucks. than home sweet home. =D
anto sailing off tml le. =S
miss him*
meiping || 12:01 AM
Date : Monday, August 21, 2006
what a night i had man. =swell, he had mood swing. which mean i am the one whom will kana it. =sand i did. sighs. after all that i had done, he is stil doubting me?it is so saddening and disappointing man..............................why else can i really do to let him trust me totally?i realli have no idea le... damnit. =.[as the tear began to flow, how i wish my blood could flow with it tgt as it..........torn like the start, broken still in the end. shag*
meiping || 12:14 PM
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