ever since i finish my studies..
so boring...
i wish i was from some kind of rich family..
and all i have to do is to ask my dad for money and study and study..
just study and nothing else.. so nice..
aiya.. why day dream so much.. -.-
pointless.

alright, 2007 is coming to an end soon..
with a flash of light, 1yr gonna past by soon..
so sian... =x

argh..........................................................
like very fan! but dono fan wad....................................................................
meiping || 11:31 PM

alright, xmas is over...
i spent my xmas at coffeeshop havin supper with xf. we didn even knw it was already 12 until we decided to go hm.
lolx

anyway... nt much present.. hahas
keychain from classmate,
necklaces from anto,
hp beanbag from hua,
limited ed vodka from daddy,
rasberry vodka from jiejie
and
another vodka from mei.
tts all.. alot vodka. -.-
are u ppl encouraging me to drink? 0.0 hahas
JK

anyway, my milo went oversea~ woots!
hopes she enjoy herself! ^^

studies haven been going smooth for me.
relationship too...
family is need nt to say de la..

btw, i forgot wad i did the past few dae.. shall nt blog abt it.
STM! ^^ am proud to admit?! LOL

k. as for todae..
woke up ard 8 fell back to slp till 10.
prepare and out i go..
decided to bring my hi-fi set back to MY.
since im not using it at ALL.
bought for 299 and use it less than 3mth...
rather let it rot, why not bring back give korkor use. keke
sooo soo soo after breakfast+lunch with anto,
cab down to woodland checkpoint there.
it cost me $15.10!
saw lance at there, shocked! -.-
went JB, help laopa take, coz kinda of heavy la..
nua at laoma place till 5pm.
met dajie, went out to sg, jalan jalan abit.
than they left for work, hence i cab down to J8..
this time round lagi worst la. $21.60.......................
speechless......... my spending for the dae all went to cab! >had dinner and home bitter home.
jus started the puzzle....

PS - leg blister hurts alot... ~>.<~
meiping || 10:27 PM

just finish my FnB paper..
tml will be accounting paper..
totally shagness once again..

i miss hugging my fav book at the cafe with my fav drink.

The Past
When I think how life used to be, always walking in the shadows, then I look at what you’ve given me… I feel like dancing on my tiptoes; I must say, everyday I wake and realize you’re by my side. I know Im truly blessed for everything you’ve given me, blessed for the tendernes you show. Do my best with every breath thats in me, blessed to make sure you never

The Present
I think I noticed when things started to change...
the hugs were quicker, the phone calls shorter, and they weren't every night.
We didn't hurry to the place we said we would meet.
The "I love you's" felt more like a forced routine and really had no meaning.
When we saw eachother, the smiles werent as bright or as big.
Our thoughts weren't only of eachother.
We seemed uninterested.
We felt unloved.
We had too many doubts

hahas.
meiping || 1:30 AM

exam has come.. knocksknocks on my doors.
big boo~
yst was total shagness!
whahas!
i woke up at 11am on sat, and didn slp until sundae nite!
shiok~ lolx!
dam seehhhh la.. -.-
anyway, dam blur la. i dono why..
i didnt check the timetable again, coz there was updates on it!
OMFG LA! ><
coz old time table says exam on monday 10 - 1.
so i tot didnt change.. buttttt
actually they changed to to 2-5! omg can!
><><><
dam wad la.

anyway..................
i was thinking of studying till dip and stop..
but.. now, wonder i should stay futher..
but it will cost ard 28k. WOO! 28k nor.
hw am i gonna save la. wtf..
so wondering IF! i really want study, should i take a loan from dad 1st?
sian leh... feel like studying all the way, all my life and not work.. =x
everyday just sch and sch and sch.. gd right!
lolx

i am feeling so sleepy right now..
*yawns*
meiping || 12:17 PM

eh. i change a new blogskin already..
and i also change a new tagbox. tot it is still cbox.
i dono wads wrong.. sumthing is wrong.. -.- i always cant see my own tagboard.
and tt dae when i edit skin, worst! i cant even see a thing..
so.... SUA! change new de..
xin de kai shi~ ^^
lolx
lame!

anyway, exam is coming le~ argh~ coming coming~
fast fast come come~ fast fast end end~

afternoon sis sms me.. say....
hometown kena flood!
flood again! last yr i kena trap in MY for a mth due to the flood.
heng this yr gt exam nv go back.. arbo kena trap in MY due to flood.
xin ku ni le sis~ lolx
phew~ no need do the moving of stuffs and washing of hus after the flood!
whahas!
=x

and btw i finally got to donuts, craving craving~ hee
nice nice~
meiping || 8:55 PM

okay. i am just complaining abt the last post.
not that i regret being in the family or the need to handle the problem.
aiya. its like just complaining, letting out some stress nia~ no worries k.

its ur choice, your life, your family and ur sons.
i cant do anything but to listen.. and keep quiet..
when thing goes wrong.. im the 1st to kena..
it always been like tt. from young to big..
from dono anything to knowing all the truth..
from being so carefree to carrying all the problem..
from nothing to everything..
sometime i dono if i have done the right thing. chose the right way.
one side i have to protect sis, another side i need to tell the truth.
sis trust me so much.. told me everything..
the same goes for mummy n korkor.
they all trust me so much. hoping i can help sis.
but another side, sis doesnt want any help..
she made her choice, she is leaving for good. tts wad she said.
she want to leave le, but she doesnt want mummy they all to knw where she is going.
but she will tell me, keep in contact with me..
no matter how much i said, she doesnt takes in any words.
she is still leaving..
leaving doesnt slove anything.................................
it creates more problem...........................................
aiya.. i really dono la..
wads with the family man.
everything is so fk up!
maybe i should be happy i have been bought to sg.
or maybe i shouldnt....
they ask me this n tt? expected a gd answer from me..
but whom am i to ask to get the answer?
life is never fair, nth in life is fair..

wo yi jing mei you lei shui zai rang wo ku qi le..
jiu xiang gan ku de jin..
zai ye mei you shui le..
meiping || 9:00 PM

everything have been the same..
stress.
i doubt i wil be able to carry on this burden la..
big fuck meh.. think i god? or wad?
everyday call and call..
in school also call..
as if i can do sumting to change the thing happening..
wtf it!
~!@#%*(_+
BYE
meiping || 8:55 PM

ARH! im so stress!
so stress wor~ >.<
stress stress stress~
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STRESS LA! FK!
BYE!
meiping || 11:10 PM

hey! knw wad i found out tt my blog is like sooooooooooo emo can!
anyway! troubles... always alot of trouble wtf is abt my life la. GDI (goddamit) =x
okok i having lots of reports, assignment in hand. rushing it thru it.. ><
26th it the deadline. which is also my death dae! whahas!

okay! family sucks! im like a hotline for them.
have prob they call. bo taiji. bo call de. wtf la! argh!
end here~

<3 shagua
meiping || 1:33 AM

well, been pondering.. for quite awhile.. about my future..
what i want, and what im gonna do..
and.. i stil doesn't have an answer yet...
such high expectation on me from my family...
hoping that i would study as much as i can.
find a job that offer me a high pay, in such tt i will be able to support the family..
but.. i don want... i just want a carefree life of my own...
the simpler the better..
i just want a simple life.. and in fact, the simpler life u want, the harder it wil be able to archieve it.. why is it so?
the family wants me to works, wants me to study..
daddy wants me to be able to take over his breadwinner position after he retired from work..
am i able to do so? am i able to carry the family like how well he is doing now?
i doubt i have such strenght and enegry to do so.
or do i have so much time to do so..
i know i have always been complain alot... to my blog, and blog reader...
but... i dono wad else to do than to complain and keep quiet at home..
sometime i feel tt i don belong to any place.. nor do i fits into any place..

u knw, i feel tt my life is like already being planned before i was born..
planned, so well planned, with so many loopholes.
many people might think that im so blissed..
on the outside... maybe yes, i might look blissed with such a family..
but what happens inside is so pain in the ass.
u get contorl, u cant do this u cant do tt.
but u must do this u must do that!
yaya, don come telling me its for ur own good.
im sick of hearing tt! doing this is ur own good. or tt!
when me myself in my own shoe don feel good at all!
oh crap! im fucking sick and tired of this kind of life!
seriously im!
know wad, i hope im a kid, skinned knee cap is so much than skinned soul.

sometime i wish, reali wish, if i can exchange for a different life..
how good will that be..
i would give up everything for it...
but i knw it jus my wishful thinking..
hahas.
alright la. after letting it out.. i feel so much better
meiping || 10:27 PM

人生是一段往前行的路程 一站接着一站
每个过程都有令人难忘的点滴
有欢笑 也有悲伤
一点一滴瓦成一段段的回忆
错过了就无法在回头 失去了也无法找回
有所计划 有个目标 有法找回
有所計划　　有個目標　　有片願景
让生活每天都過的精采　　有所收获
你的故事　　從今天開始！


每個人都找寻一種幸福
幸福的定义不同　　幸福也有很多种形式
但人们往往要的　　卻是一种得不到的
是一种想像　　是一种渴望　　還是一种感覺？
但似乎怎麼努力　　幸福好像越離越遠
越想拥有　　反卻失落更多
原來　　幸福就在你週围
只是你從來不去注意
直到有一天　　它走了　　它不见了
你才明白它在你心中多么的重要


有些事　　想忘记　　又偏偏想起
也有令人回忆的往事　　卻一點也沒有絲緒
人生來來去去　　很多事早在不經意间失落
也有很多事隨著时间的洪流　　一點一滴逝去
也許太在乎　　反而思緒越亂　　越無法掌握
回憶是對過去的一种想念
走必留下痕跡　　也不用太过在意
也許有一天　　又會真實的浮現在腦海中
那年曾经..


传說中　　每個人都有一颗守护星
當你抬起头　　满天繁點群星
是你在暸望星空？　　
或是星星对眼和你相看？
距離多么遙不可及　　时光那么久不能逝
若心有靈犀　　你可深切體會
那颗星　　原來就在不遠處
原來　　就在你心中
靜靜守候你千百萬年


我沒有千金萬貫的家財
也沒有字字動人的情書
更沒有情意绵绵的話語
我沒有什么好的　　可以给你
只有我的一颗真心
但請你小心奕奕 因为　　你步步踩的　　都是我的夢

上面的那些寫作好美。。真的很美。
我很喜欢！ ^^ 谢谢傻瓜~
meiping || 11:58 PM

alright. i haven slp a wink, ohya i did. i mean i only slept for 30mins.. -.-
dam shag...
last night conf and conf.. conf until werid stuffs..
end up 430AM, than hang up..
6plus school.. ( prepare + breakfast + wait for ling )
omg stil late for sch.. wadever..
after sch went to fetch xf..
went back bishan tgt.. jalan jalan abit..
thann 4 plus went to catch ' the game plan' with michelle and huahua..
ohh.. nice and funny show.. ^^
had dinner... walk ard j8 again...
*j8 is so boring*

after michelle n huaa went off.
waited for xf to knock off..
accompany her for dinner..
and ALAS im home..

btw i wil be gg back malaysia this coming friday for granny's bday..
shall be back on sunday i guess?
hopefully ba..

PS - my blister is soooooo painfulllllllllllllllllllll
meiping || 1:38 AM

was hm the whole of yst night..
friday morning met xf went library..
aftermath went back rest.
night time met up with michelle, huahua and ck...
huahua organised a special outing..
went to the Mind Cafe, its near PS. first time there..
damn! speechless man.. lols
guess it was supposed to be more fun..
but guess four of us nt tt close or open to each yet? lols.
lot of holdback i guess.

after the cafe, all went hm.
while i went to Partyworld to find anto..
actually is just meet him for awhile than go off de.
BUT BUT BUT.. end up waited for around 4 hr for him to knock off... ><
after he knock off went back to slp..

saturday afternoon pei anto go to his frens baby de one month..
new born baby is soo cute..
aftermath......
went to pick dawson up and meet with xf...
godness... dawson is sooooooooooo.........
no comments...
lucky alfred came to pick him up..
went J8...
than to my hus area for some snacks...
and..... im home nw....
meiping || 10:19 PM

记得有人曾经说过‘人在江湖，身不由己’
那我呢? 难道我会是‘人在家庭，身不由己’
这几年下来，我似乎渐渐地发现到我的包袱似乎越来越重了， 也迷惘了自己。
家庭，学业，金钱，爱情，友情等等，越来越沉重，重得我快不能呼吸了。
有时候我真的感到很无助，根本不知道要如何是好。
就只可以带上微笑的面具，假装什么也没有发生，装出一副很强的样子。
可是在强的人总有一天也会垮，也会倒下的。
我不强，我也不要做强的人。我一点也不强。。
我只希望我可以放下这沉重的包袱，坐下来好好的休息。
休息是为了走更远的路。。。
那怕只有那一分钟也好！
我真的感到很疲惫了。。。
有时候真希望有一双肩膀可以靠一靠，帮我挡风遮雨。
我累了，真的真的累了。
好想好想什么事也不管了。。。。。。。。。。。。。
meiping || 9:16 PM

i wish there was someting... really something that i can do now..
than to stare at my hp waiting for calls and sms..
argh.. its so painful, when u wish u can do something for them..
but u cant..
really jus something i wish i can do!

i really don understand...
why do thing always end up coming to me..
when they knw there is nothing much i can do..
but only to add stress and burden to me only..
i feel so helpless...
hao wu zhu..

i don lik this feeling....
meiping || 12:16 AM

im stil down with flu n sore throat! >.sad case~
nth much todae. breakfast as usual.
sch as usual. meet dar~ after so mani donkey years.
hmmm. recently outside school gt alot NEA ppl..
saw 2 ppl got caught for throwing cigt butt..
after dar hab her tok with lucas, she decided to come back to sch.
aftermath cab down to FEP.
walked, bought sumting.
than walked again to Lilo. dar wan buy lunch for her bf.
followed by a walk to HMV. my toes hurts badly...
i wish i can chop of my toes >.<
anyway! after 'touring' HMV walk all the way back to Lilo.
and ALAS! went PS~
arghh~ donuts donuts~ even tot donut factory donut is nicer.
but missdonut aint tt bad too! ^^ bought a dozen home!
keke

met xf for supper ard 1o3opm..
and im all shag out...

Karma what goes around comes around..
meiping || 2:06 AM

alright. great. im down with a bad sore throat AGAIN.. -.-!
every month without fail.. like my menses de. =x
went to see doc a couple day ago..
got myself 2day mc..
monday didn go sch.. tue n wed MC. thur no sch.
this week onli went sch for one day. which is today.
sad la.. ling going to defer her module le.
after si come ling. -.- sibei sian de leh..
all say hao study tgt grad tgt de mah.. kns!
nw everyday go sch alone le.. eeee~ sucky~
alone = cab = ex = bankupt

was late for lesson day.. booo! 1oam to 5pm todae.. boring..
thru out my whole dae was msg-ing... from full batt to low batt..
tt onli happen during secondary sch if nt wrong. lolx.
so long dont have this kind of feeling le..
anyway.. was feeling unwell -.- halfway thru 2nd part of the lesson..
communition.. yucks.. boring....................................
after sch wanted to cab home... but no cab....
hab to take bus all the way back to bishan! DAMN!
went j8 to find xf.. than meet boi..
had dinner.... home sweet home..

To Be or Not To Be... Thats A Question....
meiping || 12:47 AM

blogger sucks big time!
i couldnt log in sometime!
when i wan blog, i couldnt log in at all..
wtf! something wrong with my lappy meh.. zzz
anyway, exam ended, holiday also ended..



i gt a new hp SE K810i. only pay $28! =x
i wanted SE W580 de.. but! no stock.
and starhub is damn fuck up can.
went PS, they said PS no stock, onli Vivo have..
so went Vivo, but, Vivo also NO STOCK!
somemore Vivo already no stock for almost a month le!
wad kind of service and information is that sia..
waste my time n money...
theres no w580, so i hab to settle down with another phone..
so thats hw i gt my SE k810i.

w580i




















K81oi

meiping || 3:12 AM

Okie.. 3 paper down~ 1 more to go!
wee! last one paper to go already...
>.<
cant wait for holidays to come man..
heard ppl saying holiday only last for a week..
so sucky~ one week is not enough..
oh crap.. holiday is nv enough k..
chomp chomp fast fast finish this course man~
want go work work work~
earn money~
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
LOL

oh crap! i miss those slacking time with dar..
so miss her la.. >.<
crap!
aiya.. she gt her own life, own grp of frens le. wad to do.

anyway.......... i dono wad to do with anto... -.-!

karma

god don bless me liao thanks.
meiping || 3:20 PM

okie. 2 paper down! 2 more paper to go!
dying soon le man! ARGH!
>.<

说了又不听，
听了又不懂，
不懂又不问，
问了又不做，
做了又做错，
错了又不认，
认了又不改，
改了又不服，
不服又不说 !
meiping || 10:57 PM

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