Is it possible to have a early bday wish? =)
i wish , i wish, i wish... good health for everyone around me....
i pray to my lord for everyone's health and safety...

the new was so suddenly. so shocking.
the moment i recieve the call, i totally went blank...
speechless..........................
anyway.......
i wish my dad with be in the pink of health...
i fear the news of losting him..
i fear picturing him lying in hosptial bed..
i fear the life without him..
i fear the days knowing that he has change..
i know i cannot live without him..

the worst fear in my life is losing any of my close ones.

just one plain simple wish.....
i would give everything up just for the wish to come true..
am serious about it. anything.... really... anything....

The Father always says, believe in him, and he will be there for you...
i always believe in him...
Therefore, i hope Lord has heard my prayers..
May The Lord Be With Me.... =)

PS : xiaogua is so sweet can.. hearts him lots... i love you too.. =)
i promise to buy lots of toys and bring u all go gaigai when im back . =D
meiping || 10:02 PM

did lots of stuff the past one month..
sentosa outing(s) both dae n nite..
prawn-ing
badmintion
drinking
supper
movie
singing
pubbing
buffet
chalet
majong
slacking....
im sure there is more, but at the moments onli these comes into mind..
back with my old co.
drinkin sessions.. =)
first time winning in majong session too.
seems like alot of first time ya..
anyway spread everything out, did everything with different group of people.
and suddenly i am missing my family.. very much.... missing them...
i guess i will do a short and fast trip back to malaysia soon... =)

sat had claypot rice at tpy lor4 with his family too.
sun had buffet at orchard hotel with boi and his family. his dad's bdae..
tts all i can remember...

and for one moment, just now.. not now...
suddenly emo.. didn want be home so early...
had a sit at my hus area playground for like an hour and more...
untill my phone rings for me to be home....

at the moment a tot went thru my mind...
will there be really such thing call friends forever?
or at least till death bed...
am turning 20 this coming june... and i found out that, actually there have been alot changes..
for example friends, used to have such a nice big group of sista.. than slowly, gone...
than working friends... slowly losting contact... childhood friend... slowly fading out...
online friends... slowly not contact anymore... so many people has been in and out of my life..
hence i wonder, who gonna be the longest...
thats gonna be a big question mark for me.. =)
anyway i really wish tingy to be back ya...
to be there sitting by me... listening.
to be there, just there to make sure im okay..
to be there, just sitting there keeping quiet for the whole day.. knowing that each of us is there..

tml will be.. okie to be extact its already 12:55 so today
is our 2nd yr ann... so much thing has been during the past 2 yr..
wadever wil be wil be, wadever will nt be will nv be..
lets the wind guide us by... and stop when its right....

would like to thank a special someone. =)
lots of thanks to you, for standin by me the past 2yr ++ =)
please conutine to so, as a friend.. my selfish request..
=)

im turning in for the day.... nites people...
hearts everyone thats in my life....
meiping || 12:27 AM

拥有一个会让你痛苦的人，最好是放弃。。。
因为放弃将会带给你一万个不同的幸福。。。
=）
meiping || 6:19 PM

meiping || 1:37 PM

欢乐通宵~!
meiping || 2:36 PM

i guess i gonna give up blogging very soon..
sooo mean time cares ppls...
meiping || 9:53 PM

arhh~ 我们家的milo让我想起了tingy jiejie~ <3
ever since tingy jie left le never really recieve this kind of small small hand make thing le.. =D
*happy*
hor bb and mei~ miss tingy hor~ ~><~
meiping || 10:12 AM

Please treasure and cherish what you have.. nOt hurtIng her n others even urself.. Its not easy to have what u got now..i think she's really a very nice gal.. and i can feel that actually u still loves her alot.. u with her is nt bcos of responsiblity but u love her and she's part of your life.. although i hate to have this as our ending but i think this will do good for nt just me and u but also her.. i hope i have make the right choice.. more or less of cos i'll still miss you.. but i rather keep all this feeling deep in my heart.. so i hope u too will keep me deep in ur heart and never tries to take it out again.. If one day, we ever see each other pls just pretend that we are just stanger to one another.. Just do this small little request i have.. Thanks..

- bitch - ^^
meiping || 9:43 PM

argh~ 好不顺心~!
er jie hasn't been home for more than a week... no news... nothing... zzzz
i ponder am i the oldest in the family? or am i the youngest．
goodness la...
er jie gone - faults me.. ><
fk up! fk it!

moving on is easy -- it's what we leave behind that's hard

- 当眼泪流下来，才知道，分开也是另一种明白.

- 脸上的快乐，别人看得到。心里的痛又有谁能感觉到.　　

- 分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过.不可以做敌人.因为彼此深爱过,所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人.

- 有时，爱也是种伤害.残忍的人，选择伤害别人，善良的人，选择伤害自己

- 如果，不幸福，如果，不快乐，那就放手吧；如果，舍不得、放不下，那就痛苦吧
meiping || 11:03 PM

wo men jia de milo angry mp le.. =/
one after another....
i just really hope tt i wont make her mom thinks tt im a bad influces to her..
whenever goes out with mp come home so late all these.. ><
thats why i didn wan meet her for dinner...
i knw if i meet, she will come all the way from sk, which is like so far...
she has been going out late almost everyday. and tml we going out again...
might go home late again... -.-!

maybe my ways of doing thing for friends isnt wad milo likes ba...
i knw milo reads, just wanna say i wont be like monkie whom only calls u when i need u.
and throw u aside when i dont need u...
i said my piece....
sorry milo if i let u felt wads monkie had let u felt..
i didnt means thing to goes this way..
its ur choice nt reply me.. wont force u.....




its gonna be my first time and last time doing such thing for the relationship.
i wish, my feeling and habit would die off fast..................................
meiping || 11:27 PM

nice quotes............

& as you look back on all the memories,
it makes you start to cry.
You realize you may never see these people again

Best friends hang TOUGH.
they don't come with fragile stickers and aren't easily scared off,
or ticked off.
best friends help you out WHENEVER they can,
and make time for you even when they don't have any.
Best friends are cross-your-heartand hope-to-die,
good-times-and-BAD-TIMES,borrow-anything,
tell-you-everything,trust-you-with-their DEEPEST-DARKEST-SECRETS,
always & FOREVER.

When no ones around to see her pain,
she breaksdown.
They say she's so strong,
but they've never seen her cry.
She's got everyone fooled.

I think everybody needs a place to go when things become too much,
a place where the world is the way you want it to be,
& if you had a choice,
it's how you would have created.

Leaving her standing
Alone in the dust
Crying her eyes outBroken her trust
Bickering and fighting
Swarmed in the crowd
Trying to scream
Silent but loud

I’ve learned a lot these past few years through my fake smiles & unseen tears that friends sometimes are not forever & true love does not always last.

It's amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside of you and walk around and no one has any idea.

I just realized I don't even know who I am;
I don't even know why I'm here.
All my life I've been treated like a caged bird.
Everyone tells me what to do,
what I should act like,
what I should look like,
until I don't even know what I want,
how I want to act,
or what I should look like.
All my life I've gotten pushed down by everyone around me,
but what did I do to deserve it?

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

nights all.
meiping || 9:37 PM

我是着世界上最笨的女孩!!

本小姐认第一,没人能认第二!!

一次的错误决定.... 害了我自己...
我真聪明.. =)

我的心理很不好受。。你知道吗?
我的付出你一点都看不到。
我很努力了,可是你的心却是盲目的。
可是有些事情你在瞒着我~
不如你的告诉我你心里真正要的是什么?

Everything must come under control, its getting out of hand, out of our limit....
its hard for me to stop depending of you... i dont deny that..
But with so much bad memories will we be able to survive thru it?
meiping || 11:20 PM

could someone kind enough care to teach me hw am i suppose to put it down?
in someway or some form.
its unbearable this way.
and i guess i will break down anytime, any moment, any place............
i don't like this kind of feeling....
it's so suckyyyyyyyyyyyy.

=(
meiping || 12:15 AM

结束了吗? 真的结束了吗?
其实, 我一直在努力了.
努力成为你想要的女孩.
可是.. 没有人是完美的..
对不起.
meiping || 11:05 PM

其实你真正了解我多少?
对你来说,我永远都是那个不讲里的.
你说我很难猜测,有那末难吗?
其实那天你生日我根本不想出席....
因为我有没有去都是一样的.
就如以前一样,我会被...........遗忘........
你知道吗,那天我的心情真的很不好.....
家里出了事,可是我还是要带着微笑面对你和你的朋友......
你知到是多难受的吗?
对你来说你生日你最大, 你的生日最重要.
好累... =)
我好想离开你着个坏习惯.
我好想戒掉............ 好让我不用明明两个人,却一人哭泣....
要如何才能把你戒了.........

一波为停,一波又起.....

永远都要我担心吗?
永远都要我操心吗?
永远都要我心痛吗?
永远都要我哭泣吗?
到底要我怎么办?

是你们让我一次又一次的放弃了前途,放弃了留学的机会..
因为我放心不下你们...
到底要我放弃多少? 要我失去多少?

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯,假使相当勇敢怎可挽回自身,若要冲损伤怎可以不留痕.

我没事了... 舒服多了...
=)

谢谢桦桦,贝壳,雪芬和玲玲的陪伴. ^^
有朋友真好,有真心诚意对带对方的朋友更好!
meiping || 6:10 PM

曾有过个傻瓜在我的生命留下了他的脚印，牢牢的印在心里。
他在我最需要的时候一直守候着，陪着我。
和他谈话时很开心。 =）
但发生了一些事。 他不在是我的傻瓜了。
心里对他真的有很深的亏欠。
但不知道要如何对他说‘对不起’

今天傻瓜问了我一个很难但很简单的问题。
‘你还爱他吗？’
哈哈！
我当场傻去了，我没有答案，我也不知道要如何回答。

我也不敢期待太多，也不敢想将多。。。

我不开心。。。 =）
meiping || 9:38 PM

once again im back from malaysia.
my real dad is down for tibi.
so had to rush back. simliar illness to ahgong. -.-!
smk n smk drink n drink. -.-!
now the whole family have to go for injection and checkup.
hopfully i was fine. =) but..... for some reason i had to do a full checkup.
no idea for wad, coz the nurse n doc was talkin in malay. how would i knw wad they were talking!
anyway, i got my result. pass 2 fail 2. gotta to resit for it..
history for toursim -.-! its worst than secondary school history........
arh!

left ankle hurts.. i think is feng shi ping le ba? =x
im old already~ ><
i have tons of pictures. but fail to upload it.. ~><~
dono wads wrong also....
sians.....
meiping || 9:49 PM

=)
it has been a busy month i guess. hence for the lack of updates.
spent 3weeks plus in malaysia ( during chinese new yr time )
after tt back on the 12th of feb.
in between so many days i couldn't rem wad has happened also.
but anyway, i dont think this is a good year for me.
although had a great cny back in malaysia.
however jus right after cny, back in sg.
within weeks. recieve news of my dad in hosptial. -.-
quarrels , disagreement, worries, emo.
how great can tt be...

school result isn't out yet.. wonder when..
went for interview no result too..
boring.. -.-!

anyway, recently there has been a qns been asked very often.
bf ? gf? -.-
its just a title.. is tt so important?
i really dont wish to answer anymore.
must everything be defined very clearly?
at least to me, nope...
i knw it inside my heart thats is what it matter the most.

btw, i going back malaysia later at 3.30pm.
yes, again....

there has been lots of pictures n videos.
upload when im free ba..

with love,
meiping
meiping || 6:53 AM

meiping || 4:40 AM

went malaysia yst with xf and anto again..
walk and walk n walk.
im so shag out..
well...
todae met xf n anto had dinner.
and shopped ard..
went amk aftermath..
and my hus area for supper.
and im home now..
im so bored..
i would like to finish my puzzle..
but im so out of mood to do it..
so i went to pack my room..
and i found alots of stuff lying around at the side..
boxes and boxes of stuff..
so i packed it...
2 boxes gonna go to the bin..
all my N and O lvls books..
another box i found my kids pictures..
scanned some.. and blog it..
outside ahgong old hus.











cant rem the age, bt i knw this is after i left my family.
coz foster mom cut short my hair.















hmmm.. a few mths old..











short hair. -.- same after foster mom took me.
at ahgong hus.










same outside ahgong hus.











ahgong hus de living room















me with er jie











me with er jie again











my hometown area.










done.. jus a couple. the rest of the photos has gone missing..
either lost or tore away by me. =)

anyway, i also found alot of necklace. -.-
alot alot wors.. all new de.. some are even still wrapped nicely.
is it time for me to change the necklace?
>< no idea...
off i go for my bathe..

one word - trouble. =)
meiping || 12:39 AM

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