hmmm some one asked me.
whats the meaning of trepidation.
here it goes.
- fearful uncertainty, anxiety -
don't u feel that life is always full of uncertainty?
at least to me, it does feel this way. =)
got the word from a book that i read sometime ago.
earlier on talked on the phone with jiewei, after so long!
even we web-cam and video call each other on msn.
but its still different!
argh hearing ur voice make me miss u even more.
=) my sweet sweet sissy jiewei!

met baby in the morning for lunch.
aftermath met kristy for some shopping.
=)
after all the tiring walks we settled down at goodwood park hotel
for a break.
as we were chatting she suddenly prop a qns out.
" what would u do if u can turn the time back "
then before i could ans, aunty kristy starting her speech.
she was saying if can, i wont get married, but i will bring dar to the world.
biggest regret she said was to get married and get tied down by so many rules.
sissy, dar still small, think for him, we all know whats the feeling of growing up in an incomplete family. dont let dar go thru what we have gone thru. =)
be strong. kelvin aint that bad. at least he is faithful to u and dar. cheers~!
as for me, of coz it would be good if there are such thing as time travel.
but its just a fairytale.

suddenly i miss tingy, kovan and zai so much.
=)
the ones that kept me in the straight path.
the ones that knows my darkest weakness.
the ones that i can trust my life with.
where are they now?
nowhere to be found.
leaving for good and leaving only memories behind.
im still waiting...
and i will wait... XD

am going back msia tml!
740 train. kristy say she wil try to wake up and drive me there.
so did jovan. but i knw them too well,
its a 101% that they will oversleep! =P

anyway lets wish everyone a happy chinese new yr in advance! =)

错过的就让它过去吧。
时间是不会逆转的。
meiping || 6:03 PM

=) $$$$$
woke up in the morning today.
met baby for breakfast + lunch.
aftermath cab over to simei to find my aunt.
gotta help her bring cash back to msia.
before the cny is even here, my papa and uncle already recieve like 500 buck of angbao.
=(
life so unfair!
why i dont have?
1/2 of the amount also nt bad ma. lol.
anyway, jovan came to simei to fetch me.
went to slack at coffeeclub.
waited for ck's msg / call.
but none! he didn even reply my sms! argh!
i need my HDD back man. wanna xfer some psp games and update my songs. =(
hais.

thanks for the company and treat my mrJ
lol
=)
meiping || 1:52 AM

Hmmm, dad flew to London on the 16th of jan.
and would only be back on the 1st day of cny.
was home alone for the past couple of days.
mom went over aunt house to sleep. =/
home alone is great. =) *peaceful*

Let see, hmmm..........
i remembered meeting jovan for a drink.
at first it was only two of us, couldn't find other cause it was too last minute. =/
went down to BQ, lucky us, met another 3 friends at the pub.
so ended up with 5 of us drinking 2 bottle. is it alot? o.0 5ppl 2bottle.
should be reasonable right.
anyway, witness a quarrel at the pub.
2 auntie fighting over for a uncle!
were actually betting with them, which side will win.
loser gotta open the 3rd open! but wasted the police came. =(
lol. we earned a bottle! hurhur all thanks for ahwei for the idea. lol.
after the police came we switch over to another pub.
aftermath had breakfast at the prata house and they sent me home.
=)
been nice being able to meet up with u guys after such a long time.
thanks!

the other day went out with kristy dajie and jovan.
they bought me 3 top. thanks. =)
i remembered i lost 100 buck cash on tt day too. sadd =((

anyway! yst was xf off!
met her around 4, after she reborn her hair. =)
wanted to reborn too, but budget budget. next time ba. =/
with this length i think it would cost at least 200 buck!
she wanted to buy hp, but couldn't decide on which phone to get.
end up didnt buy. lol.
walked around j8, then cab down to liang court.
met hua der. sang till 10.
waited for baby to knock off.
had supper at the "streets"
and home sweet home. =)

been webcam-ing with jiewei for weeks through out the night.
i couldn't sleep at all.
been having all sort of nightmares recently.
thanks for keeping me company. =)
i don't knw what i would be doing if im nt webcam-ing with u.
at least u kept my mind off some stuff.
i felt so stressed, and im nt sure what im stressing over.
just bits and pieces of this and that.
i felt out of breath sometime.
went to see the doc earlier on with kristy.
doc gave me sleeping pills.
im glad she did. if nt im gonna have sleepless night again.
meiping || 7:01 PM

been searching around for nice blogskins.
but found NONE! =((
there's lots of nice and pretty blogskins.
but none caught my eyes.
saddd..
wanted to change it long ago ya.
hmm or anyone wanna do one for me!

still unable to really get focus on some stuff.
whenever i try to focus, i lost focus.
end up doing stuff wrongly. =/
just like the other days, mom ask me get her some stuffs.
even tot she repeated like 3 times, i still manage to buy the wrong stuff back for her! =x

anyway, last friday went over to ron house to play card games.
had supper and met baby.
head over to his house to nap before going home.
stayed home for sat and sun!
budget budget! cny coming, gonna burn another hole in my pocket.
my pockets just kept being burn! nv mend. =/
i wonder i have how many pockets more to burn. lol.
earlier on watch red cliff 2 with baby.
nicenice! its a nice show! =)
i dont mind watching it again. lol.
met baby's frens after movie, and he drove us back to my house area.
sat at the coffee shop and chitchat.
i went home earlier. baby sent me home. and went back to meet them.

this year cny will be very very different from other cny that i had before.
grandma is nt with us to celebrate it anymore..
even tot it has been close to 4 month.
the pain is still lingering there.
its like a open wound being shattered with salt.

If tears could build a stairway,
And memories a lane,
I would walk right up to heaven
And bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken –
No time to say good-bye.
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
And secrets tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

It’s just hard to lose someone, no matter how much or little it meant at the time.

“You’ll get over it”. It’s the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because “it” is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The articulation of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hold in my heart is the shape of you and no one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?
meiping || 1:43 AM

needa find some courage to get some stuff thing.
not some stuff. just one thing!
where is all the courage i have?
or maybe this is a different kind of courage?
or is it plainly losing total faith and trust in something?
the kind of situation im in nw, and there kind of stuff going on in the world.
i heard so many girls friends of mine whining about it.
and i even seen it with my own eyes.
and even in my own family. =/
argh. dont wan talk about it anymore.
all i want in my life now is a good future.
there is nothing more that i want now.
another thing in life that i yearn for is the life of my grandma and health of my papa.
nothing more than tt.
i would trade anything for the above.
but just another wishful thinking.

i was becoming like a book geek.
thats what kristy and jiewei been whining about.
but aint that gd? whats wrong with being too into a book?
lol!
recently been finding hard to get focus.
hmmm.. like my soul is wandering in some other places.
><
let me chant a spell and ask my soul back k.
~!@#$%^&*()_+
LOL! im going crazy soon.

hmmm
was it yst? i think so?
i went down to enroll for my degree course with daddy.
they was saying it takes 2 week for the paper work to be done.
which means unable to make it for the 12th jan course.
sad to say, the next would be at may.
5 more months!!!
should i find a part-time job?
or should i slack?
hmmm...
anyway wanna hire part-timer for 3-4mth?
in need of cash~! lol


Dont be mistaken,
i'm not angry neither am i upset.
I just wish after doing such,
you really feel better.
At least left some dignity & let me gain somemore respect.
I believe that's the least you can do.
Dont make me feel like a fool.
Please dont.
I would thank you for that.
I seriously would.

*edited*
am currently so bored~~
i regret rejecting bibi and co for the drinking session!
i should have join them! argh!
nvm, bibi if u see this, next week k! next week!!!
让我们欢乐通宵吧！
不醉不归 ok?
meiping || 1:57 AM

ahhh cheewww!
dust is flying around in my room!
i should have go along with the idea of buying a mask earlier on. =(

these few week seems to have lots of thing on hand!
xmas celebrations, new year celebrations.
beside this two still have other events. ><
nt really keen on year end. lots of things to do.

anyway, this morning i met baby for breakfast cum lunch.
after he cab to work i went for a little shopping spree.
hmmm.. just a little. =)
i met up with jovan. he came down bishan to accompany me.
bought 2 set of bras~ black black~ lol.
aftermaths went to espirt! bought a jacket.
paid using baby's card. hee. his so call xmas present for me!
he said he is busy with work, ask me to use his card to buy present for myself. XD
i wanted so badly to go down city link , FCUK to buy the watch!
so badly! but its so expensive, hence i gave up the idea. =/
hmmm..
spent above 150 with jovan at espirt.
so i became a member. hee. thanks thanks. =p
next time let u be member k!
walked around, bought dvds.
had brunch.
home sweet home.
was packing my room earlier on.
took me 2hours to pack my room.
and its not done yet! i just finish throwing away unwanted stuff.
and i still haven go ikea to get some nice boxes for my stuffs.
so must of the stuff is lying around on the floor in my room.
messy messy! =(
hmmm i need extra storage. hiak hiak hiak!


To live in this world you must be able to do three things,
to love what is mortal,
to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it
and when the time comes to let it go,
let it go.
meiping || 4:50 PM

Happy New Year everyone. =)
lets hope and pray for a better year! a year of joy and happiness.
hmmm, trying to a recalling of what has happened for 2008.
I cant really seems to remember happy stuffs, i wonder why.
is my brain working the opp of others? lol.
anyway , life in 2008 been a brisk, everything happened like a flash of light.
people comes and go too.
changes, lots of changes too.

i was trying to recall some stuff, and straight away poof!
these stuff came to my mind.
the lost of my beloved grandma. and the news of my papa down with colon cancer. =/
that's why i always feel that 2008 aint a good year for me at all.
maybe its that im growing up, and in the path of growing up, people around me are getting older and older..
grandma lost been a great blow to me.. =(
i really hope papa will listen to the doctors and do what the doctors say.
but, old people, sigh , are so stubborn!
another thing was that i finally got my dip. =)
im starting on hon degree next year. *jiayou to myself*
and and and , my relationship not really going anywhere at all.
at some point of time, i will get qns from fren, what do u really want? do u love him? all these sort of qns. =/
but i never been able to answer them.
i hope one day i wil be able to answer them. lets work on this too.

oh! this year had a mini bday celebration, what i always wanted.
a small group of close frens and loves one, gathered together. =)
i dont wan those kind of big celebration. i prefer to pass bday quietly..
those whom remember will always be in my heart. and those that dont remember, they will still be in my heart. =)
human changes, and i feel myself changing too.
dont pin too much, save urself disappointment.
dont trust guys too easily. even ur own family members.

spent quite alot this year too, not comparing to last time when im still working.
comparing to the amount of pocket money i get each month, i have been spending away almost every single cent. =/
i didnt really manage to hit my saving target this year. *disappointed*
anyway!
i cant really recall anymore stuff. =p

hmmm. coz i been thinking of another thing! =x
PLANS for 2009! XD
- enroll in my hon degree course
- my beloved family and friends to stay healthy and happy. seeing them smile makes my day!
- a trip to NY * jw are u reading it? *
- hit my saving target!
- find a part-time job
hey i still gt some other plans in mind.
but currently my mind is full of food, im hungry!
so i wil blog again later.
let me finish thanking some people first. =D

thanks to kristy =)
hey big sissy! thanks alot for all these years!
all the stuff that u did for me. im really grateful for it!
taking time out of ur busy work! making an effort to meet me , drive me around when jiewei not here le.
thanks for all the love , care and concern!
even tot we are not blood related, i felt tt i could trust u with the darkest secret of my life. =)
but , stop being such a auntie can? lol! dont be so thick skin! =p
u r already a mother! LOL!
yao you jian zhi oki?
nevertheless, i love u and thanks again!

thanks to jiewei , ada mei and bibi!
aww, our friendship could be written into a story book!
lol, those dramatic kind of stuff will always happen when im with u guys.
u guys always makes my day, start my day with a smile and end it with a smile! =D
thanks for throwing away ur prides and face sometime , just to be a clown to make me happy. =)
i wont know what to do, if u guys are nt there for me at the darkest moment in my life. =)
im really thankful to bibi and ada to come all the way down to my house void deck to keep my company when i knew the news away the lost of grandma. staying up thru the night, talking non-stop trying to make me feel better.
thanks to jiewei for being such a good sista to me! =) too bad u r guy, if nt we can jie bai le!

thanks to my familys..
i know everyone, almost everyone la, they care alot for me, they want the best for me. =) i love everyone. i will strive to be the best i can for myself and u guys. i want the best for everyone. i cannot promise , but i will try!

thanks to another group of good friend!
xf , yl , ks , hua , milo , koksiang , enying last bt nt least JOVAN! =)
its fate tt brought us together. =)
knowing u guys from childhood, school days, working days and even gaming days!
they often say , its nt easy for 2 people to be able to click so well, and im glad, we manage to click so well in such a short period of time.
i know i made some of u guys worry time to time. sorry for the troubles.
i will be strong. =)
thanks everyone!

lastly, I LOVE EVERYONE! Even if u r not mention.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
WELCOME 2009 WITH WARM HUG! A NEW YEAR A NEW START!
HOPE EVERYONE WILL BE SURROUNDED BY HAPPINESS AND JOYS, AND LESS OF PAIN AND SORROWS!
meiping || 12:08 AM

belated merry xmas! =)
24th Dec
i wasnt in town, wasnt at zouk party, nor was i at any pub , club or ktv.
instead i was at sim ming prawning with hua and co.
that's how i spent this year xmas.
there isn't the usual pick lot and xmas gift kind of outing.
or shouting of last 10 sec of xmas eve.
i was watching them playing pool when 12 strike.
i didn't stay out till the wee hours.
i went home at 1am.

thanks ada for the earring
thanks jiewei for the candy and necklaces
thanks kristy for the 'glam' bag * i doubt i wil ever use it* =x
thanks hua for the chip and dale. =)
thanks bibi for the $50 buck Kino Cash Voc.
thanks jovan for the perfume. =D
these what i got for xmas. =)
not those kind of branded exp gift compare to others.
but i feel that its more exp then those gift. =)
wad matter is the tot.
thanks everyone. thanks for the xmas greeting. and sorry if i miss ur name out.

25th Dec
anyway, went to xiaoyun chalet at changi.
met up with hua at bpp, waited for ron to pick us up.
save on the cab fares! XD
thanks ron! lol.
had bbq food, waited for baby to come with the cake.
played card games. =) lota of laughter.
hmmm. ron sent use home ard 3am.
took a nap at baby house before sending him off for work.

hmmm the rest of the week went like a flash.
dont rem anything at all! >.<
but i do rem im having my BTT tml. wish me luck again.
nights... =)
meiping || 9:44 PM

disappointments...
time after time, disappointments seems to be the only thing im getting.
fuck it. i hope it would ............
argh, nevermind forget it.
i hate myself.


It was nice to be alone,
not to have to smile and look pleased,
a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain
and let just a few tears escape.


edited =)

met kristy, dardar and kokwei on sunday.
went shopping for xmas present. =)
spent such a sum on it.
wander around in town. had dinner and kristy sent us home.
i actually forgot about what we did. ><
anyway, met milo on monday.
tried to sum up my xmas present asap.
hee. settled another 3 present. =)
after shopping around in j8. spent another 90 bucks ><
went down bpp to pass hua her present, aftermath head down to woodland for dinner and movie.
watch IP Man this time round... hmmm..
more of a guy show ya, lots of action. but its still nice! =)
met baby after the movie. slack awhile and he sent me home.

nice song..
thanks bibi for sharing.
陈嘉唯
我等的人会是谁

我的故事也许比较特别走过的路也许比较迂回
黑暗之中全凭着直觉 keep my faith watch my steps 一步步靠直觉
也许有天生命中会出现那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个mr. perfect 只要他善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁何时才出现 make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁不急在眼前 i can wait i will pray
也许有天生命中会出现那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个mr. perfect 只要他善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁何时才出现 make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁希望他了解不管迷惘或坚决都是我的某一面
我并不追求完美只要能用心体会每一天都是better day
我等的人会是谁何时才出现 make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁何时才出现陪着我一天一点让生命能变得更美
meiping || 2:15 AM

oh i forgot to thanks jie wei for the supar dupar early xmas present! =)
he sent me a box from new york 2 to 3 week ago, super early right!
anyway, thanks for the lovely hair pin and necklace!
not forgetting the big box of candy. but most of the candy melt already! most of it is out of shape. =( wanted to share with my friend... but cant.. ><
lots thanks for the effort!
do rem to study hard for ur mba over there. still waiting for NY air ticket hurhur!

anyway, had a maple guild outing today.
met hua, xiaoyun, ron , ami and ck.
the grp met earlier to have lunch.
skipped the lunch. hence i met hua at ps around 3.
then gather up with them. head down to Mind Cafe.
played 2 games, hmmm around an hr for each game.
awww! they guys cheated! LOL.
but nevertheless it is still fun. =)
aftermath had dinner at sakae and movie.
Yes Man!
always love the show by jim carrey!
aftermath home sweet home...
argh! the journey back home is sooooo boring!!! due to the fact that i split my ear piece into 2 part. lol.

xmas is coming, pocket is burning!
meiping || 1:36 AM

Tiring day~
slept at 6am in the morning and woke up at 12pm!
slept for 4hour only~
getting old le hurhur...
anyway, met baby for lunch, and he sent me home on his way to work.
was slacking all the way at home~ keke!
went out for movie at 6.
but i couldn't make it on time for woodland timing.
hence change to amk hub!
its like finally i get to watch twilight!
i completed all 4 vol of the series...
hmmm. like what most of the people say, if u like harry potter u will also like it.
and yes! i fell in love with the story. =)
waited very long for the movie, but the movie wasn't up to my expectation. >.<
but its okay la, coz they will be changing director for the next movie.
lets pray for the better!
before the show, the spoliter JIEWEI already told me not to expect too much.
lol!
thanks mr spoliter!

awww! jiewei! can u stop being such a pain in the ass?
i know u gets to watch movie before sg, but no big deal k!
HAOLIAN!


I gotta say what's on my mind
Something 'bout us Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try some how the plan
Is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
but I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
meiping || 11:47 PM

it felt as if my heart was being soaked in lemon.
lol.
i doesnt knw what it really means. but the words jus flow out.
my heart kept having a funny feeling. and i wonder whats the cause to it.
totally have no idea at all.
the feeling cant be pen down in words.

anyway, yst went malaysia (jb) with xf, hua and baby.
didnt go to many places.
just hang around city square area.
had lunch, aftermath wanted to catch movie there, but the timing aint right.
so we went down to walk around. =/
intend to get some xmas present, but none caught my eyes. sian~
anyway, xf and baby did bought some stuffs. toys~ * young at heart*
had a nice filling dinner at the back alley.
and went back to sg.
=/ we missed the timing for another movie.
hence we decided to go partyworld.
hmmm... its like a weekly stuff? been going singing almost every week.
if not it would be prawning. lol.
sang till 1am. and cab home.
stayed over at baby's hus.
had lunch the next day and home sweet home.

ohya! just collected my dip cert. finally~!
now headache time, sigh.... decidsion time. sigh.... hate it...
hope i wont regret in time to come. =)

life just gets better hurhur.
time flies~ arh! this 2 words again. =x
soo fast 2008 gonna end already.
hmmm... =/
bad bad year for me... sigh......
must be really down on my luck i guess?
lets hope for a better yr in 2009!
*cheers*
meiping || 4:01 PM

L O S T F O R W O R D S...
meiping || 2:52 AM

=)
im back from malaysia.
had a chaotic week there.
especially when u have gt like 3 kids sleeping in and another 2/3 kids popping in during the afternoon.
no peace in the house i can say.
the sound might distract the thinking, the slient.
but the emptness is always there......
the kids doesnt really related to the past and lost.
how i wish i was a kid again, having the ability to forget unhappiness so fast.
just in the flash of light.
how wonderful can life gets.
anyway, met a few friends. had a couple of drinks.
then aftermath attended a long distance cousin wedding.
in the hell when i dono even knw every single one there. -.-!
lol.
had to accompany aunt back home.
didnt really had any slp on the monday.
attended the wedding on sunday, reach home kinda of late.
slept at only going 4am.
and woosh! 6am im up. and on the bus back to sg.
intended to rest at home the rest of the day.
but on the way out to grab lunch i had the urge for book!
i went crazy somehow? i went J8, amk , TPY, thomson, yishun and finally liang count.
just to get the books.
<3

i must remind myself to get another 2 book i saw on the shelf at liang court.
=x
and i need a trip down to liang court badly ya..
i needa get a book shelf. sigh..
everything is about money.........................
meiping || 6:36 PM

im going back malaysia tml. =)

im choosing to be blind.
everything i see , i heard, i know...
i am choosing to let it go slowly....
u are not gonna bother my life anymore..
slowly bit by bit, i feeling stronger.
am having a stronger feeling that i know for sure.
im letting it go.. slowly....
so that it wil bring drop the hurt n pain to the lowest points.
thanks u for hurting me..
thanks u for treat me this bad..
thanks u for doing all these craps to let me knw u are nt the right person.
thanks u for everything...
thanks u for putting up such an act..
thanks u...
i know, there will be better people out there...

god, often let us meet a couple of wrong people first, so that when the right person comes, we will be gratful. =)

Sometimes pain
becomes such a big part of your life
that you expect it to always be there.
Because you can't remember a time in your life
when it wasn't.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only
because it's so unfamiliar.
And in that moment,
you realize you're happy.

Strange, isn’t it?
How negative stuff all seems to happen at once.
One thing piles on top of another.
But we’re resilient.
We resolve whatever it is that’s weighing us down.
And in the end,
we’re stronger.
meiping || 3:36 PM

<3
meiping || 3:22 PM

我的心好痛好痛。。。
但愿它有一天会康复，不再痛了。。。

现在我才发现小时候读的童话故事，都是虚幻而已。
我不在相信了。
世上每有天长地久，也没有永远幸福的结局。
世上根没有所谓的幸福快乐或完美的家庭。
外表看来很幸福完美，可是一点也不是。
不然也不会有人常常说“家家有本难念的经”

可能是命中注定，也可能是我的命运。
所以才会在这些环境长大。
也可能是种福气，让我早点看到现实的残酷。
好让我有所准备。
我不会怨天怨地，我也不会怨任何人。
因为还有很多比我不幸的人。
我可不是在幸灾乐祸哦！
=P

人生需要经过很多的起伏才能真正的成长。
我还在学习，还在不断的从失败中爬起。。。。。。
我会坚强的。
=）

家附近有工人在唱着他们家乡的歌谣，虽然听不懂意思，可是很温馨。=）
忽然也想起了，小时候婆婆常唱的歌。=）
meiping || 2:23 PM

i feel that im losing foucs in lots of thing recently.
sort of like my soul always seems to be in another world.
foucs , confusion , illusion...
when all these 3 elements comes to together it does an bad impact on me.
big impact somehow i guess. =/
i get into my thoughts something tt i didn bother about whats the outside world is happening.
i ponder over it somehow, but i couldn't find any answer anywhere.
well i guess it is part of growing up ya?

We all have our time machines.
Some take us back,
they're called memories.
Some take us forward,
they're called dreams.

had a happy outing with my friends.
had prawning in the morning, even tot i have to be the nanny waking everyone. but the effort pays off. but but but.... =p
anyway, aftermath had lunch near my hus coffeeshop.
took a bus down to liang court partyworld.
foc singing rocks. lol.
then head down to chomp chomp for dinner.
hmmm.. intend to head home straight after dinner.
but decided to drop by 77th street to help baby get this zippo.
chit chat abit with xf¬
i must say im really very bless to have such a nice daddy.
<3
if only i could change my mom, i would have a perfect family!
but sad to say, nth in life is perfect...
why hope so much when u knw its nt gonna happen.
wishful thinking.

we find by losing.
we hold fast by letting go.
we become something new by ceasing to be something old.
there is nothing permanent
except change.

hmmm.. once again, im blogging back about the past.
i just couldnt get the tots away from my mind.
somehow, popo just kept stayin in my mind ever since the day she left us.
why why why...
the last time i went back malaysia was during popo's 49th day.
i moment i step in..
i feel like crying so badly. but if i cry everyone will follow suit.
=( i wont want it be like this. i ran to the room lock myself.
cried and cried til i fell aslp.
i wish i could lie in popo arms, feel her warmth.
and when my uncle ask the kids, u all knw whr is tai ma?
one of them answer this, tai ma is in our heart. =)
knw how sweet it actually sound? like a smoothing melody. =)
i really must move on and stop graving over the past. its nt healthy..

Behind every beautiful thing
there is some kind of pain.

kristy sissy, when will u ever be free?
jus a couple of hours? spare it out for me?
or put it this way? i be ur client and buy ur 2 hours?
ada mei busy with work + bf + family = no time for me le.
kristy with work + work + work + work = no time for me n dar.
jw far away in NY + miles n miles apart = got time also cannot spare le.
=(

*lights off, turning in for the nite*
meiping || 12:00 AM

currently at home,
feeling sooo hungry!
im hungry, so hungry, so very hungry! =((
i smell food at home! nice smell! BUT!
sad to say, mom cooking curry fish head. ( i dont eat )

this morning went to work, as usual it ended around 1130.
aftermath met baby for lunch, bought lunch for mom.
and home sweet home.
after bathe and everything went down to FEP to meet kristy.
but, that busy woman got held up by her client!
wait an hour for her. >.hmm big sissy kristy treat me buffet at goodwood! =)
nicenice! love it! thanks sissy.
side note -
she actually bought a purple hdd casing for me ， and even bling it with purple crystal~
but tt smart alex didnt even bother to ask me about the measurement.
she actually took of the old casing and threw it away!
then she found out that it doesn't fits at all!!
now i need spend another amount of money to get a new casing.. zzzz!
and my hdd is so kelian, nt wearing any clothes. lol.


meiping || 6:53 PM

i was this special place reading, then somehow i saw this rainbow reflection beening cast onto my book. =) nicenice!





























milo been in hosptial on the 31th oct. bought this along to cheer her up. =)
hopefully she is recovering soon le!
















oo i took home the wisdom tooth. but scolded by mom =(
she said i should , nono is i MUST throw it away.
if not i wont have healthy teeth!
didnt knw there such kind of rule. =.=

anyway, was having a real bad headache earlier on.
=/
it felt like those kinda of very serious hang over.
as if i drank the whole bottle of big canon down yesterday.
but i haven touch it for quite sometime.
i couldnt find the reason to the headache..
but after taking the usual medic and have a long long nap, i felt so much better.
=(
mom didn cook my share of dinner, by the time i wake up , only left white rice..
awww. in the end had maggi for my late dinner.
then i suddenly remembered actually today i was supposed to bring dar to the clinic.
but i forgot about it! im so so so sorry kristy!

currently on the webcam with jiewei.
i miss u so much my sissy jiewei~!
hurry get a job! i want go NY!
and btw rem the LV wallet u promised k!
LOL! i will be waiting~ lalalas~
meiping || 11:31 PM

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